THE FORUMS

hey rosen, what can i say.. you're really flattering me, thanks for the probs!! i feel like right now i can't hold up to the compliment... especially since i am in athens i think i kinda suck. but still, thanks man!! and hopefully i someday have that kind of value to offer like for example 10pin in his journal...

tonight i realized my biggest problem here comes down to one thing, one thing only: the closer mindset.

Thursday/29.10.09
Because when it comes to just being social i am good. I am more than good. Privat party, i chat, i vibe, i make friends, enjoy it.... no fuck it,  i am the shit ;)
After the privat party we leave to a club. Again, i just feel good and bring the party. Warm end of the pool, giving value. not exactly a club, more a pub (free entry).

I am drunk now, because my barkeeper skillz are just too smooth. no really, i just thought i get free drinks from barkeepers in berlin, but its the 3rd time this happens to me in athens. tonights record: 2 jägermeister, 1 ouzo and 2 rakamelow for free... not to mention the drinks i got from my colleagues. i didn't pay shit but i am drunk. fuck. cool. fuck.

*to demystify this: 3 friends come to me and say they were told to leave the bar, because they won't drink anything. i say fuck this, go up to the barkeeper and call him out. how i spend 20€ already (LIE) and how all my friends are here, 10 people+ and at that moment 2 friends order shots, i point them out to him. i show how all other friends are gettin fucking wasted, so is he serious to through the other 3 people out??? all breaking rapport and flowing nonstop. he agrees. i tell him its cool, introduce myself, blablabla.....  we get to know each other and make friends. he has to get back to work. chat up some buddies of him. he brings us a round of shots. after that he drinks with me 2 more rounds... then i have my lovely 9 with me. she is still impossible to get dirty (FUUUCK), impossible to escalate! all the while she still loves me (SLUT!!!). i tell her i get free drinks here all night long, she has seen my skillz in other places...  i get us another round of shots for free to solidify my bragging. my 9 has a friend from her home country to visit. i befriend her as much as possible in the loud bar. i have fun with all my people. we all leave. i take a cab with my 9 and her friend. we split and will see tomorrow.

ps: hey paris, thx, sounds good for sure. 1-check, 2-check, 3- FAILED. the interaction was fun but not deep and i didn't make out. :-O








-----------------------------------------------------------------------
next day EDIT:

ok. so more than half of my field reports have been written drunk... i predict one day i will be so wasted that some crazy shit happens like i will accidently write my journal entry into my facebook :O

what a corny statement. but yeah i LOVE 10pins journal.

and hopefully, some day i will be banging hot sluts left and right. yeah... sounds much better.

Saturday/31.10.09
After one hour of sleep i was on an excursion trip through greece which took the whole day... got home in the evening, took a 2 hour nap and headed out. friday night i was knackered but made it, so i was hoping i could have a similar comeback this night if i just throw myself in a social situation (and have a few beers).

didn't really work. i was social and fun but the problem was simply i was completely tired and becoming sick so i couldn't truly enjoy it. we headed to some bars... i tried to get into it but i was too fucked up. i said goodbye to my folks. on the way from the bar to the main street i met about 5 groups of 10 people all welcoming me and trying to persuade me to come back to the bar... after having met 30 people wanting me to stay i thought fuck it, try one more time! back to the bar... got a beer, started dancing and chatting to people and for about 10 minutes it seemed to work. had some fun but energy was out again soon.

my personal highlight of the night: outside a group of 6 spanish friends weren't let into the bar because they were too loud and drunk. they told me they tried everything. i feel like i did this many times before and i somehow knew i could do it. i told them i handle it, went up to the bouncer "hey man how are you doing" smile and go in.... the spanish people follow, then i go "oh, hey, they belong to me", all just friendly, neutral tonality and 100% belief.. and he just lets them all in. i dunno really why (he didn't know me), but at that moment i just knew it would work. another great reference experience that i have bouncer game :)

other than that, i had some lameass approaches, got blown out or had absolutely nothing to say. a girl from my university here hit on me, as she had seen me on many parties but i never really hit on her... i would do her for sure though, she is hot. i really had nothing to give on her direct approach ("hey we never had a drink together"), so nothing sparked... i thought, damn, why do you have to approach me tonight?? on a good knight i would have banged the shit out of her (thats what i thought right there and thats what i still believe now writing this).

well, i tried enough, time to go home.

next day i was indeed very sick, 6 hours of sleep in 2 days and a day in the cold without a jacket did it for me...


@JD: hey man, i might stay here for Xmas, make sure to hit me up :)

@momooj: sounds really brilliant, i never thought of that, but i can imagine this to work really well... will try it next time for sure, thx a lot! and for the probs :)

haha I am the 'friend zone' for the first time in my life.

Wednesday/04.10.09
My 9 calls me (like almost every night) to invite me to come a small private party she is on. I get there and she introduces me to lots of people/girls... all greeks. I socialize with everybody and its cool (I am out here in Athens every single night, i mostly don't write field reports because its just purely socializing, not 'gaming').
My girl and I talk, flirt, but its fucked. I have seen about every 'player' there is here hitting on her, no one stood a chance. I have been there myself weeks ago. Since then she knows me much better and I know she likes me, but i dunno when to make a move again. She is leaving in a few weeks so I will try another time. Friend zone is new to me. Never occured to me simply because back in the day i used to be too shy to be friends with a hot girl. And now I am usually so agressive that its either on or NEXT. Don't want to give up on her though... hottest girl ever.
I talk to many guys/girls on the party, but one girl strikes me, as she is cute (the rest isn't). She is sitting in the corner the whole evening, just smoking, chilling... I had eye contact a few times with her. I am in a good social momentum (talking to 10 people + BEER) so i roll up without thinking... its on. I bust on her for sitting there the whole evening. She gets up and we flirt... Her friend comes, another greek girl I already know. I talk to em both and at this point I know I will see this girl again as she is indirectly part of a social circle here... I have friends waiting at another party, so I leave them all on a 'highnote' and get to the other party.

The other party is in a a public bar. Since the weather has gotten cold, Athens has become dead during the weekdays. I socialize again, then roll up in the bar. Only 2 hot girls here... at the DJ. I think fuck it and roll up. I talk to the girls and the DJ is really pissed. I lightly claw the one girl and the DJ snaps something at her... she tells me 'bye bye' and I am blown out. Its cool, i gave it a shot... I scan the bar, but there is nothing.

Outside my friends are getting drunk, I look around the other bars, but nothing. Time to go home.


I feel like I have all this attraction from girls but I faggot around with it instead of manning up and making it happen. Like there is a threshold, a limiting belief or something. I belief/hope once I am past this faggotry sticking point its going to be bam bam bam.