Random thoughts on my last two weeks
Nice eh? It is, but I found out in the last couple of weeks that there's kissing, and then there' kissing,
1 : A make out is NOTHING. It means nothing in itself
. You can not make out with a girl and sit back and
chode out after the kiss. No, what works far better is bringing your Intent through your kiss; kiss her softly, then passionately, grope her, spin her around, kiss her nick whisper hot stuff in her ear. Doing all this versus just a plain kiss, is like a fully ignited nimbersation versus interview-style-conversation. Kissing is not a goal, it is just another way of expressing myself and shaping our interaction to my liking.
2: My aim is to lay. Does kissing help? I have had like 10-15 kisscloses in my last ten sarges. I had 1 fclose. Soo...Should i hold back on kissing and just keep building tension by other means
? I sure as fuck am beginning to think so.
3: Why do girls show so little initiative towards me when the ball is clearly in their court?
Keep in mind these are all girls that I had attraction with and kclosed + got their numbers + send a text. I'm used to girls chasing me at this point, but for some reason, they arent. I do draw a lot of attention and attraction out of nowhere for the last couple of weeks, but since this started, a lot of girls that I kclose just show no more interest/initiative. And to be clear about this, I am not whining. I am just curious as to what is going on, and how girls perceive me at this point.
4: Important one!! What is my subcomm?
When I'm confident and I want her, the message I relay through my speech and bodylangauge would be: "Sex, fun, I want to kiss you, I want to fuck you, I am the Man".
When I'm with a girl that I'm nervous with its something like this: "Do you want me? I cant see it :( I gotta keep you reacting to me, gotta keep talking, damn im not seeing any reacions I better make some..."
Definetely a lack of confidence on my part here... :( My subcomm should always be "Sex, fun, I want to kiss you, I want to fuck you". Regardless of her perceived value. Because what I can offer a girl remains the same, wether she's a 6 or my blonde dreamgirl. And it is something only I can offer. My humour, my stories, my adventures, my sex, my soul, there is only one specific brand of that and thats me. All these awesome things I offer are for real, and dont diminish because I find her special or whatever. How can I tell wether i am doing one or the other? Simple, the second one feels like i'm trying to pull something out of her while simultaneously getting sucked into her(not in a good way). Feels icky. The first one is the real one. It feels as if I have a golden fiery glow inside myself, like I'm warming myself at a campfire but the campfire is in me.
5: Being incredibly honest is MONEY
Situation: I'm walking home with my buddy and two hot girls. They are acting weird and skittish. At a certain point they tell us they never went home before with guys they only kiss in the club and thats it, so they are kinda worried. I then said: "Listen up, I can understand that you guys are worried if you never went home with two guys, so if you want to go back and call it a night I'm totally fine with that. I understand, its totally ok. And if you're worried about whats gonna happen if you decide to come back home with us, dont worry, we are nog going to jump your bones the second you enter our house. I mean, let me be honest, I think you(pointing to the prettiest) are fun and i think you're attractive and I would like to kiss you. But that doesnt mean I will or that anything else has to happen. So if you want to go, then go its cool, we can meet up another time. If you're coming along, awesome, but then I dont want anymore of this skittish weird behaviour and lets just have fun and be cool like we were in the bar, ok?"
After i had said this, the pretty one was just really taken with me i could tell. And so was I for clearing the tension by being honest and sincere.
That is all. Gonna put up an LR or FR soon.
Thnx for reading,