THE FORUMS
just came back from the club. almost sober and a slightly frustrated. went out wednesday and thursday. actually not really shit nights, more ok nights, but then again they were more shit nights, because i didn't pushed enough. it's like, i was doing ok, i approached but i see that i still suck in many ways and i feel like i didn't to enough to really change that...
Wednesday/21.01.09
too scared to go out alone. have to do it at one point though... anyway, waited for a friend and because he had to work late, we arrived at the club at 1 o'clock. it was quite empty. had a half hearted approach at the bar. then i saw a chick on the other side of the bar. decided i have to approach her. when i had my drink i went over, she was talking to a guy and i cut in. asked if he was her boyfriend. no. i told her i need to talk to her because she's cute. lead her to the side of the bar. had a great convo, joking and teasing. clawed but didn't escalate further. got her facebook. then went back to my friend.
i was in a pretty good state and i noticed that girls where checking me out. funny stuff happened. like by accident i slapped a girls ass while i was dancing and appologized with a big smile and she just stretched her arse to me signaling to slap it again. which i did sure hehe. but she wasn't really hot, if i was drunk...maybe. but i was quite sober. which changed by the way, because even though i had a great time and some good convo with some girls, my friend was not really having much fun and he kept bringing us drinks (it was a buy1/get2 night) so yeah i got a little drunk...
so nothing much happened. did max 10 approaches. some where ok, some blowouts and 2 good ones... so it was a really unspectacular night. good thing was, i was in a great mood, dancing was fun, was able to cheer my friend up and had girls checking me out and i enjoyed the validation... lame but true.
Thursday/22.01.09
was on guestlist for one of the best clubs of berlin, by far the hottest girls and the hardest competition... again i was waiting for another friend to come along... he brought some girls from university. one was pretty hot and she checked me out immediately. i knew she was taboo, because he was into her and he had a good chance of hooking up. the other girls where ok...
i wasn't in state at all. the night before i enjoyed dancing so much, this night i didn't feel anything. the girls still responded ok/nice. had some chat here and there but it didn't lead anywhere... i felt just lame. a lot of people i know happened to be at the place, so i got approached often and it was cool to see that the people where so happy/excited to see me. but still i was in a really chill state, i felt emotionless, dead. it was weird. i had some good interactions though.
met a girl who i knew from my chode days and havn't seen her in years. had a great talk, lead her around the club, befriended her friends, went all pretty good, even without much state. lot's of touching. she declined the kiss though. she tells me about her boyfriend, they'll move together next week... still lot's of touching, her friends keep an eye on her, but they are cool and they still like me. i talk some more and it's fun but i have no further intention because of the combination, she is no stranger to me + has a boyfriend.
my friend likes coke, i think he had some. or maybe he is just in a good state, didn't bother to ask. he is having a great time with the girl, at the end of the night he gets a cab with her, she is DTF and thats what i think they are doing right now, while i write this report.... which is a bit frustrating in a way...
i am happy that so far i am taking right action. i study for my exams, i eat healthy, i work out every day, i'll go out 3 times a week, maybe even 4 and it feels very good to know that you are taking right action.
but at the same time i am frustrated. even though i do approach in the club, i need to approach harder. and with less hesitation. and i am very hesitant to go out solo. it would force me to approach hardcore. on the weekend i have to many options to party with different friends and thats ok, but during the week i could go solo... i am very afraid of that, but when nobody joins me, i'll go out solo.
btw.: bootcamp in april
so till then i stick to the plan, i'll go out at least 3 times a week and hopefully my nights will become more adventurous as the weeks progress...
Wednesday/21.01.09
too scared to go out alone. have to do it at one point though... anyway, waited for a friend and because he had to work late, we arrived at the club at 1 o'clock. it was quite empty. had a half hearted approach at the bar. then i saw a chick on the other side of the bar. decided i have to approach her. when i had my drink i went over, she was talking to a guy and i cut in. asked if he was her boyfriend. no. i told her i need to talk to her because she's cute. lead her to the side of the bar. had a great convo, joking and teasing. clawed but didn't escalate further. got her facebook. then went back to my friend.
i was in a pretty good state and i noticed that girls where checking me out. funny stuff happened. like by accident i slapped a girls ass while i was dancing and appologized with a big smile and she just stretched her arse to me signaling to slap it again. which i did sure hehe. but she wasn't really hot, if i was drunk...maybe. but i was quite sober. which changed by the way, because even though i had a great time and some good convo with some girls, my friend was not really having much fun and he kept bringing us drinks (it was a buy1/get2 night) so yeah i got a little drunk...
so nothing much happened. did max 10 approaches. some where ok, some blowouts and 2 good ones... so it was a really unspectacular night. good thing was, i was in a great mood, dancing was fun, was able to cheer my friend up and had girls checking me out and i enjoyed the validation... lame but true.
Thursday/22.01.09
was on guestlist for one of the best clubs of berlin, by far the hottest girls and the hardest competition... again i was waiting for another friend to come along... he brought some girls from university. one was pretty hot and she checked me out immediately. i knew she was taboo, because he was into her and he had a good chance of hooking up. the other girls where ok...
i wasn't in state at all. the night before i enjoyed dancing so much, this night i didn't feel anything. the girls still responded ok/nice. had some chat here and there but it didn't lead anywhere... i felt just lame. a lot of people i know happened to be at the place, so i got approached often and it was cool to see that the people where so happy/excited to see me. but still i was in a really chill state, i felt emotionless, dead. it was weird. i had some good interactions though.
met a girl who i knew from my chode days and havn't seen her in years. had a great talk, lead her around the club, befriended her friends, went all pretty good, even without much state. lot's of touching. she declined the kiss though. she tells me about her boyfriend, they'll move together next week... still lot's of touching, her friends keep an eye on her, but they are cool and they still like me. i talk some more and it's fun but i have no further intention because of the combination, she is no stranger to me + has a boyfriend.
my friend likes coke, i think he had some. or maybe he is just in a good state, didn't bother to ask. he is having a great time with the girl, at the end of the night he gets a cab with her, she is DTF and thats what i think they are doing right now, while i write this report.... which is a bit frustrating in a way...
i am happy that so far i am taking right action. i study for my exams, i eat healthy, i work out every day, i'll go out 3 times a week, maybe even 4 and it feels very good to know that you are taking right action.
but at the same time i am frustrated. even though i do approach in the club, i need to approach harder. and with less hesitation. and i am very hesitant to go out solo. it would force me to approach hardcore. on the weekend i have to many options to party with different friends and thats ok, but during the week i could go solo... i am very afraid of that, but when nobody joins me, i'll go out solo.
btw.: bootcamp in april
so till then i stick to the plan, i'll go out at least 3 times a week and hopefully my nights will become more adventurous as the weeks progress...
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I am confused about something last night. Every girl i approached responded well. I can't remember a single blowout.
So everytime i was talking to a girl the girl was responsive, but i just felt lame, didn't know what to do and ejected.
It is weird because usually when i am not in state it is more like i act lame, they notice i am lame, which further reinforces to me: fuck this is lame. -> i eject.
yesterday it felt to me, as if they didn't notice i feel lame. they expected more to come, but internally i felt chode and left. and even with the girls i had a cool chat with, i didn't lose that internal chode feeling...
chode state all night.
EDIT: i remember last night i only approached 7s and 8s. i remember how i felt like the 9s were just to high above me... i need to change this pedestal shit. best way to change it is to approach anyway...
i'll push myself tonight.
So everytime i was talking to a girl the girl was responsive, but i just felt lame, didn't know what to do and ejected.
It is weird because usually when i am not in state it is more like i act lame, they notice i am lame, which further reinforces to me: fuck this is lame. -> i eject.
yesterday it felt to me, as if they didn't notice i feel lame. they expected more to come, but internally i felt chode and left. and even with the girls i had a cool chat with, i didn't lose that internal chode feeling...
chode state all night.
EDIT: i remember last night i only approached 7s and 8s. i remember how i felt like the 9s were just to high above me... i need to change this pedestal shit. best way to change it is to approach anyway...
i'll push myself tonight.
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haha fuck yeah. had a good night! didn't get laid though. when i am writing a report straight after coming home it means 2 things: i arrived home pretty much sober and definetely solo 
Friday/23.01.09
it was a good night. i started out at my sisters boyfriend place. was too early so it was about 7 dudes i only met a few times before and me. we had a great time together and i was totally accepted by the group. felt great. my sister came with another girl and another girl arrived there too. she was cute. i felt she was a bit into me, but i chilled and it was the right thing to do. we played nintendo wii and i had a 2 beers. we had great fun. everybody stayed but i had a mission so i had to leave
i was in a great mood. wednesday and this time again! i was on my way to meet my other buddies and on the way i just felt amazing. a warm feeling inside me, good mood, in the now. approached a couple at the train station and we had lots of fun till they had to leave the train. my boys where drunk. went to this cool club, i knew we probably would get trouble getting in. the bouncer was like "hey, what you guys want?". i felt he didn't like the group. i had 2 beers, so i was sober + i was in a great mood. i answered something, doesn't matter what and can't remember, me and him just felt the great mood i was in and he let us all pass.
inside i was eyefucking every girl and no girl was above me or anything of that pedestral shit! i approached every girl i liked. no initial blow outs:
- there was a really cute girl, she responded well, but i didn't know where to lead the convo and got somehow stuck at how this hot she is...how i can't have normal convo with her... etc. i truly felt like that, it came off chody though, but only because it is outside my reality to talk to really hot girls like her... convo went downhill, but fuck it, it was ok .
- there was this super hot blonde, we had great convo, claw, fun - she was married. still great fun, wasn't gonna happen, she loved me though...
she was absolutely gorgeous and it was cool to have such a good vibe with this 9. through the night she watched and smiled at me as i was talking to girls.
- some more sets, mixed sets, guys that were cool, girls, it was all cool... but nothing more than eyefucking, flirting and the claw...
- one girl, quite hot, walked past me at the bar. i didn't hesitate and grapped her arm and pulled her towards me. she stared at me. i told her she was hot, i want to meet her. kissed her on the cheek. it was too much... i could tell she liked it, but she went on. i talked to my buddies who waited for their order, and she was at the till to pay her drinks. she kept eye fucking me.
i approached her again. she was cool. i led her to a couch. we talked. her friends came by, i talked to them too. it was cool. but she kept testing me, lots of shit test and hard to get frame. i called her out on it several times and asked wtf is up with her.
i liked her + it was late, so i concentrated on her. my buddies left. we had really cool conversation, but my kino was dismissed everytime, even though she liked it. it was confusing.. told her lets go, get a beer somewhere else... she accepted immediately.
getting the jacked, i met her friend again. she liked me for sure. she told me: "i leave you with her, but take good care of her and don't do anything stupid. the bouncers remembered your face, you better be nice!"
i was cool with it, i am a truly nice guy, so nothing to worry about. and loved the place so if the bouncers really remember me: cool
i left with her, we got into a cab but in there she totally froze up. almost impossible to cheer her up. offered to let her out. was confusing. at the bar we got a beer and she explained how her boyfriend dumped her 2 days ago. and he had beaten her and shit. i could tell she was still very much in love with him, she started to cry and shit.
97% of my thoughts about me fucking her were discarded. i was the nice guy that talked to her and gave her good advice. then the bar closed and we got her a cab to drive home...
the ending sucks, but i had a great night. even though nothing happened really, i approached about every hot girl i saw and had great convos.
claw is no problem, further escalating from there is.
Friday/23.01.09
it was a good night. i started out at my sisters boyfriend place. was too early so it was about 7 dudes i only met a few times before and me. we had a great time together and i was totally accepted by the group. felt great. my sister came with another girl and another girl arrived there too. she was cute. i felt she was a bit into me, but i chilled and it was the right thing to do. we played nintendo wii and i had a 2 beers. we had great fun. everybody stayed but i had a mission so i had to leave
i was in a great mood. wednesday and this time again! i was on my way to meet my other buddies and on the way i just felt amazing. a warm feeling inside me, good mood, in the now. approached a couple at the train station and we had lots of fun till they had to leave the train. my boys where drunk. went to this cool club, i knew we probably would get trouble getting in. the bouncer was like "hey, what you guys want?". i felt he didn't like the group. i had 2 beers, so i was sober + i was in a great mood. i answered something, doesn't matter what and can't remember, me and him just felt the great mood i was in and he let us all pass.
inside i was eyefucking every girl and no girl was above me or anything of that pedestral shit! i approached every girl i liked. no initial blow outs:
- there was a really cute girl, she responded well, but i didn't know where to lead the convo and got somehow stuck at how this hot she is...how i can't have normal convo with her... etc. i truly felt like that, it came off chody though, but only because it is outside my reality to talk to really hot girls like her... convo went downhill, but fuck it, it was ok .
- there was this super hot blonde, we had great convo, claw, fun - she was married. still great fun, wasn't gonna happen, she loved me though...
she was absolutely gorgeous and it was cool to have such a good vibe with this 9. through the night she watched and smiled at me as i was talking to girls.
- some more sets, mixed sets, guys that were cool, girls, it was all cool... but nothing more than eyefucking, flirting and the claw...
- one girl, quite hot, walked past me at the bar. i didn't hesitate and grapped her arm and pulled her towards me. she stared at me. i told her she was hot, i want to meet her. kissed her on the cheek. it was too much... i could tell she liked it, but she went on. i talked to my buddies who waited for their order, and she was at the till to pay her drinks. she kept eye fucking me.
i approached her again. she was cool. i led her to a couch. we talked. her friends came by, i talked to them too. it was cool. but she kept testing me, lots of shit test and hard to get frame. i called her out on it several times and asked wtf is up with her.
i liked her + it was late, so i concentrated on her. my buddies left. we had really cool conversation, but my kino was dismissed everytime, even though she liked it. it was confusing.. told her lets go, get a beer somewhere else... she accepted immediately.
getting the jacked, i met her friend again. she liked me for sure. she told me: "i leave you with her, but take good care of her and don't do anything stupid. the bouncers remembered your face, you better be nice!"
i was cool with it, i am a truly nice guy, so nothing to worry about. and loved the place so if the bouncers really remember me: cool
i left with her, we got into a cab but in there she totally froze up. almost impossible to cheer her up. offered to let her out. was confusing. at the bar we got a beer and she explained how her boyfriend dumped her 2 days ago. and he had beaten her and shit. i could tell she was still very much in love with him, she started to cry and shit.
97% of my thoughts about me fucking her were discarded. i was the nice guy that talked to her and gave her good advice. then the bar closed and we got her a cab to drive home...
the ending sucks, but i had a great night. even though nothing happened really, i approached about every hot girl i saw and had great convos.
claw is no problem, further escalating from there is.
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last night, i was in such a great mood, it was pure value giving. i enjoyed every single conversation and made so many people lough and smile. i clawed hardcore as well.
whats the next step? in the past i was usually drunk and escalation was automatic. i guess best would be to lead the girl around to a wall or something, maybe do this wall slam thing and make out.... could be to much though. anyone reading this, advice on this is much appreciated.
whats the next step? in the past i was usually drunk and escalation was automatic. i guess best would be to lead the girl around to a wall or something, maybe do this wall slam thing and make out.... could be to much though. anyone reading this, advice on this is much appreciated.
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Saturday/24.01.09
Not satisfied with this night. Did some approaches but wasn't really commited i guess, didn't hook any sets. Later i met an kindergarten friend i havn't seen in years and we just got wasted and it was fun. Lots of stuff happened this night, like was with some girls who did coke and invited me (declined), a guy wanted to fight me for hitting on his girlfriend, met shitloads of old friends some i havn't seen in years, was partying till 8 o'clock in the morning... But i got wasted. It feels like all this stuff didn' happen and this night did nothing for improving.
Review week one
+ I went out 4 times.
+ I approached lets say 40 girls and had some great interactions.
+ I had chances for lays.
+ I had 2 really fun nights.
- I started all my nights at 12 o'clock because I waited for my buddies. This means less time, less girls, less growth.
- I got drunk
- not even makeouts???
- didn't pushed myself hard enough
Lessons for next week:
I have to start my nights earlier. I have to escalate more. Push myself and take risks. And watch the alkohol.
Seriously, for the first time, i really think and feel it is possible. I'll stick to the process and I will get better at this.
Not satisfied with this night. Did some approaches but wasn't really commited i guess, didn't hook any sets. Later i met an kindergarten friend i havn't seen in years and we just got wasted and it was fun. Lots of stuff happened this night, like was with some girls who did coke and invited me (declined), a guy wanted to fight me for hitting on his girlfriend, met shitloads of old friends some i havn't seen in years, was partying till 8 o'clock in the morning... But i got wasted. It feels like all this stuff didn' happen and this night did nothing for improving.
Review week one
+ I went out 4 times.
+ I approached lets say 40 girls and had some great interactions.
+ I had chances for lays.
+ I had 2 really fun nights.
- I started all my nights at 12 o'clock because I waited for my buddies. This means less time, less girls, less growth.
- I got drunk
- not even makeouts???
- didn't pushed myself hard enough
Lessons for next week:
I have to start my nights earlier. I have to escalate more. Push myself and take risks. And watch the alkohol.
Seriously, for the first time, i really think and feel it is possible. I'll stick to the process and I will get better at this.
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wow. i am tired but can't sleep because i can't stop thinking about it. the process and the progress i want to make.
it was never like this before. so intense. i feel like it really is going to be a turning point. i want this shit handled. i don't give a shit if my grades are going to suck at university, i want to get good with girls, want to be comfortable in my own skin, want to live life as an adventure.
getting good at this is now my priority. i don't want to dabble at this. this is too important. i have exams soon, but fuck it i want to go out as much as i can afford it.
i want to go out and at the same time i am afraid of going out. because i give the night so much meaning. i am afraid of having a chode night and not stepping up.
so i try to tell myself, just go, fuck it, if this night sucks, there is always another night and another nightt and another one! because you will keep going out, you will do this.
i'll be going out 3-4 nights a week and i like the thougt of amping it up to 4-5 nights.
even if you don't have an abundance of women right now, what you do have is an abundance of nights to go out and learn this shit!
can't wait to go out next wednesday and i am happy i am so motivated. bed time now. next week i'll make myself proud.
it was never like this before. so intense. i feel like it really is going to be a turning point. i want this shit handled. i don't give a shit if my grades are going to suck at university, i want to get good with girls, want to be comfortable in my own skin, want to live life as an adventure.
getting good at this is now my priority. i don't want to dabble at this. this is too important. i have exams soon, but fuck it i want to go out as much as i can afford it.
i want to go out and at the same time i am afraid of going out. because i give the night so much meaning. i am afraid of having a chode night and not stepping up.
so i try to tell myself, just go, fuck it, if this night sucks, there is always another night and another nightt and another one! because you will keep going out, you will do this.
i'll be going out 3-4 nights a week and i like the thougt of amping it up to 4-5 nights.
even if you don't have an abundance of women right now, what you do have is an abundance of nights to go out and learn this shit!
can't wait to go out next wednesday and i am happy i am so motivated. bed time now. next week i'll make myself proud.
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Week 2 has started. Fuck university tomorrow, couldn't stay in the house.
Monday/26.01.2009
Went to club at 12 o'clock with 2 buddies and a girl. Choded around for the first hour. I was angry at myself. Downed 3 Gin Tonic. Fuck, but i needed it.
But then, slightly buzzed, i got to work. I approached probably 15 girls. They pretty much all opened well. It is really cool, I am still surprised that the girls all open so well. There was a time, when girls never opened!! So I am doing something right at least with opening...
Hooking was trouble as usual. It is cool to realize that the girls are happy that I approached them. That they don't think of themselves as higher value. But to me, the really hot ones are, and even though I have the approach down well enough, it shows then, when I struggle to hook...
I have them for a minute, then I lose them. Compared to back in the day: this is progress. Now I have to learn to stay relaxed and cool, but I am sure this will happen if I just keep approaching...
I don't use lines. I try to go full natural and say whats on my mind. I like it. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.
What I think was a good indicator that I come of well on my approach was that the female friends never cockblocked, instead the girls seemed to be on my side.
One girl was suddenly left alone, I had a good interaction, my best I would say. Pressed her at a wall (was to gentle to call it a "wall-slam"), held her real tight and she liked it. Talked for 3 minutes, while clawing and touching her. She liked it, but when I went for the makeout she didn't want to. I think she notized I was hesitant... Then tried the "I am sad" thing. We kissed many times on the cheeks, but make-out wasn't to go down... Didn't know what to do, lost her at some point. I know, If I had more skill, I could have fucked her.
There were some other hot girls I approached, again, the first Minute was pretty good, then it went downhill...
One girl I was reapproaching again and again because she was so damn cute! The first time even her female friend was telling me I should approach her again. I did and every time it went ok, but I couldn't really create sexual tension... Got her facebook. Checked just now, her name was real. Her face is amazing. Unfortunately, my facebook messages pretty much always stay unanswered, no matter how I text. Something sucks about my online communication/profile + it is not solid in the first hand... I'll write her anyway, but I don't expect a day2.
One crap thing happened. I befriended some really cool english guys, really liked them. They introduced me to their girls, giving me genuine probs, how I am a really cool guy. They wanted to hook me up. I talked to the girls, but it wasn't on. One of the girls I talked to was really cute. But the convo was really boring. I knew I had to spice it up. Here it got fucked up: While talking to her, her hand accidently touched my cock. I immediately called her out, misinterpretation style, like "don't touch my cock" in a fun way. Guess it was totally not calibrated. She freaked out. Tried to cool it down, but she left. Later I met her and the cool english guys and she was complaining to them how I am a total weirdo, how i had called her a slag and taken her hand to my cock.... Totally not true. This made me mad, i couldn't clear the situation, the english guys didn't know what to believe but it was definetly not cool anymore.
It still annoys me, the guys and me really clicked, then the girl lied and it got fucked up. Defending myself and shit...
I approached some more, but wasn't too lucky after this. Got the cuties facebook then we all left soon.
But I am happy. I went out and approached. I have this week left and will go out as much as I can, then I have to reduce going out for a month because I have 5 exams and have to learn hardcore... But I'll do my best to stick to 3x per week
Monday/26.01.2009
Went to club at 12 o'clock with 2 buddies and a girl. Choded around for the first hour. I was angry at myself. Downed 3 Gin Tonic. Fuck, but i needed it.
But then, slightly buzzed, i got to work. I approached probably 15 girls. They pretty much all opened well. It is really cool, I am still surprised that the girls all open so well. There was a time, when girls never opened!! So I am doing something right at least with opening...
Hooking was trouble as usual. It is cool to realize that the girls are happy that I approached them. That they don't think of themselves as higher value. But to me, the really hot ones are, and even though I have the approach down well enough, it shows then, when I struggle to hook...
I have them for a minute, then I lose them. Compared to back in the day: this is progress. Now I have to learn to stay relaxed and cool, but I am sure this will happen if I just keep approaching...
I don't use lines. I try to go full natural and say whats on my mind. I like it. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't.
What I think was a good indicator that I come of well on my approach was that the female friends never cockblocked, instead the girls seemed to be on my side.
One girl was suddenly left alone, I had a good interaction, my best I would say. Pressed her at a wall (was to gentle to call it a "wall-slam"), held her real tight and she liked it. Talked for 3 minutes, while clawing and touching her. She liked it, but when I went for the makeout she didn't want to. I think she notized I was hesitant... Then tried the "I am sad" thing. We kissed many times on the cheeks, but make-out wasn't to go down... Didn't know what to do, lost her at some point. I know, If I had more skill, I could have fucked her.
There were some other hot girls I approached, again, the first Minute was pretty good, then it went downhill...
One girl I was reapproaching again and again because she was so damn cute! The first time even her female friend was telling me I should approach her again. I did and every time it went ok, but I couldn't really create sexual tension... Got her facebook. Checked just now, her name was real. Her face is amazing. Unfortunately, my facebook messages pretty much always stay unanswered, no matter how I text. Something sucks about my online communication/profile + it is not solid in the first hand... I'll write her anyway, but I don't expect a day2.
One crap thing happened. I befriended some really cool english guys, really liked them. They introduced me to their girls, giving me genuine probs, how I am a really cool guy. They wanted to hook me up. I talked to the girls, but it wasn't on. One of the girls I talked to was really cute. But the convo was really boring. I knew I had to spice it up. Here it got fucked up: While talking to her, her hand accidently touched my cock. I immediately called her out, misinterpretation style, like "don't touch my cock" in a fun way. Guess it was totally not calibrated. She freaked out. Tried to cool it down, but she left. Later I met her and the cool english guys and she was complaining to them how I am a total weirdo, how i had called her a slag and taken her hand to my cock.... Totally not true. This made me mad, i couldn't clear the situation, the english guys didn't know what to believe but it was definetly not cool anymore.
It still annoys me, the guys and me really clicked, then the girl lied and it got fucked up. Defending myself and shit...
I approached some more, but wasn't too lucky after this. Got the cuties facebook then we all left soon.
But I am happy. I went out and approached. I have this week left and will go out as much as I can, then I have to reduce going out for a month because I have 5 exams and have to learn hardcore... But I'll do my best to stick to 3x per week
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Tuesday/28.01.09
I am not too happy about this night, because I did very few approaches and in the end I was drunk.
I arrived late, the club was empty. Was there with a female friend. I danced a lot and she bought drinks. Dancing was fun and we rocked floor. People where looking. Girls where dancing close to me. I approached the hottest girl I saw, talked to her, clawed her. She had some weird dude who was standing next to her. I asked if he is her boyfriend. No, a friend. I told her, she is cute and I want to get to know her in a bit. Told her, before, I had to look for my friend.
My female friend is great, we both know we want to meet someone to fuck. No judgement between us. There is this guy she has something going on with. We're cool with each other. He buys us tequila shots... can't resist.
I see the girl again, grab her and take her to the bar. We talk, I claw. She buys a shot. Downs it. I call her out on it, for drinking it alone. We order another round. Till here it's cool.
Then the creepy guy cuts in again (I introduced myself earlier to him, he acted nice to me, but i could tell he totally hated me). Orders a shot too. We drink.
Then he is just standing there. Giving no input, only sucking value. Or better: amoging me, making the situation weird. I should have continued with whatever, but I thought if I just wait a moment, he'll just leave because it's awkward. Mistaken. They both leave, she wants to dance, I grab her arm, pull her back to me. I think here I finally fucked up. She liked it, when i pulled her in. I should have continued with dominance, say something sexual, makeout, whatever. But I just said, I want her to stay, I want to get to know her... Boring comeback. She sais, she is here to dance and leaves.
I go talk to another chick, she was into me and we had a good convo, claw as usual. But there was something about her that I didn't like, reminded me of some drug chick, turned me off.
I go back to the dancefloor, club is slowly getting empty, dance with my friend. The girl from the bar was there dancing. I felt blown out and like I had nothing to say to her anymore. I just didn't feel I could go sexual on her... even though that might have been the solution.
She sat down at some place, my female friend and me decided to leave. I approached her again, clawed. The weird orbiter dude was there too, took him like 5 seconds. He was such a gay orbiter dude. While clawing, I pulled her close to me and asked her if he was gay, he wasn't. I told her he was totally into her, it was obvious. He knew we were talking about him. Maybe at that point, I should have just gone for the makeout. Closer mentality. I didn't. He was creeping me out, I just couldn't stand his ugly face next to me. I told her, what a wanker her friend is. And she didn't felt offended which was interesting. I hugged her and wished her a good night.
My female friend wanted to leave and I was done too, so we left.
I thought this journal would help me to stick to my commitment and I believe it does, but I see now, it also makes you reflect each night and you get a clearer picture of where you're at.
My sticking point now so obvious. I think my approach is pretty confident, I trust that it will open, and it does. Girls like to be opened by me.
I just feel like I can't back it up. I don't know what to talk about in a club and my escalation is shit. What's cool is, I am really comfortable with clawing. But I don't know where to take it from there. I think I should just go for the make out. I don't do it because it feels like she won't do it. I should do anyway. Something I did a while back last year.
And for the convo, i think this will autocorrect if I just keep at it.
Oh and I feel shit today, because of the booze....
- I have to go out earlier
- I have to watch the alcohol
- I have to escalate
I am not too happy about this night, because I did very few approaches and in the end I was drunk.
I arrived late, the club was empty. Was there with a female friend. I danced a lot and she bought drinks. Dancing was fun and we rocked floor. People where looking. Girls where dancing close to me. I approached the hottest girl I saw, talked to her, clawed her. She had some weird dude who was standing next to her. I asked if he is her boyfriend. No, a friend. I told her, she is cute and I want to get to know her in a bit. Told her, before, I had to look for my friend.
My female friend is great, we both know we want to meet someone to fuck. No judgement between us. There is this guy she has something going on with. We're cool with each other. He buys us tequila shots... can't resist.
I see the girl again, grab her and take her to the bar. We talk, I claw. She buys a shot. Downs it. I call her out on it, for drinking it alone. We order another round. Till here it's cool.
Then the creepy guy cuts in again (I introduced myself earlier to him, he acted nice to me, but i could tell he totally hated me). Orders a shot too. We drink.
Then he is just standing there. Giving no input, only sucking value. Or better: amoging me, making the situation weird. I should have continued with whatever, but I thought if I just wait a moment, he'll just leave because it's awkward. Mistaken. They both leave, she wants to dance, I grab her arm, pull her back to me. I think here I finally fucked up. She liked it, when i pulled her in. I should have continued with dominance, say something sexual, makeout, whatever. But I just said, I want her to stay, I want to get to know her... Boring comeback. She sais, she is here to dance and leaves.
I go talk to another chick, she was into me and we had a good convo, claw as usual. But there was something about her that I didn't like, reminded me of some drug chick, turned me off.
I go back to the dancefloor, club is slowly getting empty, dance with my friend. The girl from the bar was there dancing. I felt blown out and like I had nothing to say to her anymore. I just didn't feel I could go sexual on her... even though that might have been the solution.
She sat down at some place, my female friend and me decided to leave. I approached her again, clawed. The weird orbiter dude was there too, took him like 5 seconds. He was such a gay orbiter dude. While clawing, I pulled her close to me and asked her if he was gay, he wasn't. I told her he was totally into her, it was obvious. He knew we were talking about him. Maybe at that point, I should have just gone for the makeout. Closer mentality. I didn't. He was creeping me out, I just couldn't stand his ugly face next to me. I told her, what a wanker her friend is. And she didn't felt offended which was interesting. I hugged her and wished her a good night.
My female friend wanted to leave and I was done too, so we left.
I thought this journal would help me to stick to my commitment and I believe it does, but I see now, it also makes you reflect each night and you get a clearer picture of where you're at.
My sticking point now so obvious. I think my approach is pretty confident, I trust that it will open, and it does. Girls like to be opened by me.
I just feel like I can't back it up. I don't know what to talk about in a club and my escalation is shit. What's cool is, I am really comfortable with clawing. But I don't know where to take it from there. I think I should just go for the make out. I don't do it because it feels like she won't do it. I should do anyway. Something I did a while back last year.
And for the convo, i think this will autocorrect if I just keep at it.
Oh and I feel shit today, because of the booze....
- I have to go out earlier
- I have to watch the alcohol
- I have to escalate
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Wednesday/28.01.09
The whole day I was hungover and tired. Decided I was going out anyway. With absolutely no drop of alcohol. And solo for the first time. Before I met some friends at a bar, was in such a yuck state. What a great start for a night out solo.
Went to this club and even just entering was really hard. I was totally in my head and all by myself. Made a chode round through the club. Fuck. Into the toilet to collect myself. Was there locked in 10min. All this thoughts running through my head. Actually, i was out solo before, that was while travelling. It wasn't that bad at all, because everbody is appreciate and welcoming and it is so easy to make friends when you're travelling. In 4 weeks travelling I got laid 4 times. Fuck. Still Inside the toilet. Lets do this.
What a shitty club. The guys are wankers and the girls bitchy. But then I see an absolute hottie! Perfect 9. She walks past, I catch her arm and stop her. I pull her to me and tell her something like "you are cute/who are you/I want to meet you". She yells after her friend. Her friend is not hearing her. She runs after her friend. She and her friend, a cute 7, come back. I tell the 9 again what a cutie she is and introduce myself, claw n stuff. She loves it. I say hello to the 7. She likes me too. And as usual, here I fuck up. I realize I am actually still in a yuck state. And still nervous and this time absolutely sober. I can't handle this. They both like me, the 9 actually loves me. Inside I panic. I know I will fuck up. They can tell I am nervous and what I say is stupid. I fuck up.
The 9 was so happy I approached her. She wanted me to make her night. I couldn't handle her expectation. Damn it. One day...
Anyway they both wander off. This sucked. Totally in my head. I approach two girls, get a cigarette, chat, boring convo. I know nothing is going to happen tonight. I say fuck it, lets go for the number of the 9, even though I know I fucked up. I reapproach. The 7 looks at me in dispair. The 9 tells me now she has a boyfriend and she isn't on facebook. Haha yeah right, but no surprise.
I go get my jacket. Going out solo is definetely a number too big. Tonight for sure. At the wardrobe there is a group of spanish people. There she is: a true 10! I hardly give 10s ever. She was perfect. Tall, skinny, perfect arse and tits and her face unbelivable cute and so damn pretty. She talks to some spanish friend. I think, ok, last approach. I go in. No thinking. I try my little spanish. "Espanol?" She says some stuff. I say "No hablo espanol, pero vivo con un chica de valencia". I can't speak spanish, but I live with a chick from spain/valencia. We chat in english and it's cool. We both enjoy it. I am relaxed, because I know I am leaving. We talk. I tell her she is cute and give her a big warm hug. She says I am cute too. I tell her my name, hug her again, she tells me her name. Introduction, kiss on the cheek. She says, in spain, they kiss on both cheeks. I take her face and kiss her on the left cheek again and say in germany we kiss... and move my lips from her cheek to her mouth. I consider kissing for real, but her friends are all around us and I stop at right at her mouth. I smile at her. Don't know if I should have gone for it, but the way I did it was very smooth, she definetely enjoyed it and it was quite funny. She leaves on friday. I get her number and then I leave.
It is still early and I am sober. But I decide to go home anyway, because I am still hungover and tired. And even though it was a really short night with only 3 sets and I didn't took severe beatings, I am happy, because just going out alone was a huge push + i didn't had one drop of alcohol + i approached the two by far hottest girls of the whole venue.
On my way home I meet a girl, not pretty but we have a cool chat. We wait for the bus and there are two english girls (7 and 8). I approach casually and now we four are chatting. It's a relaxed cool vibe. I enter the bus first, the UG joins my corner in the bus, but then the english girls sit somewhere else... mm, we had a good vibe, or hadn't we? I yell over to them something like, why they don't sit with us and they immediately jump up and come over to us. I call them out with a smile how unsocial these british... They explain how they just didn't want to interrupt us.
They thought I was with the UG. I explain that we too just randomly met. We all have a really cool chat. Why can't I vibe like this in a club??
What I learned:
- Again, my approach must be pretty good, girls open consistently and I can tell they are happy talking to me. But I consistently fuck up in the follow up. As soon as they hook, instead of relaxing, I feel pressure and get nervous, hence they loose interest.
- Going out solo when it makes me feel like a weirdo is crap. I get more out of my nights when I go with friends + it is much more fun. I have a huge social circle and can easily organize "wings" for each night of the week. When I am a step better at this, I'll give it another chance...
- Again, watch the alcohol. It feels good to be sober, knowing the next day I can workout and be productive.
The whole day I was hungover and tired. Decided I was going out anyway. With absolutely no drop of alcohol. And solo for the first time. Before I met some friends at a bar, was in such a yuck state. What a great start for a night out solo.
Went to this club and even just entering was really hard. I was totally in my head and all by myself. Made a chode round through the club. Fuck. Into the toilet to collect myself. Was there locked in 10min. All this thoughts running through my head. Actually, i was out solo before, that was while travelling. It wasn't that bad at all, because everbody is appreciate and welcoming and it is so easy to make friends when you're travelling. In 4 weeks travelling I got laid 4 times. Fuck. Still Inside the toilet. Lets do this.
What a shitty club. The guys are wankers and the girls bitchy. But then I see an absolute hottie! Perfect 9. She walks past, I catch her arm and stop her. I pull her to me and tell her something like "you are cute/who are you/I want to meet you". She yells after her friend. Her friend is not hearing her. She runs after her friend. She and her friend, a cute 7, come back. I tell the 9 again what a cutie she is and introduce myself, claw n stuff. She loves it. I say hello to the 7. She likes me too. And as usual, here I fuck up. I realize I am actually still in a yuck state. And still nervous and this time absolutely sober. I can't handle this. They both like me, the 9 actually loves me. Inside I panic. I know I will fuck up. They can tell I am nervous and what I say is stupid. I fuck up.
The 9 was so happy I approached her. She wanted me to make her night. I couldn't handle her expectation. Damn it. One day...
Anyway they both wander off. This sucked. Totally in my head. I approach two girls, get a cigarette, chat, boring convo. I know nothing is going to happen tonight. I say fuck it, lets go for the number of the 9, even though I know I fucked up. I reapproach. The 7 looks at me in dispair. The 9 tells me now she has a boyfriend and she isn't on facebook. Haha yeah right, but no surprise.
I go get my jacket. Going out solo is definetely a number too big. Tonight for sure. At the wardrobe there is a group of spanish people. There she is: a true 10! I hardly give 10s ever. She was perfect. Tall, skinny, perfect arse and tits and her face unbelivable cute and so damn pretty. She talks to some spanish friend. I think, ok, last approach. I go in. No thinking. I try my little spanish. "Espanol?" She says some stuff. I say "No hablo espanol, pero vivo con un chica de valencia". I can't speak spanish, but I live with a chick from spain/valencia. We chat in english and it's cool. We both enjoy it. I am relaxed, because I know I am leaving. We talk. I tell her she is cute and give her a big warm hug. She says I am cute too. I tell her my name, hug her again, she tells me her name. Introduction, kiss on the cheek. She says, in spain, they kiss on both cheeks. I take her face and kiss her on the left cheek again and say in germany we kiss... and move my lips from her cheek to her mouth. I consider kissing for real, but her friends are all around us and I stop at right at her mouth. I smile at her. Don't know if I should have gone for it, but the way I did it was very smooth, she definetely enjoyed it and it was quite funny. She leaves on friday. I get her number and then I leave.
It is still early and I am sober. But I decide to go home anyway, because I am still hungover and tired. And even though it was a really short night with only 3 sets and I didn't took severe beatings, I am happy, because just going out alone was a huge push + i didn't had one drop of alcohol + i approached the two by far hottest girls of the whole venue.
On my way home I meet a girl, not pretty but we have a cool chat. We wait for the bus and there are two english girls (7 and 8). I approach casually and now we four are chatting. It's a relaxed cool vibe. I enter the bus first, the UG joins my corner in the bus, but then the english girls sit somewhere else... mm, we had a good vibe, or hadn't we? I yell over to them something like, why they don't sit with us and they immediately jump up and come over to us. I call them out with a smile how unsocial these british... They explain how they just didn't want to interrupt us.
They thought I was with the UG. I explain that we too just randomly met. We all have a really cool chat. Why can't I vibe like this in a club??What I learned:
- Again, my approach must be pretty good, girls open consistently and I can tell they are happy talking to me. But I consistently fuck up in the follow up. As soon as they hook, instead of relaxing, I feel pressure and get nervous, hence they loose interest.
- Going out solo when it makes me feel like a weirdo is crap. I get more out of my nights when I go with friends + it is much more fun. I have a huge social circle and can easily organize "wings" for each night of the week. When I am a step better at this, I'll give it another chance...
- Again, watch the alcohol. It feels good to be sober, knowing the next day I can workout and be productive.
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Thursday/29.01.09
My mom was sick, so I stayed at her place untill late at night when she finally felt better. It was 1 o'clock when I left. Headed straight to the club where some friends where partying.
Arrived at close to 2 o'clock. In there I immediately started beeing really loud/bit obnoxious and I downed two beers. Got into a nice state/buzz. Danced with my friends (2 girls). But didn't do any approaches yet.
Then some fake approaches, like as if I know the girl and shit. And just talked to random people, just building up state. Then I started to approach. About every girl I liked (8s and one 9). They all opened wide up.
Talked to this cute girl and it was on. It almost always is in the first minute... I knew where to work on... I clawed and touched like hell. I kissed on the cheek and shit. I had told her my female friend gets a beer and at some point, after hesitating to kiss her like always, she told me to look for my beer. It wasn't in a mean way, she still liked me. I called her out, fake stabbed myself in the heart, gave her a hug and left.
My friend bought me a beer. I spotted this really hot girl, a 9. Loved her. Approached. Opened. Clawed. We couldn't talk, because we were on the dancefloor. I grabbed her hand and let her to the bar. Same thing as always. Great talking + clawing and touching. By now I knew how it would end if I wouldn't escalate... happened like 10-20 times the last week...
Here is my breakthrough. So small and so simple, but it was all I needed. I told her, like I always do, how cute I found her. Then I told her, I want to give her a litte kiss. Just a small one. It's fine, just a little one. Kiss. Smile. Then full makeout. That simple. But it helped me so much and I don't know why I had just thought earlier of it. My problem always was, that for me to make out is this huge step in terms of escalation. The little kiss is the bridge. We made out and talked and it was just on. I checked logistics. She was with some friends from austria and it was their last night. I checked every angle, she had to go with them. She hadn't got her mobile with her, I persisted, she got her friend to give me her number. It was an orbiter and haha he "couldn't find" her number in his mobile. My ass. Got her email and she made sure, I got it right. Seemed solid! Kiss and bye.
I approached another hottie. I talked to her, it was on again. I was relaxed. Her friend had to go and she was considering staying with me or going with her. She took my hand and let me to another place in the club. Told me we should see in bit so she can say goodbye. As she let me by her hand through the whole club I could tell she was into me but at the same time I knew I might not see her again in this big venue. I didn't.
Doesn't matter. Reapproached the first girl. Isolated her on coach. Good talking. Tried to makeout. Rejected but she was still enjoying the chat very much. Her friend came. She told me they were lesbians. Usually I think it's bullshit, with those two, I actually considered it to be true. When I think about it now, I think it was bullshit. Anyway, got her number, don't know if it is solid. But even if not, it's more likely solid than the usual numbers I get...
I was in a great state. I was dancing, smiling, high fiving. I was the party + bringing value.
Suddenly my female friend was in a fight with another girl!?! Not really a fight but sort of. I pushed myself in the middle and the girl - HBfight - hit and scratched me, but I was just in a too good mood to let it affect me. I was befriending all her friends and they apologized. It was bullshit anyway, they stepped on each others toes while dancing and took it from there...
Some friends told me it looked like I had the fight with her. Having a fight with a girl in front of everyone... haha that sucks.
Later I saw one of the friends of HBfight. She loved me. Clawed and shit. I knew I could have made out with her right there. She told me her HBfight had her birthday. HBfight came, I clawed her immediately real tight, didn't say much, went straight for the make out. she loved it, yeah. Then another friend of HBfight came, clawed her, she was hot but drunk. She loved me too. Would have made out I am sure. Didn't want to ruin HBfights birhtday so I didn't, but damn they loved me I gave HBfight a big hug and made sure no bad feeling between her and my friend. HBfight had a real cute face, but her body was a 6.5 and I was looking for more makeouts...
There where more approaches and all went well...
One cute girl walked past me and I stopped her. We looked at each other in awe. I took her hand and pulled her real close. Make out. Got her facebook.
My friends wanted to leave, I was having a great time but one friend was with her car and offered us a drive home and so we left.
I feel like tonight I had a solid breakthrough, mentally/internally. I will see... there surely was a lot of state involved, but I think I will feel more confident to escalate the next nights out... and I am excited about it
I know I shouldn't feel too excited about it in order to prepare myself that the next nights could totally suck... But tonight I made a nice step toward where I want to be and I am happy I went out so consistent even though I felt tired yesterday and today.
I am happy because I trust in the process and I believe in me, slowly getting better....
Thursday/29.01.09
My mom was sick, so I stayed at her place untill late at night when she finally felt better. It was 1 o'clock when I left. Headed straight to the club where some friends where partying.
Arrived at close to 2 o'clock. In there I immediately started beeing really loud/bit obnoxious and I downed two beers. Got into a nice state/buzz. Danced with my friends (2 girls). But didn't do any approaches yet.
Then some fake approaches, like as if I know the girl and shit. And just talked to random people, just building up state. Then I started to approach. About every girl I liked (8s and one 9). They all opened wide up.
Talked to this cute girl and it was on. It almost always is in the first minute... I knew where to work on... I clawed and touched like hell. I kissed on the cheek and shit. I had told her my female friend gets a beer and at some point, after hesitating to kiss her like always, she told me to look for my beer. It wasn't in a mean way, she still liked me. I called her out, fake stabbed myself in the heart, gave her a hug and left.
My friend bought me a beer. I spotted this really hot girl, a 9. Loved her. Approached. Opened. Clawed. We couldn't talk, because we were on the dancefloor. I grabbed her hand and let her to the bar. Same thing as always. Great talking + clawing and touching. By now I knew how it would end if I wouldn't escalate... happened like 10-20 times the last week...
Here is my breakthrough
. So small and so simple, but it was all I needed. I told her, like I always do, how cute I found her. Then I told her, I want to give her a litte kiss. Just a small one. It's fine, just a little one. Kiss. Smile. Then full makeout. That simple. But it helped me so much and I don't know why I had just thought earlier of it. My problem always was, that for me to make out is this huge step in terms of escalation. The little kiss is the bridge. We made out and talked and it was just on. I checked logistics. She was with some friends from austria and it was their last night. I checked every angle, she had to go with them. She hadn't got her mobile with her, I persisted, she got her friend to give me her number. It was an orbiter and haha he "couldn't find" her number in his mobile. My ass. Got her email and she made sure, I got it right. Seemed solid! Kiss and bye.I approached another hottie. I talked to her, it was on again. I was relaxed. Her friend had to go and she was considering staying with me or going with her. She took my hand and let me to another place in the club. Told me we should see in bit so she can say goodbye. As she let me by her hand through the whole club I could tell she was into me but at the same time I knew I might not see her again in this big venue. I didn't.
Doesn't matter. Reapproached the first girl. Isolated her on coach. Good talking. Tried to makeout. Rejected but she was still enjoying the chat very much. Her friend came. She told me they were lesbians. Usually I think it's bullshit, with those two, I actually considered it to be true. When I think about it now, I think it was bullshit. Anyway, got her number, don't know if it is solid. But even if not, it's more likely solid than the usual numbers I get...
I was in a great state. I was dancing, smiling, high fiving. I was the party + bringing value.
Suddenly my female friend was in a fight with another girl!?! Not really a fight but sort of. I pushed myself in the middle and the girl - HBfight - hit and scratched me, but I was just in a too good mood to let it affect me. I was befriending all her friends and they apologized. It was bullshit anyway, they stepped on each others toes while dancing and took it from there...
Some friends told me it looked like I had the fight with her. Having a fight with a girl in front of everyone... haha that sucks.
Later I saw one of the friends of HBfight. She loved me. Clawed and shit. I knew I could have made out with her right there. She told me her HBfight had her birthday. HBfight came, I clawed her immediately real tight, didn't say much, went straight for the make out. she loved it, yeah. Then another friend of HBfight came, clawed her, she was hot but drunk. She loved me too. Would have made out I am sure. Didn't want to ruin HBfights birhtday so I didn't, but damn they loved me
I gave HBfight a big hug and made sure no bad feeling between her and my friend. HBfight had a real cute face, but her body was a 6.5 and I was looking for more makeouts...There where more approaches and all went well...
One cute girl walked past me and I stopped her. We looked at each other in awe. I took her hand and pulled her real close. Make out. Got her facebook.
My friends wanted to leave, I was having a great time but one friend was with her car and offered us a drive home and so we left.
I feel like tonight I had a solid breakthrough, mentally/internally. I will see... there surely was a lot of state involved, but I think I will feel more confident to escalate the next nights out... and I am excited about it
I know I shouldn't feel too excited about it in order to prepare myself that the next nights could totally suck... But tonight I made a nice step toward where I want to be and I am happy I went out so consistent even though I felt tired yesterday and today.
I am happy because I trust in the process and I believe in me, slowly getting better....
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The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com
Pilgrimage2012
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Join Date: 12/31/2008 | Posts: 937
honestly, my biggest fear is that i don't stick to the process, that i get lazy, that i don't want it bad enough. all my life i started things, committed and gave up as soon as i hit the first plateau.
i have a lot of respect for the people on this board. so to really solidify the commitment i will report in this thread on a regular basis to held myself accountable.
...if i still suck at this next year, it will show itself in this thread... no updates... chode field reports... excuses... BUT: THIS IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!
here is what i expect to read at the end of the year:
regular field reports that show i went out 3 nights a week,
approached,
put myself out there...
rough nights... ok nights... glory nights... and hopefully some crazy and entertaining adventures
what i really want to see here is progress. i want to see a success story. the kind that inspires others and proves one more time: transformation is possible.
so let's do this.
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my last night out was at new years eve. pulled a girl. nothing glorious in terms of looks, but crazy sex and a good start into the year. than a bad flu hit me.
last night was my first attempt to go out again.
Saturday/18.01.2009
hit a party with a couple of mates. one hot girl. i had some good eye contact and a short chat with her. then she was gone. great. had some fun with some of the other girls there, but they weren't hot.
so i see this girl again, she is outside with her girlfriend. she seems tired/pissed of.
she comes back in,all i can think of is
"hey, can i have some of your liquor?"
yeah lame, its one of my classics
oh yeah and it works best in a seeking rapport tonality. lol. answer as expected:
"NO" and i am not even worth a look anymore...
so this is me when i suck
we leave and nobody wants to go into a club. i consider going alone. but (here we go..) i have this great excuse that i am still sick, so i decide against it.
but i know this bar... sometimes hot chicks there and i know i haven't pushed myself at all this night.
in this bar, i immediately approach the first hot girl i see - with another of my lame classics
this one actually works: she is standing at the bar to order a drink and i slowly push her away, trying to get served first. she is immediately pissed of. i smile and introduce myself. she lights up a bit. i talk to her, meet her sister. joke around. they are with to guys. it was still fun, they enjoyed it, but i didn't push further... should have.
next approach: two girls sitting at the bar, 2 guys talking to them.
i go straight to the girl i like. she is in close conversation with the guy, maybe it's on between them, i don't hesitate and go in with conviction. i claw her
tell her i have to ask her something. she looks at me blank. is ask "is he your boyfriend?". she says no. at this point the guy realizes i am a stranger. he tries to amog me, but he is not good at it. he is blown out. i'm in.
i often have trouble to start the conversation after the approach.
hooking is my sticking point. i often give up instead of plowing.
the little amog battle helped. the conversation is good. i meet her friend. the other guy is gone too. my friend, a natural, jumps in.
it flows. i try to make out. rejected. this is one thing i really worked on and made progress last year. i smile, i'm cool with it, i continue conversation. she buys shots. she pays. it's on. makeout. talking, biting, making out, licking her ear, more shots, she is horny... her friend is cool with it, my buddy is doing his thing with her.
and then i fucked up.
usually i play safe and chill. i wanted to push it. i tried to pull her home, very direct. whispered in her ear, vividly telling her i want to fuck her. wasn't calibrated i guess, but sometimes, like new years eve, i get it right. and it is not easy for me, it is a push for me. so i am still glad i did it.
i thought because she was so turned on it could work, but she didn't really like it, told me it's to direct. i kept my cool, she was lighting up again quickly...had some more fun/convo then we leave all toghether. my buddy leaves with his girl, i give them both a big hug and they are off.
my girl takes a cab. i jump in. we kiss. she says it's not going to happen... but she can drop me of at my place. i make a last offer but i know it is done. she declines again. at least i got home in a cab for free...
anyway i'm happy even though i only made 3 approaches. it's a start.
and it is funny, the night showed pretty much the range of my game.
first approach is me chode...
second approach is me most of the time... chickening out.
third approach - this is me where i wanna go.
That was it. Thx for reading. Any feedback is greatly appreciated. I'll continue next week...
The BEARD of the BRIGADE
My Journal 2009... let's do this and how i turned my life around.
My bootcamp Vomiting timez with Brad- and the best blog on pickup and lifestyle: bradbranson.com