1. I made myself special by viewing me as MORE present than others. Viewing myself as a spirtual teacher or pickup guru. I also imagine myself as having MORE than others. More money, getting the better end of the deal than others. These are all lies. Also, I think of myself as smarter than others if I get better grades than someone else. I often envision myself telling others how it is and teaching people. The essence of what I truly am outweights the false projections I put upon myself so greatly, they cannot compare to my true essene.

2. I made RSD instructors like Tyler, Julien, Jlax, Ozzy, and Tim special. I idolized them and attributed values on them that I have made in my own world. What I imagine them being is not what they are. I made a false image and attatched it to them. They are not more special than anyone else. Tyler is not more valuable than any other human. Julien is not worth more than any other human. Jeffy is not cooler than any other human. Ozzy is not better than anyone else. They are all equal to me, and equal to everyone. That is not to say they aren't cool, THEY ARE. But in reality everyone is cool. They are not cooler than anyone else, they are equally as cool. They made achievements that in my reality I deem as cool, but that is not the essene of who they are. THey are not their achievements. It is wrong of me to associate their achievments and attainments with what they are. And it is wrong of me to associate their failures to what they are. They are all my equals, anyone could do what they do if they put in enough hard work and mental discipline.

3. Eckhart Tolle. I placed Eckhart Tolle on a pedestol, which is not even where he would like to be. Eckhart has been a teacher that did great things, but the great things he did could just as easily unheard of. This goes to show how precarious and absurd the notion of someone being 'special' or idolized, or higher value, or cooler, or better, or whatever-more, simply because they achieved something. Acheivements are completely irrelevant. Achievements are totally temporary and relative and ultimately meaningless. Success is just as meaningless as failure. Both have no meaning. So don't attribute value based on merit. We all rate equal merit. Eckhart has been a teacher of mine, but he is just as awesome as everyone else. He is not 'better' in anyway.

4.General Ayala/ Colonel collonaise, Capt MArtin, Gysgt's etc, all ranks- I viewed them as superior because they made more money. How wack! Even to someone who is completely unconsciosu this thought system is absurd. Rank is meaningless, just as meaningless as success and failure. They are equal, only their function differs. General Ayala is no better than Private B15. Private B15 is no better than PF Mclaughlin. PFC gutz is no better or worse than Cpl Gutz. DIsregard rank

5. Heero yui, duo, wufai (all gundam characters), goku, vegeta, etc. All these characters are fiction. Perhaps though they are just as real as ego. Is the concept of Goku really any less real than the concept of myself? Is the mental concept I hold of Wufai any more real than the concept I hold of my mom? My current thoughts are insane. Of course nthe mental concepts are just as real. The underlying awareness is different though. Wufai is unreal, and thus unspecial. All these characters are unspecial. That is not to say that the story they take part in does not have values and lessons concealed within it. Heero is a fiction. He is not special because he is not real.

6.Beauty- I believe woman who are 'hotter', or 'thinner' to be higher value. This is insane. Woman who are physically attractive are not better in any way to woman who are unattractive. They are all equal. More importantly, woman who are hot are not better than me. They are my equals. They are special, I am special. If they do not view it like that then they are living in illusion and shell suffer eventually for it. Looks are completely irrelevant and from now on mean nothing to me. what I care about is how DEEP is the other person. How whole and complete are they? How loving are they? What kind of energy do they put off? Not looks. Look is no indicator to presence so it is irrelevant. looks are a favorite booster of the ego. DOn't judge anyone positivity or negatively based on looks. Know the person. Listen to the person openly without judging. Let the self shine thrugh. look into their eyes and see yourself coming through the other end.

7. Education- I falsely believe people who are more educated are worth more. This is false. Firstly, I know people who have what would be considered 'great' educations to be emotionally unstable. Others who have promising degrees from good schools have little awareness or wisdom. Education means nothing. If you seek education out ofi nterests and enjoy the process you will get value out of it, but if you try to enhance yourself through education you are deluding yourself. I will not become any 'more' through increasing my intelligence. People who are more educated are not more intelligent neccesarily. People who are more educated are not better than the less educated. People who are more intelligent are not any better than those who are less intelligent.

8. Friendliness/dickheadedness- How someone treats another is a determiner of how much or how little they are suffering, but not of their value. Someone who treats others poorly does so because he or she is hiding fear, lonliness and sadness, I have been there. Someone who is warm and friendly is a happy person. Both these archetypes though are of equal value. Both are special in their own ways. Both are awesome. neither is special. Neither is right or wrong.

9. People who are more healthy are not worth anymore than people who are unhealthy. They may feel better, but they are not intrisically more valuable because of what they eat. That would be absurd. What someone eats is their personal choice, and not a determiner of value.

10. Someone that is treated well by others is perceived to me to be cooler. Out of all other idols, this is the most insane. Someone else being treated good by others makes them no more valuable than someone who is treated poorly. If I am treated very good by others and it appears other like me I am worth exactly the same as if nobody liked me. I used to praise those who received positive attention, or maybe even be jelous and envy them. No more. Others perceptions are irrelevant. Valuable cannot be altered. Someone liking me cannot make me special. Girls ina club liking me does not make me special. A frat boy thinking im a badass does not make me special. MY girlfriend telling me IO am special does not make me special. Dudes in a bar thinking im a icy fucking pimp does not change my specialness or value. I am not better or worse. These are all false mental projections and are true only if you believe in fear. IF you do not believe in fear they are no longer true.