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December 8th, 2016
You'll find me in the Club Edition: Ain't nothing to it but to do it (Benjamin's Journal)
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Bennn

Bennn

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Join Date: 02/23/2012 | Posts: 863

Currently I reside in a sober house with 4 other guys. 2 of these guys have been to prison together and are alpha as fuck (there's probably a correlation with not giving a fuck and serving prison time.) This one guys an inspiration in some ways (he looks like a tough guy but isn't good-looking in any conventional sense, he's 40, has no car or way of getting out of the house, sits on the couch using online dating websites and smoking cigarrettes all day and consistantly gets girls from websites like zoosk and my yearbook.) At first these girls were not attractive to me at all (though I figured it was really good for a guy in his 40s) but he's starting to get some genuinely attractive girls over. In other ways he's "demotivational" as well. I've talked to him about women a little bit and he seems thoroughly convinced that I will never have any game or be good at sex. They're really cool and nice guys for the most part (apart from joking and the occasional temper tantrums) but for some reason I am usually stifled when talking to him or the other guy.  He says that this stuff is made for freaks -  people who eat ass, who can fuck for at least an hour, people who don't care about STDs. I really do not want STDs. Today I decided to update my plenty of fish. I'll also talk to a girl (I really don't have any trouble opening a girl)
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#1
Bennn

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Did some Plenty of Fish game - changed my pic and messaged a cute girl:
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Me: 11:07 AM
Hey just want to see if you're cool. I like music festivals too and I also like to workout. I don't have much free time but when I do I like writing a lot.
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Me: 11:09 AM
What do you like to do in your free time. Tell me about yourself
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Her 11:09 AM
Hey there :) have you been to any music festivals? or plan to go to any this summer> That's great I'm cheily btw
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Her 11:10 AM
Well I like to go to the city' to the park , to bars or clubs and would like to try new things! I'm from Honduras been living in NYC for 1 yr.
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Me 11:15 AM
Cool. New York is a fun place. How did you like Honduras. What was it like
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Her 11:30 AM
Yes it is. but it's hard to find nice friends here lol a lot of fake people. Honduras I love it it's so nice there.
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Me 12:09 PM
I can't stand fake people. Honesty is very important to me. So what are you doing on plenty of fish.
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Her 12: 14 PM
Yeah a lot of fake people in New York I hate it to-o. Well trying to meet someone and see were that goes or friendship
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Me 12:33 PM
Cool. I'm the same. I messaged you because I
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Her 12:40 PM
Yes What?
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Me 12:44 PM
I thought you look sexy. So far you seem chill to talk to also.
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Me 12:46 What do you do in the city - do you like your job?
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Her: 12:57 PM
Ooh thanks lol :) ! We'll I like to go to central park just walk around and I go to bars or clubs. And well I'm working as a babysitter for now soo I really like it lol
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Me 1 18 PM
I'd like to walk around central park. Haven't been there for years. I want to get to know you better first though
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Her 1:24:31 PM
Yes it's very nice to spend the day there :) , yea sure
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Me 1:46:58 PM
POF is kind of a pain. Its easier to text. What's your number 

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Her 2:53:45 PM
Hehe yeah I know my phone it's not working right now gonna get a new one till Thursday or Friday but my
number is (908 --------)
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Me 3:19:57 PM
Cool. I got to get to work. Ttyl
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Her  9:12:08 PM-
okie :PMe 

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Later


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Me10:17 PM
Hey. Just got back from work and stuff. Is it past your bedtime ?
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Her10:20:24 PM
hey there :) ooh cool!! not yet lol
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 Me10:24:41 PM
Just got back from the gym. I'm.hungry as fuck. What did you do today 
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Her 10:27:10 PM
that's good :) , get something to eat lol ! well i had to babysitt
soo im a little exhausted :/-
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 Me10:37:46 PM
Alright cheily Get some sleep. Ttyl
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Her10:40:22 PM
lol not going to sleep right now , till 11
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Me 10:53:41 PM
Ok - well I got a long day tommorrow. I like my work but it takes up a lot of time.
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Her 10:57 PM
yeah, where do u work?
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Me 11:09 PM
I work at a local gym.

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Her 11:11:33 PM
oooohhhh nicee as a trainer?
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 Me 11:20:36 PM
I do classes and sell memberships. They're having me study for personal training - it's a lot if information but it's really interesting.
I'm going to wash up and get ready for work. I'll ttyl Cheily
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Her: 11:22 PM
 that sounds awesome :)!! ohhh okie, take care

 



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I also opened a cute girl at a local gym. Saw her leaving and ran outside to tell her "I told myself that if I did one more rep I'd say hi to you - whatsup." It was cold outside and her friend was with her but we vibed for a little bit. When I asked for her number she said that she had a boyfriend. I said, "That's cool - I'm gay on Tuesdays, Let's go out for coffee together - I'll still hit on you like crazy though." She smiled, laughed, said "Awww" and than politely declined. I feel awesome knowing that I tried regardless.
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#2
Bennn

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Skimped out on approaching yesterday. Did manage to talk to the POF girl for a bit though. The sober house, my own personal recovery ,and my job put a lot on me. I'll have to double up today.
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Don't try to find the perfect thing to do - DO SOMETHING. The idea that everything has to be right before you start is just a rationalization not to do anything.

First Post I ever put up on RSD. Check it out and then check my journal from 7 months later. If I can do this so can you: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/213997/forum

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#3
RockNRollPUA

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You realize Journals go in the Field Report Forums yes?
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#4
Bennn

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My mind is full of fuck. If someone could move this it would be much appreciated.
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Don't try to find the perfect thing to do - DO SOMETHING. The idea that everything has to be right before you start is just a rationalization not to do anything.

First Post I ever put up on RSD. Check it out and then check my journal from 7 months later. If I can do this so can you: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/213997/forum

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#5
Bennn

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I totally overestimated my ability to cold approach. Even once a day is proving tougher than I thought. Whatever let's do this shit:


Goals Today: 1. Approach a girl 2.  Go for the number 3. Don't be a stupid faggot.
Also: 4. Continually remind myself to be present and aware. Think No-Thing as often as I can.
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#6
Bennn

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Did not approach for 3 days in a row. Today is my day off and I'm free until 6. Time to have some exciting Fucking experiences.
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First Post I ever put up on RSD. Check it out and then check my journal from 7 months later. If I can do this so can you: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/213997/forum

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#7
Bennn

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Finally approached today. Some girl outside a modeling studio. Don't even care that I was rejected. She told me she had a bf from the getgo. On to bigger and better things
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#8
Bennn

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Had a dream yesterday. Saw one of my roommates with a cute girl near a jacuzzi. I went into another room to find a bunch of cute girls sitting at a table celebrating what looked like my sister's birthday. I instantly had this feeling of needing to supplicate. I wanted to have something to say so that I could be with them. It did not feel present or focused at all. I want to kill this neural connection and free myself to simply be.

I did horrible at work today. Got a customer complaint. I was a bit rude - feelsbadman. Also I don't quite know what to do when my coworkers fuck with me. It's all in fun, and I usually give it back, but deep down I don't like it. I , like every man, want respect.
Also, I'm thinking about living out of my car to save money. To be honest, The idea excites me more than it scares me.

-Goals: Approach 1 girl and go for the number. Text two girls that I've been with before, try to set something up for Tuesday, or Sunday
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Bennn

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Did not approach yesterday at all. I can use all the excuses about my job and not having enough time but the truth is that I probably could have approached someone. The plent of fish girl still texts me about how my day is. Eventually I'll go for a day 2 but she lives about an hour and a half from me and I'm pretty busy so I'm in no rush. Also texted a girl that I've already been intimate with "you still alive?" and another girl who I went on a date /made out And stuff with. The first girl replied with "barely lol" 3hours later - first girl didn't respond at all. I'm taking my time - she texted me at 9pm and it's already the next day. She's already been over my house once before to fuck. I'll text her later on today. I can't seem to get this girl out here again (I live an hour away.) not sure how but I want her to come over.

I need to make consistent goals and stick with them. Keeping a jornal has shown me that my goals are standard (just approach) and that I do not pursue them enough. I need to take some time to make different short and long term goals.
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Don't try to find the perfect thing to do - DO SOMETHING. The idea that everything has to be right before you start is just a rationalization not to do anything.

First Post I ever put up on RSD. Check it out and then check my journal from 7 months later. If I can do this so can you: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/213997/forum

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#10
Bennn

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Yes!I approached yesterday. She was cute - but definately orthodox Jewish. Needless to say this was not typical for me and it took a lot of courage. In the end she didn't seem like she was going to seriously consider any relationship with me and she did not giver her number. Even still, I feel good just knowing that I Dix something a bit more radical than I'm used to before I doe. Thee girl from plenty of fish recruit me now. I'll tlk to her some more and eventually aim for a meetup (next week or the week after next.)

I'll also text the girl that I've been intimate with before just to keep in contact. Not sure if it's good or bad but I often don't reply to a text for hours or until the next day.


Not quite sure how Ill make the time but my goal for today is
1. Approach a girl and go for number.

Two days in a row will be a record for me since starting this.

I'm off to kill my self at the gym.
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Yo. Man the fuck up or die.


Don't try to find the perfect thing to do - DO SOMETHING. The idea that everything has to be right before you start is just a rationalization not to do anything.

First Post I ever put up on RSD. Check it out and then check my journal from 7 months later. If I can do this so can you: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/213997/forum

Dear Journal: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/219007/forum
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