Day 2 Study Session planned for Monday. HB8. Met her during first week of school and exchanged twitters. Got her number off twitter a few days ago and took it from there!
Been studying but not nearly as much as I would like to. Hit the gym only ONCE this week. Fucking pissed at myself for letting it get out of hand. Ate really shitty too. Fuck. I will write it off as part of the process but no further tolerance for slipping up.
Social gears have not been flowing. Been a very off week for me. Must get back to eating good and excercising.
As for tonight, I'm going to crash at my friend's place at a neighboring school for the weekend and I plan to hit on every chick there :) Leggo.
** Find a new fake ID
** Get back into a positive flow by doing activities that make me feel good
- Eating healthy, gym, doing school work
Digging this journal dude. Journals should be more for your self but also to help others at the same time so i'll keep following this as I can relate to most of the shit :)
much appreciated man thanks!
Arrived at my friend's place. Awesome guy. Met his floormates, no cute girls. They were all being stand offish and I realized that it's because they were intimidated by me and my other friend. We're really outgoing and social and a lot of these people were just less socially calibrated. Otherwise it was a mostly dead night, got another ID taken. Fail. Hahahah. Smoked some herb ate pizza and vibed with my dudes. Fun night.
Two more friends arrive. A group of five guys hahhaha. I had soooo much fucking fun vibing with these guys. Everywhere we went we just joked and fucked around, people always looking at us. Two of these guys (My roommate and another) are naturals, but they really only bang 7s from what I know. Not that it matters cause they're just awesome.
Play some ball during the day, get some homework done. 6 o'clock rolls around and we're cracking jokes and being silly. Take a shot at 8. Call up one of my buddy's friends and go to some chicks house that they all knew except me. Two girls, one cute with a boyfriend. I was expecting a night with the boys.. Which is cool but not what I wanted that night. Decided to just get obliterated.
I start a game of King's. Turns out to be reaaaally fucking fun and gets everyone totally smashed. It's 10pm. Get news of a kegger, so of course we head over. On the walk over to the kegger we're all jus fucking around. I'm constantly yelling "AAAYY" and "HAAA, GAAAY," put me in a greaaaaat mood. Flirt with this chick on the walk over but realize my buddy who's place i'm staying at likes this chick. No problem, she's not thaat cute.
Arrive at kegger, get in for free, nice. Hit up sooo many chicks. Talked to eeevveryone in the kegger and I rememeber everyone just loving us. I was drunk though so it was hard to screen for girls that wanted to fuck. No problem, night's early. Set after set after set of guys and girls. Meet some chick, pretty cute. I think she was sitting down with her friend who was with a guy.
I think I opened her friend with "Hey your friend's cute I'm taking her away for a bit!"
Friend: "Yeah take her!! :)"
Talk talk, i'm in a great mood so i dont even know what I say. Makeout. talk talk, makeout. Lead her outside behind a van. Makeout some more.
Her: "you're a great kisser"
Me: "you have great lips"
Her: "they can do other things"
She proceeds to start putting her hands down my pants. They're fucking cold!!
There were like 10 people walking on the driveway and I thought I was about to get head right there so I PUSSIED OUT. I tried to pull back to my place, go inside to get directions. My boy tosses me his key right away (love u bro) and tells me how to get there. I was drunk I would've never found it. She didn't want to come back anyways. I should've pulled her to the side of the house, and if I was more sober I definitely would have thought of it hahahha
Night goes on, I keep mingling. Kegger ends at around 2. Walk to mcd's. This was insaaaane there were like 50 ppl, mostly from the kegger, in McD's. I talk to everyone, approach more girls. One noteable set:
Approach some people, just bullshitting around. See one of the friends
Me: "Oh my god your friend is fucking cute"
Friends: "TALK TOHERR!!!"
HBKate: *shy* *Makes girlchode conversation*
Me: *Talk talk, don't escalate too drunk and ADD back to my friends*
Walked to the counter and just took food and ate it, was awesome. I was owning the place though. My buddies seemed to be impressed, not that it matters. Walk back to my place, open street sets and get ppl to take pictures of us.
Me: TAKE A PICTURE OF US
Black guy: Okay!
Me: Don't run away
Him: I don't fulfill the stereotype okay!!
LOL he seemed genuinely upset. I wasn't even trying to be racist. Me and the boys burst out laughing. Funny moment.
Nothing else reallly noticeable. Didn't go for numbers since I was leaving the next morning anyways. Gooood stuff. Need to not get as drunk.
Yo guys what up. Ditched this journal for a while. I really am staying away from RSD, it's getting a little creepy, but I like the field report forum and would like to continue to journal here.
I came back after winter break and pretty much improved my habits. I am using the Excel method that Ilb talks about to keep record. A lot of red spaces right now but the greens are increasing. Gymming three days a week with basketball on the off days. Been doing my school work but not at the level I would like to be.
Banged three girls last week. One I had been hooking up with for a while, wasn't that exciting and I don't plan on doing it again. The other one was the girl from the November 23rd field report i posted up. It was really easy, and incredibly weird because she refused to kiss me. Daddy abuse or something. Banged her again last night.
I came in four seconds the first time I banged her. I've been doing kegels and feel less sensitivity, need to bang more.
The third one was my FIRST BROWN GIRL EVER. Respect. She was cute and has a really sexy/ slutty personality. She's kind of ADD though and lives far. Want to bang her again but it's kind of far.
Currently have a challenge going with my roommate (doesn't know about RSD). We have to talk to one new girl every single day. If you talk to a girl you get a point, if you don't, then you don't get a point. Simple. Person with lowest points at the end of the week buys the winner a beer. Pretty simple but I've talked to a new girl every single day since we started (5 days). Feels good.
My social skills have really improved and it's because i UNPLUGGED from RSD. I really believe RSD conditioning and social conditioning have equal negative effects. I believe in SELF CONDITIONING.
Thanks for reading bitties, update coming tomorrow.