We later engaged this 3 set for a while where he got a number close.
Was like a 30 minute conversation.
I am still not getting what i want though.
I'm still not at the level of the kind of approaching i want to do.
Infact that's the only thing that kind of sucks at the moment for me, not taking action i mean.
The really bizaarre part is, since i meditate, i see myself procrastinating on the approaches.
And it's really really weird because i know i'm oing it AND I'M STILL DOING IT!
I'm currently reading Maxwell Maltz's Psycho Cybernetics.
Been a long time since i read something good.(Except last night where i spent like half an hour going over the articles on rsdwiki)
This book is literally making me think of myself in new terms. LOts of bomb realizations, i just can't stop taking notes.
Went out to a night place for the first time in my life.
AND FUCK IT WAS AWESOME!
I couldn't believe that i was actually loving the night energy while out alone.
I didn't feel the "PULL OF THE WING" that i felt all the time when out with the wings.
No one to go back to. Roam free, open if you want.(Which i didn't)
I met some dude outside the little bar and we chatted up a bit.
Called one of my friends and then we hung out in that place for a bit, got a beer.
Headed to his place and got nicely stoned.
Today me and my wings went to this awesome place.
Like so fucking many sets.
I could see a lot of potential for my night, and it's weird because i have been meditating just so regularly nowadays that i can see through every fucking thing.
My excuses, my mental chatter. And it's like i hold the reigns. It is like i have the stop button on my hands and can push it anytime i want.
But here's the deal, NO APPROACHES today t all either.
My wing got a # close and his set seemed to go down really fucking well which was awesome to watch.
I have this great feeling inside of me, and this little caged up sorta feeling too because i'm feeling so helpless that i have all this energy and all these great emotions that i want to be talking about to these hot girls and i just didn't.
So the place was pretty cool, the weather's just becoming better and better out here.
And i might be looking at some major changes in the coming week.