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December 9th, 2016
Adventures of an EX-CHODE.
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BeastPirate

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(or at least the process of becoming an ex-chode, if you prefer)

So, I have made some decisions. Since I can't seem to be able to keep things to myself, and since I don't have any friends who are into RSD (maybe except my cousin, who is quite a busy guy and lives in another country) I decided to start these chronicles of me saying what is going on every night I go out. I began to read Pilgrimage2012's journal and I loved it:

Dude,

you rock.


So I have decided to start this on my own.

I have been into this forum and in the game since March 2012 (yeah, I'm a newbie) but RSD was the one thing that changed my life the most! The reason I am doing this, is for me to see my progress and in the end, when I get good at this, I hope this journal will also be inspiring to other people who start their journey. Plus, I thought it would be really fun if I had all my experiences together summed up in a thread (it will be really hilarious to read this in a few years).

I know I'm not the best writer either but writing is definitely an area that I want to improve, as well.

Some things I want to work on:

- I don't go out consistenly, my mind made really good excuses about that (I live 40 minutes away from the center of Stockholm by train, I live with my sister, my cousin and his family), so my logistics are not really the best. BUT. these are all excuses, because I CAN bring women back to this place, I HAVE a private room and a double bed and I could also sleep at a girl's place, so in the end this shouldn't be a problem. I want to go out at least 3 days a week in the night.

- Create passive income streams so that I don't have to worry about money so much (I am already into something that could help)

- Finish my studies (I have 3 years of studies at least ahead of me).

- Have a more healthy and meaningful lifestyle (work out, eat healthy, meditate, travel, grow)

I have been doing a lot of daygame by myself, for 2 reasons: 1. I want to eliminate all approach anxiety, 2. I want to be able to make progress by myself, rather than NEEDING wingmen.

so, let's do this! shades
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I have been going out for daygame everyday, here's what happened:


Monday 10.9.12
My original goal was to do 5 approaches, but after two hours of pointlessly walking around without having the balls to do it (I know it's pretty chody, but that's the point, expanding the comfort zone.. plus, I was alone) I decided that my only criteria for success was to do one approach NO MATTER THE RESULT. I was scared shitless but in the end I managed to do it! Pretty funny because she blew me off from the beginning, and after that I was like "YES, I DID IT" in the middle of the street, doing hand gestures and jumping around. haha. BUT, right after my first approach, before I leave, I see another cute girl and, without even thinking, BOOM, approach!
- Hi, I just saw you and I wanted to meet you, I think you're cute
- (after taking a moment to realize what just happened) THAAANKS, haha *anime eyes*
- What's your name? ....

Unfortunately her train came too soon and I didn't close her but it was nice to see that this shit worked when my state went up because of my goal accomplishment :)


Tuesday 11.9.12
Again I am roaming the crowded streets of Stockholm trying to approach, which is really hard because no girl seems to be in the mood for that. everybody seems to be on their way, not trying to have fun or meet other people, everybody has their own reality which doesn't involve you hitting on them. teeth But I was determined to do it anyway. Again, it took me approximately 2 hours to do my first one, but today I did 3 :) I noticed how my state went down as long as I didn't talk to anyone. I mean, you hear from Tyler and the others all the time "build momentum" "do as many sets as fast as you can, otherwise your state will go down" and other stuff like that, but you can't really believe it until you've experienced it for yourself.

Another thing about today, I was sooo frustrated that I didn't have anyone who gets me to share this with, trying to make people who are not into RSD understand and share my experiences, failures and successes but it is SO much harder than I thought. I wished that I would meet people who are into this so I started searching in RSD for people who live in Stockholm.


Wednesday 12.9.12
I don't know what it is, call it luck or destiny, while daygaming today, I actually met a whole group of people who were REALLY into RSD and were daygaming at the time! I couldn't believe that a day after I wished this it actually happened! I guess that's what happens when you go out and expose yourself to such things. We did some sets together, pushed each other, I actually got into state and started vomiting pretty solidly. I did 5 sets in total, because most of the time I was busy getting to know the new guys and curiously watching how they were going through their daygame. Fun timez! I got their facebooks and numbers and I think I also got myself a really good wingman! shades

On the other hand, 5 approaches when in state is very few, I should probably amp it up a little bit.

Thursday 13.9.12
I decided to meet with one of the guys I met yesterday for daygame. He is more experienced than me, older too, so I was really excited to see how it turns out. We decided to point at each other at first, to eliminate approach anxiety (mostly on my part) and we did. I did approximately 5 sets. I couldn't feel entitled though and I could feel that because I was in my head, not being able to talk freely (vomit, as Brad calls it smile). I was talking to my wing all the time saying all kinds of bullshit that came into my mind in order to enable the million dollar mouth piece.

A really funny/awkward approach i did today: there was a girl walking, holding her bicycle and talking on the phone. I approach her. Before even saying a word, she immediately uses her hand to protect her purse (which was in the bicycle basket) and thus almost drops her bicycle, looking at me REALLY SCARED! I was so embarrased but laughing as well while saying sorry to her (the first thing that came to my mind). And so she goes, leaving me in complete awkwardness trying to figure out what had happened. haha fun timez. Anyway, in the end the guy I was with had to go so I tell him: "one last approach". He sees a girl and says to me: "I bet she would be scared shitless if you talked to her, she would try to call the police or something". I accept the challenge. I approach.
- Hi, so I saw you, thought you looked nice, came to say hi. smile do you think that's weird? I do, kinda, but I did it anyway. (I know this is not the best thing to say, I just said anything that came to my mind and in the end it actually worked!) What's your name?

- Haha, my name's Blabla.
We started talking about her living in another city and travelling everyday to Stockholm, but she tells me that she is trying to move to Stockholm so I tell her "yes, so my chances are not ruined" in a non-chody way. In the end she tells me where she works and tells me to visit her whenever. shades I think I'm going to do that today.



I forgot to mention: FREE TOUR on the 27th and HOT SEAT on the 29th of September!! Julien and Alexander are coming to town! shades SO excited about this!
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Friday 14.9.12
Went out both for daygame and in the night. Daygame session didn't last long, I did my 5 approaches (which is kind of a low number, will make it to 10 on monday). Nothing special, although I had much less approach anxiety, too little to affect me and I was rejected on approach. I wasn't able to understand why that happened.

Anyway, in the night I went to a club with a friend of mine who is also into this and an other guy from the RSD community, Shark Teeth. Both more experienced than me, so I was really excited, nothing could really stop me from learning tonight. As soon as we got in, Shark Teeth started socializing, me and my friend joined him. The socializing progressed, I started getting into state, started vomiting A LOT, approaches happened automatically, it was awesome, I got two girls "married" and had them kiss each other (you may now kiss the bride), opened a girl by asking her to be my girlfriend for the night (rejected cause her boyfriend was there) after being dared by another pretty cute girl to do it, tried to kiss the pretty cute girl, turned her head to avoid it sad but that didn't bring me down of course.

It was my first official night out approaching, I managed to get into state, I was all over the place and went for the makeout once, so words can't describe how satisfied I was with myself.

Of course there are a lot of things I have to fix. The first one is my approaches. I want to be able to approach without any effort or outcome dependence and creating tension with my eye contact. The second one is I want to be comfortable going for the makeout.


Saturday 15.9.12
Didn't go out tonight but I did 4 hours of daygame with my friend Manhood, so I forgive myself.

After 4 hours of intense gaming I finally figured out how to properly approach without getting rejected from the get go shades it was funny because I wasn't feeling chody but I was conveying chodeness through my approach. I was trying to qualify myself from the beginning, without realising what I was doing (trying to quickly tell her why I am talking to her). After many of approaches and with help from Manhood, (thanks dude) it hit me. I tried approaching just by saying hi and waiting, with strong eye contact and the results were pretty surprising. Every girl I approached stopped and talked to me, even a girl who was arguing with her boyfriend through sms stopped. The interactions went downhill from there, probably because I wasn't in state and therefore not that talkative but I am learning really fast so I'm satisfied with myself.

It's funny how you hear about this stuff on videos and read about in forums but you have to actually STRUGGLE with it in order to understand that "yeah, I actually make the mistake I heard Tyler talking about". So, next step: being talkative and escalation. And of course trying to close every set.
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Sunday 16.9.12
Not much to report today, did some daygame with Manhood and a friend of mine, didn't do so many approaches. I actually thought that we could do much better, we wasted a lot of time sitting at a cafe talking, eating and drinking coffee and didn't spend that much time on actually doing something. Manhood and I agreed that we never waste that much time again on other things, next time we won't wait in a cafe pointlessly, we have to push ourselves more.

Best thing about today was that I approached quickly, without any help (challenges) by anyone, totally from my intent. I just have to push myself more to do more approaches.

Oh yeah, and I realised that daygame is actually harder than nightgame, in the sense that girls are more open to approaches in the nightclub, which makes it less "scary" to approach and easier to hook I guess. Maybe I'm wrong I don't know. But I feel like once I learn how to daygame well, nightgame is going to be easier.


BTW: only 11 days until FREE TOUR! and 13 days until HOT SEAT! Can't wait!shades
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Monday 17.9.12
Did only a few approaches, but it was really interesting because the one approach I did was going really well at the beginning, approach, hook and attraction through piercing eye contact, but I could see the attraction going down after that (probably because I was approval seeking), but it's nice to see that I can consistently get so "far" into the set, I can see progress and that fuels me up shades peace.
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Tuesday 18.9.12
Today went pretty well, I got one phone number and a girl asked for my phone number. Opened a two-set and had pretty much no approach anxiety. Nice to finally see some results.

At one point Manhood and I met a friend who was also daygaming and we decided to do some subway game. That was the fucking worst approach anxiety I have had in my whole life! I don't know what went wrong and why I couldn't do it, but it was brutal! I couldn't open my mouth to talk, there was too much social pressure I guess from the people that were around. I felt really angry for not being able to do it, but then again it was kind of interesting to discover that that's the line of my comfort zone! Definitely going to work on that one more.
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Wednesday 19.9.12
Today I went out with Shark Teeth and another dude. I knew I could get into state, but I didn't want to because I was a little crybaby. "I don't want to get laid, I'm not feeling like it". FUCK YOU! I approached girls, went pretty ok, but I would always eject myself and wonder why I was feeling the way I was feeling.

After that, I watched Tyler's new video and basically set two goals:
- Get rid of the ego (do A LOT of approaches)
- Get abundance (have girls chase me)

I am still really proud of myself, going out everyday and posting about it here, plus for cultivating some habits: I wake up quite early everyday (which was a major problem for me), have a nice breakfast, drink green vegetable juice and meditate (still have to work on that one). I need to start working out and get a job also.
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Thursday 20.9.12
Today I got really good results at daygame. I got two numbers from the first two sets, which never happened before. I thought they were quite solid also, but maybe I'm wrong. We will see.

I went out today, but I was really not in the mood to talk, I didn't understand why, I had no urge to have sex whatsoever and weird thoughts were running through my mind, like, "why am I doing this" and stuff like that. I guess I am doing this for the wrong reason, but I do this anyway.

Friday 21.9.12
Did some approaches, did my first two-set which was REALLY awkward, but I laughed my ass off after that.

I went out the same night with a friend of mine, did two approaches with him and I was feeling much better because I realised that I had been avoiding the Now, as Eckhart Tolle says. I was actually doing this to get better because I didn't like the situation that I was in at the moment, so I was pushing and pushing myself to change as fast as possible. I understand now that it takes time to become good and I am fine with it, I like the way I am now, a newbie who can't relate to women that well and has some really really awkward moments. I understand that I have to make all the mistakes that instructors tell us not to do, in order to understand why this is wrong. The way is not to do everything right as fast as you can, you HAVE to make the mistakes. I kind of feel more liberated now and ready to fail as hard as I can.
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Saturday 22.9.12
This day I managed to get into state in daytime, did 3 approaches one after the other, was pretty awesome. I don't understand though what I'm doing wrong, it's not about doing the approaches, I don't get many results yet, I actually haven't gotten any solid results and two flaky numbers don't count.

Plus, I got this weird feeling that there's no point to this, the reason probably being that I actually don't get results. But I am going to continue with this, now, going out is my habit, punch through the wall, I guess. We'll see what happens.
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Sunday 23.9.12
I have been daygaming for 2 weeks every day, plus I have maintained my habits pretty good, I am quite satisfied. I will try to dissolve this bad feeling of uncertainty and insecurity I have been having the last few days and move on with my purpose. I have been reading "The way of the superior man" by David Deida, VERY insightful, I recommend that everyone reads it. I realised, after reading Costas's journal ( http://www.rsdnation.com/node/244568 ) that the only reason I need for doing this is the adventure and the fact that I actually love hot girls and would want to be around them and of course fuck them.

Today wasn't a good day though, these bothersome thoughts I have been having are destroying me, should probably shut my fucking brain up and GET ON WITH IT. I actually did one approach though, very very awkward, went up to a girl standing and smoking, did the no-talking approach, but it was probably coming from a really weird place, I don't think I have ever been in my head so much as I was at that point so, it didn't work. She was SO hot by the way, and SO serious, my insides froze up! thumbs down Whatevs, who cares.

I am so looking forward to see the infield videos in the Hot Seat, I think I am going to get so much from them, I am certain it is going to help me understand what I am doing wrong, and take care of it.
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Monday 24.9.12
Alright, I set two new goals yesterday, but I need to fucking STEP UP and do more approaches. Went for daygame with Manhood, I only did one approach. Not enough! Enough with the lack of balls, tomorrow I am owning this! Things that changed:

- Start momentum building by doing 5 consequent approaches every daygame session.
- Work on my voice tonality (or maybe overall behaviour). I caught myself trying for rapport in many cases.
- Create some fun plotlines/roleplay with the girl I am speaking with. I really like that and I want it to be a part of me, although I don't really like "techniques".

The approach was really good, the girl was stunning, she was totally an 8, and I'm really strict with my "grades". We talked for 10 minutes approximately, I got really intimidated by her, really really beutiful girl. I actually told her I wanted to make her my girlfriend and I let her lie to me, she told me she had a boyfriend, which I could tell was not true. She giggled many times at my jokes and I also practiced my swedish (which I never do while I game). In the end I pushed for an instant date, but she said she had to go home and fix dinner for her relatives or something, I could've gotten it if I pushed a bit more, but I'm happy with what I managed to do anyway!
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