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December 3rd, 2016
I see infinite and it scares me
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Word's ultimately always take away from 'it' because they are merely symbols which are separated from your internal being which is trying to be conveyed.

I am going to try and attempt to put into words the incredible feeling I have.

I'm on day 6 of being in the moment, literally... 95% of the day. I went from 5% to 95% in an instant.

They say completely turning your reality around 180 degrees in a small period of time can be very powerful (such as near death experiences).

This sounds melodramatic, but I did a 180 and I feel such shock at everything.

I don't know how I did it. I just woke up and I was like, you know.. I have always been aware of the Now and half-assed it. Getting good results sometimes and not others,

but just all the sudden I decided "okay. I'm going to be in the now for the rest of my life"

That was it.
I just put faith in in and let it go.

I am on day 6 and I have to say that there are no words to describe how awesome this is. Everything is so vivid and lucid. Colors are fucking amazing, shapes and images totally interest me. I can pick anything and just talk about it.

Imagine that math formula where the smaller x gets towards 0, the more y increases exponentially.

As I approach being in the now more and more, my distance to the NOW gets smaller and smaller as I'm in it more and more... the more I see how INFINITE it is. Literally it expands exponentially in what you can percieve the more you are in it. Things are just so simple, and you can see the is'ness of all things.

Thats kind of way out there if you haven't experienced it, so I'll relate in terms of pickup..

I see how fucking SIMPLE things are.
-My values emerge more readily than ever. I used to be confused as to what my values are, and where I stand on things. I never knew if I could ask a girl to do something for me or if I had to 'play' her some more and not give it because I know you 'shouldn't. I never knew if a compliment were okay in that situation, or if I should keep playfully teasing her.

Now I see my values of every fucking MOMENT going by, I just sync up with it and harmonize. Suddenly everything which I say is in harmony with it, and all is well. If something disharmonizes with my state of being I NOTICE IT IMMEDIATELY CLEAR AS DAY (I have become hyper-sensitive to the flowing moment now that I've been in this mindset for almost a week). I can literally SEE and FEEL the things which disharmonize.

Say a girl says "eew that's creepy" or "um... you're weird" when you say something like 'hey you, I see you all over campus' ..
that instantly feels unharmonious to the moment. It sticks out and I visually SEE it like magical powers. Suddenly I just address the disharmony.

Then I realized...

Those are my values.

When I stand up for what doesn't vibe with me, I honestly become very clear with my intent. I don't intentionally do things if they don't ring any bells because that would be button pushing. Now it becomes EFFORTLESS to say "um.. not really." Not because I know I should disagree or 'set a frame.' But because it is the truth to me, my value. This suddenly and innately sets up a hoop through just me being and going in the moment. Now she is the one who could be seen as pushing buttons. Perhaps she's just used to being sassy and she tests guys like that all the time. It stands out like a sore thumb. Suddenly you start to see where it's appropriate to say certain things.
You can take any social moment and take it in a new direction. A joke, a sexual joke, offering information, SILENCE, agreeing and adding to it, just agreeing, etc. Suddenly the most appropriate CHOICE to these things starts to MAKE ITSELF VERY CLEAR because you are MORE IN TUNE WITH YOUR FLOW. You are hyper-sensitive to ultimately WHO YOU ARE AS A PERSON.

There are no thoughts and ego bullshit clouding your ability to choose what happens in the next moment. You see very clearly your options and you intuitively choose the best on in a nanosecond just as NATURALLY as you would choose your favorite food over your least.

I have actually become somewhat uncomfortable at certain times because this is SO powerful that it almost feels as though I could handle it. I feel how BIG the matrix is... I feel how it's infinite. I feel as though I'm competely out in the open like... climbing very very very high in a ladder. The higher I get up the ladder by one rung, the distance i go from the ground increases exponentially (however that happens). It's like I see fucking DYNAMIC everything REALLY is and it kind of wigs me out. It's like.. the truth of the moment has been revealed and I see it goes and goes. It's a bizarre feeling now that I see through the eyes of non-judgment. Situations just become so effortlessly CLEAR. It's like a feeling of non-groundedness I suppose, because I see the ground I had been standing on my entire life was built on the ego, and I just instantly destroyed it in one fell swoop all at once (I can honestly say I judge 5% of things in the last few days, where before I would continuously judge things. Nothing annoys me anymore with the exception of minor things, soon to be gone. I told you I just did a 180degree turnaround of reality in one instant, and it's fucking shocking). I'm i'm just floating in the moment without an ego to stand on. This can be uncomfortable because all that I had associated with me is gone. I am what I am. Every situation is what it is.

Crazy!

Now the good news. You can lord like no other. I lorded a club last night so effortlessly. Girl in each hand, 10 dudes trying to get my attention. I had a guy actually pay me 4 burritos to be his wing with the 'dream girl of his life that hes going to marry."

This once again though just feels weird. If anyone else has experienced this let me know. You know those super corny movies where the kid has everything, everything goes right for him. All girls love him, hes the coolest in the school. Everything is handed to him, he fucks the teachers, he gets all A's, has an awesome family and friends.
That's how I feel exactly, and it creeps me out because it's like.... I could be wrong. Here I am feeling like I ACTUALLY possess such an incredible ability to see things.. it's like godlike how incredible everything is. It's like.. creepy to an extent. I can't explain it..
It on one hand is SO REAL. I mean it IS REAL. Its fucking what it is. I ACTUALLY BELIEVE what I say in certain situations is perfect. But with higher awareness and KNOWING of all situations, comes a higher consequence if I'm wrong. I feel with every ounce of my being that what I'm experiencing is like.. seeing the matrix. But a small part of me is uncomfortable in the fact that I suppose like.. a crazy person doesn't know he's crazy. It's like the more I go the deeper I see and how vast everything is and it's kind of scary.

I'm really hoping at least 1 person can relate :D
The feeling has really intensified when I think about it, especially in writing this post. But I also know as soon as I put on my kicks and go downstairs and go out tonight I'm 100% cool. I'm not concerned I will always feel like this, bt in this moment I'm wondering if any of you have experienced this.
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Have you tried meditating in this state? Like sit there in silence and look through any thoughts that go by as if they are not you? I've experienced that NOW feeling of perfection (and love for everything actually) when really focusing on it, but I tend to get distracted by "responsibilities" of the day and forget about being in the moment. But I also like to push things and see their limits. I'm wondering if you try meditating if you would get bored and imagine being somewhere else, or would you keep being in the moment and would it actually intensify the state. Just a thought.

I'm happy for you. :)
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As I read your post... for a second... I got a taste of the Now.

In my mind, I understand the concepts of the ego and how to acces the Now.

But, at the same time... I feel as thought I don't truly understand it.

Even when I feel as thought I access a higher state of consciousness, I NOTICE it and fall down into thought.

I still haven't felt the infinite. I still haven't looked at things as if I have never seen them before.

I guess the paradox is true. You cannot seek the Now, as seeking it is not being in it.

What does a blitzkrieg consist in doing?

I'm fuckin sick of the ego.

You have given me a taste of what the now feels like. For that, I thank you.

-Jordan
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AirMyles

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OH SNAPSERBUNNYZ! IN A CAN???!!!

Thanks. I'll do that.

Now if only I could gather the necessary riches to aquire these treasures of consciousness...
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I do. Perception Dilated. You see like it's panoramic or something. awesome shit.shades
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Quote:
Neo in the matrix is the closest you could get to describing it. But in that moment where you say "shit, this is SO POWERFUL" a new ego is created whether you realize it or not. It's your subconscious ego imprint of "the dude who can do everything and it works out for him no matter what" i.e. the guy you described near the end of your post, which ultimately is another delusion... BUT the perfection you feel in the moment is true whether things work out externally or not.

(posted by Pimp of Persia)

This is a clearer way of showing at what point a guy can go wrong. And how something good can be something bad. But no matter what, the moment is always true.

That new ego where the human male is denied is just EGO. Even a person in denial is still totally 100% loved...unconditionally. Even if a person never contacts their human needs, pain and process....they are still perfect and it doesn't matter.

It's just getting to that opportunity to grow more. To get to masculinity at a deeper level and not be deluded or sealed off in false "bliss". That's what's important to me.
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YES, YES, YESSS!! Exactly!

The NOW is ALL YOU NEED! The more you are in it the deeper you go, and the deeper you go, the simpler life is!

I salute you dude!

EDIT: You should try doing this stuff - http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Siddhi - when you get in the moment enough you should be able to do it, though you probably aren't that much in the moment yet (this is more like Jesus/Buddha in the moment abilities).... and no lol I'm not joking, I actually believe you can do this shit when completely in harmony with the present :)
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95%... holy shit...
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So how the FUCK did you get to 95% time spent in presence??????

I want step-by-step shit here dude. I've felt it a COUPLE times while listening to tolle and it was an absolutely breathtaking feeling, I totally get your post. Just walking up and down the fucking stairs felt more awesome than practically anything when I'm not "feeling it".
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So you don't know who's been spiking your drinks?

Hehe, I'm pleased for you man. Inspirational too.
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Cerebrus;147146 wrote:
So how the FUCK did you get to 95% time spent in presence??????

I want step-by-step shit here dude. I've felt it a COUPLE times while listening to tolle and it was an absolutely breathtaking feeling, I totally get your post. Just walking up and down the fucking stairs felt more awesome than practically anything when I'm not "feeling it".


I can't explain steps man.

I have always 'tried' for months, and I would go in and out like people said.

All the sudden I just woke up and decided that it was going to happen. I gave myself permission to be in the moment close to 100% of the time. I quite literally thought "okay, I desire to be in the moment 90% or more of the day."
When I thought that I felt a rush of excitement.. like.. right here right NOW it's happening, and its going to happen from now on. That's it.
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