THE FORUMS
Was out wednesday, was 1 week ago so dont remember everything.
First I stand out the club, feeling like a weirdo for beeing alone outside in the queue. But the other friends, or well pua friends of mine were in the building so felt k.
I go in, go around a little bit, feel really stifled and like "back to base 0". Go around and see my pua friends. One of them is so weird, Im ashamed of hanging with the dude. The other one is super cool and natural. I see some guys from my school who is in the same class as one of my big crushes (one itis), and I'm like uhh.. here they are with their real friends chillin, and im here just comin to pick up chicks!
Well well.
The puas start dancin really weird and tell me to come dance with them, Im like no i have to go to the toilet heh, that was just too weird...
Then another pua comes who is really chill and that I like, so i tell him to go out to take some fresh air with me. The rest comes. Im just glad to stand out chillin and talkin instead of having to dance, so tired of it. Like the smoking area a lot more now.
The weird pua dude says something to me "here look at my" and he takes some kind of slime out. I say lemmi have a look and he tries to dribble it past my hand. I hate this immature kind of shit. I tell him "HEY cut it off give it to me" He instantly reacts and gives it to me. I really feel he is a weak routine based person trying to act like someone else.
I felt really serious after this. Dont want to be messed with. The other puas dude is fooling around with the weird dude, and I can feel myself geting lil bit serious and more stIfled just imaging them doing so to me. Its like im preparing an answer for if they would say something stupid. Ahh im in the wrong headspace.
We go around some. Some drunk dudes talk to us. I say he looks like mathew mcconaghey. I see my "inner game" has changed. Before I was like "oh drunk dude, hate this guy" Now im actually nice and just beeing myself and its all workin guud.
We're like 5 guys standin chillin, some girls come, a group of 5 too. I say: doesn't he look like mathew mconnaghey? They all agree. I introduce myself. Some of the group is talking with eachother.
There are 4 blondes and one brown headed girl, the best looking. I say "Is she the leader, since she's the only one with brown"?
Yes! haha, they say.
I think about approachin the brown headed girl, because thats what i wanna do, act through my own intentions. I do it after a min. I say something like "Hey so what was ur name?" She isnt even facing me, its like im behind her, awkard. And I get somewhat insecure, really i wanna talk with her, but i pretend chillin. Say some sentences, cant get much out of my mouth. I wait for her to kind of intiate.
They leave after a while.
My friend engages a set. I come in congruently with a gesture that says "Hey is it ok if I come in?". Wow its really difficult to get blown out when ur congruent, works often. Props Tyler.
We talk some about hair, about me cuting my hair, some chit chat for 5-10 min. Then I go quiet. They intiate again with me. Just to check if they liked me, they did. Another girl joins the group conv, she enagage speciailly with 1.
I lead one of the girls a bit further away. Talk a lil bit. Then im like "come closer, give me warm" "I've read a lot of jst beeing here and now, I say, and just follow my pupils" Lol i actually was serious but it felt like some cheesy pickup routine. I hold her close, k close attempt. She backs off a lil bit, feels uncomfortable.
I didnt have my cell phone on, so i say : U want my number or not? Be serious. She says: sure. She messaged me, added me on facebook and tommorow we're going on a "date".
I approach a real hottie 9-10 Im like this will never work in my head. I say some shit, dunno what. Then she says something, she didnt look too happy. I try to listen to what she says, i feel really slow, and I try to be real and logical and discuss something that I didnt understand. Then I decide to try something new, or well to be congruent and to say what im thinkin' and unconciously maybe i did it because i didnt believe i could get her. So i stare at her boobs silently for 5-10 sec then ask what size? I guess hers is B, she says C. Then she's like "Oh well bye, since u only care bout my boobs".
My friend approaches 2 girls.
I go in the set. I introduce myself to the one I liked. She has steady handshake, tru extrovert a lot of energy, compared to my slow energy. She's very engaging and takes her arm around me and is like "Hey I found a boyfriend" really open chick. i discuss i like her openess and extrovertion, she says "well u shouldnt be boring, thats why i hug ppl" We talk bout introversion and extroversion and other shit, i hold her near me. I try to go for k close. She sais: I have a rule, dont kiss on bars. I say its ok and talk some more. She says "wanna go in and get a drink"? I follow her. And here, when we move around the venue i feel more insecure about mysel. Its like I sometimes dunno how to act, like i wanna kiss her and talk, but maybe i should be chill. And then we look for my friend and her friend. Me and my friend is about to go. I ask for one kiss, she says ok then. And its a sweet kiss on the mouth. Bam, broke your rule bitch! XD
She says "should we change numbers?" Im like yea. didndt have my cell phone. she didnt message me next mornin though. aff :P
I left the venue cuz i wanted to see her again and not to try hook up with some1 else and loose her.
WOW its annoying to write Frs, takes time.
First I stand out the club, feeling like a weirdo for beeing alone outside in the queue. But the other friends, or well pua friends of mine were in the building so felt k.
I go in, go around a little bit, feel really stifled and like "back to base 0". Go around and see my pua friends. One of them is so weird, Im ashamed of hanging with the dude. The other one is super cool and natural. I see some guys from my school who is in the same class as one of my big crushes (one itis), and I'm like uhh.. here they are with their real friends chillin, and im here just comin to pick up chicks!
Well well.
The puas start dancin really weird and tell me to come dance with them, Im like no i have to go to the toilet heh, that was just too weird...
Then another pua comes who is really chill and that I like, so i tell him to go out to take some fresh air with me. The rest comes. Im just glad to stand out chillin and talkin instead of having to dance, so tired of it. Like the smoking area a lot more now.
The weird pua dude says something to me "here look at my" and he takes some kind of slime out. I say lemmi have a look and he tries to dribble it past my hand. I hate this immature kind of shit. I tell him "HEY cut it off give it to me" He instantly reacts and gives it to me. I really feel he is a weak routine based person trying to act like someone else.
I felt really serious after this. Dont want to be messed with. The other puas dude is fooling around with the weird dude, and I can feel myself geting lil bit serious and more stIfled just imaging them doing so to me. Its like im preparing an answer for if they would say something stupid. Ahh im in the wrong headspace.
We go around some. Some drunk dudes talk to us. I say he looks like mathew mcconaghey. I see my "inner game" has changed. Before I was like "oh drunk dude, hate this guy" Now im actually nice and just beeing myself and its all workin guud.
We're like 5 guys standin chillin, some girls come, a group of 5 too. I say: doesn't he look like mathew mconnaghey? They all agree. I introduce myself. Some of the group is talking with eachother.
There are 4 blondes and one brown headed girl, the best looking. I say "Is she the leader, since she's the only one with brown"?
Yes! haha, they say.
I think about approachin the brown headed girl, because thats what i wanna do, act through my own intentions. I do it after a min. I say something like "Hey so what was ur name?" She isnt even facing me, its like im behind her, awkard. And I get somewhat insecure, really i wanna talk with her, but i pretend chillin. Say some sentences, cant get much out of my mouth. I wait for her to kind of intiate.
They leave after a while.
My friend engages a set. I come in congruently with a gesture that says "Hey is it ok if I come in?". Wow its really difficult to get blown out when ur congruent, works often. Props Tyler.
We talk some about hair, about me cuting my hair, some chit chat for 5-10 min. Then I go quiet. They intiate again with me. Just to check if they liked me, they did. Another girl joins the group conv, she enagage speciailly with 1.
I lead one of the girls a bit further away. Talk a lil bit. Then im like "come closer, give me warm" "I've read a lot of jst beeing here and now, I say, and just follow my pupils" Lol i actually was serious but it felt like some cheesy pickup routine. I hold her close, k close attempt. She backs off a lil bit, feels uncomfortable.
I didnt have my cell phone on, so i say : U want my number or not? Be serious. She says: sure. She messaged me, added me on facebook and tommorow we're going on a "date".
I approach a real hottie 9-10 Im like this will never work in my head. I say some shit, dunno what. Then she says something, she didnt look too happy. I try to listen to what she says, i feel really slow, and I try to be real and logical and discuss something that I didnt understand. Then I decide to try something new, or well to be congruent and to say what im thinkin' and unconciously maybe i did it because i didnt believe i could get her. So i stare at her boobs silently for 5-10 sec then ask what size? I guess hers is B, she says C. Then she's like "Oh well bye, since u only care bout my boobs".
My friend approaches 2 girls.
I go in the set. I introduce myself to the one I liked. She has steady handshake, tru extrovert a lot of energy, compared to my slow energy. She's very engaging and takes her arm around me and is like "Hey I found a boyfriend" really open chick. i discuss i like her openess and extrovertion, she says "well u shouldnt be boring, thats why i hug ppl" We talk bout introversion and extroversion and other shit, i hold her near me. I try to go for k close. She sais: I have a rule, dont kiss on bars. I say its ok and talk some more. She says "wanna go in and get a drink"? I follow her. And here, when we move around the venue i feel more insecure about mysel. Its like I sometimes dunno how to act, like i wanna kiss her and talk, but maybe i should be chill. And then we look for my friend and her friend. Me and my friend is about to go. I ask for one kiss, she says ok then. And its a sweet kiss on the mouth. Bam, broke your rule bitch! XD
She says "should we change numbers?" Im like yea. didndt have my cell phone. she didnt message me next mornin though. aff :P
I left the venue cuz i wanted to see her again and not to try hook up with some1 else and loose her.
WOW its annoying to write Frs, takes time.
Standards: Atleast 5 sets that last minutes if its not really going on well with 1 girl.
Goal: 3 K close attempt. - Failed, only did 1 k close attempt.
So was out wednesday. Mett my pua friends at some place. Had mission to approach the first "set" with girls. The first girls were hangin with my rew, so introduced myself to them. Felt somewhat stifled, but still very accepting of myself. I sit down. 2 Puas tease one of the girls in the crew. I feel quite centered and calm. I remember back in the day I would be like "Need to say something , nee to say something else they might think im really shy or something" now its just like Relaxed... even if i was shy i accept that, i know i can talk. So i just listen.
Same thing, some chick told me: u looked chocked. Me reacting: I do? Internally i was like: yeh maybe thats true but w/e
No ppl here. Dont feel like dancin. One of the puas that i like the most come. We talk some shit. Here I feel kinda stifled because he does this ting where he just looks into ur eyes and its like he makes u keep talkin. And to another girl he responds and talks, but he just stares in my eyes like "waiting" for me to finish my sentence, and i did finish the sentence many times but he didnt react. Eventually i just went quite and he started talkin ...
We moved on to a club. Not many ppl. I had aa and felt sort of "unworthy" or like "all this approaches and momentum ve had before, was it just a dream?" He talks with them. Compared to me he is really fast in reacting and im really slow, its like i dont snap up things ppl say that fast. Guess thats cuz im very visual and have good imgagination. But we start talkin some. I get into the conv. Tension is beeing released. First I feel like the hot girl is kind of thinkin "whos that beta male" abuot me. The more we talk i get relaxed and I start talkin 1on1 with her just having great eye contact. And I get relaxed and we talk a lot, really chill, not like talk because we have to, but cuz we want to.
I get bored of normal talking and get really much freedom from outcome and start teasin and tellin stories about she beeing a farmer girl and something. She laughs.
I follow her to toilet. wait for her there. Thinking "Hmm should I go for k close attempt when she arrives back from toilet, or would that be weird?" Felt weird so i wait with it.
We go back. We get physical-fun. Like to our own choregropahy of some shit. My friend is about to leave. And i need to move on to get into the next club.
I ask the hot girls friend if i can borrow her friend, she says sure. I lead her deeper into the venue. K close attempt. She says "no hehe, but u were nice" Im like "was worth a try" Then i run out of there because i was uncomfortable with it lol, but i was pumped up by my own action.
Went to other club, wasnt many there. My wings talk to some girls 5-6 I stand there listen, talk lil bit to them
In club I say hi to some girls next to me. We start talk about where they from, where i from, who we know, i do some joke or smtn.
Was in club again, approached some chicks and they looked weird at me. And they looke really good, and i felt like the weird man. And I was like "Hey" and then i couldnt come of something to say really so I just stood there. My wing comes drags me away from there.
Out in smoking area, talk to some ppl. Approached some spanish group. Wow one of em wasnt that good lookin but curvy and attractive as fuck. She had such a sexy voice. I almost got a bonder directly. I I talk with the group some about spain shortly. Talk about why they bring weirdb ags to this club. She talks about her school. I say "Im really not that much talkative right now" Congruent. She says "hehe its ok".
They have to go in.
Approach some really hot chicks: U read books? We talk some about books, she does some "funny" commentar like : So what do u read, harry potter? my wing laughes a lil bit bout it. Im unreactive, just say "ye my mom actually read it for me while i was little but that was some time ago". Another wing enters. Take over the conversation.
Last approach, I approach some hot chicks congruently and im like "I feel lil bit weird, and tired but I really wanted to approach u guys" They say one of them has been in a show called paradise hotel, i dont believe them. we do some norwegian fake accents, i say i dont trust them. One of the girls take me around my stomach and holds me. I hold her back but then i think like "Maybe she doesnt like it, maybe she likes chill guys who dont touch her". They r about to go in i say "Bye girls" The hot girl asks me "but where are u going?" maybe that was an invite to follow them or something. But i dont remember what i did
Left the venue.
Just watched Alex simple method. Where he's like, stay in set longer and just chill with the girls. maybe thats what i should do. But i dunno should i take action and attempt k close or just wait?
Goal: 3 K close attempt. - Failed, only did 1 k close attempt.
So was out wednesday. Mett my pua friends at some place. Had mission to approach the first "set" with girls. The first girls were hangin with my rew, so introduced myself to them. Felt somewhat stifled, but still very accepting of myself. I sit down. 2 Puas tease one of the girls in the crew. I feel quite centered and calm. I remember back in the day I would be like "Need to say something , nee to say something else they might think im really shy or something" now its just like Relaxed... even if i was shy i accept that, i know i can talk. So i just listen.
Same thing, some chick told me: u looked chocked. Me reacting: I do? Internally i was like: yeh maybe thats true but w/e
No ppl here. Dont feel like dancin. One of the puas that i like the most come. We talk some shit. Here I feel kinda stifled because he does this ting where he just looks into ur eyes and its like he makes u keep talkin. And to another girl he responds and talks, but he just stares in my eyes like "waiting" for me to finish my sentence, and i did finish the sentence many times but he didnt react. Eventually i just went quite and he started talkin ...
We moved on to a club. Not many ppl. I had aa and felt sort of "unworthy" or like "all this approaches and momentum ve had before, was it just a dream?" He talks with them. Compared to me he is really fast in reacting and im really slow, its like i dont snap up things ppl say that fast. Guess thats cuz im very visual and have good imgagination. But we start talkin some. I get into the conv. Tension is beeing released. First I feel like the hot girl is kind of thinkin "whos that beta male" abuot me. The more we talk i get relaxed and I start talkin 1on1 with her just having great eye contact. And I get relaxed and we talk a lot, really chill, not like talk because we have to, but cuz we want to.
I get bored of normal talking and get really much freedom from outcome and start teasin and tellin stories about she beeing a farmer girl and something. She laughs.
I follow her to toilet. wait for her there. Thinking "Hmm should I go for k close attempt when she arrives back from toilet, or would that be weird?" Felt weird so i wait with it.
We go back. We get physical-fun. Like to our own choregropahy of some shit. My friend is about to leave. And i need to move on to get into the next club.
I ask the hot girls friend if i can borrow her friend, she says sure. I lead her deeper into the venue. K close attempt. She says "no hehe, but u were nice" Im like "was worth a try" Then i run out of there because i was uncomfortable with it lol, but i was pumped up by my own action.
Went to other club, wasnt many there. My wings talk to some girls 5-6 I stand there listen, talk lil bit to them
In club I say hi to some girls next to me. We start talk about where they from, where i from, who we know, i do some joke or smtn.
Was in club again, approached some chicks and they looked weird at me. And they looke really good, and i felt like the weird man. And I was like "Hey" and then i couldnt come of something to say really so I just stood there. My wing comes drags me away from there.
Out in smoking area, talk to some ppl. Approached some spanish group. Wow one of em wasnt that good lookin but curvy and attractive as fuck. She had such a sexy voice. I almost got a bonder directly. I I talk with the group some about spain shortly. Talk about why they bring weirdb ags to this club. She talks about her school. I say "Im really not that much talkative right now" Congruent. She says "hehe its ok".
They have to go in.
Approach some really hot chicks: U read books? We talk some about books, she does some "funny" commentar like : So what do u read, harry potter? my wing laughes a lil bit bout it. Im unreactive, just say "ye my mom actually read it for me while i was little but that was some time ago". Another wing enters. Take over the conversation.
Last approach, I approach some hot chicks congruently and im like "I feel lil bit weird, and tired but I really wanted to approach u guys" They say one of them has been in a show called paradise hotel, i dont believe them. we do some norwegian fake accents, i say i dont trust them. One of the girls take me around my stomach and holds me. I hold her back but then i think like "Maybe she doesnt like it, maybe she likes chill guys who dont touch her". They r about to go in i say "Bye girls" The hot girl asks me "but where are u going?" maybe that was an invite to follow them or something. But i dont remember what i did
Left the venue.
Just watched Alex simple method. Where he's like, stay in set longer and just chill with the girls. maybe thats what i should do. But i dunno should i take action and attempt k close or just wait?
Friday night:
Stand in line. Meet m pua friends. Feel good. Im joking. We go in. I hear Alex "stay in set long" voice inside my head. My pua friend opens a set. I do so too. 3 chicks. I introduce myself to all of them. Start babbling about age and shit, nothing to come up with. Its like "ok talk talk talk, dont run out of things to say, just come up with something". They dont seem very engaging, i keep on persisting. I "lock" in on of them. HAve 1on1 chat about really shit, she doesnt feel engaging at all. Feels like talking to a wall.
Really I would just like to kiss her or something but its earl in the night and it wasnt appropiate. Plus I have this paradox, should I go in the club with a goal to push myself or listen to Alex "chill out?" So I try to make conv with her... its dead really
They leave. I go around in the club. Meet some pua friends. I see some older chicks dancin in a ring. Really I wanna talk to the hottest there and pull her home. 40 year old milf. Instead I go for the second hottest, and not that hot actually. Not acting through my intentions. But im just so confused. Should I talk to the whole group, should I go for one girl, ererer... Really since I wanna be a guy who just does what he does, its better to introduce myself to just the girl i want because thats what context i want.
I talk with one of them, and then I just have nothing to say so I liave.
I was walking around, see 3 girls at a couch. I sit next to them. APparentely one of them was transforming from woman into man and therefore her boobs was geting smaller, she said.
So since she was lesbian I chill a lil bit, thinkin it could be a "shit test". We talk about music. I feel kinda isnecure if i shuld hold eye contact or just chill and look where i want.
Approach some 4 latinas sitting. Im like "Hey" They barely speak english and dont wanna engage. I stand 6 seconds and hesitate if i should go to the other side and talk wih the hottest latina. I do so. She doesnt understand shit, They just look at me weird. I say "bye".
Was chillin in couch with some other ppl. My natural friend whos a fucin pump has a hb 6 in his lap, and the girl siting next to me is engaging with him too, throwing ice on me. I really, introverted as I am, just chill with low energy and basically wanna kiss with the girl. But I dont... I touch her a lil bit, sees if I get some iois and if she wanna kiss or something but na... so i dont do anything. I decide "maybe I should justr chill, as alex says"
The 2 girls i recentel named, i met them outside too. I would like to make out with one of them. They talk about "can u see that im wet on shirt or smtn?" i joke with them some. I chill and joke about boobs, and guess boob size. I do some shit where I talk with the one girl and look on the other girl, joking with her and doing the whole "whats the right thing to say joke" (for readers u wont get it, but im too tired to explain it). I chill, but they leasve, not interested in chillin with me.
I meet som pua friends. We challenge eachother. He challenge me to number close a real real fat chick with my best "game". I take the challenge, even if i wanted to do this on a hot girl. Anywho, all of a sudden i went realy charmin and was like "Hey i need ur number", intent was quite clear, and i was really cute and she laughed and i was charmin. Man this was fun. Didnt ger her number even if i persisted for 5 mins. My friend challenged me to take another girls number, a hotter one. I went up to her. Was face to face, near her. she was drunk and was going to move out of my way. I wouldnt let her,. I insited on number, ended up with makeout lol. After makeout i got boner when she sat in my lap. From there i didnt want to push it, she was just a drunk slut for me.
I went on the dance floor, told myself to pushmyself and challenged myself to k close one of the hotter girls on the dance floor. At this point I was very low energy and went in, and i guess they thought i was creepy. The girls stepped away from me. The gus dancin with them grabbed them, protecting them. One of the girls smiled at me. I interprented it as a teasing smile, maybe wrong with my mindset. I mean a really mean teasing smile. I said to her "dont be lame" and leaved.From there I felt really bad emotionally because i felt so weird, like the weird dude. The rejection actually hurted a lil bit. Felt like a walk of shame.
Went home tired after this.
Stand in line. Meet m pua friends. Feel good. Im joking. We go in. I hear Alex "stay in set long" voice inside my head. My pua friend opens a set. I do so too. 3 chicks. I introduce myself to all of them. Start babbling about age and shit, nothing to come up with. Its like "ok talk talk talk, dont run out of things to say, just come up with something". They dont seem very engaging, i keep on persisting. I "lock" in on of them. HAve 1on1 chat about really shit, she doesnt feel engaging at all. Feels like talking to a wall.
Really I would just like to kiss her or something but its earl in the night and it wasnt appropiate. Plus I have this paradox, should I go in the club with a goal to push myself or listen to Alex "chill out?" So I try to make conv with her... its dead really
They leave. I go around in the club. Meet some pua friends. I see some older chicks dancin in a ring. Really I wanna talk to the hottest there and pull her home. 40 year old milf. Instead I go for the second hottest, and not that hot actually. Not acting through my intentions. But im just so confused. Should I talk to the whole group, should I go for one girl, ererer... Really since I wanna be a guy who just does what he does, its better to introduce myself to just the girl i want because thats what context i want.
I talk with one of them, and then I just have nothing to say so I liave.
I was walking around, see 3 girls at a couch. I sit next to them. APparentely one of them was transforming from woman into man and therefore her boobs was geting smaller, she said.
So since she was lesbian I chill a lil bit, thinkin it could be a "shit test". We talk about music. I feel kinda isnecure if i shuld hold eye contact or just chill and look where i want.
Approach some 4 latinas sitting. Im like "Hey" They barely speak english and dont wanna engage. I stand 6 seconds and hesitate if i should go to the other side and talk wih the hottest latina. I do so. She doesnt understand shit, They just look at me weird. I say "bye".
Was chillin in couch with some other ppl. My natural friend whos a fucin pump has a hb 6 in his lap, and the girl siting next to me is engaging with him too, throwing ice on me. I really, introverted as I am, just chill with low energy and basically wanna kiss with the girl. But I dont... I touch her a lil bit, sees if I get some iois and if she wanna kiss or something but na... so i dont do anything. I decide "maybe I should justr chill, as alex says"
The 2 girls i recentel named, i met them outside too. I would like to make out with one of them. They talk about "can u see that im wet on shirt or smtn?" i joke with them some. I chill and joke about boobs, and guess boob size. I do some shit where I talk with the one girl and look on the other girl, joking with her and doing the whole "whats the right thing to say joke" (for readers u wont get it, but im too tired to explain it). I chill, but they leasve, not interested in chillin with me.
I meet som pua friends. We challenge eachother. He challenge me to number close a real real fat chick with my best "game". I take the challenge, even if i wanted to do this on a hot girl. Anywho, all of a sudden i went realy charmin and was like "Hey i need ur number", intent was quite clear, and i was really cute and she laughed and i was charmin. Man this was fun. Didnt ger her number even if i persisted for 5 mins. My friend challenged me to take another girls number, a hotter one. I went up to her. Was face to face, near her. she was drunk and was going to move out of my way. I wouldnt let her,. I insited on number, ended up with makeout lol. After makeout i got boner when she sat in my lap. From there i didnt want to push it, she was just a drunk slut for me.
I went on the dance floor, told myself to pushmyself and challenged myself to k close one of the hotter girls on the dance floor. At this point I was very low energy and went in, and i guess they thought i was creepy. The girls stepped away from me. The gus dancin with them grabbed them, protecting them. One of the girls smiled at me. I interprented it as a teasing smile, maybe wrong with my mindset. I mean a really mean teasing smile. I said to her "dont be lame" and leaved.From there I felt really bad emotionally because i felt so weird, like the weird dude. The rejection actually hurted a lil bit. Felt like a walk of shame.
Went home tired after this.
Saturday night out: Met up with my pua friends. We were only 3 this time. I was glad. Feel so weird going 10 puas to a club. Got in. We sit, relax. I see 2 hot girls, really hot but too afraid to approach, they seem bitchy. I approached some less attractive chicks instead. Talked in 5-10 min, 90 % me talkin. They didnt intiate. I farted lol. I told them I had farted too.
Was going to do another approach. See some guy in the set. THe guy is m old friend from school lol. Glad i didn approach the girls. Would have been awkard. Talk to him 10 min, then leave.
Go around some. I approach the hot girls. They sit down. I feel really awkard talkin to them, espciaill since i looked on them before and im thinkin "they probably know ifve been thinkin about approachin them and not doin them, chodey me." I ask them if i can sit down. Really i wanted to sit in between and just makeout with the hot one like that. But doesnt work like that, does it?
I talk some about thwe club, about me too tired of dancin, they ask me if im alone, the old usual cold biatches just thinkin theyre hot. I leave after 5 min.
I see some chick going out to smoking area, hot chick, me and my wing follows. I open her. She looks good. I feel stifled and nervous, I really feel im not that extroverted since my responds are slow. Im better at talkin about my pasions then beeing fast in convos. At first it feels like shes more interested of my wing, he dominated the convo as a start. I chill. Then I talk, she feels less bitchy then I assumed she was going to be. Do some small touchin here and there, just to assure they can feel safe with us. We say we are 18, they say were to young for them. I do some joke about she dosnt talk to ppl whos to young for her, they all laugh hysteracily. The hot chic sitch side and talk to my wing, maybe shes more comfortable with him. I talk with the uglier chick, just to do something. Not much chemistry there was there, she was quite nervous. I do the claw on her non purposely, just to "practise" it. Lol sounds weird.
We go around some. I say something to some chick at the bar. SHe doesnt respond too much. I feel weird, dont continue talkin.
Some dudes told me i was gay, i said wtf, they was about to fight me, i told guards, they got kicked out.
The hot chick from before, i take her out to smoking area. Talk about nathaniel brande six pillars of self esteem and shit. SHe says she has bad self esteem. I cpontionusl look into her eyes, after looking to uch her eyes started looking funny lol. I said "can i hold u" she says she has boyfriend named frederico. I get even more chill, not "hunting" anymore. I chill. Its silent. Not comfortable silent, just stiff silent. I leave veenue.
Was going to do another approach. See some guy in the set. THe guy is m old friend from school lol. Glad i didn approach the girls. Would have been awkard. Talk to him 10 min, then leave.
Go around some. I approach the hot girls. They sit down. I feel really awkard talkin to them, espciaill since i looked on them before and im thinkin "they probably know ifve been thinkin about approachin them and not doin them, chodey me." I ask them if i can sit down. Really i wanted to sit in between and just makeout with the hot one like that. But doesnt work like that, does it?
I talk some about thwe club, about me too tired of dancin, they ask me if im alone, the old usual cold biatches just thinkin theyre hot. I leave after 5 min.
I see some chick going out to smoking area, hot chick, me and my wing follows. I open her. She looks good. I feel stifled and nervous, I really feel im not that extroverted since my responds are slow. Im better at talkin about my pasions then beeing fast in convos. At first it feels like shes more interested of my wing, he dominated the convo as a start. I chill. Then I talk, she feels less bitchy then I assumed she was going to be. Do some small touchin here and there, just to assure they can feel safe with us. We say we are 18, they say were to young for them. I do some joke about she dosnt talk to ppl whos to young for her, they all laugh hysteracily. The hot chic sitch side and talk to my wing, maybe shes more comfortable with him. I talk with the uglier chick, just to do something. Not much chemistry there was there, she was quite nervous. I do the claw on her non purposely, just to "practise" it. Lol sounds weird.
We go around some. I say something to some chick at the bar. SHe doesnt respond too much. I feel weird, dont continue talkin.
Some dudes told me i was gay, i said wtf, they was about to fight me, i told guards, they got kicked out.
The hot chick from before, i take her out to smoking area. Talk about nathaniel brande six pillars of self esteem and shit. SHe says she has bad self esteem. I cpontionusl look into her eyes, after looking to uch her eyes started looking funny lol. I said "can i hold u" she says she has boyfriend named frederico. I get even more chill, not "hunting" anymore. I chill. Its silent. Not comfortable silent, just stiff silent. I leave veenue.
ay. Come to the club. Meet one other RSD dood of "accident". Meets his pua friends. Typical nerds. When I see these people Im like "Gosh what a loser community this is". But that kinda goes against, I dont know if you could call it values, but props for guys tryin to do something bout their probs. Still, it just feels so weird meeting these weird puas. One was dressed really bad. Looked like Urkel.
Anyhow, go in to the club. I remember was going to approach the first one I see. I look at one girl next to the queue. I look at her 3 seconds then go:
Me: Hey (sounded like a bad pickup start, but thats more of my normal goofy way to say Hey)
She: Hey?
Me: What's up (dont rlly care bout what im sayin, mission was just to approach)
She: I have a boyfriend, he's right there, walks to boyfriend in the queue.
I get somewhat annoyed. Like, lol I said Hi whatsup when everything is really chill, im 2 metres from here and she directly has to go to her boyfriend. But Im not really mad, im just glad for me takin action. And maybe she was scared of talking to someone. I dont really care that much. Move on.
I walk around a lil bit, need to get money from the bank account shit so I can play for closit. I see guys, girls walkin around me. This is kinda where I look and is a little bit "Hmm I wonder what they are thinkin about me, are they thinkin ohh whos that or are they thinking whos that weirdo, please dont talk to me" I kinda hesitate, should I open here. I kinda want to but it feels like its gonna get weird. I go up,
Pay in the shit. See the weird pua guys standin together. The one that I knew before is liek:
Him: How did it go?
Me: Yeah i was going bla bla (here i just dont really feel to talkin about what happened, feels so boring and the club music is drainin me and shit)
he 2 other pickup doodes stands with their beer in their hand, probably one of their first experiences in the clubs. I kinda have nothing to say, don't really find these guys interesting, just sad. The guy I "know" say:
Him: So him over there also read the game.
GOSH am i tired of these dicussions, game. When u meet some new pua you just talk about game, how it all started, blabla. Im tired of it. I hate the word game. Ok maybe it was rude of me but im just beeing authentic.
Me: Yeah i really dont wanna talk about any game.
Him: Dont be antisocial man.
I wanna kick this guy in his head. Dislike him as fuck. He doesn't get me. Well what can you do. I hang with him a little bit more to see whats up.
Even if these dudes feels so weird and id be ashamed if someone would see me with them I decide to "Whatever. Don't give a shit bout what anyone thinks". I go with them. Chill at a bar. I talk to them, what they do etc. Im kind of always thinking like when your in the conversation, since ive heard it before that someone would go "Hey whats up, ur not talking, youre just staring, you look tired, when in conv and I don't want to follow it up because its so boring. I really do not want to talk, people would go "Hey, how are you, you look tired" as some ppl have been saying lately. And like I really just wanna chill, that's what I wanna do. But some tardos don't seem to accept that, or find it weird, or some insecure people dont find it weird but they think its wrong because others think so.
Here I kinda feel boring. And want to be liked. I want to impress. Or I dunno, maybe I didnt want to be mr angry man. I do some "self amusement". Think it was to show him real humour, funny stuff, not boring jokes. They laugh when I do some shit.
My other pua friends come. Im so GLAD im with them now, not these other weiros. Actually one in this gang who I thought was really weird,I wasl ike hapyp to see him, because compared to these guys he wasnt weird. Talk to him. Before I had some problem with him, because he looked at me so insecurely, with eye contact. Kinda reminded of myself somehow. Remembered Jeffy's "You dislike what you see in other people that you fear most in yourself" or something. And that was true. So now I was all positive with the dood. Listened to him, felt relaxed, was fun.
Go around some, do some approach with the guy i "knew" on some chicks.
Us: Hey
Them: Hey, we're not really social now
Us. We need to get better at becoming social so we're kinda int he same boat
We sit down.
I talk to the blonde girl.
Our conversation was about quite boring shit. Well we talked abot like so what you dom hold are you. She guessed I was younger. I do same lines in the club allt he time now. Its like same shit over and over. Not routine or anything, just automatically. Yeah where are you from blabla, not anything to talka bout. Hmm guess my age "oh yeah ppl say i look older". Just a lot of same stuff
We ran out of conv, i didnt find her interesting, but ofc i wouldnt mind fucking her. So nothign to say I was like "Hmm yea if u would be any animal you would be, and i reflect, you wouldnt be like a chiuaua... and I continue.. shit was supposed to be funny but she misinterprenteds it and takes it as a diss. And is like "If u say I look like an animal, bla bla bla" and get all bitchy.
And I was like "I was just trying to intiate and do something interesting. And kind of I feel dorky and hate myself a bit for taking up something so boring, i didnt even enjoy it myself. But hey atleast i took action
She answers: yea well as i said before im really not social, just wanna chill tonight
Im like ok. And do tripple high five with the girls and leave.
I chill with the guy I "know" just walkin around. And all of a sudden, and i get this sometimes from ppl:
Him: "you look so tired"
and I get pissed at him. Im like
Me: "Yeah im kinda low energy"
Him: No you're not. Not the other day we were daygamin'
And thats true, I switch sometimes. But its like he thinks u have to be some mega state machine in the club, and maybe u have to. But i dont want to be.
Me: Yea well im kinda chill
Him: Hey! Im not judgin (bad, insecure tone)
I look at him lil bit angry, god I dislike him. He's such a typical RSD: BUT TYLER SAID! He uses so many expressions like chode all the time and chode corner blabla, uggh sickens me.
I did also have like a time record with me to see how I long I stayed in set all together. Of 3 hours, I was in set 1 hour. Psych gave u msision to do 4 hours stay in set. Dunno bout that. Maybe half is good.
Go to toilet. English doodes. I was about to go in and do some joke, but then I hesitate, think about it too much, doesnt get spontaneous. I get somewhat nervous. "What if it gets really stiff, what if they just look at me, even the stiffeness doesnt get funnyy"
Always when im at toilet i kinda get anxiety about some dude opening me. And I answer logically. And he doesnt like me, I dunno
Moves on. Have massive aa this time, most of the sets were my friends openin. Mm, see hot girls, but afraid of open alone. Gotta approach more by myself. I have hard in the club when so many ppl are watchin. Kind of easier when girls are more alone. That's quite difference to what I used to think.
Approach 2 ppl, with my wing. I go for the good lookin curly one. Talk to her. Im beeing authentic. Telling her this conv is boring. We're just talkin. There's no real tension. She's chillin olooking forward. Im not sure If I want to just look her in the eye, or if we should just chill. Yeah that's another thing, eye contact. Maybe I haven't been using it too much lately.
We talk. She's nice, but not too interesting. Her hair smells like butter, uggh, i tell her that.
When in conv I was like "Maybe shes gonna diss me soon, mby im too boring"
But she was kinda re opening the conv again and again, u.u. She asked me what I do. I said: Im tired of telling: She: but im curious. Then i told her
I have this thing now which I learned form psych, in my head, where I wanna lead the interaction. I lead her to couch, was goign for k close. We talked, intense eye contact, but didnt feel to much. Just felt normal. No sexual tension at all. She felt too nice, too boring. But i did 3 k close attempt. Got nothing. Left.
Did a few more approaches, but no real approaches where I stayed in set that long. When I see girls now im kinda like "Okay gotta get to know this girl, gotta talk again.. aff, but mby shes interesting"
The two times where I got laid from club was when I talked a lot, when I was in that mode. But it takes so much energy to constantly be expressing yourself, espicially when ur more introverted. Like I dont wanna talk my whole life story to everygirl.
Stayed, did some approaches. I kinda doubt when im alone. Its like "im weird pua dude doin approaches by myself".
Gotta work on approachin by myself.
Anyhow, go in to the club. I remember was going to approach the first one I see. I look at one girl next to the queue. I look at her 3 seconds then go:
Me: Hey (sounded like a bad pickup start, but thats more of my normal goofy way to say Hey)
She: Hey?
Me: What's up (dont rlly care bout what im sayin, mission was just to approach)
She: I have a boyfriend, he's right there, walks to boyfriend in the queue.
I get somewhat annoyed. Like, lol I said Hi whatsup when everything is really chill, im 2 metres from here and she directly has to go to her boyfriend. But Im not really mad, im just glad for me takin action. And maybe she was scared of talking to someone. I dont really care that much. Move on.
I walk around a lil bit, need to get money from the bank account shit so I can play for closit. I see guys, girls walkin around me. This is kinda where I look and is a little bit "Hmm I wonder what they are thinkin about me, are they thinkin ohh whos that or are they thinking whos that weirdo, please dont talk to me" I kinda hesitate, should I open here. I kinda want to but it feels like its gonna get weird. I go up,
Pay in the shit. See the weird pua guys standin together. The one that I knew before is liek:
Him: How did it go?
Me: Yeah i was going bla bla (here i just dont really feel to talkin about what happened, feels so boring and the club music is drainin me and shit)
he 2 other pickup doodes stands with their beer in their hand, probably one of their first experiences in the clubs. I kinda have nothing to say, don't really find these guys interesting, just sad. The guy I "know" say:
Him: So him over there also read the game.
GOSH am i tired of these dicussions, game. When u meet some new pua you just talk about game, how it all started, blabla. Im tired of it. I hate the word game. Ok maybe it was rude of me but im just beeing authentic.
Me: Yeah i really dont wanna talk about any game.
Him: Dont be antisocial man.
I wanna kick this guy in his head. Dislike him as fuck. He doesn't get me. Well what can you do. I hang with him a little bit more to see whats up.
Even if these dudes feels so weird and id be ashamed if someone would see me with them I decide to "Whatever. Don't give a shit bout what anyone thinks". I go with them. Chill at a bar. I talk to them, what they do etc. Im kind of always thinking like when your in the conversation, since ive heard it before that someone would go "Hey whats up, ur not talking, youre just staring, you look tired, when in conv and I don't want to follow it up because its so boring. I really do not want to talk, people would go "Hey, how are you, you look tired" as some ppl have been saying lately. And like I really just wanna chill, that's what I wanna do. But some tardos don't seem to accept that, or find it weird, or some insecure people dont find it weird but they think its wrong because others think so.
Here I kinda feel boring. And want to be liked. I want to impress. Or I dunno, maybe I didnt want to be mr angry man. I do some "self amusement". Think it was to show him real humour, funny stuff, not boring jokes. They laugh when I do some shit.
My other pua friends come. Im so GLAD im with them now, not these other weiros. Actually one in this gang who I thought was really weird,I wasl ike hapyp to see him, because compared to these guys he wasnt weird. Talk to him. Before I had some problem with him, because he looked at me so insecurely, with eye contact. Kinda reminded of myself somehow. Remembered Jeffy's "You dislike what you see in other people that you fear most in yourself" or something. And that was true. So now I was all positive with the dood. Listened to him, felt relaxed, was fun.
Go around some, do some approach with the guy i "knew" on some chicks.
Us: Hey
Them: Hey, we're not really social now
Us. We need to get better at becoming social so we're kinda int he same boat
We sit down.
I talk to the blonde girl.
Our conversation was about quite boring shit. Well we talked abot like so what you dom hold are you. She guessed I was younger. I do same lines in the club allt he time now. Its like same shit over and over. Not routine or anything, just automatically. Yeah where are you from blabla, not anything to talka bout. Hmm guess my age "oh yeah ppl say i look older". Just a lot of same stuff
We ran out of conv, i didnt find her interesting, but ofc i wouldnt mind fucking her. So nothign to say I was like "Hmm yea if u would be any animal you would be, and i reflect, you wouldnt be like a chiuaua... and I continue.. shit was supposed to be funny but she misinterprenteds it and takes it as a diss. And is like "If u say I look like an animal, bla bla bla" and get all bitchy.
And I was like "I was just trying to intiate and do something interesting. And kind of I feel dorky and hate myself a bit for taking up something so boring, i didnt even enjoy it myself. But hey atleast i took action
She answers: yea well as i said before im really not social, just wanna chill tonight
Im like ok. And do tripple high five with the girls and leave.
I chill with the guy I "know" just walkin around. And all of a sudden, and i get this sometimes from ppl:
Him: "you look so tired"
and I get pissed at him. Im like
Me: "Yeah im kinda low energy"
Him: No you're not. Not the other day we were daygamin'
And thats true, I switch sometimes. But its like he thinks u have to be some mega state machine in the club, and maybe u have to. But i dont want to be.
Me: Yea well im kinda chill
Him: Hey! Im not judgin (bad, insecure tone)
I look at him lil bit angry, god I dislike him. He's such a typical RSD: BUT TYLER SAID! He uses so many expressions like chode all the time and chode corner blabla, uggh sickens me.
I did also have like a time record with me to see how I long I stayed in set all together. Of 3 hours, I was in set 1 hour. Psych gave u msision to do 4 hours stay in set. Dunno bout that. Maybe half is good.
Go to toilet. English doodes. I was about to go in and do some joke, but then I hesitate, think about it too much, doesnt get spontaneous. I get somewhat nervous. "What if it gets really stiff, what if they just look at me, even the stiffeness doesnt get funnyy"
Always when im at toilet i kinda get anxiety about some dude opening me. And I answer logically. And he doesnt like me, I dunno
Moves on. Have massive aa this time, most of the sets were my friends openin. Mm, see hot girls, but afraid of open alone. Gotta approach more by myself. I have hard in the club when so many ppl are watchin. Kind of easier when girls are more alone. That's quite difference to what I used to think.
Approach 2 ppl, with my wing. I go for the good lookin curly one. Talk to her. Im beeing authentic. Telling her this conv is boring. We're just talkin. There's no real tension. She's chillin olooking forward. Im not sure If I want to just look her in the eye, or if we should just chill. Yeah that's another thing, eye contact. Maybe I haven't been using it too much lately.
We talk. She's nice, but not too interesting. Her hair smells like butter, uggh, i tell her that.
When in conv I was like "Maybe shes gonna diss me soon, mby im too boring"
But she was kinda re opening the conv again and again, u.u. She asked me what I do. I said: Im tired of telling: She: but im curious. Then i told her
I have this thing now which I learned form psych, in my head, where I wanna lead the interaction. I lead her to couch, was goign for k close. We talked, intense eye contact, but didnt feel to much. Just felt normal. No sexual tension at all. She felt too nice, too boring. But i did 3 k close attempt. Got nothing. Left.
Did a few more approaches, but no real approaches where I stayed in set that long. When I see girls now im kinda like "Okay gotta get to know this girl, gotta talk again.. aff, but mby shes interesting"
The two times where I got laid from club was when I talked a lot, when I was in that mode. But it takes so much energy to constantly be expressing yourself, espicially when ur more introverted. Like I dont wanna talk my whole life story to everygirl.
Stayed, did some approaches. I kinda doubt when im alone. Its like "im weird pua dude doin approaches by myself".
Gotta work on approachin by myself.
Was out friday. Havent been out for a while. Sorted out many things in life, death anxiety, loneliness emotions and shit. Felt kinda much anxiety after having graduating, and not much social circle and "sucess". But its ok, sorted it out now. Jst gonna be proactive all time, no guilt.
Friday. Went out. Met the guys. Talked, was chill. Was in good mood. Got threw into sets by my pua friends. Had aa so felt good. Talked. Every girls reacted good, no1 was bitchy. Weird...
Just talked. Some finnish girl talked to me, i didnt say shit she just talked. I got weirdly phsyical, little bit insecure. Asked for kiss, she told me to get a drink first. I insiteded, so did she.
Went around. Talked to some sweich girl on toilet. She was nice. Talked with her guy friend. We went around. Danced. Didnt want to kiss cuz her guy friend was close. Mm we got phsyical massive boner.
Got their number.
Finnish girl was about to leave. I asked for kiss, she made out with me, didnt feel good.
Did one approach, Umeå. She was nice. Didnt feel to attracted. Moved closer. Attempt k close. Didnt work.
Talked with sweich girls. Talked about day 2.
Was at high class club. Went around with my buddy. fooled around . Mingled with two girls. Eye contact, just talked about life. Talkedd to some dude outside. Danced in center of attention. Wanna pushmyself. Normal friend didnt want to do anything. Talked to some british girls.
Overstiumlating, we left. He didnt push me
Sticking points: NEED TO APPROACH BY MYSELF A LOT. And get physical more.
Friday. Went out. Met the guys. Talked, was chill. Was in good mood. Got threw into sets by my pua friends. Had aa so felt good. Talked. Every girls reacted good, no1 was bitchy. Weird...
Just talked. Some finnish girl talked to me, i didnt say shit she just talked. I got weirdly phsyical, little bit insecure. Asked for kiss, she told me to get a drink first. I insiteded, so did she.
Went around. Talked to some sweich girl on toilet. She was nice. Talked with her guy friend. We went around. Danced. Didnt want to kiss cuz her guy friend was close. Mm we got phsyical massive boner.
Got their number.
Finnish girl was about to leave. I asked for kiss, she made out with me, didnt feel good.
Did one approach, Umeå. She was nice. Didnt feel to attracted. Moved closer. Attempt k close. Didnt work.
Talked with sweich girls. Talked about day 2.
Was at high class club. Went around with my buddy. fooled around . Mingled with two girls. Eye contact, just talked about life. Talkedd to some dude outside. Danced in center of attention. Wanna pushmyself. Normal friend didnt want to do anything. Talked to some british girls.
Overstiumlating, we left. He didnt push me
Sticking points: NEED TO APPROACH BY MYSELF A LOT. And get physical more.
Alright so I had to approach so much more. So my mission was to approach 20 minutes and be in set. I would do this till I have had been 1h in set. I sucessfully did and pushed myself out from the ego of beeing sucessfull with women. That was kinda the thing. I was afraid of it. So got some rejection here and there, creepd some girls out, got back in track. Didnt do anything really with the girls though, but mission was just to approach by myself which I did.
We went to another club. I did 20 minutes. Sat down with 3 girls,. One was like the clubs hottie. She was really nice, I felt we had some kind of chemistry and instant connection. I talked with her some. Told her to go dance with me, but they went the other way. Think her friends didnt want her to come with me. Was on dancefloor, doping the ring and shit, got all hyped up. She was there. I was like lets dance" she said she cant do this music.
We was about to leave, and I see her sitting outside. My friend pushed me to say hello. I did, fear went away. Felt somewhat stiffed though. Talked to her. My friend pushed me to some dance moves I did. It felt kinda like some love story i was kinda shy and nervous and she was nice. Kinda disgusted me some lol, but was kinda fine. Then a big guard who apparentely was her friend took her away from there. aff
We went around some with my friends, had some deep talk, approached some girls coming by.
I was successfull cuz i took the action i was about to take. But I didnt approach some girl b4 the club and I didnt approach first ppl in the club But it kinda feels weird to do that.
I need to "be in set" longer imo. I should aim for beeing in set in 2 hours. Maybe its bad that I have to do the thing to push my aa, but it works.
So mission for night - Be in set 2h ( help that u approach urself by taking 30 min time)
- attempt 1 k close
- ask some girls to come home to u/afterparty
We went to another club. I did 20 minutes. Sat down with 3 girls,. One was like the clubs hottie. She was really nice, I felt we had some kind of chemistry and instant connection. I talked with her some. Told her to go dance with me, but they went the other way. Think her friends didnt want her to come with me. Was on dancefloor, doping the ring and shit, got all hyped up. She was there. I was like lets dance" she said she cant do this music.
We was about to leave, and I see her sitting outside. My friend pushed me to say hello. I did, fear went away. Felt somewhat stiffed though. Talked to her. My friend pushed me to some dance moves I did. It felt kinda like some love story i was kinda shy and nervous and she was nice. Kinda disgusted me some lol, but was kinda fine. Then a big guard who apparentely was her friend took her away from there. aff
We went around some with my friends, had some deep talk, approached some girls coming by.
I was successfull cuz i took the action i was about to take. But I didnt approach some girl b4 the club and I didnt approach first ppl in the club But it kinda feels weird to do that.
I need to "be in set" longer imo. I should aim for beeing in set in 2 hours. Maybe its bad that I have to do the thing to push my aa, but it works.
So mission for night - Be in set 2h ( help that u approach urself by taking 30 min time)
- attempt 1 k close
- ask some girls to come home to u/afterparty
Alright so sucess again, by that I mean taking action! Mission was to be in set for 2h, and extra goals, attempt k close and ask some girl for afterparty. I didt everything except ask girl for afterparty.
Wow, how many approaches did I do this night? 40? 50?
So, I had problems approaching naturally from start, feeling somewhat stifled. Talked to some group of girls. You cant speak in this club, to noisy music. Gosh ima talk to girls in the instead.
Somewhere near 12 I got bored, just did approaches on dancefloor spontatenously. Did go to some indian girl and try to kiss her. Apparentely she was lesbian. Attemptet 5 k closes or smtn lol.
I did talk to some girl next to me, naturally, and here's when the conversation goes naturally and non creepy, non outcome, it gets friendly and cool. Even though she wasnt hot. I approached the miss universes on the club. One I thought aws hot, wasnt hot, had weird face. She wasnt that nice. I approached them and said i digged them. She said thanks. Then i just stood there, had nothing to say. I screamed "Ahh i feel so wweird". Then I left. I also approached the only real 10 on the club, the miss universe sweden 2011. Gorgeous. I kinda had problems making eye contact, seeing if she htought I was weird or smtn. She and her guy f4riend was nce. But was impossible to try to go from there, not a fuckin 10 my brain said, not the hostess of miss universe, not the highest value girl on the club lol.
Omg i did the thing where I approach for 1 h non stop. Got rejected a lot. And in sets, no girl seemed interesting. And I kinda half-persisted, tried to keep in set. But it was like they didnt notice me and it wasnt right for me to be there, as if they didnt even know me. So I kinda left sets after a while. Was hert geting to know ppl. I did some "run the train" but didnt work too much. Had problems taking girls and leading.
But i approached a damn lot, never done it so much in my life.
Got some makeout with a 6 or smtn. Wow i put my standards somewhat lower, quite much indifference. Though i wouldnt kiss the 4-5 fattie. Had some fun,. flippin on dancefloor. Was in made state. But it really shouldnt be like this. Iw ant to just be more natural, mroe chill, less stressed. But now I know I can approach by myself. I should focus on just approachin naturally instead. And ima focus more on the day, gosh i dislike these clubs sometimes.
Also, a big problem for me is I want change too quickly. I know it takes time. It takes years. Transformation is slow. And im geting there, slow, but quite steady. Im changing lifestyle lil bit, i have been to a party at home, ive been meeting friends playin table tennis etc. Got inspired by Distant Light. After 4 years he didnt have much result, but he kept at it and everything just changed for him
So gotta remind myself, If i just stick with it, it will happen. Shouldnt bee too hard on myself, big rpoblem of mine.
What I did good? Pushed myself, followed the discipline shit. Kept approachin.
What I could have done better? Pushed interactions more, lead more, get to know more maybe
Wow, how many approaches did I do this night? 40? 50?
So, I had problems approaching naturally from start, feeling somewhat stifled. Talked to some group of girls. You cant speak in this club, to noisy music. Gosh ima talk to girls in the instead.
Somewhere near 12 I got bored, just did approaches on dancefloor spontatenously. Did go to some indian girl and try to kiss her. Apparentely she was lesbian. Attemptet 5 k closes or smtn lol.
I did talk to some girl next to me, naturally, and here's when the conversation goes naturally and non creepy, non outcome, it gets friendly and cool. Even though she wasnt hot. I approached the miss universes on the club. One I thought aws hot, wasnt hot, had weird face. She wasnt that nice. I approached them and said i digged them. She said thanks. Then i just stood there, had nothing to say. I screamed "Ahh i feel so wweird". Then I left. I also approached the only real 10 on the club, the miss universe sweden 2011. Gorgeous. I kinda had problems making eye contact, seeing if she htought I was weird or smtn. She and her guy f4riend was nce. But was impossible to try to go from there, not a fuckin 10 my brain said, not the hostess of miss universe, not the highest value girl on the club lol.
Omg i did the thing where I approach for 1 h non stop. Got rejected a lot. And in sets, no girl seemed interesting. And I kinda half-persisted, tried to keep in set. But it was like they didnt notice me and it wasnt right for me to be there, as if they didnt even know me. So I kinda left sets after a while. Was hert geting to know ppl. I did some "run the train" but didnt work too much. Had problems taking girls and leading.
But i approached a damn lot, never done it so much in my life.
Got some makeout with a 6 or smtn. Wow i put my standards somewhat lower, quite much indifference. Though i wouldnt kiss the 4-5 fattie. Had some fun,. flippin on dancefloor. Was in made state. But it really shouldnt be like this. Iw ant to just be more natural, mroe chill, less stressed. But now I know I can approach by myself. I should focus on just approachin naturally instead. And ima focus more on the day, gosh i dislike these clubs sometimes.
Also, a big problem for me is I want change too quickly. I know it takes time. It takes years. Transformation is slow. And im geting there, slow, but quite steady. Im changing lifestyle lil bit, i have been to a party at home, ive been meeting friends playin table tennis etc. Got inspired by Distant Light. After 4 years he didnt have much result, but he kept at it and everything just changed for him
So gotta remind myself, If i just stick with it, it will happen. Shouldnt bee too hard on myself, big rpoblem of mine.
What I did good? Pushed myself, followed the discipline shit. Kept approachin.
What I could have done better? Pushed interactions more, lead more, get to know more maybe
Plan August 2011 - Jan 1, 2012th
Jobs
Goal: Work part time as a swimming instructor and another job that lets you work 4-5 days, and at least 24 hours weekly.
What? Must be active and constisently looking for a job
How? Apply for a job 5 days a week, plan where to go and so on. Go on job interviews. Talk to people about jobs.
Other
Eating good food, no videogames. The only thing that I can play is the quiz or kareoke.
If I am hungry for games: Think long term. Remember when you sit and play for hours and u hang out with ppl ur not in the moment really, your lifejoy will not be there. Find something else, like beeing social or playing Tennis or table tennis.
Obstacles in the way that you met in the past:
Anxiety arrives: Be clear about what you want.
Social anxiety: Accept it and realize that it is wrong! Say what you fear, and think what you have prepared for you on mentally. Then determine the best possible action.
No results: Just keep going, trust the process, as long as you are pushing. If it continues reviewa, ask a buddy with the same, lr coach
Depressed: If you're overwhelmed, take the most important thing first. Else, find out why u r depressed and find solution
Loneliness: See who you can contact
No motivation: Consider the vision again, remember that you have reached much, think about what has changed! Think back to your old life
that used to be once.
Try nathanael branden six pillars of self esteem everyday, if I have time.
My aim / vision / goal - I want to feel confident in myself that is very accepting of myself and confident in myself. Producing my state from within and not be so sensitive when people are sour, I can produce it myself and always have fun WHEN I want.
I want to have as little social anxiety as possible, to feel an inner calm that nothing "dangerous" will happen. To feel relaxed in social situations. Being here in the present, to look into a personwithout feeling weird or thinking "oh i feel weird, shiet" "wonder if Im weird" What people say wont affect me much because I know who I am, I should have a large picture of reality. I want to express myself in any situation, to do what I want in every situation, do not worry about other people's reaction. That is, to not be shy. I will be assertive, to say what I think in situations, people may become angry, but I will not be affected emotionally that they take offense.
But if they do d then I respect that. I would dare to do what I want in the situation, whether it is to massage a girl friend in a social situation or lie o cuddle with the girl in front of everyone. I want to be congruent ie honest, I want to be congruent with what I want, do not do things for the sake of others. I want my standards of which behaviour I do not accept and which I accept. I'll take care of myself, personal responsibility, not need the help of others. Ie have good discipline, doing things no matter how I feel. Be strong for yourself.
I want to be able to make connections and build social circle, connections easier. Im not gonna just chit chat bout nothin, but I notice if I like the guy/girl, I can easily build the connection. Anyways able to take intiative to establish contact.
Spend time with friends that see them on weekdays and on weekends. If I do something else & meet new people and, with any girl then fine, but I should have the choice to ride around with friends. Make new friends, meet friends of friends, the ones I hang with o become more friends with them. I want a gang that I enjoy, that support me and that I like, which I'm fine with. I want to laugh, I want to be myself and say anything to do anything without the people not liking me for me. Thought if they take offense I stop. I want to have friends that are active, that have common interests. Meet girls, snowboarding, tennis and so. Anyways someone single.
Have my own parties, or create intiative to do certain events.
Experience more sexual intercourse with girls and love from the girls. I do this by I meet girls hit by "cold approach" ie the day or night, in clubs, cafés or so. But also by friends. I want to be able to attract the girls I want. Some deny ok. But in any case many. Having the confidence to go up to anyone and be the same person all the time, not to change my mind, that is to be centered in myself.
Getting to know these people on a deeper level, both friends and ppl more than friends. The ones I want to know, I try to get to know. Having abundance of friends and girls that is that if I lose a group or friends, I can meet new and keep up with them. However, I value friendship. I want to have girlfriends who are fresh which I can do things with, go out at parties, doing things the day with others. Talk deep.
Dragging around and fuck with anyone. Do not care a damn about their reaction. Around town or the like. Do crazy things. Alone and with friends. Not being afraid of anything socially.
I want life to look like as it just rolls and is adventurous. Maybe I've been working and when I meet the gang I hang with, or take intiative to do something. Maybe drag home to some o chillin. Call some other ppl. They meet each other. Then maybe I'll take a coffee with a girl friend. Then we go. Hits up some random latina girl. We have lot of adventures, go around o do crazy stuff in town. The day after I take her on a date and mby have sex? Then I meet my buddies playing basketball. Working out with friends. Something like that.
Going on a trip with the buddies I have maybe once every two months, every three, the group I'm with. Learning new things, learning to sail, go to a cool spa, go banana moped in thailand. Going more snowboard, have snowball fights, wrestling in the snow, make small movie skits. Sometimes Ill need my lone time, quite a lot since Im introverted prolly, read a book, rest. But keep good rhythm in life.
Be able to be with anyone, in every social situation. If I want that. For example, to be with the in Älvsjö if I meet them. A new person will, no problem, chillin, see what happens. An old friend comes as perhaps I am ashamed of how I used to be in their precense before, but its forgotten, not ashamed anymore,, I accept it, move on, dont care about the ego
I want to feel happy.
My purpose is to explore how far I can reach, to become the ideal guy that I want to be, to reach my ideal life. Curiosity
Measures: Secure in myself / assertiveness (As low social anxiety as possible) 9 (now 5) - 5 years
Make contacts / relationships 9 (now 5) - 2 years
Social pie I want the 9 (now 4) - 2 years
Girls sexually 9 (now 4) - 3 years
Lifestyle 9 (now 5) - 3 years
Happiness 9 (now 6) - 5 years
Factors that will determine that I do this:
First Go out and meet girls, and push me there while I read dating advice and see videos about it and reflect of myself regularly. At least that I go out two times a week, either at home party or club. To also meet girls during the day and consciously push me there, and read from sasha daygame's good to meet girls on the day. Then naturally I meet girls through social circles. (At least 2 times a week)
1.1 what must be done: to have discipline, following my decision
1.2: Stress (execution) that I really ansträngar me to push beyond my comfort zone, and add in time for this. Courage.
1.3 Tolerance. Blood, sweat and tears.
2nd To push me into the social circles that I try to make connections with people and have a bunch to keep up. I'm pushing myself in the way that I take new initiative and pushes me outside my comfort zone. Start talking with the people I do not really dared to talk to, control the celebrations and the like.
2.1 That I is social ie that I am involved with the people I'm with.
2.2 I'm talking with each person individually to o get to know them
2.3 To be patient with the confusion and anxiety, uncertainty and accept that it is a bit stressing
2.4 I say yes to all requests IF I really do not have a really good excuse
2.5 That I am myself o find a social circle where I feel comfortable
2.6 hang around with different people to find my "gang"
2.7 That I'm calling around to people that I'm curious and control up something and see if I can mix my current friends with them.
2.8 Forget the ego of people like me or not like me. Nothing u cant control anywayz.
3rd Read different books for greater perspective and world view. Different books, perhaps the very fiction that one can apply in practice.
3.1 Check tips on good books
3.2 How to make the decision to avail myself of what feels good for
3.3 To really put me down o read them regularly
4th Have a lifestyle coach o follow up with. Anyone who has experienced the same problem and succeeded, so he can reflect and give me individual coaching o advise me. (1 every month to o begin with, skype calls) In 1 month, that is 19th september I shall have found a coach.
4.1 Write up various coaches
4.2 Push to find that coach
4.3 To check the economy and transfer works well
5th Plan and monitor the process. Maybe every week to sit down and see how it goes. To see what is going well and so. (Every Sunday)
5.1 check out tips on planning
5.2 to really focus when I plan o so
6th Find my beneficial interests o passions. For a more enjoyable lifestyle and become generally happier.
6.1 All the time trying new things
6.2 Inviting people to do things o
6.3 Googling on activitetes.
Within 18 years, until August 19, 2012:
1 year plan
Gone in 35 house parties! Home Party, where you go to the party just because it's home party, no small afterparty with two chicks, but something that is planned for the right home party.
Had 5 house parties
Attempt 12 k closes at home parties
Made 150 day approaches
4 month plan:
Join 10 house parties
Keep one home party
Learn to face social pressure, push it.
Monthly Plan september: Gone to two house parties
Week 33 20 Aug: Tennis m contact, invite to something else, ask something else.
Try one thing that pushes social pressure
( I did ask the tennis contact to do something, but he couldnt. Actually ended up playing tennis with another bro, and later going on nightclub with their friends, so was cool. Had really fun night. Was advised by distant light to try beeing unlogic. This was awesome! Had so much fun! I really growed, learnin I can have lot of fun well. I dont always have to be the dood sitting in the corner not wanting to do what every1 else want. Didnt do any approaches, thats my sticking point. Went out on wednesday with buddy, was chill. Got some death anxiety but aint supposed to worry bout that, since i write up io only worry a specific time a day, cu it demands so much emotiation effort.
Also did push social pressure, walked up to some dood sitting in a car, stared at him. I lauighed. He didnt look at me.
So goal succeded.
Also did push social pressure, walked up to some dood sitting in a car, stared at him. I lauighed. He didnt look at me.
So goal succeded.
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Go out after a restaurant meal with my family. Talked with the waitress about how I didn't really like the food (Authentic mothafakazz!) lol. Well even if how I am in normal daily situations can differ somewhat from nightclubs scenarios, I can feel myself transforming somewhat and already has.
Go out. Stand in lign. Call my pickup friend who's inside with some other doodes. See 5 girls in front of me, talkin bout something. I wanna say something, talk to them, but kinda fear it. I decide to take baby steps, I hear their conversation about something where they should go, add my opinion in a humourous way saying "I think we should go to blabla" They all laugh. I do it some more time. I wanted to introduce myself and talk to them, but at the same time I could hear my inner voice saying -Na that'd be weird or What you really wanna do is just chill, no one is that talkative right now. And maybe that was true. I mean I was just laid back.
I said my opinion what they honestly should do. Then I was going to fool my pickup friend and I asked the girl to say "Hello are you X? We think you look gorgeous". They didn't wanna do it. Hehe would be fun though.
Mmmm couldn't enter the club. Went to other club. Was in mad good mad, felt talkative and mostly ready to have fun in my own way, self amusement. Was on the train. Did some self amusement shit, laughed at it. Some girls sittin talkin with weird accent. I tell them they have weird accent. Then I said some appropiate consiously when they were about to leave, but they werent about to leave, I just thought so, awkard. Said something about how I like titty milk. Anyways we talk some. I can feel how I kinda get somewhat stiff. They ask me something, having a fun mood. And I answer congruently, but a little bit insecure cuz it felt like they wanted me to joke and be funny. We asked them if they wanna hang with us, they said maybe but they had to meet their friends first.
Went to club, all talkative and funny and confident and shiiiet. ( I DONT REMEMBER ALL THE APPROACHES BUT ILL TRY TO REWRITE AS MUCH AS I REMEMBER ).
Was in good state, jumped on a girl in the dance floor and started bumping on her like a dog, then went away (my own amusement) Stood in front of some random girl trying to pass by. I wouldnt let her. I just moved where she moved, blocking her way ( my own amusement )
Wow these field reports feels so hard to write. I dont really remember the interactions in detail, I only remember a lil of it.
Was out, approached a chick with my wing. She wasnt that good lookin when I came closer. I said hello. she said hello. We started imitating different accents together. Then all of a sudden she is just went silent and went stoneface. "Shit test". Meh I really didn't care, just looked her in the eye normal. Talked to her some. She had to go in. Well she wasnt beautiful anyways.
I talked to some people, joked. I talked to the chicks, was physical time to time. Was moving them through the venue.
I talk to some chicks. Took one chick and lead her. Firstly, I didn't like her too much. But when we were out I was like, "OK HIT HER WITH TOPICS" - So I like snowboardin' ... blablabal. Some dudes come in interrupting, she leaves. Heh my intent isn't that clear always huh? It just feels weird be doin what I want just like that.
Talked to some girls.
Went up to a hot 9 and was like Hey. She was like hi, all nice and shiet. I made some statements on her for 1-2 min. She agreed in all. Meanwhile I had my hand on her hip. Then she said "I was headin for the toilet" I was like OK sure but gimmi a kiss. I only got to do it on the cheek.
Then I told her, Ok lets be honest here... Do you wanna see me or not? Either I wait outside the toilet here or I leave. (Clear in my intent, woop woop)
She: I go to toilet, then maybe we see eachother around in the club!
Moi: I take that as a no.
Left.
Im just glad i approachin these real hotties =)
eee was juts out talkin to everyone, said to the girls i thought looked good that they looked good and asked to move them around. Some was shy and not talkative, lil bit difficult.
I noticed that after beeing all phsyciaal and crazy, and decided to juts chill at a chair, not doing anything, just observing. Girls started to come to me. This fucks me up! Its like sometimes they just like it when ur more chill :P
2 chicks standing near me, another weird dude next to them. 1 of the girls tryin to hold on to me for protection from the werd dude. And she also pushed my head into her friend, an attempt for her friend to kiss me. We kissed. her friend was somewhat of a fatty. But still "porny". She kind of turned me on weird enough. If she just would lose that weight she would look fab.
Did approaches here and there, mixed with own amusement
Was onto one set with my wing. There was this one chick I just wanted to lead and drag her away and kiss her, but it felt wrong, I thought she had to know me first. So i talked a little bit. She was really chill. But her friend didnt like my wing and just wanted to move away. Which she did soon enough and dragged the friend I liked away and stated "He just wanted your number".
HER NUMBER? LOL. Bitch I wanted her lips and vagina, not som number! eHEHEH im badass.
Did a last approach in the nightclub. Went to some girl. Tried t be here and now. I watched everything on her, her mouth, her nose moving second after second. Just beeing here and now. Talking slwowly. trying to kiss her. She smiled and laugh but was insecure.
One of the last approaches. Next to subway. I see some cute latina chick 7-8. I say "Hola". She says hi in swedish. Lol i actually thought she didnt speak swedish.
I talk some about where she is going, and where I am going. I say she look cute. I go "before u go, lemmi give u a kiss" She said "ok on the cheek" I persisted mouth but hse wouldnt let me
WELL Atleast I tried 3 kiss attempts which was my goal (Process oriented guy WOGHO) And I approached the hot girls when i saw em, and did a minimum of 5 (not to short sets).
Well a lot of approaches and shiet. was crazy this night.