So BTW this is at the end of the night, like 2:15 AM or some shit...
Things about this video I notice:
- hmm my voice sounds different than I think it does
- I'm talking quicker than I expect to "fill in the space"
- when she walks back a bit I walk in to fill in the space (whereas she needed a slight amount of space, all I can see at this point as given how late it was and her reaction she was lookin for some dick and needed to evaluate that I was cool n normal whereas my needing to fill the space was indicating otherwise, meh)
- hands in the pockets
- when I walk up to her I see myself "walking into her reality" rather htan the opposite
- actually look WAY BETTER in person than I think I do in my head lol
- I know that when I "catch myself" putting the hands in the pockets I purposefully take them out and put em on my head, I think just cuz I read that "the alpha gorilla" does this lol
- when giong for the pull "lets go get pizza" I don't persist
- when she starts walking off its pretty abrupt HEY HEY HEY like I don't expect her to stop and turn around
- again I should have kept persisting
- when I come back I'm still focused on "how gay I am with my hands in my pockets"
- also my posture could be better there
- I'm all "I don't know why it didn't go well"
- "that I was gay" is pretty lame self-talk on that TBH, and I sound slightly distressed on the why this didn't go well talk at the end as well
And then good things
- good "lets walk up the street" instead of just sitting there
- good "ooooo i love your boots" just random comments to random people for no reason
- good "does noone love her boots?" (stupid question that has no real answer -- illogical -- good)
- good messing w her a bit when she says "shake hands" like not complying 100% (yep im totally looking for things that are good haha)
Also I remember I asked something like "how was your night?" whereas in the past usually when I "catch myself" doing that, I tend to just answer the question for myself, whereas this time I didn't do that...just tried to leave the "onus on her" n shit.