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fuck. fuck. fuck. oh boys. fuck.
Saturday/15.08.09
i got to change something.
this night was another humiliating shit night.
there is a lot of good stuff that makes my ego smile... but the night was shit nontheless.
my fuck buddies are all over me. loving me. several girls wanted to see me tonight...lots of random circumstances prevented ALL my chances to meet any of them. like one had a minor accident (27y old hot mom i fucked a few month ago), another one was into a chode, another one (HBsmoking) i texted but she never got the text because my mobile is fucked up, another one (also fucked her already) was out with her sister and i couldn't make it happen and another girl i made out with several times was with her boyfriend out. at least she tried to make me jealous.
so to make it short, i wasn't in such a bad state like yesterday but very similar... it sucks. private party first, was alright, then club. was supposed to get in for free but didn't work out. broke so i didn't go in.
this long night that didn't lead nowhere ended in a bar with a chode friend. he was on the toiled for ages, i see this hottie and it turns out he met her on the toiled and he leaves with her...
so i made this really short to not to bore you with details but trust me it was a long and kinda humiliating night..
feels shit. like rock bottom. what kind of shitty plateau is this??? i could go to missRED and fuck her right now, but fuck this... i want to get better at this, not fuck girls i already fucked.
i know its not rock bottom. but you get the feeling. i guess it's a good thing. gotta make some changes.
HERE IS MY ROUGH DRAFT FOR THE CHANGES I NEED TO DO:
1. ALCOHOL CHALLENGE:
no alcohol, no cigarettes until my goodbye party to athens. this is going to suck and its going to be hard. i will have trouble, i am alcohol dependant.
2. PRODUCTIVY CHALLENGE:
get my shit together. get a loan. get macbook. start ppc. do university essay. work my job, pay my loan. all before athens.
3. HEALTH CHALLENGE:
all comes with the alcohol challenge. lets eat fucking healthy and work out through the WHOLE week (so far hangovers prevented this...)
ITS GOING TO BE FUCKING HARD BUT I'LL TRY. LETS DO THIS
Saturday/15.08.09
i got to change something.
this night was another humiliating shit night.
there is a lot of good stuff that makes my ego smile... but the night was shit nontheless.
my fuck buddies are all over me. loving me. several girls wanted to see me tonight...lots of random circumstances prevented ALL my chances to meet any of them. like one had a minor accident (27y old hot mom i fucked a few month ago), another one was into a chode, another one (HBsmoking) i texted but she never got the text because my mobile is fucked up, another one (also fucked her already) was out with her sister and i couldn't make it happen and another girl i made out with several times was with her boyfriend out. at least she tried to make me jealous.
so to make it short, i wasn't in such a bad state like yesterday but very similar... it sucks. private party first, was alright, then club. was supposed to get in for free but didn't work out. broke so i didn't go in.
this long night that didn't lead nowhere ended in a bar with a chode friend. he was on the toiled for ages, i see this hottie and it turns out he met her on the toiled and he leaves with her...
so i made this really short to not to bore you with details but trust me it was a long and kinda humiliating night..
feels shit. like rock bottom. what kind of shitty plateau is this??? i could go to missRED and fuck her right now, but fuck this... i want to get better at this, not fuck girls i already fucked.
i know its not rock bottom. but you get the feeling. i guess it's a good thing. gotta make some changes.
HERE IS MY ROUGH DRAFT FOR THE CHANGES I NEED TO DO:
1. ALCOHOL CHALLENGE:
no alcohol, no cigarettes until my goodbye party to athens. this is going to suck and its going to be hard. i will have trouble, i am alcohol dependant.
2. PRODUCTIVY CHALLENGE:
get my shit together. get a loan. get macbook. start ppc. do university essay. work my job, pay my loan. all before athens.
3. HEALTH CHALLENGE:
all comes with the alcohol challenge. lets eat fucking healthy and work out through the WHOLE week (so far hangovers prevented this...)
ITS GOING TO BE FUCKING HARD BUT I'LL TRY. LETS DO THIS
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The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
Nothing last for long. You will own these obstacles and after them some glory times await you.
Yeah I love challenges!!!
Yeah I love challenges!!!
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Balance is good for a while. You're moving away for a bit tho right that will help...
Check this out too
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/73940
I think my rationalization was a little off but close, and the responses helped.
It fucked me up for a good month after that. I had my identity tied up intensely with how many girls I could pull. And every night I didn't I was all emotional and shit, even though I had a couple of super hotties around that I was stil hooking up with.
Nowadays, I just don't give a shit, which might not be the best response, but I don't really tie my identity up at all anymore with who I sleep with or how often. I guess it is just part of the process as you have more and more and more random hookups.
See where your priorities are at, and EXACTLY what you are looking for. And making it ACTION based, not results based.
Like I will strive for my potential, not I will strive to bang hotties every time I go out.
Also, have some fun with more chaos. I wanna see some bathroom pulls, alley sex and sex on a boat or some shit. :) Make it fun again...
Check this out too
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/73940
I think my rationalization was a little off but close, and the responses helped.
It fucked me up for a good month after that. I had my identity tied up intensely with how many girls I could pull. And every night I didn't I was all emotional and shit, even though I had a couple of super hotties around that I was stil hooking up with.
Nowadays, I just don't give a shit, which might not be the best response, but I don't really tie my identity up at all anymore with who I sleep with or how often. I guess it is just part of the process as you have more and more and more random hookups.
See where your priorities are at, and EXACTLY what you are looking for. And making it ACTION based, not results based.
Like I will strive for my potential, not I will strive to bang hotties every time I go out.
Also, have some fun with more chaos. I wanna see some bathroom pulls, alley sex and sex on a boat or some shit. :) Make it fun again...
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THANK YOU GUYS
very helpful
last days have been weird. i wasn't motivated to go out, i was going to the gym, relaxing with friends at the beach, doing some stuff (=productive)
but no matter what, gotta stick to my 3 days a week so last night i had to go.
Thursday/20.08.09
Met up with a buddy of mine. Planned to go to my favourite club, had guest list, but the selector didn't like my friend. Happened before, i wasn't surprised. So we bounced to the rock club (=less hot girls).
The last days i have been thinking about the drinking. It's hard. HARD. I decided it would be alright to have a beer or two.. Beer but nothing else. I know it's kinda lame going back... its HARD.
So we are in the club and i do my warmups, yeah. It goes nice, talking, chatting, drinking water.
After some decent warm ups - i just talk to some random guys (big, tall, damn good looking) - my friend is getting blown out by 2 girls. He joins us and these dudes mock us about how it isn't going well... BEST SET OF THE NIGHT: I enter the same set, funny thing is i know the girl randomly, so i approach her with her name. She is confused, i am warmed up, i flirt with her and the other girl.
We flirt and banter and it turns out the other girl is her MOM. her mom looks like a milf, but the daughter is way hotter. I befriend the mom, flirt with her, its going NICE. Again, its these moments where all the doubts burn away... going out 3+ nights a week makes you more socially calibrated, confident and witty.
The daughter facebook closes me in front of her mom, mom loves me, and after we had a 10 minute fun chat i eject. My buddy tells me later that these dudes went totally silent in awe. NICE
From there its some good sets and some bad sets. My buddy unfortunately is not so accustomed to going out, he is actually such a fun dude, but in a club he looks way to serious and is purely value scanning and value taking. He gets blown out most of the time, gets frustrated and drinks to compensate. At one point he comes up to me and tells me he'd rather just leave before he'll get pointlessy wasted.
(i consider introducing him into rsd material...)
So far i had about three beer and I am very happy with that. A friend comes and she is famous for heavy drinking and she is also rich and always pays for my drinks. I manage not to get any vodka redbulls but only 2 more beer... not good but not that bad.
Another great set: I approach a girl, we talk, we flirt. I befriend her friends. Her friends love me. I spend quite a while with her friends (2 girls). Then the two girls scatter out and leave us two alone. I go for the makeout, she is not open right away, but it's cake. We makeout, i check logistics. My home is closer. I pull. We go out but at the train I lose her. She tries to call her friends and says she can't leave without them. This is bullshit because her friends were down with us hooking up. She makes up her mind she has to look for her friends and has to leave with them.
I had instances where i had the girl in isolation, taking her home and where i could talk her out of that stuff. This time it didn't work. I believe i could have pulled her if 'd have waited, we find her friends, and then pull INFRONT of the friends. They loved m, they wanted me to hook up with her. i am very sure they would have vouched for me and she would have been comfortable leaving with me.
It was closing time, i went to missRED and gave her what she craved for. condom broke, never happened before, damn. but i noticed early enough.
- warm up sets are key
- taking action is what matters, not the results
- have a few beer but no moar
- this journey will not stop, there is no going back
and yeah, i would love to pull something crazy off...
very helpful
last days have been weird. i wasn't motivated to go out, i was going to the gym, relaxing with friends at the beach, doing some stuff (=productive)
but no matter what, gotta stick to my 3 days a week so last night i had to go.
Thursday/20.08.09
Met up with a buddy of mine. Planned to go to my favourite club, had guest list, but the selector didn't like my friend. Happened before, i wasn't surprised. So we bounced to the rock club (=less hot girls).
The last days i have been thinking about the drinking. It's hard. HARD. I decided it would be alright to have a beer or two.. Beer but nothing else. I know it's kinda lame going back... its HARD.
So we are in the club and i do my warmups, yeah. It goes nice, talking, chatting, drinking water.
After some decent warm ups - i just talk to some random guys (big, tall, damn good looking) - my friend is getting blown out by 2 girls. He joins us and these dudes mock us about how it isn't going well... BEST SET OF THE NIGHT: I enter the same set, funny thing is i know the girl randomly, so i approach her with her name. She is confused, i am warmed up, i flirt with her and the other girl.
We flirt and banter and it turns out the other girl is her MOM. her mom looks like a milf, but the daughter is way hotter. I befriend the mom, flirt with her, its going NICE. Again, its these moments where all the doubts burn away... going out 3+ nights a week makes you more socially calibrated, confident and witty.
The daughter facebook closes me in front of her mom, mom loves me, and after we had a 10 minute fun chat i eject. My buddy tells me later that these dudes went totally silent in awe. NICE
From there its some good sets and some bad sets. My buddy unfortunately is not so accustomed to going out, he is actually such a fun dude, but in a club he looks way to serious and is purely value scanning and value taking. He gets blown out most of the time, gets frustrated and drinks to compensate. At one point he comes up to me and tells me he'd rather just leave before he'll get pointlessy wasted.
(i consider introducing him into rsd material...)
So far i had about three beer and I am very happy with that. A friend comes and she is famous for heavy drinking and she is also rich and always pays for my drinks. I manage not to get any vodka redbulls but only 2 more beer... not good but not that bad.
Another great set: I approach a girl, we talk, we flirt. I befriend her friends. Her friends love me. I spend quite a while with her friends (2 girls). Then the two girls scatter out and leave us two alone. I go for the makeout, she is not open right away, but it's cake. We makeout, i check logistics. My home is closer. I pull. We go out but at the train I lose her. She tries to call her friends and says she can't leave without them. This is bullshit because her friends were down with us hooking up. She makes up her mind she has to look for her friends and has to leave with them.
I had instances where i had the girl in isolation, taking her home and where i could talk her out of that stuff. This time it didn't work. I believe i could have pulled her if 'd have waited, we find her friends, and then pull INFRONT of the friends. They loved m, they wanted me to hook up with her. i am very sure they would have vouched for me and she would have been comfortable leaving with me.
It was closing time, i went to missRED and gave her what she craved for. condom broke, never happened before, damn. but i noticed early enough.
- warm up sets are key
- taking action is what matters, not the results
- have a few beer but no moar
- this journey will not stop, there is no going back
and yeah, i would love to pull something crazy off...
__________________
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
Don't worry, it's coming...
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Paris Fuck Boobz: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/188236
Hot Seat 2: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218077
J-Fish Hole Too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ZxIHI9tP9E&feature=player_embedded
Quintessence of RSDN: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/176208
Facebook: http://fr-fr.facebook.com/people/Paris-BoumBoum/100002392187391
Cat: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/170468/forum
Dave7: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/167112/forum
Chrysoberyl: www.rsdnation.com/node/217507/forum
Matt281: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/102552/forum
Distant Light: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/199053
Mountaineer: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218207/forum
Hot Seat 2: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218077
J-Fish Hole Too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ZxIHI9tP9E&feature=player_embedded
Quintessence of RSDN: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/176208
Facebook: http://fr-fr.facebook.com/people/Paris-BoumBoum/100002392187391
Cat: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/170468/forum
Dave7: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/167112/forum
Chrysoberyl: www.rsdnation.com/node/217507/forum
Matt281: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/102552/forum
Distant Light: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/199053
Mountaineer: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218207/forum
taking action is what matters, not the results <------------------- KEY
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ok... PLATEAU.. so far i always knew the famous "plateau" just as a concept. There is no doubt i am on a mo**erf*cking plateau right now. It's ok. This journal will only stop if something happens to me, like a car runs me over and i'm dead... not gonna stop!
oh, btw, do you notice? i had some booze again. FUUUUUUU
(actually it's ok, i was careful and only had a little)
Friday/21.08.09
Met up with hot girls crew, fun timez, getting some booze for free, but chillin and trying to hold back on the liqor. One of my chicks has a new boyfriend, we click immediately, turns out also we know the same people in the berlin nightlife. We exchange numbers and i have a knew hot guestlist connection.
We hit a nice nice electro club, one of my favourite.
I talk to chicks, nothing too special, i think i hold back.
I vibe with some girls, warming up, have some cool reference experiences. I talk to 2 chicks, the friend is occupied by some chode, i make out with my chick. She is hot. It is early, i get her facebook and move on.
Move around, more nice talks, huge social circle around me. It keeps me busy. One of my hot chick friends sees me talking to chicks non stop and calls me the "horniest motherfucker" she knows. I like. In german we say "Ist der Ruf erst ruiniert, lebt es sich ganz ungeniert"... meaning once your reputation is ruined, you can live freely.
I talk to a lot of chicks and meet a lot of boyfriends. Most of my convos lead to nothing. At least i have fun and socialize a lot.
No bathroom pulls or anything like it, only thing i am decently consistens on right now are the makeouts....
I feel like I am honestly a cool guy that is worth to be known/kissed/fucked/yadayada... but i am stuck in some kind of plateau. I expect to fuck chicks but i don't. It's fine, I keep going, I fucked chicks that I met straight at the club before and I will do it again... with more consistency.
oh, btw, do you notice? i had some booze again. FUUUUUUU
(actually it's ok, i was careful and only had a little)
Friday/21.08.09
Met up with hot girls crew, fun timez, getting some booze for free, but chillin and trying to hold back on the liqor. One of my chicks has a new boyfriend, we click immediately, turns out also we know the same people in the berlin nightlife. We exchange numbers and i have a knew hot guestlist connection.
We hit a nice nice electro club, one of my favourite.
I talk to chicks, nothing too special, i think i hold back.
I vibe with some girls, warming up, have some cool reference experiences. I talk to 2 chicks, the friend is occupied by some chode, i make out with my chick. She is hot. It is early, i get her facebook and move on.
Move around, more nice talks, huge social circle around me. It keeps me busy. One of my hot chick friends sees me talking to chicks non stop and calls me the "horniest motherfucker" she knows. I like. In german we say "Ist der Ruf erst ruiniert, lebt es sich ganz ungeniert"... meaning once your reputation is ruined, you can live freely.
I talk to a lot of chicks and meet a lot of boyfriends. Most of my convos lead to nothing. At least i have fun and socialize a lot.
No bathroom pulls or anything like it, only thing i am decently consistens on right now are the makeouts....
I feel like I am honestly a cool guy that is worth to be known/kissed/fucked/yadayada... but i am stuck in some kind of plateau. I expect to fuck chicks but i don't. It's fine, I keep going, I fucked chicks that I met straight at the club before and I will do it again... with more consistency.
__________________
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
Are you trying to extract / venue change / bathroom pull systematically every girl you make out with, just to implement the habit and to increase your effective chances of pulling?
(This is the kind of work I will try to do in September-October)
(This is the kind of work I will try to do in September-October)
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Paris Fuck Boobz: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/188236
Hot Seat 2: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218077
J-Fish Hole Too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ZxIHI9tP9E&feature=player_embedded
Quintessence of RSDN: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/176208
Facebook: http://fr-fr.facebook.com/people/Paris-BoumBoum/100002392187391
Cat: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/170468/forum
Dave7: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/167112/forum
Chrysoberyl: www.rsdnation.com/node/217507/forum
Matt281: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/102552/forum
Distant Light: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/199053
Mountaineer: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218207/forum
Hot Seat 2: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218077
J-Fish Hole Too: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ZxIHI9tP9E&feature=player_embedded
Quintessence of RSDN: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/176208
Facebook: http://fr-fr.facebook.com/people/Paris-BoumBoum/100002392187391
Cat: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/170468/forum
Dave7: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/167112/forum
Chrysoberyl: www.rsdnation.com/node/217507/forum
Matt281: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/102552/forum
Distant Light: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/199053
Mountaineer: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/218207/forum
Saturday/22.08.09
Very small private party, host girl is the only person i know. I vibe and meet cool people... having some social skills rocks.
I go to a posh club. I party, I have fun, I vibe with people, I meet people... i hold back. I get blown out by a few girls, i feel as if it's pointless to approach them... L A M E. I approach but I often hesitate, afraid that i lose state. So crap, I hadn't had these worries since bootcamp.
Rightnow everything is kinda going backwards. Where I still see massive results though is in warm interactions. So much easier to vibe, control voice tonality and to lead the conversation.
@Paris Boom Boom: ABout every girl i makeout with is a girl i also want to fuck. It's just that right now I am not really believing it... But I trust that if I just keep going, eventually I will get back to where I was before and beyond.
Very small private party, host girl is the only person i know. I vibe and meet cool people... having some social skills rocks.
I go to a posh club. I party, I have fun, I vibe with people, I meet people... i hold back. I get blown out by a few girls, i feel as if it's pointless to approach them... L A M E. I approach but I often hesitate, afraid that i lose state. So crap, I hadn't had these worries since bootcamp.
Rightnow everything is kinda going backwards. Where I still see massive results though is in warm interactions. So much easier to vibe, control voice tonality and to lead the conversation.
@Paris Boom Boom: ABout every girl i makeout with is a girl i also want to fuck. It's just that right now I am not really believing it... But I trust that if I just keep going, eventually I will get back to where I was before and beyond.
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The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
Pilgrimage2012
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Join Date: 12/31/2008 | Posts: 938
Friday/14.08.09
i don't know what the fuck was going on but this night i felt so out of place it was unbelievable... i talked to people, talked to girls and even had some really cool conversations... but i felt so misplaced, so out of order, so chode, so NON WOOO... i am amazed.
there is stuff to write about, but fuck it, just N E X T
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com