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May 21st, 2013
18 years old, stuck in a rut
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NOOT

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Join Date: 04/19/2012 | Posts: 4

Hey guys,

This is my first post. Basically just want to vomit my feelings out here. I feel like my life is in a real rut and I don't know where to turn, but I thought you guys would have good advice. Here's my story:
When I was little, I remember thinking I was the shit. I was one of the "alpha males" at daycare and we had a lot of fun. I was the crazy one who would eat ants and jump off high places. Since then though, I've been moving toward deeper and deeper depression. There was a time a couple years ago before I had discovered rsd or anything like it and didn't know how to deal with my depression when I would spend a good part of every day thinking about killing myself. How I would go about doing it, how people would react to the news... Obviously, I never went through with it.

By junior year of high school I had basically no friends. BUT I'd been getting into self help, found the Blueprint and I ended up getting my first girlfriend, losing my (kissing, fucking, hand-holding) virginity to a super hot asian girl. We went out for a few months until she went off to college. Now I'm almost 19 and still a senior in high school. I feel like despite the countless hours I've spent analyzing and correcting my negative behavior patterns that I haven't made any real progress and that me being with the girl was just a fluke. I feel like a really boring person. Emotionally, I hover around a pretty consistent 4 out of 10. I've been listening to Power of Now, but I don't think I've experienced "presence" yet. I get anxious in any kind of social situations to the point of whole body tremors. I've never been to a party, but I have nightmares about them. For months, I haven't been out of the house for anything except school, gym or food. I spend all day in bed watching tv. I play guitar, but it's a rare day when I can actually muster up the motivation to pick it up and play around.

Sometimes I feel like I'm too fucked up to fix myself. I'm not wanting or expecting sympathy. I'm just lost at this point in my life and I'm worried about my future. I'd really appreciate some advice.

tl;dr I don't get happy anymore and have next to no motivation
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alienantfarm

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You can't be that depressed if you have the motivation to hit the gym IMO.

Where do you live? Get involved with something. Hobby, sport, etc.

Get out of high school...get to college if that's what you want.
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NotSoAverageJoe

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Join Date: 03/08/2011 | Posts: 579

 Just stop thinking about being depressed, I bet writing that post made you feel like shit didnt it?

Seriously bro Ive been there, and it gets better, ALOT BETTER
The solution is really simple, the less you think about being depressed, the less you will feel it
Change your habit thoughts, get a new outlook and look at things from other angels
You had a gf, youve had sex.. obviously your going to again sometime right?
Focus on the positive and youll feel better
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yannieB

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Join Date: 04/19/2012 | Posts: 4

Too bad to hear that. You can get over it and solve you problem. Just focus, think positive and enjoy.
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The Mack

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NOOT

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NotSoAverageJoe wrote:
  I bet writing that post made you feel like shit didnt it?

Yep

NotSoAverageJoe wrote:
  Seriously bro Ive been there, and it gets better, ALOT BETTER The solution is really simple, the less you think about being depressed, the less you will feel it

This is what I needed to hear. That'll be my goal today. To frame everything in a positive light.
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Check this out my bro:

http://www.rsdnation.com/node/213701


Tell me your feelings after reading this

Cheers
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LucidDic

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 Shit, dude..senior year in high school? Live it up. (easier said than done)

For guys who have a lot of mixed up shit like you're going through I think it's wrong to say you're boring. The background about u being alpha earlier in life really solidifies my theory that dudes who get into depression ruts/think they're nothing/really serious have such great potential and are so deep.

You'll get it. Just know it's your brain being a fuck and not you. 1 foot infront of the other, brother. 
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man you are making a mountain out of a mole hill. When I was 18 I was a virgin and banged some dirty whore just cuz  I was desperate to lose the V card. You had a hot asian girlfriend and are aware of RSD at this young of an age? Take it from me man, keep working on yourself and you will be a happy man eventually. You are young too, stop this pussy ass depressed shit your only 18 haha u have time. There are 26 year old virgins less depressed than you, realize how good you have it. 10 Day positivity challenge wouldn't hurt and working out, eating healthy and getting enough sleep do wonders for your emotional state.  Meditation is boss too, really makes you less tense in social situations and anywhere, jyst more present, after some time.
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If I was a senior in highschoold knowing the shit I learned after highschool.....oh shit....Teen pregnancy would double in a year lol.  You still a teenager bro.  You don't know shit yet.  Keep working, keep growing.  Fuck being depressed, stop being a pussy.  Hit the gym, get jacked, do some MMA, play guitar, fuck bitches, make money, take some Rsd Programs, hit the field 3-4 days a week..  Worked for me.
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