I now know what my biggest problem is.
I'm not congruent with my life. I am trying to be different people in different areas of my life. I am looking for a girlfriend but also want to sleep around. I want to be super fit but also enjoy being lazy. I want to do so much but waste time on the internet and so on. I am not congruent with myself and not aligned to my real wants and desires. I am being a person that I think others want me to be.
I don't really know what I want or need.
I chase girls at the wrong kind of venues for the type of girl I want
I sleep with any girl that I work on instead of being picky
I have a scarcity mentality instead of the abundance belief
Now I know what I need to work on the problem is just doing it!
I am going to intiate something I learnt on another forum.
I am going to have No Contact with any of my ex's for thirty days.
This means no texting, emailing, facebook messages, myspace emails, bebo links or anything else of that nature. I rarely speak to them but its more me checking their page and making contact that seems to fuck me up so its more of a personal challenge.
One fuck buddy may be added to this but I'm not sure as technically she is sort of like a gf but we never fully went out and we had a bit of a bust up recently. We are going to meet up and I will see how I feel about the whole thing.
Today's not been great.
Approached and tried to chat up a girl on fri night and it went ok but no action. Just nice to have a laugh and play the game again. Yet, I still feel disappointed. Again she didn't beat my ex in terms of looks, personality etc.
I have been having a bad couple of hours trying to keep busy and forget about her. I just really miss the closeness we had and how good I felt being with her and knowing it was the same for her. I still want her back and its annoying.
Just been reading www.rsdnation.com/node/143785 and learning a lot.
I have been creating a incorrect personna when out and then slipped down into a dull depressed state the next day and then changed again later on.
This has confused girls and helped to chase them away.
I need to work on having the correct personna and state 24/7