Welp this is probably the best night I'm gonna have for a while. I was sober too...damn.
Went out to phoenix with nate and brian. Really good wings they put you in the right headspace. I kissed a lot of girls, pretty much everything opened. Dave7 paradigm tonight. No stress when I'm opening or talking. The girls get massively attracted. Sets I remember:
Cute korean chick maintained man to woman vibe with her. She asks me to help her find girls for her friends, I switch the topic back to us. Really good set it was all in the subcommunications can't describe too well.
Blonde chick I stare into her eyes as I'm talking to her super calm. She kisses me to break the silence. Asks me to escort her around the bar.
Mexican chick I start talking about some random shit like "Yeah blahblah---" stop myself mid sentence, look down, "your boobs are amazing." Stare at her boobs for a while. She finds it hillarious. Look deeply into her eyes and touch her boobs. She says, "OMG YOU CAN'T." I say something like, "well why are you wearing a low cut top so i can see them?" Sly smile on my face and try to touch them again. She's loving it and says, "nooo you're an asshole!" She starts kissing me so I don't touch her boobs anymore. Her friend comes over and I claw both of them and get both of them to kiss each other. They are shy about it so they only do a little peck. Meh.
Some brunette I approach walking through the hallway. I forget what I open with but she says something like, "you're really sweet and really cute. but i have to go to the bathroom," I say something like "fine then i'm going to wait here and harass you when you come out." I don't see her until later in the night when the bar is closing, reopen, she says, "you didn't harass me when i came out of the bathroom!" I say that we're leaving and say goodbye. She's giving me puppy eyes but I leave. Dunno why I did this, shoulda gone for the pull. See her walking home with some other dude as we're driving to the roosevelt to do street beasting. Derp.
Roosevelt lobby is empty as fuck. Joke around with nate and Brian how it's fucking popping. Walk into the diner, nate approaches come blond chick and her fat slob drunken friend. Brian and I refuse to wing this abomination hahahah. Btw nate's standards are so fucking retardedly high. Most girls are ugly to him. But he showed me some of the girl's he's fucked and they're pretty hot.
Two hot bitchy asian chicks are walking into the diner from outside. Me n nate approach them. I tell mine she's cute. She says she knows (ooohhh another asian hot k). We talk for a little while. We go get food at the diner together. This girl really starts to like me after a while. There was a point where I stare deeply into her eyes as there's a pause, she says, "omg why are you staring at me! I feel so self conscious." The girl buys me fries. She's grasping my hands and hugging me and rubbing against me. She's qualifying herself about the kinds of people she's dated and where she went to school. Eventually nate has to move his car, we offer to give the girls a ride home. They come with us. We pull to their apartment. Suddenly the girl starts shit testing me out of nowhere (read: crazy asian girl), "i only fuck white guys" "you don't even have a six pack." Alas, I failed one of the many shit tests she gave me and I was done. I also made error in not persisting even after she flipped. She would not come with me to her bedroom, and told me to go check it out myself. Nate gives me a lot of advice regarding this situation and how to handle it in the future.
Very fun night anyway.
P.S. FUCK ANXIETY. Girls don't respond to it and it's unneccessary to spend a night pumping yourself with anxiety and adrenaline.
Rough day in general. Spent most of the day trying to write this essay for a class which shouldn't require that much fucking work. Had an argument with my parents over the phone which made me feel deflated. Went to a school bonfire and spent the whole time talking to some japanese girl that has a crush on me. Went out to Lure really tired but approached with andy's help. Nothing special happened. Had a drink randomly thrown at me by someone I couldn't see. It was extremely sugary and fucking got all over my hair and clothes. . Walked outside to leave and got called a loser by some drunk girl and her friend who I didn't even approach. Went home and found a picture on facebook tagged of me when I was around 8 years old eating an ice cream cone with my brother. I was really happy back then.
well this weekend sucked. and i'm just judging myself on taking action and not any reactions i had. once i get myself to consistently perform the right process each night, i'll probably be really consistent. only once in a few nights out do I actually get momentum. my fr's from here on will be more focused on what I do as far as action and not any kind of reaction I get. It's just too much mental masturbation anyway. I'll probably post less in general unless it's a LR.