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Ciaran will be able to relate well to this ;)

I had an interesting flash of insight today that may
crystallize what you already know to those who are at a similar point on this journey.

I realized lately how people in general are evolving. I remember two years ago my mindsets, and lately as I'm FEELING in experience more about the ego, unattachment, the flow, the unlimited infinite dynamic of the universe, the constricts of the ego, not depending on outcome, letting go, becoming mindful and aware, and it seems similarly I'm finding TONS of people who are at the same point of realization as me.

I realized today this entire essence of whatever you want to call it, life (in this case pickup) is more transcendental than anything.

2 things made me realize this today. Really FEEL it for the strongest it's been in a long time.

First was Ciaran's post (I think it was Ciaran) about the ego and identity creating an original thought and a second counter thought. To break out of the ego you must break out of the SECOND one also (the reflection which holds you confined). I read it and understood it on logical and perhaps spiritual level just fine, but the irony is that 'understanding' was from the confined perspective. It wasn't until today where I looked BACK and saw truly what it means. It's like you keep going up a staircase in the dark, and you can't see what's ahead, you only see the stairs behind you and how far you've come. Your progress just EMERGES out of the ether. it doesn't make sense if you're IN it, just when you transcend it.

Second was Pimp of Persia's 50xth post about the dynamic structure of the ego. He said one line which really really got me thinking. "'finding purpose' is just another extension of the ego" (or something to that effect). I sat back and it really hit me hard what it is to truly just let go let go LET GO let go in the moment. Life isn't a grouping of scenarios or environments, it truly is 100% DYNAMIC. It's like a song where no single infinitesimally small vibration is the same as another vibration. Therefore there is never a reason to attach to an ego construct in order to have it 'autoplay' out a scenario for you (thats a generalization, the ego can be used as a tool when youre aware of it). At any given moment you should be in the moment and treating it like the amazing GIFT that it is. It is a NEW infinitely complexly woven fabric which lies before you, right there for you to experience free from judgment. The only reason winning the lottery is any 'different' then sitting in a white room with no windows is because the mind and ego attaches the construct of 'good' to winning the lottery. Other than that they are two arbitrary points on this infinite fabric.

This entire thing is transcendental, it's about letting go at every single moment.

I have a particular meaning in mind when I say transcendental. What exactly does that mean? It means quite literally moving upwards in vibration (or levels) like going to the top of the mountain. This analogy is so played out but really try to picture it. You are in the jungle of your thoughts at the base of the mountain when you are out of the moment. It's just trees here and there, you can't see shit. You can't see in front of you or behind, and worst of all it's like a maze with no direction. But move to the top of the mountain and you not only understand things you couldn't before, but you literally TRANSCEND those processes. You see all the trees at once, and the interconnectedness makes sense in a way you could have never experienced from the perspective of being IN the forest.

It's your brains ability to just FLOW BY a thought without attachment, outcome dependence. You've all heard this 1000x times, but likely you aren't fully aware of it. Perhaps you ARE and have had little bouts here and there where you get a little kinky TASTE of its DIVINE FLAVOR. Perhaps you are actually damn good at it, and in that place you rock! :D
What does that really feel like though? How can you relate this idea to something concrete, comprehensible and not abstract babble that makes perfect feeling-sense only when you read it, but suddenly when you stop reading and actually try to apply it it just escapes your ability like a greased pig.

Keep reading, I give an example later.

Your mind sees the thought from the outside, looking in on it, your perception can cut it off or change it entirely, rather than being IN the thought (attached, out of the moment) and looking for a new direction to head in that dimension (usually 'out' of the current situation).

It quite literally is like a new dimension of thought.

This is where Ciaran's post comes in. To escape the ego, the ego will set up levels of thoughts that you must go through. You know the universal studios logo?



This is going to take some effort, bare with me. Imagine the globe is your perception. Your ability to think and be aware, to be CONSCIOUS. The words surrounding it are your ego. It's a level outwards. It is on an outer level from the center of the sphere. You can even pretend the words are the thoughts themselves. In this case you would be attached to a thought or words 'universal studios' in your mind. It would literally be going through you're mind and you would be identified with that though, just as you would if you thought "my name is Ciaran."
Now you know you don't want to be involved in the ego, so what do you do? You have another thought to try and escape it, but what happens? A SECOND LAYER which is even further outside of the 'universal studios' dimension SWOOPS IN and CATCHES you. Pretend there is another encircling word which spatially has a larger radius than the 'universal studios' logo, and encircles THAT, and the globe. This is yet another level of the ego. This is the reflection thought he talks about.
It's like a satellite and bounces your perception right back in. You may be 'outside' of the original universal studios logo, but you are still confined within the OUTER layer. You may go several layers outward and think you have 'succeeded' in getting out of that, but in reality you are just layers deeper and deeper in the matrix of the ego. It's a tricky little fucker!
Your job is to TRANSCEND this (infinite, really, I suppose) number of layers COMPLETELY to get into the outside. Transcend into the oneness of being. To get into the black space and look IN on it. To go beyond it in your mind's duality and trickery completely so that you see the workings of the ego like you would see the outside of a box.

What happened to me--

Today at work I had the most amazing time... I had so much attraction and girls laughing it was unreal. Much more than I have ever experienced, and I wasn't doing ANYTHING. I have really developed my skill of getting girls emotionally attracted within seconds, but this was like so much more because it wasnt in the maze of the ego. The best part is the ONLY thing I 'did' was be in a transcendental state, and any time a thought would pop up I would just 'let go' of it. After enough of this, I got to a point where EVERY single MOMENT became a dynamic moment. Every new moment required just as much consciousness as the last, no matter how 'drab' or 'boring' that moment appeared to be (that would be an ego's judging of a moment, like the lottery as good and the blank room as boring). Putting on my coat required just as much mindfulness as smacking her ass. It wasn't the view THROUGH the ego

Imagine you're having a fun time in a social environment like a private party or VIP room. You are being in the moment and you are not attached to outcome or your ego. You are LETTING GO and transcending your thoughts.

say you see a girl you think is cute give you a non-desired reaction.

If you are attached, you may THINK you are doing the 'right thing,' you might BECOME AWARE in your mind that you 'need to not let it bother you.' You may not even directly think those words in your thoughts, but you will FEEL this thought's presence. This is you being attached. You are still in your ego, even though you think you are not. It's impossible to escape it if youre IN IT. You're passing judgments without you being aware of it. This can be a paradox because it may seem like there's no way 'out.' Even when you try to 'cut the thought out' it is attached to another one. The infinite layers reflect you right back in. The ego is tricky like that.

Quite simply you must reach a transcendental state where you look at the thought from the outside and you LET IT GO just like you would as if you had just remembered where your keys were. The state of questioning just disappears ABSOLUTELY, 100%. The duality VANISHES. You cut it off at the ROOTS because it's UNARGUABLY TRUE. The two sided coin now has one side. It is JUST as real as the color red or boots being boots. It IS. There is absolutely no question, because of it's essence. Why would you question where your keys are when you KNOW where they are? You can't have both those states of mind at the same time. That is what it means to transcend. Imagine the thought of worrying about where your keys are when at the same time you KNOW where they are. It's impossible. It doesn't make sense. It just can't happen. That is because the duality can't exist where there is oneness. You must let them go and dive into the oneness of being.

One interesting thing which I realized today at work... Previously I never really got breaking rapport on purpose. I couldn't picture myself giving off a dominant vibe NATURALLY unless I tried. It just wasnt in my subconscious non-thought to break rapport. I would generally give attention to everyone. This was when I was in my ego! When I became unattached, and every moment became a gift. EVERY MOMENT. Suddenly I would go with the flow of whatever is IS. Now suddenly if a girl says something, it carries much more WEIGHT. I become in a hyper-sensitive state to my outside reality, and suddenly it's like a sixth sense. Something she say won't fit congruently. Now instead of being involved in the ego when you notice something like that, and thinking "she said something weird, now I need to break rapport or give her a what the fuck look" (or once again, you may not even think those words, but youll feel that thoughts presence in our mind.)... INSTEAD I simply go with the flow of that moment. I don't judge anything. Her response suddenly stands out and somewhat 'disrupting' of the flow. I just breeze right by it and my attention goes to something else. This now becomes NATURALLY breaking rapport. Its BEING and not DOING. Its transcending thought and not being involved in the ego. BEING NOT DOING.

Suppose a girl is talking to another guy. Your mind no longer thinks of her with that guy or evokes jealousy. (very important: once again you may not think in words, but you will feel the presence. fighting it leads to reflecting back in to the ego). Transcending it however, and NOT ATTACHING JUDGMENT, simply treating it as an arbitrary point just like you putting on your shoes or plugging in a lamp. The flow of moments suddenly allows you to breeze by it. Now instead of 'trying' not to be needy, you are now BEING, you are INNATELY non-needy.


Sounds pretty far out, but I assure you when this clicks you will reach a whole 'nother level ;)
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Pimp of Persia;145159 wrote:


A lot of guys draw a mental comparison of "just being yourself" to being a chode, but that's because chodes have an identity of their own that produces unattractive qualities, traits and tendencies. If you put yourself out there at your most bare and real, no ego structures (perceived as positive or negative), it's the most real thing anyone could ever experience, being in your presence, and that's rare.



Fucking spot on. Brilliant.

Thats also why you can gain attraction in a heartbeat. It just HAPPENS. You don't have to try to do ANYTHING. It may be hard for one to grasp the idea that you can fuck the hottest girl just by being yourself and not 'trying' to do it, but it all comes down to how centered you are in moving with the moment. When you get that, the rest falls into place in ways you'd never imagine.
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I took the time to read this today, and it's a money posting. Thanks droid.

It's what happened to me last night - I just LET GO, all the bullshit, any swirly twirly thought and went with the moment. That's how the ridiculous roleplay came about - no pre-thinking or anything - it just came out, because I had cleared a path.

This kind of advice and insight that you wrote is the best thing about this forum.
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FoodBuddha;145328 wrote:
I took the time to read this today, and it's a money posting. Thanks droid.

It's what happened to me last night - I just LET GO, all the bullshit, any swirly twirly thought and went with the moment. That's how the ridiculous roleplay came about - no pre-thinking or anything - it just came out, because I had cleared a path.

This kind of advice and insight that you wrote is the best thing about this forum.


Thanks for taking the time to read it, I'm glad it made sense :D
Actually I had a select few in mind who might read this, and you were one of them ;)

I totally feel you about role-play. Some of my best role-plays have been 100% created on the spot and ultimately lead to lays. It's comical how easy it all is when at every thought you have of doubt you just let it go and BAM.. you're back in the clear. Doubt? fear? let go.. bam .. youre good again. Wash rinse repeat until youre showering her with your sperm cannon shades
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Android Wrote:
Ciaran will be able to relate well to this ;)

I had an interesting flash of insight today that may
crystallize what you already know to those who are at a similar point on this journey.

I realized lately how people in general are evolving. I remember two years ago my mindsets, and lately as I'm FEELING in experience more about the ego, unattachment, the flow, the unlimited infinite dynamic of the universe, the constricts of the ego, not depending on outcome, letting go, becoming mindful and aware, and it seems similarly I'm finding TONS of people who are at the same point of realization as me.

I realized today this entire essence of whatever you want to call it, life (in this case pickup) is more transcendental than anything.

2 things made me realize this today. Really FEEL it for the strongest it's been in a long time.

First was Ciaran's post (I think it was Ciaran) about the ego and identity creating an original thought and a second counter thought. To break out of the ego you must break out of the SECOND one also (the reflection which holds you confined). I read it and understood it on logical and perhaps spiritual level just fine, but the irony is that 'understanding' was from the confined perspective. It wasn't until today where I looked BACK and saw truly what it means. It's like you keep going up a staircase in the dark, and you can't see what's ahead, you only see the stairs behind you and how far you've come. Your progress just EMERGES out of the ether. it doesn't make sense if you're IN it, just when you transcend it.

Second was Pimp of Persia's 50xth post about the dynamic structure of the ego. He said one line which really really got me thinking. "'finding purpose' is just another extension of the ego" (or something to that effect). I sat back and it really hit me hard what it is to truly just let go let go LET GO let go in the moment. Life isn't a grouping of scenarios or environments, it truly is 100% DYNAMIC. It's like a song where no single infinitesimally small vibration is the same as another vibration. Therefore there is never a reason to attach to an ego construct in order to have it 'autoplay' out a scenario for you (thats a generalization, the ego can be used as a tool when youre aware of it). At any given moment you should be in the moment and treating it like the amazing GIFT that it is. It is a NEW infinitely complexly woven fabric which lies before you, right there for you to experience free from judgment. The only reason winning the lottery is any 'different' then sitting in a white room with no windows is because the mind and ego attaches the construct of 'good' to winning the lottery. Other than that they are two arbitrary points on this infinite fabric.

This entire thing is transcendental, it's about letting go at every single moment.

I have a particular meaning in mind when I say transcendental. What exactly does that mean? It means quite literally moving upwards in vibration (or levels) like going to the top of the mountain. This analogy is so played out but really try to picture it. You are in the jungle of your thoughts at the base of the mountain when you are out of the moment. It's just trees here and there, you can't see shit. You can't see in front of you or behind, and worst of all it's like a maze with no direction. But move to the top of the mountain and you not only understand things you couldn't before, but you literally TRANSCEND those processes. You see all the trees at once, and the interconnectedness makes sense in a way you could have never experienced from the perspective of being IN the forest.

It's your brains ability to just FLOW BY a thought without attachment, outcome dependence. You've all heard this 1000x times, but likely you aren't fully aware of it. Perhaps you ARE and have had little bouts here and there where you get a little kinky TASTE of its DIVINE FLAVOR. Perhaps you are actually damn good at it, and in that place you rock! :D
What does that really feel like though? How can you relate this idea to something concrete, comprehensible and not abstract babble that makes perfect feeling-sense only when you read it, but suddenly when you stop reading and actually try to apply it it just escapes your ability like a greased pig.

Keep reading, I give an example later.

Your mind sees the thought from the outside, looking in on it, your perception can cut it off or change it entirely, rather than being IN the thought (attached, out of the moment) and looking for a new direction to head in that dimension (usually 'out' of the current situation).

It quite literally is like a new dimension of thought.

This is where Ciaran's post comes in. To escape the ego, the ego will set up levels of thoughts that you must go through. You know the universal studios logo?



This is going to take some effort, bare with me. Imagine the globe is your perception. Your ability to think and be aware, to be CONSCIOUS. The words surrounding it are your ego. It's a level outwards. It is on an outer level from the center of the sphere. You can even pretend the words are the thoughts themselves. In this case you would be attached to a thought or words 'universal studios' in your mind. It would literally be going through you're mind and you would be identified with that though, just as you would if you thought "my name is Ciaran."
Now you know you don't want to be involved in the ego, so what do you do? You have another thought to try and escape it, but what happens? A SECOND LAYER which is even further outside of the 'universal studios' dimension SWOOPS IN and CATCHES you. Pretend there is another encircling word which spatially has a larger radius than the 'universal studios' logo, and encircles THAT, and the globe. This is yet another level of the ego. This is the reflection thought he talks about.
It's like a satellite and bounces your perception right back in. You may be 'outside' of the original universal studios logo, but you are still confined within the OUTER layer. You may go several layers outward and think you have 'succeeded' in getting out of that, but in reality you are just layers deeper and deeper in the matrix of the ego. It's a tricky little fucker!
Your job is to TRANSCEND this (infinite, really, I suppose) number of layers COMPLETELY to get into the outside. Transcend into the oneness of being. To get into the black space and look IN on it. To go beyond it in your mind's duality and trickery completely so that you see the workings of the ego like you would see the outside of a box.

What happened to me--

Today at work I had the most amazing time... I had so much attraction and girls laughing it was unreal. Much more than I have ever experienced, and I wasn't doing ANYTHING. I have really developed my skill of getting girls emotionally attracted within seconds, but this was like so much more because it wasnt in the maze of the ego. The best part is the ONLY thing I 'did' was be in a transcendental state, and any time a thought would pop up I would just 'let go' of it. After enough of this, I got to a point where EVERY single MOMENT became a dynamic moment. Every new moment required just as much consciousness as the last, no matter how 'drab' or 'boring' that moment appeared to be (that would be an ego's judging of a moment, like the lottery as good and the blank room as boring). Putting on my coat required just as much mindfulness as smacking her ass. It wasn't the view THROUGH the ego

Imagine you're having a fun time in a social environment like a private party or VIP room. You are being in the moment and you are not attached to outcome or your ego. You are LETTING GO and transcending your thoughts.

say you see a girl you think is cute give you a non-desired reaction.

If you are attached, you may THINK you are doing the 'right thing,' you might BECOME AWARE in your mind that you 'need to not let it bother you.' You may not even directly think those words in your thoughts, but you will FEEL this thought's presence. This is you being attached. You are still in your ego, even though you think you are not. It's impossible to escape it if youre IN IT. You're passing judgments without you being aware of it. This can be a paradox because it may seem like there's no way 'out.' Even when you try to 'cut the thought out' it is attached to another one. The infinite layers reflect you right back in. The ego is tricky like that.

Quite simply you must reach a transcendental state where you look at the thought from the outside and you LET IT GO just like you would as if you had just remembered where your keys were. The state of questioning just disappears ABSOLUTELY, 100%. The duality VANISHES. You cut it off at the ROOTS because it's UNARGUABLY TRUE. The two sided coin now has one side. It is JUST as real as the color red or boots being boots. It IS. There is absolutely no question, because of it's essence. Why would you question where your keys are when you KNOW where they are? You can't have both those states of mind at the same time. That is what it means to transcend. Imagine the thought of worrying about where your keys are when at the same time you KNOW where they are. It's impossible. It doesn't make sense. It just can't happen. That is because the duality can't exist where there is oneness. You must let them go and dive into the oneness of being.

One interesting thing which I realized today at work... Previously I never really got breaking rapport on purpose. I couldn't picture myself giving off a dominant vibe NATURALLY unless I tried. It just wasnt in my subconscious non-thought to break rapport. I would generally give attention to everyone. This was when I was in my ego! When I became unattached, and every moment became a gift. EVERY MOMENT. Suddenly I would go with the flow of whatever is IS. Now suddenly if a girl says something, it carries much more WEIGHT. I become in a hyper-sensitive state to my outside reality, and suddenly it's like a sixth sense. Something she say won't fit congruently. Now instead of being involved in the ego when you notice something like that, and thinking "she said something weird, now I need to break rapport or give her a what the fuck look" (or once again, you may not even think those words, but youll feel that thoughts presence in our mind.)... INSTEAD I simply go with the flow of that moment. I don't judge anything. Her response suddenly stands out and somewhat 'disrupting' of the flow. I just breeze right by it and my attention goes to something else. This now becomes NATURALLY breaking rapport. Its BEING and not DOING. Its transcending thought and not being involved in the ego. BEING NOT DOING.

Suppose a girl is talking to another guy. Your mind no longer thinks of her with that guy or evokes jealousy. (very important: once again you may not think in words, but you will feel the presence. fighting it leads to reflecting back in to the ego). Transcending it however, and NOT ATTACHING JUDGMENT, simply treating it as an arbitrary point just like you putting on your shoes or plugging in a lamp. The flow of moments suddenly allows you to breeze by it. Now instead of 'trying' not to be needy, you are now BEING, you are INNATELY non-needy.


Sounds pretty far out, but I assure you when this clicks you will reach a whole 'nother level ;)


this post had made me happy I love the fact there's people out there who think in a way of solving their minds I'm glad I'm not the first or only one in this world.
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Wow bro,

It made so much sense, it's like you're taking in all the knowledge you can from reading books, realizing things yourself, etc.. and apply them to pickup and life the RSD way. Kinda what Alex~ did with The Female Brain.

I felt like you were getting close to this level. Aren't life shifting epiphanies a beauty?

Tremendous bro.

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Android Wrote:
I become in a hyper-sensitive state to my outside reality, and suddenly it's like a sixth sense. Something she say won't fit congruently. Now instead of being involved in the ego when you notice something like that, and thinking "she said something weird, now I need to break rapport or give her a what the fuck look" (or once again, you may not even think those words, but youll feel that thoughts presence in our mind.)... INSTEAD I simply go with the flow of that moment. I don't judge anything. Her response suddenly stands out and somewhat 'disrupting' of the flow.


Something she says doesn't fit congruently with what? I don't know what to call it. I don't know what it is. It's just a feeling you get, that's different than the feeling you had, like as if there was a record playing a song that just might be the most awesome song you've ever heard, and you're gettin' down, really enjoying it, then she pushes the needle across the record making an ear-peircing screeeeetch that just sends goosebumps crawling down your spine. So you're sayin to her "WTF... put the music back on... let's get back to jammin" and that comes out however it comes it. You never really thought it out. It can feel like someone else's words coming out of your mouth.

The flow, it's like music.

Maybe the power in this is that you become more sensitive to the flow, this unheard background music, than her. She can't feel it as adeptly as you, she didn't even know she was ruining the flow, or that there was a flow there to ruin. In the act of bringing her back into it though, she feels it - but only because you are taking her there. It's leading on a level that just sounds like total nonsense on one level but anybody who has felt it knows it's real.

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I just love the concept of celebrating every moment. Everything being equally glorious. Putting on your shoes or plowing that ass doggystyle. It's all the same. There's a certain romance to that.

Getting to that core is something I strive for constantly (sometimes to no avail, hah). I had an experience myself at work yesterday similar to yours. I was listening to the BP and was milling over in my mind how I could make my communication as authentic as possible. So I was like... "OK, just imagine yourself naked, bare naked, absolutely nothing to hide, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually." In my head I actually imagined myself naked, this aided my purposes, hammered the point home... whenever a chick walked up I would just talk directly to her in that state. Bare naked in every way. No chodeliness came through because it was my pure essence, no thinking, but no ego constructs supporting me either. The result was totally unexpected. Virtually every single chick would smile and giggle uncontrollably at irrelevent shit like "how's it going" or "shitty weather" and be touching me in a matter of seconds for no apparent reason. I was like a magnet and they felt my core bare as a skeleton.


I feel this. Amazing words.

I picture myself on my knees, completely naked, arms spread wide with the force of armies pushing into and through me. Annihilate me! This is the feeling of freedom, release from fear and need to put any barriers between me and the world. All my shame, all my darkest secrets, my worst fears, my most intense desires, most vivid dreams and sweetest fantasies all laid completely bare and left out in the open to be loved, hated, made real or turned against me. Holding nothing back.

With all the barriers gone, all that's left is for me to pour myself outwards into the world. It might just be the look in my eyes that says "I'm hiding nothing" but whatever it is, it cuts through the day-to-day reality of people like hot lead demolishing the sound barrier. Gender, nationality, age, race, language, social status, class, all these things are just vaporized so hard that we're left speechless - reality: shattered. What comes next?

It's a scary way to live. It's terrifying to walk out your door and think "I'm going to lay my soul bare." People normally reserve this kind of bareness for some kind of ... olympic event. The last 100 meter dash. The grand performance of a master musician. It's powerful to think I don't need a context, a grand performance, fame or an audience to bring this kind of passion to my daily life. As long as I'm never so arrogant to think that I can control it, instead of the other way around. How deep does the rabbit hole go?
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PoP - wow, you just gave me a flashback.

I used to have dreams when I was a young lad of being in the supermarket and walking around with my mum with no pants on. LOL. Kind of in the period of 'developing' insecurities I guess, rather than celebrating my openess. I was actually a little pimp in preschool but programming got to me as I grew up...


Android - I drew some pictures exactly like what you're talking about with the universal studios logo on my blog - it's one of the last posts on there hand drawn with a pen tablet.
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When I was a kid I used to have dreams that I had gone out of the house and completely forgot to get dressed. Funny thing is I wouldn't realise until I got all the way to school.

Android - loved your post. I have to admit to not understanding it all fully yet, but loved it all the same.
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i think aa is a remnant of the old routine days where we-i included- used to go out "to pick up" aka value take, horny man, creepy man, hypnotizing-nlp weirdo. of course it makes sense to have aa because of this. you are being "sneaky, devious, palm reading, mindreading, canned-shit, dhv-lying, rat motherfucker - Ozzie

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Great stuff. I had a realization like this a few days ago. I realized my body is like a shell, not me. Then my mind would be like yea, thats not you, and I'd just be like shut up mind lol.
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Wow this post was forever ago, hehehe... its funny reading it now like 6 months later.
I can say this process has succumbed my being. I live like this day to day and it's glorious.
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