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Dynamique

Dynamique

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Join Date: 02/14/2013 | Posts: 28

Welcome to Dynamique's experiences with serendipity!

Hello - Szia - Servus - Hola everybody!

Serendipity follows me since many years, on a business related level and likewise in my everyday life. And it is another day where surprises amuse me and i wonder why I dont force this moments where I just take whats out there, dealing with it and making it fun. making with life what it is for: enjoying it.

What got me here and who is Dynamique:
  My name is Johannes and right now I live in Vienna, Austria right now. Dynamique or Dyna is a name who i carry around since the Internet days started for me. The name is weird, not well chosen but it brings up so many experiences of my life that i smile using it in a forum again. This is the time to add some more experiences to it. I am 27 years old and work in Vienna right now. A place I have to start loving again after being abroad again last year and feeling that my home town doesnt offer what I am looking for. With this thought I also know that its up to me to make "it" happen.
  As I grew older its funny to look back and to see all the missed chances in my life so far and still being surprised and proud of who I am nowadays. Girls always liked me but I didnt get it, too much resistance, deep psychological fear of getting closer, not seeing my values so it took me a while till I started having sex and all in all ended up with spending most of my time in relationships. Spending a year in Barcelona and my flatmate by introducing me to the game opened my eyes in 2008. Being abroad and realizing that I can change things the way I wanted was a instant shift. Since then I live the live I want, try to make it happen. But there are still sticking points.

Why I stick to the game over such a long period and still feel the need of climbing a new plateau:
   I always felt that what I do is not what i want to be. That my friends are fine but that they dont share my ambitious perception of life. I wanna make the best out of it, enjoying the greatest girls and improving myself to a new level all the time. I was too much driven by external forces. Reading about the game and a lot of stuff my dad actually gave me even before (but i avoided it - c'mon, who wouldnt think getting "the way of the superiour man by david deida by his dad is weird... - i learned, and i appreciate it now - i am so lucky with my unconventional family). Anyway these things helped me to step up: means ending up in a relationship half a year later with a really great hse girl. But even this girl did not fullfill me. simply because i lacked experience, that i didnt live things i wanted to live and because i still felt that i can not decide things. i couldnt turn things in a way I want them. I still felt that I want the greatest girls and that i dont wanna feel uncomfortable that often in random situations, where there is no need to be it. Ending this relationship right before going abroad to budapest for a year was another breaking point in my life. i felt that i can do what i want now and i did, improving my game massivly. or i should rather say i was able to express my personality better to girls and i was able to realize more that girls wanted me all along. But I ended up in the same spiral as before: my social circle that holds me back. i dont have a problem making friends, but i have a problem with ditching them, or even saying no to the ones i really like when i feel like i need to improve my things. therefore i did spend an amazing year there, going out 5 times a week but repeating the same emotions all over, only being able to step out of the group to approach 20% of the time it would have been possible. going back to vienna gave me the feeling that all this great experiences did not happen or that i have to live the life here like i did it before. working, heaving fun with the same people as before but not stepping up.

Goals:
   But its 2013 now. My year. Fully motivated. Why? Julien thought its smart to improve his german a bit in Vienna. I could attend the Hot Seat putting all this content I read and saw over the last years in some kind of order and to make decicions: the decicions to change things regardless if i dissapoint other  people, as long as i dont dissapoint myself. Realizing that a friend of me is totally into the game too and uses FRs to review his actions opened my eye to rsd nation which i didnt see the point of following before. - After the hot seat i set my goals and here they are: # Being myself and showing my intent, not dissapointing the girls that actually like me but i am not man enough to fullfill what they have in mind. # Realizing that I am enough and that i have to live in the now - I always think too much and I wanna stop this mental nonsense. # Keep going out without drinking to become the awesome player i was in budapest but without being drunk. # approaching the girls i really am attracted to: i always chicken out. and therefore dont dealing with my real fears. i wanna put my real personality on the line. and i wanna be able to do this where i enjoy it the most: with hot girls. that means as well calibrationg after the fact, especially in daytime when i am out of state but still see the beauty passing by. # Being persistence and not giving up till its a defenite now # managing my sticking point of last minute resistance and keeping the energy up after having attracted the girl. # Having Fun! Doing what I want and take action, in all fields (Job, Hobbies, Girls, ..) - Therfore i wanna stick to my plan of action which is going out at least three times a week mainly with wings and if not possible with my social circle but not taking this as an excuse not to approach.

Yes, I will write even more: field reports:
   As I am new but finally love the Idea of field reports to keep me motivated I gonna write more about my experiences here. I will follow the layouts I have seen here before describing the whole week in one posting keeping it compact, concentrating on the essentials (i like to write, but really have to drop this a bit mor ;) I wanna use it as my time of reflection of the previous nights and as kind of a diary to see how I improved.


Let's keep living an awesome life, cant wait to continue it!

All the best,

Dyna
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Zonk~

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Join Date: 04/12/2012 | Posts: 91

Hey!

It was a real surprise to find out that you are also part of the community. It's so funny, you never now everything about your friends. ;)
Great that you commit yourself fully to the process, now. I'm sure with the right wings and if you really stay on track, you'll be very successful. As I think you actually are a kind of semi-natural like me and you have a good basis.

Looking forward to head out with you, the first time dedicated to game. ;)

cheers,
Zonk~
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Zonks~ time in Vienna - adventures of a Wiener
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Mountaineer-~

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Whatsup!

Guess we will be having a lot of fun!

Cheers!
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Dynamique

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Join Date: 02/14/2013 | Posts: 28

oh yes, lets make it happen :)
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Dynamique

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Week 001 (11.02.2013 – 17.02.2013)

Hello everyone! Let’s get this started! This week was important because by accident I got to know that a friend of mine is also into the game and into the rsd community (Zonk~, check out his threads!). That gave me the motivation to give rsd-nation a try and to realize why it’s important to sum up my experiences in field reports.
As my motivation is massive since January (as well caused by attending the Julien HotSeat in Vienna) I keep going out mainly to approach, I set my goal to go out at least three nights a week. So here’s my week:


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Monday/Tuesday

My FB / “girlfriend” from Budapest was visiting me since Saturday. Spent my time mainly with her at in bed or going to exhibitions and a concert. Besides that, had to work during the days.

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Wednesday/Thursday

As I got new responsibilities at my job I am attending a workshop for a new project where lots of important figures are attending too. I focus on this, recover from the heavy weekend and relax in the evenings with reading Seth Godins “Poke the Box”, practicing guitar and doing some exercises (last two things are two main goals for this year, getting playing the guitar handled and working on my body / posture)

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Friday

I meet a girl I met last week through a friend and focused on her on my Friday night at grelle forelle the day after – couldn’t fuck her back then even though I was already in front of her door. She has this “principle” - I always think that girls identify me with the boyfriend material. But in this case I probably escalated already too much within the club – Anyway: It’s a short date because she has to pick up her sister from the train station later and because she is late. It was a spontaneous date and obviously she took some effort into looking good. It might be a shit test too – who cares, I don’t have problems being on my own reading.
I accompany her to the train station to say hello to her sister before splitting up, she is heading to the airport and I am going to meet Zonk~ and Mountaineer-~ at their favorite place (could turn out to be my favorite starting place too). I was super relaxed and therefore had two longer sets. The first without physicality the second with more intent. But the girls are not my type. Heading over to a club with Berlin-based dj apparat. The guys stayed at the other place and therefore after chatting a little bit with my sister I was there with, I am approaching some more girls and adding a little more to each interaction. Its only since January that I don’t feel nervous being on my own in a club environment. Anyway: I realize I avoid the really hot girls. It’s a big sticking point of mine cause I deal too much time with girls that I am actually not attracted to.
I have fun with some girls chatting, arousing them but often feel bad ejecting of sets where the girl is totally into me but she is not fully my type. I often exchange facebook or number then anyway. Gives me headache when I get a text the next day. – I approach another girl who says she knows me already because her ex is now together with my ex. Funny story. She is into me and wants to drink something. We chat a lot (she tells me that she is totally into unattached sex right now), we go back to the dance floor. She is really to the point. We kiss and dance before she ask me if I want to go home with her. But it makes no sense, she has her period… - She tells me already when we can meet again but I am not sure if it makes sense. It feels she wants it too much because of some unfinished business with her ex and I didn’t feel the arousal in her that much. It was all a bit fake. But why not enjoying this easy target. – She leaves and I dance a lot to great electronic music and only approach a little, the place is too dark – u can’t see how the girls actually look. Had to run away from two sets after realizing that the dark is in their favor  - I dance and get surrounded by girls. Some approach me but all of them are not my type at all. Anyway it feels good realizing that just being myself and enjoying myself is actually the best way to attract girls. – What I realized a lot tonight: running a tyler-like monologue between sets helps me being in state and not thinking when I am approaching. Helps me to put my personality on the line immediately when I run into a girl.

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Saturday

What a weird night. It’s like someone wanted to show me the opposite of the night before. As I didn’t sleep enough after Friday night I already had to push myself to go to a birthday event of a friend. So many stunners there that I don’t know, but all with their boyfriends aside. I don’t even try to talk to them. I could at least had some friendly conversation and female energy. A friend talks me into taking a drink and therefore I arrive later at the next bar where I meet Zonk~ and Mointaineer-~ but more important: Because of this I feel stressed: Being late and not having sticked to my resolution: no alcohol. In the next bar I don’t really open, I stick to sets the others are in. These are going quiet well. Being relaxed. It’s hard for us to find a solution where and how to go and because it is already 3am when we arrive at the club I kinda got into a high-energy feeling and the mindset of “I have to own it now”. I don’t feel relaxed, I am too high energy and to physical of the bet. The first set was probably a trigger point for the rest of the night. i tried to go in very physical but as she turns by accident in the very last second the move is not that smooth and i go blank very fast. i feel she doesnt want me to continue and talk to the rest of the group where i end up talking with instead of the target. then they leave the club. The other set that brought me into my head was a two set at the bar where i went in aloe and thought i get winged earlier. But in this way it was just me and the girl i was talking to was actually blocking the target. making fun of germans was not the right move - they close down and leave even thogh i keep it funny. - this rejection only because of the fun i made finishs it all - from that moment i think all the time about what to say....  completely in my head, not trusting my faculties. Getting rejected because of what I say and therefore not passing the test makes it even worse, I try hard to say the right things. – Therefore the night is only a lesson in the sense of willpower. Go in again. And again… But only at the end I realize it doesn’t help me if I go in again and do it all the same. The way I did it was the perfect and bad buyer-frame example. After at least 10 sets with awful results I learned a lot and could ask myself some new questions. Most important: Very often I have amazing results right after opening but seeing the glance in their eyes and kind of feeling that I don’t deserve her (I am not enough!) it ends really fast. Gives me an awful feeling because I kind of disappoint the girls. They expect the cool guy who then turns out not to be as confident as they thought. In most of my sets I was to physical and therefore couldn’t hold the arousal. Sometimes I think it feels even better to be rejected in the first way. But I don’t care. Lesson learned.

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Sunday

Lack of sleep, therefore: relaxing, reading, keeping in touch with some girls and arranging a day2.


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Conclusions

Realizing that the relaxed Alexander method is actually the only one that suits my life and the way I am I had to struggle with a lot of changes and trying new things. This trying was probably the cause of so many bad results. I had a lot of moments where I was just me, being relaxed and enjoying everything. But I will not be happy with opening sets where the girl is not a challenge or compared to other girls in the environment doesn’t reach my high standards. I have to go where it hurts. Dealing with different concepts now I ask the question what is state and do I need it? I always thought in terms of “warm-up-sets” and the celebrating-me-with-me concept to feel relaxed before opening the real challenge that I did avoid before. And I ask myself: How do u leave a set that went wrong? I always feel bad and defeated, like I dont deserve to stay there anymore, and if i do that I am the super chode who annoys the girl.

Sticking points:

Definitely not feeling enough when I approach really hot girls or even struggling with aa and not putting myself in the uncomfortable situation in the first way. I avoid approaching 2-sets or groups where men are included.
In interactions my state is too much affected by the results the girl gives me. Therefore I project an outcome-depending personality.
All this gives me nuts because I am really good in social circle game and warm approaches. There I am myself, girls love me. Doing cold approach feels like I have to be someone else, doing something else in order to get the results. Why can’t my mind process that it’s the same situation. A girl is a girl is a girl. Doesn’t matter where I got to know her from.
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Mountaineer-~

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Hey!

Good stuff yesterday, you have great potential! I'm very sure that Alexander~s stuff will resonate with you strong!

Anyway, here's my take on your questions:

"I have to go where it hurts." - yes, definitely. this is the place where you grow! wink

"Dealing with different concepts now I ask the question what is state and do I need it?" - after you've seen Alexander~s stuff and internalize that you're enough the concept of "state" won't make any sense to you anymore. if you have the feeling that you're enough you don't need to amp up your mood or whatever to be able to approach and get the girl...

"always thought in terms of “warm-up-sets” and the celebrating-me-with-me concept to feel relaxed before opening the real challenge that I did avoid before." - thats the fucking awesome thing in the chillback style. you don't need to "warm up" because you're already enough. only thing is to chill the fuck out in the first place (some people don't feel relaxed right from the get go)

"And I ask myself: How do u leave a set that went wrong? I always feel bad and defeated, like I dont deserve to stay there anymore, and if i do that I am the super chode who annoys the girl." - I normally unconsciously reframe a "rejection" immediately to "I'm a fucking cool dude offering value to everyone. This girl here is obviously too dumb to get it. Anyway, it's her loss". And this is not me whitewashing things but what I really think!


Cheers!

PS: warm approach is gay wink
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Dynamique

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Thanks for the response. Cant wait to digg deeper into Alex's stuff. Weird that i sticked to the stuff of the other RSD instructors for so long without taking notice of the potential Alex's material has.
Can't wait for another session, especially at grelleforelle, the girls were amazing yesterday.

Haha, yes you are right: warm approach is gay. By this its official that you will never lay any of my hot female friends :D
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Zonk~

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Servas!

I can agree with most of the things Mountaineer-~ already wrote. 

One of the biggest epiphanies I had with Alexanders~ stuff is that you don't need state. There is no state. Forget it. You are always enough. Or you could also say, you're always in state. There are no high energy entertaining moves needed. I think most of the time it seems unreal anyway. And latest when you're in a longer interaction with the girl or at a day2 with her, she will recognize that you're not really this state-thing, you seam to be the first time you met. In the long-run, state doesn't work from my point of view.

I think I know you good enough to be sure that Alexanders~ method will fit perfectly for you.

What I recognized while we were going out is that you put some girls on a pedestal. Especially the hot one. I know, it's easier to say it than to feel or do, but the girls are all the same. They want all the same (sex. haha). I guess when you get more the "I'm enough" feeling, this pedestal thing will disapare or at least decrease.

cheers, 
Zonk~


PS: Warm approach isn't gay. it's also part of our lifes. As long as you don't get all your girls fromt he social circle I don't see a problem. I know, Mountaineer-~ and I will never have the same opinion about it. So, as Mountaineer-~ doesn't want to get in touch with your hot friends, you can introduce them to me. ;)
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Mountaineer-~

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if you don't fuck your hot female friends (hääää, WTF??? WHY???) then I can do it of course...

but the main focus has to be cold approach. that's the only thing that really makes you independent of literally everything and builds up your CORE CONFIDENCE which brings you forward in every area of your life!

Cheers!
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Dynamique

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true story friends! its cold approach where u find out who you are. so i have to keep digging...
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My first full week after joining rsdn. I enjoy it and getting deeper into Alexanders Method (as I was focused on Tyler and Julien before) brings up some questions. Alexanders Method suits me perfectly or rather that’s what I did before, but there is still a lot to work to do on my biggest problems like intent and leading. Alexanders Idea of just talking and having an investment level of 80to20 makes total sense, but I was used to a different concept: in the beginning its good of course to talk a lot but later it should flip. Let her invest so she is emotionally attached to me and doesn’t want to “loose” this investment so easy. That meant that I should even shut up most of the time and let her talking. Julien talks about it as well once. So what is right, what is wrong? Is it about the situation? I could talk forever but I thought maybe this missing investment from her side caused some of my LMR when I had them already in bed or when it was not possible to pull them home even after a really good d2. Whats your guys experience about it? – Another thing that clicked this week was caused by comment by a friend of mine who said that it’s actually a problem for me that girls react so good automaticly to me (my hight, smile,…) that having eye contact and a little flirting with girls from the distance actually helps me in not taking action. Like my body tells me: “you could have her if you want, if you want…” – I think it would even more help me if I would never get this reactions, I would have to react even more. But anyway, this is something I will work on now. Massively going out and going into the pain-area to find out more about myself. Can’t wait!

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Monday

Meeting a girl that I met Saturday. It’s not an honest cold approach because we have friends in common (Zonks~ FB is a friend of her). Anyway that makes it easier but also gives me the realization that I should actually try to tread every person I meet from now on like my friends that I know from forever. I could even implement a “You are a friend of… right?” into the conversation to simply seed the thought that we know each other already. Anyway: Like always I am shooting the shit at the day2 date – its super smooth – especially when I am really attracted by the girl. I simply have to follow my emotions, physicality is natural everytime I figure something out that I like about her. but also my sticking points are the same and come to light. I follow Alexanders system of talking, making her aroused and relaxed and talking endless stuff, Like I did even before getting to know his concepts. I realize that my office is in such a good location to some of my favourite bars (as well as Zonks~ and Mountaineers-~ favourite) that I set a goal: having sex in the office in the soon future (I wonder if I could have done it already today but I felt it was too early in the interaction, not on enough – but maybe I am even seeing this wrong and girls are on earlier than I thought). After an exhibition and a drink I bring her there cause she was wondering what I am doing exactly. We go for another drink which is perfectly aligned with the way to my flat. There I can do more and more physical escalation with my hands. At one point she says, but in a lovely way that she thinks I am sometimes to flirtatiuous, especially with my eyes. She thinks I do it with all the girls (which is probably true, all girls that I like). I can easily and confident talk about it, therefore its off the table. Its totally on in the bar before leaving and making out the first time. BUT: like always I suck in making the move and pulling her home. Too little persistence in asking her, not knowing how to deal with it, what excuses to make up to make the movie plot line real for her. Also the date lasts too long, I should try to shorten it and move on to my place as soon as I am sure its on (even though spending more time doesn’t harm either). She even says (probably wondering whats going on) that I am the first guy not asking her to come home with her. This is such a big sticking point and has always been all my life long that I really have to discuss this with you guys. Its not only bad for me, I don’t want to even think how many girls I lost that way and that were graving for sex but got disappointed by me. I think to rational by thinking “I have to get up in 6 hours so I better don’t bring her home – there will be another chance” – I don’t want it enough. What am I afraid of? Why not pushing it, insisting on her to come with me (as I could like I saw by moving her out of the metro at my stop) – I still have to internalize a way of bringing up solutions for problems like julien does it. I mean, he solves hundreds of such shit tests before bringing her home (and takes care of the camera guy at the same time..). Am I afraid of being the man and doing what I like? Am I feeling like the girl doesn’t want it and I have to convince her into something she doesn’t like? (what obviously isn’t true, just the playfull game of push pull lets me think like this). The night ends with a text of her saying I should have joined her to her place by jumping back into her metro train. - Give me some advice please!

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Tuesday

After a super tired sleep I take a quick nap before meeting a friend (not on rsdn, I will try to bring him here ;) and we hit Dbar. He is super late because he thought I will call him once I am there. The place is almost empty, live music is playing. I get something to drink at the bar and have a cute g irl next to me, but her being totally into conversation with her friends and the fact that its such a chilled and empty atmosphere brings up aa. Wtf… I have to get this shit handled immediately! Later my friend comes and we have really cool talks, check out the venue when he approaches this girl just to me :D (fair enough, I should live real pain for not having approached her). I join the set and realize she focuses completely on me even though I haven’t done anything. I could immediately take her over but it comes to my mind that it’s a no go to take over a girl my friend opened. Therefore I back off and feel how stupid I was. What kind of thoughts do I always run in my mind before approaching? What do I expect that will happen? No even telling myself: be in the moment, there is nothing around, no reason why I shouldn’t, I didn’t overcome it. Even worse she asks why I didn’t talk to her in the beginning when I was obviously waiting (is it bad when people “figure” that u are wayiting, that you are alone? Does it mean I don’t proeject that I am comfortable with the situation?)

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Wednesday


Chill out at home, guitar, relaxing. Tough days before

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Thursday

Going out with colleagues from work to dbar. Too early, no sets around. We are a big group so I thought I can eject sometimes but in the end, even though the place fills up with pretty girls I only talk a little to bypassing girls. No real interaction. I have to work on this: going out with friends and still approaching. Seems like I still feel judged if I eject and approach. I produce thoughts in my head like what will they think if I burn in the set. Have to stop this immediately. Like Julien said in his latest video: You can flip around everything so who cares what happens. - Everyone left early, I should have stayed by myself but decided to leave as well to be fresh the next day.

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Friday

Meeting my best friend and another Wing in Dbar. My Wing is late so I am only with my friend and like the night before, that prevents me from starting. Even though I am in an extremely good mood. We open a set of three girls and stay there at their table but as the first lines are not hitting reaction I avoid keep on going on it. I should have just talked rubbish. Who cares if they listen. One girl of them was into me but as she was the shyest one of the group she followed the others in blocking us. As we run into an old friend we have a basic talk about the old times (damn, why everyone goes into this bar??). Finally my Wing arrives and I can focus more.I see the girl from Monday evening and Zonks~ FB on their usual spot in the bar. I eject my group to talk to them for a while. Good vibe. Good practice in how to deal with her talking to other guys. Fully assuming that I am the center of interest and that she should cut the cord to the others when I am coming. My wing occupies Zonks FB as she seems kind of tired. My friend leaves and after building up tension with my girl the three of us leave as well to say goodbye to Zonks FB outside. I am glad I know the City so well so I pick a bar which is half way to her place to go for another drink. Really good talking, Little makeout before leaving. She wants to leave home by cab but I stay strong (what wasn’t always the case) and lead the way to her flat by walking. In front of her Door she gives me shit as well till she invites me for a tea. Its on in the flat till we are almost naked and she gives me some more shit like “she cant, she has some unfinished business with someone else” … Actually that’s another sticking point of mine that I am really bad in breaking LMR. Even though I stay strong and back of a little bit before arousing her even more which ends in having sex. But not enough, after that she starts saying: “you are like all the other guys, you tricked me into this” and I have a hard time refraiming it. Any suggestions to it? Of course I wanna take all the responsibility. Anyway I switch the topic very fast and it is all fine. After 2 hours of sleep at her place I leave to my place to catch the bus to Budapest – What a nightmare, deprived from sleep I am going to see my FB/”Girlfriend” and very good Friends who have only party in mind.
Conclusion: Good reference experience in leading her home and breaking her lmr. I still have the problem of approaching when I am with friends. I still feel like I need a warmup period before I am really “me”. I will focus more on my interests, what makes it fun for me so that a set that doesn’t go well doesn’t block my thinking and ability to talk endlessly as it sometimes happen. I am curious if going to the same bar all the time will end up in knowing all the girls and a having a huge orgy cause Zonk, Mountaineer-~ and me already had them all :D

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Saturday

A tough day: sleeping a little more in the bus before meeting my girl in Budapest. Pit stop at her place for great sex. Its pretty bad when you had sex twice in a short time and one is a girl you are used to. Shows me how good sex can actually be if the chemistry fits and u are used to the girl. I guess that’s not the best thought for living abundance  - I leave her friends to meet my other friends (no one is into game, but the accept my way of having nothing else in mind than girls) – we party and hit a really good venue which is stacked with gorgeous girls. I realize what a big difference it is to Vienna anf hope I can bring my wings from Vienna here soon for an awesome weekend. I eject from my friends and walk around by myself, looking for sets. I run into 3 hot but young girls and I keep the conversation even though I am not really rocking. Language barriers ends up in me talking mainly with one (but the hottest) girl and occupying the others. Pretty solid set till a security comes and tells them that a drink they obviously brought inside from somewhere else is not allowed. They have to throw it away and I leave as well. Stupid, I should have followed them or rather told them to come back immediately. But my ego didn’t want to follow them in a needy way so I move on. I am hitting another dancefloor and just chill for a second. A girl comes closer – eye contact, she touches my chest and I go in for an instant makeout. Almost sweet because she plays it better than I do and after a quick kiss she bites my tounge – WTF? I push her away in a playfull way and look for other girls. I find one cute blond just staying next to the entry so I open her (after hesitating very little – shit, the hotter the girl, the more problems it still causes me. I have to fight this!) – we have a good talk before I lift her up to the dancefloor were we dance closer for a little while. Its to loud to talk so we go outside. Good talk but I end up to fast in the “how old are you”- topic and it ends up getting to know that she is only 18. Damn, that shifts my thoughts and I am not comfortable anymore. But actually I should give a shit. She is hot. But I feel I cant really relate and feel like a :D she feels my uncomfortable way and ejects. I kiss her goodbye and leave. My stupid friends left the venue to another bar to get drunk and want me to join. I look around but see only one hot set were I excuse before meeting my friends (real pain! This pain will push me in the future to never excuse again!) – its really the perfect venue for approaching as there are 34 dancefloors, lots of area to talk and so many girls. – andyway, after the bar we head to a club. On the way I talk to some girlsfriends of my friends. Man, a fitness world champion but my friend is already hitting on her so I am too late – or am I not? Big question if I could simply relax and chill till she is into me and by that its not my fault that she likes me more then him.. but he doesn’t leave her side so its not worth thinking about it. The club we go to is usually packed but not tonight, its to expensive. Therefore it’s a weird night and I only approach some girls on the dancefloor. The interactions don’t lead nowhere cause I always end up in the same threads and lack of vomiting random things. A real hotty comes with two hipster guys and I excuse again cause I am obviously not “enough” to approach her in front of them. Outside I flirt around with some girl of our group, its on, but I don’t know how to handle it cause the logistics are shit (staying at my friends place and she lives far away) so it is too much in my head as that I can enjoy it. I playfully try to kiss her but she backs of, quickly after we leave anyway.
Conclusion: Actually a good night because I could finally eject from a normal friends group and approach. Unfortunately the girls were too young or I did lack talking-skills. There is still a lot of inner game to do. Going for instant makeouts and just joking around is a good reference of the night as I am usually to afraid of risking things and this will help me in the future to shorten down sets that otherwise take too much time and end up nowhere. Young girls should not “frighten” me.

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Sunday

We change the plans and actually only chill out the whole day in coffee places and bars before going to a quiet weird and chilled flat party. My FB/GF is with us so instead of forcing the club I arouse the both of us so we can’t wait to get home and have sex. Only 4 hours of sleep before taking the bus and working in Vienna right afterwards. The weekends are not to relax lately. I need to take care of my recourses’, I am sure my body can’t take this forever. Could have ditched the girl t go out again but as I had to get up early anyway I did choose the easy choice.

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Conclusion

As I mentioned before a big sticking point is going out with friends and approaching while being together with my normal social circle. Also the beginning of the night is still a problem. I am not me and too much in my head. I just have to admit that I am enough and that it doesn’t matter what I am talking. I have to make the night and the interactions as much fun for myself (!!) as I can.

I don’t really know how to deal with girls who are to young and therefore are totally out of my reality even though they are smokin’ hot.
Like last week I still have to dig the pain. I have to go into the hard sets even if that means going blank. By focusing on my skills and myself amusement I should be able to handle this easily like I usually can when its warm approach. I have to admit that I am the alpha and stop being afraid of other group members of the girl or even some imaginary scenarios that pop up into my head.

I never wanna be the asshole so I have a hard time as well with dealing with the girls after sex. How to deal with comments like “you are like all the others – you tricked me into this”. Or even if there are no shit tests, how to end the “set” after having sex? How to leave, how to kick her out? I always feel guilty and/or responsible for keeping the girls company. By doing that I will have a hard time to have SNL and going back to the club. How to go back to the club if the friends of the girl are there as well? Or do you guys send her home? Feedback guys, even though it might be to farfetched at the moment.

It was an exhausting week. I have to be more at the cause of the situations, not loosing so much time by stupid sets or just being inactive. I also don’t assume the lay so its hard to create a scenario where I can pull her home. No intent in this direction. I didn’t get the whole afterparty plots yet, so I always wait endless till its almost the girl who drags me home and not me. I have to elarn that there is a solution to every problem. And these problems are either the shittests of the girl or that the situation is not like I wanna have it. Than I have to make it happen that the situation turns out like I want it to be. Taking actions. That’s the final word.

See you next week
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