I went out last night and had a pretty amazing time. My hombre and I decided that we need to step-up our game. I don't want to settle for being well liked by women. Sure, sure, I can drink and talk some funny shit but in the end where does that get me. What I realized is that I have some natural pull i.e. I know how to dress, bathe, and get clean up. So I usually sense women checking me out occassionally, and so recently I have been beating myself up on the following fact that;
" I AM SURROUNDED BY BEAUTIFUL WOMEN, AND I WALK RIGHT PAST THEM, KNOWING I FEEL THE PULL AND MY DESIRE FOR THEM , AND I SIMPLY MISS ANOTHER OPPERTUNITY TO INDULGE IN WET HOT FEMMINE BEAUTY."
It honestly drives me nuts and it's hard to explain to my friends, who are like "dude, stop worrying about getting laid so much". Because I am here, in the now with power, and that I dwindle this power on things I know are not as valuable to me as the hearts and minds of beautiful women, I get down on myself and my ego. I have followed through many times, gotten luck by getting laid by some beautiful women. But eventually, after that I do not have the discipline, control, or social capabilities to maintain a relationship with the hottie. So when I walk pass the sexy little bitty, and my mind goes blank, and the silience scrapes my mind, I begin tear myself up inside. thus when I usually go out I end up drinking too much, getting high to get my mind off the fact that I am unsuccessfull with women.
Anways, this story does take a positive shift. But before the sun comes rain. Now let me talk about the bright rays of sunlight that was my night last night...
So what I wanted to do was work on Day Game. But in order to do that, I realized I need to know sober game in general. And so me and my buddy did this. The night went like this:
*Met up at my friends, put on some music, talked a little game, thought about material.
* Decided to set our opening rate to 7.
* Went to club 1. Did my Beavis and Buthead rountine to try to get hyped
* Still too relaxed.. not feeling energy.. feeling enrgy drainage.
* Get to club.. Friend and I walk up to the bar and get watter. We watch the crowd. He opens set 1 and introduces me. I talk about how football is played out, the convo goes nowhere, get cunty looks, leave.
* Go to bathroom.
* Open my 1st set, group of four, chit-chat about the bar, silent pauses, feel ready to leave, shoot darts.
* We decide to change venues.
* Swithch up, ask a mom and two daughters where the club is, we head there, run into faternity broodies, go to there place and talk for 30 min. then all 4 of us go to the pub.
* Pub is pretty full, bride and groom still dressed up in the club, walk to the patio, stand in the middle of it, we don't know what to do, were waiting for a wave of ideas to cause action in us, finally my friend opens a table of girls.
* I still stand there, dont know what to do, decide to go to the other table of girls, walk over and say, "Whats going on tonight is there music?". I relaize I opened with a question and that this was total chode. They look at me like I am crazy, I feel really uncomfortable, and say " alright ladies have a good night, and walk away".
* Walk back to my friends set. No oppertunity to jump in. I walk inside and order a water.
* I am DRAWLING BLANKS ON WHAT I SHOULD SAY, See my friend walk in and order a water at the bar. I leave to the bathroom.
* Look at myself in the mirror, splash my face with water, and then work on my face realizing I need to let go of the smiles and relax my face to look like I am void of thought.
* Walk out see my friend talking to some girls at the bar, looks really crowded, I sit back and watch him for a few, he ends up walking away and getting his shirt caught on the bar stool as he walked away.
* He is going upstairs with the broodies, I follow and tell him I am drawling blanks.
* He doesn't know what I mean so he acts out an opener in his head. I realize that I just need to be funny. I need channel my desire through my chest when I engage. I need to engage with heart, and wipe that fuckin smile off my face.
* We walk downstairs, I still think that I am gonna blank, I go outside, I see a chick looking around, and I say " You look lost let me help you find your friends".
* She looks astonished, then I realize SHE IS THE COUGAR!
Chapter 2: The Cougar
*The cougar says she is looking for her friend, I say can I help you, lets go, she says is that a line, I say no I just like to help people. She says really I said yea and say goodluck and walk over to my friends,
* I get to my friends table, no chairs open, I stand against the wall and from out of the corner of my eye I see the cougar to the patio.
* I look at her and throw my hands up. And say "Where are your friends?". she says "I cant find them". I say well I will help you find them.
The cougar sought me out. She came over to me. I begin to feel my chattiness. I begin to tone my voice, project, and direct the desire coming from my center onto her. We talk, I reiterate my story, I talk about me, I get her name. Her name is Ivana aka the Couger.
* We talk about my indergrad experince, she is professional, owns her own finacning company, I kino a little, I talk about me, and when she talks I soon grab hold of her conversation and take her in. I am in state. My desire is in harmony with my attitude, my pitch, my body language, and my frame.
* We talk, her friend went to another bar, she asks me to meet her there later, I say yes. I think she leaves.
* I want to keep to my lucky seven and I have only hit three.
* I go into the bar and reffill my water. See a cute blond with some friends so I walk up to them.
* My opener "You know I just dont see how people in this day and age still find football interesting. I mean I liked as a kid, but how many passes, and touchdowns do I have to see before I am like you know I have already seen all there is too see in football".
* The girls start talking, they ask me if I have a favorite team. I indicate I dont find football intresting anymore it now boars me.
* We keep talking and eventually there chanting about Syracuse and the blond is telling me about her schools favorite sport team. funny thing the Cougar and this blonde seperated by about 15 years both went to the same college. So I start telling her about her college and she corrects me.
* I find the girl is with friends visiting from out of town. And they have a moment of nastalgia and do a little rowing thing to describe how there friendSHIP is like a rowboat.
* I am like, "ohh I see its like a little exclusive inside joke or somethin.. I get that. me and my friends do the same thing, We call it a circle jerk, its so much fun". I make a face like I am indicating their little inside joke is a circle jerk.
*That was my in.. The girls laugh histyerically and they are like "I am so glad I found some one with a dirty sense of humor". I tell them thats what I do and then I go on into the social and intellectual reasons of why a sense of humor is so important.
* Next thing I know Cougar is back, and she walks up to me and begins talking to me about going to the next bar. I tell her I am definitely going to be checking it out. I give her a coupon for the bar. She takes it. I grap her arm and tell her I will be there in an hour or so. She exits.
* I ask the blonde set of girls if they want to go outside. I lead, and I hesitate a little then I realize I don't want to come off as hesitant so I just causally turn my eyes back and keep walking. I get out there turn around and see the lovely trio of bitties walking behind me.
*I introduce her to my friend. And she gives him her name and then I am like really, your name is Cali? She swears it is, I make fun of her parrents for being stoned when they named her, and then complimenet it because the word make me think of fun. So were talking.
*Cali's friends want leave to go back in. I keep her out there. I kino as I go into to talk about whatever I am talking about, I think it was school or work related.
* As I am doing kino, I am checking her out, and thinking to myself of how I would romatically wrap my hands around her and melt her in my arms as I tasted her lips. So I think this actually helps and girls can feel that sexual energy being built, and you can not only feel it to YOU CAN GENERATE IT.
* So I am leaning in and finally I decide that I am not going for the kiss close right there. I tell her that we are going to be leaving soon. She looks at me, and asks me, "DO YOU WANT MY NUMBER?". State jumps up again.
* I tell her that I would love it and I take it down and she says lets hangout again I say yes it was lovely meeting you cali I hope to see you again. She leans in and gives me a hug. and give her a little bit of the sexual energy I am channeling.
*She walks out, I sit down with my friend who is just chit chatting with two fatties.
* I jump in, make a few sly remmarks about pot and creativity, and cymatic healing therapies.
* My friend finishes his drink, I tell the fatty that it was nice to meet them and that they are really cool people and I hope to see them again. I give them a bar coupon. We leave.
* We get to the next bar after walking down the street doing the Chris Rock on Rap Music Act. See it below: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bcqJDDhoUlc
This kept our state up.
*We get to the next club, and see a bunch of homies. It was a purto rican dance parties with many nuggas and hoes everywhere. I am swimming in douche and thug money. I dont give a crap about it. I enjoy it and am making fun of everything. I see Cougar. She comes up to me and has some douchey jersery shore guy trying to pick her up. It was fucking hilarious.
* Anyways, so I open a few more sets. And Cougar came up to me.
* I talk to her and take her to a vip couch area and just talk to her more and try to kino esclate a little bit. I can tell that this deal is sold.
* I ask her if she wants to leave. As I leave the club I see Cali and the Fat girls have followed us to the club!!! State Boost.
* I take cougar to the next club, she buys a glass of wine, I kino hard. I get myself sexually aroused, I lean in and whisper in her ear, kiss me at the bar right now. She pulls back, gigles, and says I dont do PDA.
* I lean in harder and say look there is this piller behind you, no one can see you, give me a kiss. She give way, I lean in and receive an intense Cougar make out session. I can honestly say I have never been kissed so strongly then I have by the Cougar.
* I realize I have on more set to open. I am looking at my friend and I talk to him about going back home to debreif,. I new at this point I would be sacraficing getting laid by the Cougar but I feel that a little sacrafice can go a long way. So I give her my number, tell her to call me later because I have to run back to my friends place and pick up my backpak.
* I run to the bathroom open my last set. A real in and out, nothing special set but I wanted to stick to my numbers.
* I say goodbye to the Couger, kiss her a little bit, then we leave and notice she is kinda following me.
* We leave and on the way back to my friends place we see two girls in a car with the door open. We stop, my friend opens, and we spend 15 minutes making these girls laugh and probably made their night.
* We get back to my friends crack a 40 and talk.
* And then I get the text from the Cougar:
"Hi, I am heading home. I live in *****... A town 20 minutes away. I would love to meet your for lunch, dinner, coffee, or a drink this week. I c a pick up since youarte without a car for awhile u are here if you'd like. PSlice, feel free to contact me via phone call or text if you'ld like".
As you can see, she is covering every option to see me. She is spun form one night, one engagment, one core. I really think results are going to come down to how bad to I want it in my core. How strong is the desire I am channeling, how much sexual energy am I flowing and how I dispense it of it. finally I see my power. all through sober game.
I am doing this at least once a wk now. And hopefully with a little more practice I will be able to pull during my day game on campus, on the street, in the supermarket, in the wild. That is my goal. That is my desire!
This post has not been spellcheck.ed Each time that I read this I will try to improve it but for now I am just happy to get this shit out there because I cant brag about the Cougar anywhere elese. No regrets.