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May 23rd, 2013
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#51
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 Way to be a man of action! Keep it up!
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Thanks V

Yeah taking action is where its at of course.  I find its pretty natural, alot depends on the bullshit going on in your head. I may give some meditation a real go.
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Work ends on Saturday and im thinking of getting more shit organised for my trip back home to Australia.

However i get a random message from a unknown number. Its odd, i work it out, apparently its a girl i gave my number to. I can work it out, however i think its the door woman from the main bar last night.

Im not sure, i dont even remember so i must have been having a really good night. Long story short she wants me to come to a club and see her. Awesome. Its not my kinda place, a super young crowd and just random as shit. Its not my first choice of place normally but time to man up and push through this headset. Make it fun.

Cant really get 100pc expressive just yet. I get there in a chilled manner. Congruent. Inner and Outer match its just at a light simmer.

On the way walking the streets i pass two girls. One of them screams obsenities at passing cars. Ones curvy and sexy. The other is petite and as i find out later LSE. Open them with situational comments, they open beautifully. The curvy blonde in a blue dress says she love me and my accent. The petite girl mellows right out. They ask me where Club ABC is. Im going to the same place so looks like ill escort you there.
They are from out of town on a once a year road trip, meeting friends. Logistically good. I tell them im making them my new friends and if i cant find my friends im coming to crash their party. They are down.

We get in line, we talk more shit, im def coming off really really well as they jump the line and take me with them up the staircase. I get in after 10 or so minutes but by the time im in my state crashes.

Im looking for this girl, text messages go back and forth. I cant find this girl. Get the idea i may be looking for the wrong person. In between looking at different bars i keep checking in with the two girls, make small dance and move on. Pumps the state.

Text this girl. Meet me here i cant believe this is so hard kinda text. Im sure by now its not who i thought it was.. Im meeting a stranger i dont even know but they know me. I sit just behind a large crowd and wait for a girl to turn up looking lost with a phone texting. One does, her phone lights up as i start flooding it with texts to try and pin point my mystery texter. Shes looking around all confused. Lost. Expectant. Its her and i dont even know her. She kepts saying she was worried that i wouldnt remember her. Shes probably right. Shes not the best looking. I turn, disolve into the crowd, and disapear.

Shes not what i had in mind. Even the thought of do it for the process doesnt work. Besides i have the two girls i met earlier. Meet them, drag them around they take me to a podium booth and start dancing it up with two young attractive chicks. Everyones hitting on them except me. The petite one slaps my ass from time to time, the curvy one grinds away next to me. Awesome.

Night ends, im not entirely congruent, my outter wants me to make the moves but my inner is not having it. However i get their numbers however. These girls are super young and its hard to make a move without feeling slightly uncomfortable about it. I feel a bit advantagoeus on my part once the realisation hits. So i drop it, talk some shit and wish them a good night and leave for the time being. Apparently they want me to meet up again before they go.

Something out of nothing works out just fine with me.
Peace
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thecrochunter wrote:
Thanks V

Yeah taking action is where its at of course.  I find its pretty natural, alot depends on the bullshit going on in your head. I may give some meditation a real go.
I notice that about 90% of my thoughts are just useless bullshit that doesn't help me whatsoever. Meditation is great! I used to meditate, but now I prefer yoga. If you try meditation, let me know how it goes for you!
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Fucked around with some text game yesterday, something i read got my thinking about craeting drama. Haha, kinda got a feel for it.

So i get up, tex this random girl from last night
"Hey sorry we couldnt meet, how was your night?"

Nothing.

Mmm. Thinking back to the original sets of texts there was alot of drama around me mistaking her for D. She was like all wtf? Whos D. It was someone i used to see, shes some psycho or something. It was mostly im worried about this girl, and once she knew that i had moved on, she was all qualifying the sitaution like " silly girl, thats her loss, who wouldnt want it to work out with you" ect. I def got a feel that it escelated the conversation.

Which is hilarious. I dont even know who the fuck she was But it was drama. And a fuller range of emotions. Well time to switch the re approach and laser this chick with it again lol.

Later on i text
" sorry look, truth is i didnt see you cause i bumped into D and it just caused problems again. She went all weird on me and it kinda blew my mood. I wouldnt want to have put that on you."

Boom! Shes textign right back. " Really? what happened, why is she like this to you"
"Oh im not really sure i want to talk about it, but shes pretty possessive and just unbalanced. Just a bummer. But i was having fun. Maybe ill see you another time"
"Did you and D have something serious?"
( Time to really pump some drama in here)
"sorry about the delay. At work. Well basically we were fuckbuddies. It wasnt exclusive but she would go crazy if she talking to anyone else. Which mostly happened to be my friends. Such a pscycho. It doesnt work out for alot of people, so much drama and bullshit." " Im glad im done with it, what you doing?"

Then i get

"Rejecting you"

Fucking hilarious. Im laughing at this like, im getting rejected by someone i dont even know. Do you understand what that is like haha. But on the flipside creating some drama liek julien says, injecting it into your own style, which for me im gonna inject it in role playing, its pretty badass. I got a flake re engaged with drama. 

I really wanted to text back " you dont even know who i am and your rejecting me? Your an idiot " lol.

I text back this insted " Sorry about that. I cant help having a fairly interesting life.You asked me what the deal was and i answered it openly. No big deal"

And that was that. So little was invested on my part this is all so fucking funny. This is how even normal pickup should be like. In the fact that its funny fun and fuck all is invested.

If she only knew i had james bond stealthed her out in the club the night before to find out who the fuck she was to start with and slinked off cause she wasnt even hot lol.

Im still actually wondering if im thinking of the same girl and got it right. Fuck it, id still play it out essentially the same way.

Peace out homies.
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Another random day of awesomeness. And some weird shit too.

The two girls who i had been hanging out with a night or two ago text me " Come and camp with us!"

Fuck yeah. A nice random day 2. I figure out the logistics. I want to know if its just them or others. " Do you and other others need anything brought down?" amoungst other probing questions.

"Nope, just us three girlies"

Fuck yeah. However they are camped down at another lake, an hour south. I almost baulk at it but ive drove an hour to hit up day 2s before in the winter and got a win so why the hell not this time. Steppin up.

So i grab my shit, borrow some camp gear and hope to fuck my car makes it down the highway. It needs urgent work but im not paying for it with a month to go here in Canada. Ill sell the bugger.

Finally make it down there. High fives become hugs and i spin hug the new girl. All cute and fun. Most of them say how long they have been drinking for and are in a general party mood.

Game wise i go in back to basics type shit. Zero outcome, amuse myself, hold eye contact, good tonality and role play on things i can tease them about.

Its goin really well. The sluttiest of them im sure was born black, but for a white girl can surely shake her ass. Shes premiscious, sexually alpha, and agressive in nature. The newer girl is shy and def insecure, and the third girl is taken (has Bf) but a little in the middle personality wise of the other two.

Im doing really well. The slutty one teaches me how to crump and thats where i start calling her my black bride or something of the sort. When shes not doing shit right i tell her shes suddenly honkey and im disapoimted that i had found a black girl i would finally want to get with went missing. It works wonders. I own her sunglasess and rock that out too.

At some point the third girl is sitting on my lap. Shes too shy for me, by some stage of general vibing with all three girls i deciede i need to escelate on the slutty one. Logically the best. Move in on her as she gets more supplies and make out with her to establish some real physical sign of intent. I just keep talking and walk away re ingage the group. I want it to be like our secret.

As the night wears on i suddenly get drunk. When im drunk its game the fuck over. Argh.

I loose my state, the slutty one re establishes the alpha role and im bummed out. Ill still make a go at it though. Its late and she says shes wants to be super dominated by a guy. The way she describes it sounds like rape. Fucking turn off. She dares me to hit her. Which i turn down. Which she keeps pushing for. This is suddenly getting fucked up. She also wants me to choke her. Damn.

A real fucked up turn. Its a real difference from physically leading in an agressive manner than domination on the verge of assualt. It gets real weird fast and they bail to their tent while i wonder where the fuck im going to sleep since i never set up my tent. In the end i sleep in my car disturbed by this pick up hell. i dont sleep that well.

Take off pretty much straight away. Hit the beach, went for a swim. Killer hungover. Drink a shit tonne of water and drive home.

When i get home J texts me " when are we going to go for an adventure?"
Thank god this chick is pretty normal in some real sense. Set up a day we can meet up and hang out. Shes keen and we have a real solid hook.

So to weirdos who want to be flogged, gagged and dominated go fuck yourselves. :)  It creeps me out. And makes for good stories.
Peace
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thecrochunter wrote:
So to weirdos who want to be flogged, gagged and dominated go fuck yourselves. :)  It creeps me out. And makes for good stories.
Peace


No worries, I have the gagging and domination covered. No need to stress ;)
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haha, reduce em to rubble Villianous,
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So, its been a week or something since i updated my journal this time not a great deal is going on to be honest.

Since booking my trip home, my mind has switched off. You know that feeling when you put up with all the little things about a place and then when you know you are leaving you suncounsiously give up on the town all together? Yep, thats where im at. I suppose it could have swung the other way and i could have gone all out in the last 3 weeks i have but right now its not really my priority. It is what it is as the saying goes.

I havent been approaching or gaming of late as such and it shows. Good thing is internally im really upbeat and carefree its just not channeled into chicks. Like my days are happy and awesome. My headset is channeled elsewhere right now. 

At this point last year my headspace would have been so low. And needy and chodey. Wondering about my situation in life. Wondering about my situation with chicks. Comparing myself with others.
Right now, fuck i cant really compare much to that. Its like i can aknowlegde the way i feel but they are processed so differently. Even the negative ones.

Im still the similar guy. Im not in this to totally transform myself because i already really like who i am. Im pretty awesome. I think all those low negative depressive emotional points have been raised to a higher set point so my 'low base line' is in a much more positive space. 

So you know, with or without chicks, or gaming that much, im in a good zone and some really fullfilling internal progress has been made on myself.

To gaming im still having some AA but thats fine. Alot of the time its down to my intent isnt really high enough, I guess thats my sticking point. Once i do open im generally really strong at it.

I have a unique taste of whats atractive to me in chicks, so although its rare when i see it, its on autopilot for me to go since the intent is 100pc. To do the reference point approaches is actually kinda hard even on less attractive chicks right now for me, as i suppose ive grown some good entitlement.. and generally the girls in this town fall into a certian mould that isnt my type.

I reckon in the last week ive done 3 approaches which is lame but ive got the aneme eyes each time straight off the opener. And they have been some gorgeous chicks too. But as ive said, my hearts not into it righ now with the move and other priorities on the horizon. Its been an interesting time.

Just dropping in on the forums and updating this. Got some cool things im about to get handled after 20 years which is awesome, kinda not looking too forward to the process of getting it done but thats all ok.

Peace all. See you next time.
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Enter : Chodedome.

Of late ive really regressed. Im stuck in a weird subjective reality.

One minute, im leaving Canada and heading back to Australia. My flights are booked, old friends are ready. One would think it would be natural to really let go and get loose. Im happu just to go out under the radar more so. I guess im saving myself for the next set of adventures to come once i get home. Im not entirely looking forward to it, to certain aspects as such but i know its having to come around sooner or later.

I informed my winter boss i wouldnt be returning and my flights are booked. It kinda sucked, almost like telling your best mate your not going to his wedding and spoiling the party. However i was suprised to hear that he wants to talk about sponsoring me, which puts me staying and livivng in canada indefitely on a ski hill village year round. Sounds epic. Logistiaclly sound to where im at in life right now. I havent been home in 10 years and most f my social and life networks are hardwired into where i live here. It would beat having to start them all over again in australia.

So again, im in a state of limbo, not really sure where im going to wind up. The opportunities keep coming, bigger doors keep opening.

Girl wise, and approach wise, i havnet done any, I have zero intent right now.  Hit up a good friends birthday party last night, mostly chicks, and in rolls J, a girl i fucked at the start of my 30 day challenge. It was a beautifully fluid pull. I met her a week or so later at another party and stormed it like a champ, lead like ice. What did i do this time. See her pull up and scamper off down the street.

Ridiculous. I knew my inner game was empty. Turned myself around and went back in and said hi. Its like a dont have any idea what im doing anymore, hard lesson right there. But i gave it a shot anyways. Knew she was a bit uncomfortable with the crowd, led to a different area, re built the emotional connection somehow, clambering back through what reference experience i could muster. PU amnesia.

Get her isolated, fumbling my way through re establishing the connection deeper. Light escelation then got the makeout close. A little wobbly but got it done. Said some needy shit later as i look back cursing.
J texts me the next day asking when are we going to meet up and hang out before i go. So i guess its still there. So a little win there.

Re reading GLODT, such a grounding read. Gets me thinking on how my purpose and how im living isnt up to my personal standards as my long term plans are muddled. Once i know if im staying or going definitely shit will start firing back on. i can see how during the winter and just after hotseat, everything in my life purpose/path, actions, thoughts and actions were perfectly aligned and centered and i was killing it.

After i have this spnsorship meeting tomorrow, ill get some answers i need and realign.
Would be awesome to stay in canada living year round on a ski hill.

Peace
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