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Saturday/09.01.2010
Tonight is my drinking night. I go low on the booze though. 2 beers, 2 vodkabull, not too bad - just right. In the club i am kicking it. its just study fellas in the club, zero cold approaching possible, i know everbody. like always attraction everywhere. one super hot girl, a straight 8,5 is flirting with me. i talk with her, flirt, have a smoke, dance, lots of touching... back and forth, talk to some people, back flirting with her. i think fuck it and go for the makeout. she rejects. its cool, i keep smilng and keep talking. still lame of her i think. we go outside have another smoke. i eventually get bored of her and move on... its sometimes hard to see the dynamics but i think she has some kind of boyfriend thing going on with another guy and he was around so it might had to do with that.
another girl, my gangster girl. tonight even hotter than usual. i flirt, makeout. damn she is a good kisser, just my type. we kiss, my hands got her ass tight. we share some good 'moments', its totally on. she is there with her greek friends. i leave her for a bit, flirt some more with her and with other girls... girl from before seems to have left. gangster girl is putting her clothes on, her group is leaving. i don't feel like pushing hard, i just grab her and make out, hug her, give her some sweet talk and tell her i won't stop her. i don't cause i will have her for the next 6 month, it's on and i felt no need to rush it.
after she is gone and the other girl is gone options are slowly start to fade... one superhot girl, a 9 in looks but a fuckup in personality/maturity is into me and we have a dance and a 'moment' (nothing happens really but its kinda on). she is a bitch though, meaning her behavior is putting me off... she has 2 boyfriends by now and she is flirting around everywhere just to play, lots of breaking rapport shit from her etc. i don't like her style, somehow a turnoff... would fuck her but so much hassle with her boyfriends, her attitude and all that crap. still i should, i just don't think it would happen without having to deal with a lot of shit.
another girl, great body, nice face... we dance a bit and i have kind of a date with her tomorrow night. just me and her. i know she diggs me, she is not that kinda girl though. lets see tomorrow, maybe i can make it happen.
some friends want to take a cab, i call it a night and leave with them.
... the booze
yeah, no doubt, it lowers my criteria for amusement... man, i just feel good. and stuff just flows. i lay back and enjoy while my mouth is doing the talking for me... it spits great shit without me doing any work, no thinking stuff just keeps flowing. gotta love it.
@markzor, i agree with you, it frees me. it gives me permission. its not black/white though. i would lie if i wouldn't say i am more sexworthy drunk than sober. fuck i am the party when i am drunk. i kick ass. when i am sober i am cool too - sometimes kickass, sometimes relatively chode. it fluctuates and thats what fucks with me. but i am not thinking of myself as a chode anymore... that stuff converted into my sober daytime. stuff like callback humer, wit, managing several conversation threats at the same time, spitting stuff and just amusement and confidence in general... all this i learned a great deal drunk and it converted into my daily sober self - me.
this stuff was always there of course, but i learned to bring it out more consistently.
thank you for your input. i don't want to overanalyse it as this would actually make more an identity and a problem out of it. point is i know i am/can be cool without the booze, it just sometimes requires more work to bring it out. alcohol exactly helps me to become self forgetting.
Tonight is my drinking night. I go low on the booze though. 2 beers, 2 vodkabull, not too bad - just right. In the club i am kicking it. its just study fellas in the club, zero cold approaching possible, i know everbody. like always attraction everywhere. one super hot girl, a straight 8,5 is flirting with me. i talk with her, flirt, have a smoke, dance, lots of touching... back and forth, talk to some people, back flirting with her. i think fuck it and go for the makeout. she rejects. its cool, i keep smilng and keep talking. still lame of her i think. we go outside have another smoke. i eventually get bored of her and move on... its sometimes hard to see the dynamics but i think she has some kind of boyfriend thing going on with another guy and he was around so it might had to do with that.
another girl, my gangster girl. tonight even hotter than usual. i flirt, makeout. damn she is a good kisser, just my type. we kiss, my hands got her ass tight. we share some good 'moments', its totally on. she is there with her greek friends. i leave her for a bit, flirt some more with her and with other girls... girl from before seems to have left. gangster girl is putting her clothes on, her group is leaving. i don't feel like pushing hard, i just grab her and make out, hug her, give her some sweet talk and tell her i won't stop her. i don't cause i will have her for the next 6 month, it's on and i felt no need to rush it.
after she is gone and the other girl is gone options are slowly start to fade... one superhot girl, a 9 in looks but a fuckup in personality/maturity is into me and we have a dance and a 'moment' (nothing happens really but its kinda on). she is a bitch though, meaning her behavior is putting me off... she has 2 boyfriends by now and she is flirting around everywhere just to play, lots of breaking rapport shit from her etc. i don't like her style, somehow a turnoff... would fuck her but so much hassle with her boyfriends, her attitude and all that crap. still i should, i just don't think it would happen without having to deal with a lot of shit.
another girl, great body, nice face... we dance a bit and i have kind of a date with her tomorrow night. just me and her. i know she diggs me, she is not that kinda girl though. lets see tomorrow, maybe i can make it happen.
some friends want to take a cab, i call it a night and leave with them.
... the booze
yeah, no doubt, it lowers my criteria for amusement... man, i just feel good. and stuff just flows. i lay back and enjoy while my mouth is doing the talking for me... it spits great shit without me doing any work, no thinking stuff just keeps flowing. gotta love it.
@markzor, i agree with you, it frees me. it gives me permission. its not black/white though. i would lie if i wouldn't say i am more sexworthy drunk than sober. fuck i am the party when i am drunk. i kick ass. when i am sober i am cool too - sometimes kickass, sometimes relatively chode. it fluctuates and thats what fucks with me. but i am not thinking of myself as a chode anymore... that stuff converted into my sober daytime. stuff like callback humer, wit, managing several conversation threats at the same time, spitting stuff and just amusement and confidence in general... all this i learned a great deal drunk and it converted into my daily sober self - me.
this stuff was always there of course, but i learned to bring it out more consistently.
thank you for your input. i don't want to overanalyse it as this would actually make more an identity and a problem out of it. point is i know i am/can be cool without the booze, it just sometimes requires more work to bring it out. alcohol exactly helps me to become self forgetting.
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Sunday/24.01.2010
so 2 weeks have gone past, had ups and downs... had exams which went pretty darn good for the relativ little effort i'd put in. been going out in between, had a couple of makeouts, some good honeys on my lap and stuff.. no pull though.
lost a really hot one due to shit logistics, damn she was so fine... was a tourist also, now she is gone for good.
one big thing that i realized (earlier and now again) is that a big thing why i am not getting laid as much here is simply because i am not going in clubs enough. the bars in athens are to small... 2 hot chicks in a venue, thats 2 approaches... thats 2 hooks i get... thats a number, a good vibe, a makeout... but to get it to a lay chances are low... in a club i hit on 10 chicks until i have a winner or even before i am very aware that i have at least 10 more chicks to hit on as back up. i think my game has gotten better but in berlin i did 20-45 approaches a week... here i do 5-10. i socialize a lot, its just MUCH less cold approaching. and now i finally decided i stay 6 more month, so i have to work this out somehow.
i soo love berlin, its the number one city in europe. look forward to get back. still, i stay cause life is good, its something different, got summer coming up, some good friends to make adventures happen, travel, enough time work on my affiliate shit and finally make something happen there... good routine on eating, working out and so on.... just need to get back in some kind of 'ecosystem' routine and do more cold approaches. i am not finished with this city here
so 2 weeks have gone past, had ups and downs... had exams which went pretty darn good for the relativ little effort i'd put in. been going out in between, had a couple of makeouts, some good honeys on my lap and stuff.. no pull though.
lost a really hot one due to shit logistics, damn she was so fine... was a tourist also, now she is gone for good.
one big thing that i realized (earlier and now again) is that a big thing why i am not getting laid as much here is simply because i am not going in clubs enough. the bars in athens are to small... 2 hot chicks in a venue, thats 2 approaches... thats 2 hooks i get... thats a number, a good vibe, a makeout... but to get it to a lay chances are low... in a club i hit on 10 chicks until i have a winner or even before i am very aware that i have at least 10 more chicks to hit on as back up. i think my game has gotten better but in berlin i did 20-45 approaches a week... here i do 5-10. i socialize a lot, its just MUCH less cold approaching. and now i finally decided i stay 6 more month, so i have to work this out somehow.
i soo love berlin, its the number one city in europe. look forward to get back. still, i stay cause life is good, its something different, got summer coming up, some good friends to make adventures happen, travel, enough time work on my affiliate shit and finally make something happen there... good routine on eating, working out and so on.... just need to get back in some kind of 'ecosystem' routine and do more cold approaches. i am not finished with this city here
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Dude if your travels bring you to switzerland that would be so awesome ;)
Stop putting the booze on a pedastal =P
Man you're progress is awesome! Keep at it - I'll keep reading!
Man you're progress is awesome! Keep at it - I'll keep reading!
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hey thank you guys, its all relative and you are giving me way more credit than i deserve... one day i will truly live up to it :)
some proof i am not 'there' yet:
Tuesday/26.01.10
some privat party, social circle... it takes ages until we head out, its tuesday night so of course athens is dead by then... we find a last open bar. i meet 2 greek girls i met another time, sisters. older one i am friends with by now, not hot but good english. her younger stister is hot, problem is she doesn't speak english and i now find out she is SEVENTEEN. fuck. her older sister is actually calming me down, only 3 more month shes gonna be 18. what a good older she is lol
things get messy when a friend of mine, a girl, is getting into an argument with a greek girl. greek girl is drama queen for no reason, ridiculous. i try to calm things down, a bouncer/muscle guy is trying to impress this hot greek chick. i see all my boys to drunk to handle this, they just make it worse. i step up to the greek muscle guys (now 4 more) and they are just looking to kick my ass to 'defend the girls honor'. (what actually happened was that one of my chicks, drunk, made a pussy licking gesture to this chick... for fun! - huge offense was taken). so i got these 4 HUGE guys in front of me and my super drunk friends behind me... the guys see this opportunity to make a mess and impress the chick, they are down to fight or at least want me to piss my pants. one of the guys is having this kind of fighting stick that you can snap out... he is tapping it at my dick and threatens me... i dunno but i stayed calm, delusional, no fear... and somehow i turned it around. i remained calm and talked some sense into them... that my girl is just drunk out of her mind and that i understand its greece and there is just cultural differences about respect, it was not meant to be an offense yada yada yada
they calm down, chick calms down, they shake hands with me.... cool. i chat with the owner, he is cooling down too. but i have to say, greek guys can be real wankers, there mentality is so hot headed, reminds me of the middle east, except luckily without the shootings and bombing stuff. (to whom it may concern: sorry for stereotyping)
anyway that was my best move of the night. drama girl actually tried a second time to start a bar fight for no reason, damn bitch. but it went ok again... 2 more girls were there, hot, but i here opted for not causing further drama... they were with the owner and the guys and they still had a lot of agression in them, looking for a reason.
other stuff happened, hot girl was trying to get with me but she is already fucking a friend so i ditched her, bros before hoes style. damn it she is super hot, but no, not without his permission (not gonna happen lol)
Wednesday/27.01.2010
again private party, my social circle. flirting, vibing, good shit. its late but this time we hit a club. we get there late, get in for free cause its so late.. my new favourite wednesday venue is found!
the girls are SUPER FUCKING HOT... greek girls can be really crap but they also can be amazing if you just know where to find them -> at the upscale venues. the first girl i hit on is amazing. its loud, she is with friends, she is cold. she opens though and i talk with her but i feel it myself, i am scrambling (positive reframe: 'plowing' haha). at some minutes its just pointless, she basically tells me i am done. nice work man... but hey i tried
NEXT
the girls here are 8s and 9s and they know it. i approach some more, guys step in or i just plow/vomit some shit but at least it gets me into the grove... my 4th set is the best set of the night. super hot girl, talk to her, befriend her cousin and best friend... talk, claw, kiss of the neck, chat, flirt... going good. i would have kissed her by now but at some point her cousin stepped in and tells me to take it slow... i keep it positive and its all good. she wants to give me her number, nice. got no phone with me, i give her my facebook, we'll see...
overall i worked every hot girl i could find, it was late so only 6 girls top shelf girls. but yeah this is what i need. need this 3 times a week. good shit.
some proof i am not 'there' yet:
Tuesday/26.01.10
some privat party, social circle... it takes ages until we head out, its tuesday night so of course athens is dead by then... we find a last open bar. i meet 2 greek girls i met another time, sisters. older one i am friends with by now, not hot but good english. her younger stister is hot, problem is she doesn't speak english and i now find out she is SEVENTEEN. fuck. her older sister is actually calming me down, only 3 more month shes gonna be 18. what a good older she is lol
things get messy when a friend of mine, a girl, is getting into an argument with a greek girl. greek girl is drama queen for no reason, ridiculous. i try to calm things down, a bouncer/muscle guy is trying to impress this hot greek chick. i see all my boys to drunk to handle this, they just make it worse. i step up to the greek muscle guys (now 4 more) and they are just looking to kick my ass to 'defend the girls honor'. (what actually happened was that one of my chicks, drunk, made a pussy licking gesture to this chick... for fun! - huge offense was taken). so i got these 4 HUGE guys in front of me and my super drunk friends behind me... the guys see this opportunity to make a mess and impress the chick, they are down to fight or at least want me to piss my pants. one of the guys is having this kind of fighting stick that you can snap out... he is tapping it at my dick and threatens me... i dunno but i stayed calm, delusional, no fear... and somehow i turned it around. i remained calm and talked some sense into them... that my girl is just drunk out of her mind and that i understand its greece and there is just cultural differences about respect, it was not meant to be an offense yada yada yada
they calm down, chick calms down, they shake hands with me.... cool. i chat with the owner, he is cooling down too. but i have to say, greek guys can be real wankers, there mentality is so hot headed, reminds me of the middle east, except luckily without the shootings and bombing stuff. (to whom it may concern: sorry for stereotyping)
anyway that was my best move of the night. drama girl actually tried a second time to start a bar fight for no reason, damn bitch. but it went ok again... 2 more girls were there, hot, but i here opted for not causing further drama... they were with the owner and the guys and they still had a lot of agression in them, looking for a reason.
other stuff happened, hot girl was trying to get with me but she is already fucking a friend so i ditched her, bros before hoes style. damn it she is super hot, but no, not without his permission (not gonna happen lol)
Wednesday/27.01.2010
again private party, my social circle. flirting, vibing, good shit. its late but this time we hit a club. we get there late, get in for free cause its so late.. my new favourite wednesday venue is found!
the girls are SUPER FUCKING HOT... greek girls can be really crap but they also can be amazing if you just know where to find them -> at the upscale venues. the first girl i hit on is amazing. its loud, she is with friends, she is cold. she opens though and i talk with her but i feel it myself, i am scrambling (positive reframe: 'plowing' haha). at some minutes its just pointless, she basically tells me i am done. nice work man... but hey i tried
NEXT
the girls here are 8s and 9s and they know it. i approach some more, guys step in or i just plow/vomit some shit but at least it gets me into the grove... my 4th set is the best set of the night. super hot girl, talk to her, befriend her cousin and best friend... talk, claw, kiss of the neck, chat, flirt... going good. i would have kissed her by now but at some point her cousin stepped in and tells me to take it slow... i keep it positive and its all good. she wants to give me her number, nice. got no phone with me, i give her my facebook, we'll see...
overall i worked every hot girl i could find, it was late so only 6 girls top shelf girls. but yeah this is what i need. need this 3 times a week. good shit.
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fuck these long posts who reads that shit, lets try again
Tuesday/26.01.2010 SHORT VERSION
went out late, last open bar, diffused fight, flirted, but chickened out on 2 hot chicks.
Wednesday/27.01.2010 SHORT VERSION
went out late, to a club this time, hit on last available 6 turbo hotties, one really solid approach, textbook, still only resulted in facebook
Tuesday/26.01.2010 SHORT VERSION
went out late, last open bar, diffused fight, flirted, but chickened out on 2 hot chicks.
Wednesday/27.01.2010 SHORT VERSION
went out late, to a club this time, hit on last available 6 turbo hotties, one really solid approach, textbook, still only resulted in facebook
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i think i got some kind of insomnia thing going on... it all started when i stopped drinking. first i just couldn't sleep until the morning... now i don't even sleep until midday. wtf
i think i got some kind of insomnia thing going on... it all started when i stopped drinking. first i just couldn't sleep until the morning... now i don't even sleep until midday. wtf
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markzor
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Join Date: 11/25/2009 | Posts: 810
I thought booze just lifts some inhibitions. It frees your from limitations you yourself have put there in the first place.
And if you do not agree with that, you have two ego's. Two self-concepts. Two idea's of who you are and what you do.
One sober, One drunk. And you expect different things from your drunk-self than your sober-self.
As if your drunk self is more cool, more relaxed, more sexworthy than your sober-self, which is more chode. This is ONLY TRUE BECAUSE YOU EXPECT THIS FROM YOURSELF. And you expect this from yourself because of your self-concept. It is not the soberness that makes you chode, it is YOU HAVING A SELFCONCEPT AS CHODE WHILE SOBER that makes you chode. Pure in your head.
So you are going to act upon this self-image. Upon these expectations of your "self". If this is the case, be self-forgetting. Throw away any concept you have of yourself. This can only be done by NOT thinking about it (self forgetting), because as soon as you start to think about yourself (I am ..., I must..., I whatever) you start forming a self-concept which limits you, because you put expectations on yourself you have to live up to.
This is what it means sexworthy is not something you BECOME (a current "self" transforming into a sexworthy "self"), but already ARE... (when you just stop thinkin about your "self" - it is your default state, so don't cloud with your false self-concepts)