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December 8th, 2016
The more you get into the game, the stranger the world seems - The Glass Wall (long)
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Dr Feelgood

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 This is something I have been thinking about lately, it's an excerpt from my FR thread. It's big and freaky and scary, it is...


The Glass Wall

So you know about pick up. You know how to tease girls about their way of speaking and how to make talking about the weather fun. Drawing them in closer and later putting their hand on your cock comes to you naturally by now. You know how a girl looks when she is truly not interested and doesn’t just claim so – on the contrary you also know how a girl you never met before looks when she is ready to exchange saliva. You have had your tongue enter their mouths in under ten seconds, and you have had cute girls sitting next to you in a taxi late at night, both of you knowing how that evening would end. You have had girls telling you that you are too young or too old for them only to stick your tongue down their throat a couple of minutes later. You have had chicks responding to your texts whom you were sure wouldn’t reply – as well as the other way around. You sometimes find rejections funny. At the beginning of the night, when you are not really feeling it, you know it will become great and crazy within a few hours. You know that you can fully trust the process you have learned to love.

You know how it feels to push through huge levels of your anxiety and the great feeling of coming out on the other end. About that incredible feeling after just having fucked a new pretty girl, that vibrant feeling of being alive. Maybe you are doing the same thing every time after a new one leaves your apartment, maybe you got a ritual there, your own little celebration.

By now, you know a lot better who you are. It’s also no mystery anymore who the others surrounding you are: People in general and girls in particular. You have grown to love and to fully embrace that unpredictable, quirky, beaming female energy that makes no sense and is so much fun.

So you know about things society doesn’t know about and you often feel in a way society doesn’t feel – on Saturday evenings for example, or when watching a couple hand in hand. You somehow feel the difference between you and other people clearly.

There is something up between you and them. It’s hardly noticeable in some way, from the outside. You could look right through it. But it also feels massive, impenetrable. There is no way to get around it, even though you lived on the other side once, in the past, in seemingly ancient times. There is something in between you and them. It reaches into the sky and separates everything.

It’s the glass wall.

Run against it with all your power and be like a fly on the windscreen.

People around you, they still move and talk like they always have and you move and talk with them like you always have, because you know what works. How to behave to not make them shake their heads. Sometimes you have to be careful, you know that otherwise a huge discussion will be the result. Just be careful at your working place, at your friends house, in the shops, at the parties, with your family.  But sometimes the difference feels overwhelming. Sometimes people seem very mechanical and joyless to you and you even pity them. You see them clearly and you synchronize with them, but you can’t feel them anymore – you are detached. Because with your development, something has built up...

There is a glass wall, and it’s so massive you can sometimes hardly hear the people on the other side, and hardly can they hear you. For sure you can get in touch with them, but there is no touching.
You can see them clearly. You sometimes doubt that they can see you. Maybe The Glass Wall works like shades, like a one-way-see-through mirror?

The glass wall has been raised by you learning about game, and it will probably never be broken down again. It gives completely different meanings to you and to them when talking about the same things: When they ask you what you did last weekend, you just say you went out. But the words that leave your mouth and the words their ears receive are completely the opposite. It means something different. When they point out to you a pretty girl close by, but don’t even consider making a move, you know why they don't move, but they have no idea. You feel a bit of contempt. You wanted to use the word “chode” a couple of times, but then you remembered they don’t know its meaning.

The word “chode” has been popping up a lot in your head lately.

Say Saturday evening. There is no way for them to relate to the high of 20 approaches, two makeouts, a couple of phone numbers and a lot of craziness. Just as there is no way for you to relate to the craziness of spending the whole evening watching TV.

Take the word “girlfriend” for example, or “boyfriend”, words most people thrive towards. You are very skeptical, for you the word “girlfriend” somehow sounds very similar to the word “detention”. It also resembles the word “scarcity” phonetically. You secretly shake your head about many relationships, these people could have so much more – if they only took an effort! But they never will.

Some dude is telling you about going on the 5th date with a girl he hasn’t fucked yet, like this was normal in your world. This is funny to you, but also pathetic.

People ask you if you have a girlfriend. Maybe you give them a truthful answer only to see them totally confused. Maybe you tell them anything to make it simpler and less painful. When you say you don’t fuck around behind anybodies back, but you got several girls, you can see them pressed up against The Glass Wall with puzzled expressions of their faces – flat noses, trying to fathom what is going on over there at your side. People from the other side use the word “faithful” in such a strange way.

A female friend you are talking to tells you that you are stuck in puberty. She doesn’t know about the over-the-top evenings, and neither does she know about the self-development or the huge effort. She thinks everybody can take a girl home within three hours of meeting her. The chodes she calls her friends just don’t want to do that. They are more “relationship orientated” - even if they are talking about constantly.

If somebody somewhere sighs how he is doing everything for that girl but she still isn’t interested, you secretly sigh as well. For your surroundings to understand some issues, it would take hours and a lot of effort on your part. But you know it wouldn’t pay off, neither for you nor for them.

You tried to tell a friend about it once. Maybe he shrugged his shoulders and told you it was cool, but not for him. Maybe he contradicted what you were telling him, almost becoming angry. Rarely have you felt so separated from him like at that moment. But as you move on in your journey, the wall is rising.

People say you have grown, they say they see some positive development in you, but they can’t put their fingers on where it’s coming from. Explaining would mean explaining a shitload of other things, so maybe in most cases, you don’t bother.

You got different concerns than people on the other side of the wall. Maybe you think about how to fit that 4th girl into your rotation with the week only having 7 days or whether you should kick out number 2, while they are figuring out which beach to treat their girlfriend to on their once-a-year vacation.

If something doesn’t work out in your world, in THAT world, you can’t just ask your friends or your family for help – but you can switch on your computer and ask some people you have never met. Some of them really know their stuff. In some regards you feel more connected to them than to the people around you. But you have been making friends in real life lately, friends with people who are wandering on your side of that ridiculous wall as well. It feels a bit like a relief.

Will that thick layer of glass ever come down again? You don’t know, but you know you would never ever want to go back to the other side. But don’t worry, there are a lot of great people on this side of the wall! And some of the old ones you will keep in plain sight, even though they are not there with you.

So don’t be confused and don’t feel challenged when you find most of the world is on the other side of that fancy glass. It’s ok, and it’s even how it has to be. Can you imagine what your life would look like if the population only consisted of people knowing what you now know? The masses have to be not-knowing by definition. It’s true, it’s a strange thing. And that’s what it’s supposed to be.

After all, the world is a funny place.

And you get proof of this every weekend.
 

 
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NewAgeSamurai

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 Solid post man! Resonated really well with me. Especially not bothering to explain to people anymore.
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G-Money

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 Actually one of the best posts in the main forum for a while now. 

I appreciate the value, man. 
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abconetwothree

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Wow.

mind-blown. Write a book or write more often brah. However, the girlfriend thing didn't resonate with me as I don't look at it as detention, I thnk we all have our own version of success though
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Social_Rob

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This does a really good job of capturing the feelings a lot of guys here are probably going through, nice work dude
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Social_Rob

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Definitely sounds like some of the thoughts I've had
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Surion

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 You have some writing talent pal.
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Elijah

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jesustits...
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eatinxrice

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Awsome poetic post bro
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MARSZ00

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 I don't know what game you're playing, but the more I got into the game, the more simple the world seemed. It's simple: people are emotional. There. I summed up the behavior of others for you. 
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ChrisJR

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Join Date: 12/19/2012 | Posts: 32

 CUte.
Relate to it.

thanks.
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