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Back To Basics And Pushing To The Next Level - An Ajax~ Adventure
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 Hey guys,

How's your day going?

Good!

Haha....so yeh i've been on these foums for a few years now, i havnt posted that much and for a long time i had nothing to do with them. I just didn't have the time to come on here and read about a lot of stuff that gets posted on here. 

Just recently i came back and read a few of the journals that have been online and to be honest it has been a MASSIVE wakeup call to me. 

Granted, i have had a fair amount of success over the year and have come a LONG LONG way from where i used to be which was in a pretty dark place and i'm grateful to have come so far. Right now i can go out and chat girls, get some numbers, get some dates, get the occasional root and usually have a fun night out with an awesome crew. This is pretty awesome considering many years ago i had no friends, no self confidence, and coulnd't talk a girl to save my life. 

Having been around for so long and working with a lot of instructors, attending multiple summits, using all the rsd material over the years i think had made me a little lazy, i regularly felt like i don't need to follow the core principles of rsd, that i'm awesome enough to do without and can still get laid, but the truth is i'm not. No one is. If you want the results, if you want the growth and the beautiful women and the real growth you cannot get lazy, you must stick to the principles and follow them, cause thats what has worked in the past, and will work well into the future. Heck, i know some of the best instructors can have shit nights when they don't follow their own processes and principles, and for a while i thought(subconsciously) i could get away without this, that i could be the ultra smooth pimp by NOT following the rules....i was wrong. 

This comes back to the title of my journal, which i hope will be constantly reminding me that  if i don't follow the basic principles which are proven to work, the glory will be fleeting and inconsistent. Furthermore i have probalby taken a lot longer than most to get where i am, i feel like i started a bit behind many other people and have had to work my up. I have been doing good overall but i have not yet reached that full abundance level yet. 

At the moment i have one girl i've seen a few times on the go which is going good. I had a date last night with another girl which went alright but didn't lead anywhere. My last root was about a month ago and my nights out have ben sporatically awesome and crappy, a little all over the place. I feel i've been stagnating on this stage for a little while now, and that it's time to take what i deserve, what i've worked hard for, and to push onto the level of abundance.

Being able to on any night of the week, call up a fuck buddy, dating multiple girls at a time, having at least two new roots a month, having more and more hot girls and awesome guys coming more naturally into my life. I feel like i have been tinkering on the edge for a while, not yet ready to push forward, but after reading some of the most recent journals by some of the younger guys out there i'm fully inspired and ready to do this.

My goals are modest but realistic, i'm setting myself a goal of 6 months to have things up to scratch...30/11/12

Back to basics and pushing to the next level...lets go! :D
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 Thursday 31/05/12

Hey guys, just a quick write up from the night before.

It's exam time at all the uni's so all the main thursday night clubs were empty, and closing early. It was also bloody cold so that didn't help things.

We ended up at this dirty backpackers bar which always has something on, not my first choice but better than going home.

By the time we got there it was like 12:30 and i was not really in a social chatty mood but after chatting up a few random chicks i eventually got  relaxed enought to start having a bit more fun.

The best set of the night was probably this one cute Irish chick who i thought was leaving by herself, so i said i'd give her a lift, grabbed her hand and started to lead her out...she complied for a second or two but then ended up dashing outside past me...oh well. Saw her back in the venue like 10 minutes later so sat down and chatted with her, sooo random, our convo was just utter jibberish - however something i've been focusing on lately is expressing my emotions a bit more, so taking the Alexander~ cue i just started waffling about what i love, and what i hate, and this actually started to open m mind up a bit more, til i started expressing a bit more unconsciously...awesome. This lasted a few minutes but i bailed out cause i started to smell something bad....it was her breath....yuck!

Almost got caught up in a brawl too, one of those random dance floor brawls that seem to start for no reason, its like this ball of people rolling around the club, and you just gotta make sure you're not in it's path.....security were fantastic, they didn't realise it was going on at all i until i pointed it out to a bouncer like 15 seconds afterwords....good work guys! So yeh saw a bunch of randoms wrestling with security... fun to watch.

There was also a wet t-shirt contest towards the end, most of the chicks ended up stripping down to their bikini bottoms...fuck yeh! No poon tonight but i saw some boobies :)

Funny night overall, didn't really have much to work with though. The bar was 99% guys and a few ugly girls with the occasional hottie. 

I've got a date tonight (friday night) with this chick i've seen a few times. Havn't sealed the deal yet as she's one of those more good girls (tried to but as soon as i touched her boob she flinched a bit so i backed off)but we'll see how we go tonight :)

One the other side of news i've just recently been going back over all the Alex mastermind and youtube videos and taking good notes cause although i've seen this stuff 1000 times i dont think i've been serious about implementing it. Like it's one thing to know about it, but another to be sitting in the bar and consciously working on certain skills and weaknesses. 

So yeh, gotta start getting ready to head into town with a hottie, grab some drinks, have some fun, see where the night takes us ;)

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 Friday 01/06/12

Yo, what's goin on!??!

So last night had my date with my girl, we ended up going to a nice chilled out lounge place and just have a few drinks, relax, make fun of the fat old drunk chodes wondering about everywhere, good chill night for a change, considering most fridays i'm out pimping with the crew. 

So we spent a few hours there and ended up back at my place, just messing about on my bed, few clothes coming off here and there....BUT....turns out she's a virgin! To be honest this didnt surprise too much, she's one those nice kinda girlfriend type girls who would usually be at home studying or watching a movie with her family instead out at a bar getting smashed.

I didn't wanna push it. I playfully tried to escalate a few times but i think going back to a guys place like this was a massive step for her and taking it any further would have bordered on sexual assault, so nah, i didnt get it in, not yet at least ;)

So it's saturday night at 7PM and ill be off with the crew a little later for some romping and glory times, hope you have a good night too! 

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 Saturday 02/06/12

Hey hey Guys, How you doing?

So yeh went out with the lads last night, checked out a new bar which we'd heard good things about but had never been to. 

It was pretty funky, when you go inside it's got lots of levels and hiding places, the main centre is like a little laneway with all these little shops on either side that are actually bars...sweet! 

My night in general to be honest was pretty chodey! I had a few confrontations early on with random guys and girls and that left me a little shaken inside, since i'm more a friendly sorta guy and don't go in expecting people to get so aggressive towards me. 

The first group i went into was going so so, just warming up socially for the night, there was one girl who was just standing towards the end of the group with her arms crossed looking all grouchy, so i playfully asked her why she looked grumpy......she replied by flipping the fuck out and acting like a total tart!!  I was just speechless, i was half smiling/laughing half giving her a WTF sorta look back, she just started waffling on about how rude i was etc, etc, it was kinda fun but it sorta fucked the whole vibe and after antagonistically toying with her for a bit i wondered off to grab a drink. 

Still reeling from the over reaction from the chick i went to grab a water and a red bull (non drinking night for me), some chode next to me (who i reckon was a lair chode) overhears and starts in a loud obnoxious voice " Oh he's going the water tonight...blah blah blah...." i just agreed 100% with him, "yes, im getting water, you should have some too" brushed it off, ignored him and went back to paying the barman. Then he's all back patting me and "it's ok dude, it's ok "....."haha, you stuopid faggot" i was thinking :)

By now though i was feeling a bit knocked around emotionally for some reason, combined this with being sober, not taking enough action earlier on and being too focused on approaching (not relaxed enough), i think all this kinda fucked me for the night. I spent the rest of my time here mucking around with the guys, approaching random chicks (not so good tonight) and procrastinating about my night. 

As i left the pub i was in full analytical mode looking back at my night and trying to figure out what happened? I felt pretty brain dead and a bit anxious for much of the night, this happened the previous week too. The best thing that comes out of this though is that it WILL show you any flaws or cracks in your armour, if you are not as solid in who you are and able to relax and enjoy yourself, nights like these will expose these weaknesses and force you to confront them.....I feel like even though i've been in this for YEARS and have improved immensely with life, girls, friends and spiritual, that there is still something i have missed, that there is still something i have missed, a gnawing doubt or something that i have not addresed properly. 

This is exactly what this night did for me. When i got home i opened up my journal (my pen and paper journal) and just empited my head of everything! I broke down my night and wrote for about 40 minutes about not only this night but about feelings and trends ive noticed in myself for a while now. Here is what i found...

- On some level i sometimes still do not feel that i am good enough for the girl. It sounds totally stupid cause i have been with so many awesome girls, i have a lot of awesome shit going on in my life, i am well travelled, i have lots of amazing life experiences and i still sometimes feel like i am not enough...totally oppoiste to the Alex mantra that "There is no reason why i am not enough" 

- I still feel that my frame in general can at times be very shaky. (But it can also be very strong, but this is not consistent). I sometimes feel apologetic when i'm challenging someone elses frame. I feel like i don't want to be rude, or let them down or make them feel uncomfortable. I think subconsciously i put myself second and put their needs before mine. Whether this be my boss asking if i can work an extra shift (which i dont want) and agreeing to it, or letting someone use the gym equipment before me when i know i was there first, and just caving into the pressure. This is not all the time but it does happen and it is definately something i want to focus more on correcting. 

- When going out to some of the more posh places where there are hotter girls, cooler guys, and just a higher standard of people in general, i quite often feel almost unworthy compared to the other guys. I'll see some ordinary dude and view him as better dressed, more alpha, "cooler" and as having a stronger frame and presence than me. I know this is all bullshit and all in my head, but it's there sometimes and has been for most of my life. I feel like i'm less worthy of the girl than they are and that the girl would go better with them. I know that this terrible thinking and it comes and goes but the fact this belief is in my head, and something that i have probably avoided for a long time. 

Just writing all this out is pretty deep and therapeutic, but it's liberating in a way. My night out has shed light onto these issues and i think it's time i address them once and for all. I've found that just by exposing problems such as these and being aware of them lets me be ultra focused on my thoughts and be able to consciuouly change these limiting thoughts that have been a thorn in my side for so long. 

I think i need to focus on 

- Being more assertive in life in general (standing up for my rights, beliefs, opinion, etc)

- "There is no reason why i am not enough" - TRUST

- Realise that i am solid, high value dude who deserves the best, and am more deserving of any girl out there than any other guy. 

If you've come this far thanks for the support, i did a lot of soul searching last night and believe that these massive sticking points have been keeping me from reaching the next level on the road to being 100% awesome.  Over the coming weks and months i'm gonna keep focusing on them, implementing new thoughts and new behaviours so that i can come into alignment with who i am supposed to be.

Stay tuned for more Ajax~ adventure and self discovery!

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 the return of Ajax!...was just over 2 years ago when i first started reading your first Journal...Its been a journey since then for sure!
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 also....new Display pic?

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Tuesday 05/06/12

Haha, yeh, might have to get a new Ajax logo and keep up with the times...

So yeh quick update, worked all day tuesday after 5 hours sleep the previous 2 nights...had a quick nap at home and dragged myself out to keep the firing going.

When i rocked up Julien and half the Melby crew were out, rockin'!~ Didn't know there'd be so many peops tonight!

So yeh jumped in and hit up a few sets, chatted to the guys, nothing too special tonight, felt a bit forced and not really that chatty - putting it down to my tiredness - but yeh, i went out anyway.... got some birds number, had fun for a bit then headed home for some sleep.

Will be out next on thursday, cannot fucking wait, time to let loose over the weekend!!!

:)

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Friday 08/06/12 LR

Whaddup everyone!?

Hope you've had a good day, i slept in til two and just had a massage so can't complain. 

So yeh had some glory timez last night, let me tell you about my night.

We all started out at Redman's places, Redman, AcousticNinja, Real World, Age and myself, grabbed a few drinks, shoot the shit and catch up on whats been happening the last week.

We eventually headed on down to the local bar round the corner which is pretty big and classy kinda place. 

We got in there and just hung around for a bit, relaxed, had a drink, chatted with eachother and then started chatting up nearby randoms, just relaxing into things and enjoying ourselves,

I mad sure to hit up a few sets early on as NOT doing this usually leads to a crappier night later on, so had a few "friendly" conversations that didn't have any spark there, but doesn't matter, early days, everyone's still getting social and warmed up. 

Chatted to this gorgeous Canadian chick for a while,....such a cutie, she was dressed really well which i LOVE in chicks, it can make all the difference :)

Also started chatted to this one blonde chick who turned out to be a cop. Her co-worker was there, this brunette who was feisty as ever, as soon as i went into blondie brunette chick was all over me asking "are you trying to pick up my girlfriend" " are you flirting with her" "where are your friends" haha, this is the sorta shit that i've pledged to have more fun with, whereas in the past many times i would just crumble and dissapear, i stayed in, playfully deflected it all away and even went so far as saying that i was sure she was a really nice and friendly person underneath...haha, they loved it so she left me with blondie for a while, sweet!

Anyway bit later on i saw some tall brunette chick (my favorite) outside in the smoko area, hit her up but almost straight away her and her friend ran off...weird. Anyway went inside and funny enough there they were, went back in, straight up to burnette and go my waffle on. Realworld with his magical timing appeared and started chatting up the friend. I just fluffed around with brunette for a bout 5 minutes before taking her to the dance floor, full make out (and biting) timez right then and there.

Magical moment here, something inside of me said this was ready to go, there would be no way to descalate this and then "chill and build comfort" or whatever later on, if it was gonna go it would be now. I had never done a pull this early in the night (like 12:30), and in such a short time (about 10 minutes after meeting her), but since i've been focusing on pushing comfort zones lately i just went for it, grabbed her land, told her we're getting food and walked her outside, full compliance from the girl, i did not ask for permission or hesisatate, and it went smoothly. 

Boom, outside the club, makeout, walk straight to my car, a good 5 minute walk away, make out + rub the poon, drive back to mine, in the house, boom, game on, happy days :)

Fun night overall, great to get some roots as it had been over a month since my last. This chick had a banging body, nice ass, nice legs, good tits and she swallowed, doesn't get much better ;)

I took a lot of valuable points away from tonight as well, mainly just to trust myself 100%, relax WHILST stepping up and making moves(big thing as i used to just relax to the point of sitting on a couch all night, talking to no girls, just 100% on being relaxed), and pushing comfort zone, even if you dont think it will work out. 

Out again tonight, maybe make it a 2 for 2, we shall see.

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 Fuck yeh dude awesome!

Powerful shit happening from the Melby Crew.

Keep at it brother!

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SATURDAY 09/06/12 

Get down to Melby ASAP Achilles~!

Love the wingmanship and timing Realworld, true form ;)

Hey people, whaddup, it's monday night now but i figure i'll do a quick write up about my saturday since it was pretty fun. :)

So me and the crew ended up at this pretty chill and flashy place on the otherside of town for one of our other friends birthdays. None of us had really been here, but looking back it was pretty damn good. Very laid back place, lots of couches and chairs and stuff, great chill music (no duff duff), friendly crowd and a good place to chat up some hotties.

Took us all a little while to get into it, it was one of those venues that kicks off a bit later on and we were there at 9:30, so lots of stuffing around and enjoying drinks with eachother early on. 

Once the people started pouring in i eased out my seat and next to a red headed chick, just chattin, shooting the shit, nothing special, no worries.

Went around chatting up a few more birds but by now i realised that the way the place was designed it was a little more difficult to do pickup, as there were a lot of seats, and not as much walking area where girls can walk by us. Yeh, so i made the most of things anyway, having a few dances and fun interactions with a few chicks, walk past Realworld who's in with a hottie all night, feeling a little jelous but happy for him nonetheless. 

By about 1'oclock AccousticNinja and i had had enough, while it was nice there weren't as many girls around as we were used to and we felt like a venue change. Before leaving though i insisted that we each chat up "one more" as you never ever know....

I caught some brunette cutie who'd just arrived for a friends birthday, it was awesome fun cause when i first started talking she was facing side on to me, arms crossed, almost ignoring me totally, i called her out on this "Why are you so tense, open your arms up, relax, you're making me feel bad" this cracked her shell, arms unfolded, smile broke out across her face and she turned to face me now, started chatting, spun her around a bit and held her hands....good fun but she still felt a bit tense... so i said to her.. "your friends are watching us, arnt they?" YEP, i didnt know who they were but i could sense she was a little uncomfortable...friends sitting at a table to my right making her feel self conscious, "no problem girl, come with me..." drag her to the dancefloor, pull her in hard, boom, makeout, hip grinding and neck biting..haha awesome.

Made my dash from the club shortly after i got the number as Accoustic was in the car waiting, casino awaits!

Looking back i shoulda stayed with the brunette.... my gut said to stay but my mind kept telling me "go casino, that will be fun, you promised accoustic, you're ready to go, etc" i think it mighta been some sort of success barrier, as i had a root the night before, the idea of going 2 for 2 may have been fucking with my head, and made me bail out...pretty interesting cause it hasnt happened in a while, good lesson here though. 

Anyway going to the casion our expectations werent high, it was more a place to let off some steam, fuck around, have some fun, lose some money, see who we meet and what happens. We were just rolling around hitting up the occasional set, including 3 girls at mcdonalds who looked realy really pale, and really really bored. We bounced in and just waffled along, i thought they were like ice a t first...then i thought they were nervous so i toned it down and realxed...then i realised they wre just boring people... didnt matter anyway cause soon enough Accoustic has started calling them the Adam's Family...i couldn't help myself from cracking up, two of them looking exactly like the mum, straight black hair, pale expressionless faces, it was so spot on i just couldnt stop laughing, haha, good one Mr Ninja. 

Yeh so we did a bit of gambling, i was up $35 at some point and did the smart thing...and gambled even more...so i ended up $10 down...whatever.

THere was also some angry midget dude who was musta been on steroids, he was a shortass but ripped like a tank, bald head, bouncer type of look....except 4ft tall, lol.

He was going skitzo at the casino security screaming "DONT YOU FUCKING TOUCH ME!!!" There were about 15....15!!! Security guards surrounding him, this guy was fuming though, all red in the face, looked like her was about to go on a rampage, funny shit haha.

So about 3:30 we left and went our seperate ways...i hit up brunette chick from the club and tried to get her to an "afterparty" she was down!!!! I have never driven so fast in my life, but it was nt fast enough, 25 minutes later through traffic lights and stupid drivers i reach the club but i couldn't coax her out, i was pretty insistent but she refused...oh well....i figured i had burnt that number to the ground but ended up texting the next day...we got a date this wednesday...haha, sweet.

Until next fellas,

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WEDNESDAY 13/06/12

Hey guys,

Just had a killer day (thursday) longest day at work, sooo tired so this'll be a short post.

Yeh so caught up with the chick from saturday night for a date tonight.

I thought she was like a 9 or something in the club but when i saw her now she was like a 7! I feel ripped off, haha, oh well.

Just went for a chill evening coffee, nothing too fancy and no killer stories about banging her in an alleyway unfortunately. My mind was a bit retarded tonight so all we ended up talking about was work and travel, it went alright but i wasn't really feeling as attracted to her and she seemed a bit boring, kissed her on the lips goodnight and havnt called her since, no big deal, will meet some new girls this weekend!

Yeh, its been a kinda intersting week, was feeling all enthusiatic as i had a pretty pimp weekend but the last few days at work (and on the date last night) just seemed quite retarted, maybe my brain is just taking some time off, i dunno, but it's friday tomorrow and i'm keen to head out and let off some steam, can't wait :)

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