THE FORUMS

The background  Who am i? I'm a 20 year old born in Canada, ethnically Lebanese (but jew looking)[=Arial, sans-serif] male that goes to UoftT. I'm 6'2, 155 pounds average body and what I think is a decently attractive face (the confidence has gone up in looks since game). My passion is classic mens style from prep wear to suits and I have the biggest boner for shoes.  Prior to this I had a "gf" (she didn't want to be called girlfriend) and I had a case of love (this was around grade 12) We talked for hours on msn. We talked for hours in person I liked her and she liked me. We lived too far away and I never made a move. Eventually I fucked up by saying something ridiculous and it led to a bizarre situation (keep in my mind I never even kissed this girl, she was so hesitant and I was a little ("I'll only do what she’s comfortable with!)). We went back to being close friends but inside I still loved her. She went MIA in second year uni and basically just said she was super busy while we sometimes emailed each other.[/] I have a case of OCD and this led to bizarre and unwanted thoughts (againobsessive).  Basically I was always the nice guy girls and girls wouldtell me how I would find a great girl, and even though my conversing skills were good, I was never social in university and could not talk with strangers. My life was about reading politics and debating with best bro on xbox live. Eventually the pining for the first girl subsided and I began to work selling insurance. Here I met two naturals, one white guy (call him Slut) who had fucked over a hundred girls and had extreme game that was always on. Another brown guy (call him..Chops stealer) who preferred to date but still hooked up with over 50 girls and has the confidence of a bull. I began to hang out with them, learning how to be  a salesmen, and we would go to the beach to game (basically me not talking and just tanning). Summer of Fun. They also went to clubs quite frequently. Prior to this I had only been to one club in Waterloo with my best friend and it was basically 3 hours of being super drunk (for the first time) and asking a bunch of grls to dance. However once I  went out with these guys I was still a chode, not speaking while they gamed and dance. When i didsome girls did open up like a blonde who said i wascute and would fuck me if shewasnt getting married (i saw the engagement ring). Another time got eye contact  so i approached the and asked for dance but she isntanlty said she had a bf and i hardcore believed her. An hour later though my friend started talking to her and she asked for his number (clearly did not have a bf, but whats interesting is that when i remember back to this, i still think she had a bf even thoguh it was cearly a shit test. For some reason I always beleive whata girl says..or what anyone says. Im really trusting..) My firends like to joke about this as my approach was bascially to open my arms and let her judge me (still unconvicned i actually did this)Out of nowhere I began speaking to an old female friend from highschool over msn and I spoke to her about problems with her bf (basically friend zone but not trying to bang). She broke up with him in a about a week and then the next week she came to Toronto. Went to my natural friend's place (really fucked up house basement by the beaches) and faced some lmr (literally was nude but she still didnt wanna). Eventually I fingered her, got her in mood and lost my virginity. Of course...It took me an hour and a half to cum (from what i think is due to porn and jerking). After that, bagged an Indian girl from work who I thought I wanted to date. Banged her on the roof of my apartment (awesome spot) and got caught by security guards.  Then dumped her after 5 days of dating (lol). Then banged a black girl with the nicest ass ever (also from work and friends with Indian). That was last August. All these girls I banged within days of talking to them and i was devloping a lot of moment. But Despite continually clubbing I never really had success with girls as I would never approach. Made out with a Persian once but was too needy.  Club was basically jsut dancing and drinking and going to after hours. One night in September me and the two naturals went to an after hours place called 772. Really...sketchy place. 20 dollars cover to go in. some lights but mostly dark. Serving booze after 3 and you could smoke. Guy came up to offer us drugs and we bought. Friends did coke while I did M for the first time. We were doing lines right off the table as security watched (security also sold drugs). I got...fucked. Did 6 M's and 2 e's. Danced so fuckin much and admitted alot. Crowd there was older. All girls were hookers. We saw two come in and friend started chatting. One of them came to me and lightly touched my balls but  I didn’t know what to say. Friend ended up buying and doing coke with them (ALOT) and it turns out they’re strippers. He ended up banging both. One girl sucked him while he went doggy into the other. Lines off dick and tits.  He comes up to me after and say "dude...i think I put it in her ass". LOLOLOL. Sans condom too. Other friend warns me of them and then one girl asks if i would liek to spend 500 on her. I said hell no and she ignored me. Other friend said this was dumb move as I coulda just played it off and banged both. Such..a big..regret. Later on the bouncer of the club got shot and it closed. Bummer. There were other girls..a goan, a black model, but no lays...New years eve 2012 came and we went to guvernment.Unfortunealty i did not get drunk enough or do E and so did no approachesand had a shittacular night. Such a huge regret while my friends both closed (even in the club). Such a dumb chode way to begin the new year (such gorgeous girls but i didnt approach).My goal was essentially to have a blacklistfilled with girls to  bang any time. The Game Change Then in January I read the game as I was procrastinating over an essay. This gave me a whole new outlook on social dynamics and the confidence to approach. Went to This is London and proceeded to chode while gamed. A Filipino girl grabbed me though and we stared dancing. She grabbed my cock and whipped it out on dance floor giving me the tug. Got her number (but not her name). Called her after and she met me in A Mercedes Benz SLR (jesus nice car). I hop in, shes telling me she has to go home. I convince her to drive to alley (as my dick is out)...but I dont have condom. O well! Fuck her raw in car (cramped). Get out and she crouched down to lick me (nice eye contact and ball play). bend her over chair (people could see us form out of alley) and plow. As im about to jizz I remmeber to pull out and she walks away. Command her to come back and she gets down on knees as I jizz in her mouth (she spit out such a big wad aha). Then she dropped me off as I bused to friends place. FUckin wack..taught me anything can happen (jsut approach) Had some more confidence and At school I tripped on an escalator and indian girl laughed. She was eyeing me so I got her number (confidence win) I got excited to try the routines and went to the maddy. Approached around 4 sets and a Jewish girl asked for my number. It was still haphazard and clunky.  Went on a couple dats with Indian girl (super romantic, skating, CN tower, great food) but it gave me oneitis (fucking hot red pants girl said im awesome and i couldn’t say shit back) but I wanted to game. She was a virgin so i explained we couldn’t be monogamous and she didnt wanna see me anymore (ouchie but i didnt want oneitis). I had made a choice to game. RSD believing and God night I discovered RSD then by the free tour youtube channel. At first im biased because of the game, think this shit wont work. But then see the infield stuff and start to like tyler and his message which turns out to be really positive and more about life. Se that natural, physical and fun game is the shit. This I can do. Then a big night. Went to Cake nightclub fairly drunk and decided to approach 10 girls. O...it was on. At first of course I wasn't in state but as I approached I came into `"god mode" and approached every girl there.  Clawing girls, "HEY. who are you..." telling them to guess a number (7). Just went off. Fully in state, do not give a fuck momentum. Even if they were sorta surprised I would jsut tyr to dance, and I remember the hottest girl in there started to dance on me but i sorta spilled her dirnk on there. I was havign the most fun and girls were having the most fun around me. Approaching any girl, ignoring rejects. Girls would isntantly feel my fun (state transfer) and i was naturally doing the woo (something Ialways laughedta people for doing) Danced with a  girl and make out and finger, See my brown friend and decide to play a game of "Smell my finger" whereby i shove my vaginal smelling finger in his face. He was not pleased. Didnt get her number (could not  talk in the club). But i was jsut having so much fun. So much entitlement. approach hot arab andshe isntantlysaysshehas bf, but i say ihave one too who is much cuter. She is still laughing but i leave (never leave ifshe is enjoying you). Danced with everyone (fuck its eays..jsut grab them!) End up getting 5 numbers. Outside..street game, instantly vibe with this british/russian girl and she loves it, but my friend pulls me away saying she has gf (wtf..MY friend. think he was jealous). Then we go to other 2 girls. Chit chat for 10 mins. Friend makes out with short one. i make out with blonde. Then we switch girls to make out with. Try to pull.. but nope. I should have first bounced them to food, then recomend we watch a movie but alas..lack of knowledge. All numbers were flakes. O well. Didnt continue the momentum tho..BAD MISTAKE.  I realize I have some game if I just approach. I can converse for hours, recognize shit tests, tease girls and have abundance.  At work the girls love me and even get a super muslim girl (but super hot) into me..alas. she wants to marry...not even date. I went to brunny with friend and do the 10 approaches. It was hard because I was sober and nervous plus my natural friend was in a horrible state after smoking weed. Approached a two set where the girl shit tested me so hard anddespite recognizing them, could not overcomethem. But I liked that i ploughed. I also spoke to a brazillian girl who isntantly all smiles but I could not keep the onvo up and asked for a dance way too quick (but it gave me huge entitlement).Finally got in state and approached girl with black lipstick, started talking shit about how i love goths and there is clear sexual tension (not jsut niceness).But I can tell my friend isnt having a good time so  i leave (lesson: have fun even if friend isnt and stay in club). But not  beforeI  blondies number after only 2 minutes of talking (super big smiles). We meet up for date (winterdate in TO: skating, paramount then bar). So close to pullling but cant, and shecontinues to tease for weeks. Get annoyed and annoy her, eventually stop texting her. I make a deal with friend that I must approach 5 girls per day orI owe him 5 dollars per day. But i cant stick to it and he ended up leaving to Ottawa. My biggest sticking point is just AA. I have this  big limiting belief that “I’m not a guy thatapproaches.” Like its only other people (like tyler or jeffy) as if they are cut from another cloth. Its so silly. I am a guy who CAN approach and gets success right away! So i just have to get over the fear, expect nothing from interaction and I can do it. At school I approach a few girls, get a couplenumbers and some vibe and approach beautiful blonde. Even if its short...still fun. And getting in state. Even approached a girl on subway and got her number(we connected amazingly but she was in highschool and suddenly she just said she couldn’t do it. Gayyyy) Lots of Theory... Ive read nine ball...Ive seen jeffy show, the fundamentals, MM’s method and even styles annihilation. All of Rsd’s youtube videos but I need to put it into action. APPROACH APPROACH APPROACH. I haven’t jerked off and seen barely any porn in 2 months (ye wet dreams) but I need to go out daily. Hard. Friends at work always saying I’ve been corrupted by natural buds but no..I want to be a player because of the game and seeing the change in Tyler. I want to be confident, don’t give a fuck and live stress free. Shit I wanna work for RSD!  But I need to approach. TODAY April 6, 2012 I start visiting the forums and I see a thread from getmecusiknow. Turns out he’s in Toronto so I message him and we meet at Maddy. Read his infieldshit. O damn..he has been around so I think it could be sick. This was tonight. Keep in mind prior to this I never really knew held a long conversation at abar. And it was kind of a fear. But we go in...its super empty. See two blondes and I approach one I saw before. Gorgeous face but a bit chub. We start chatting and she opens up. Im teasing her, putting hands on her, avoiding the hoops (whats my age etc). We talk about clothing, we talk about work and school). She is older but I feel dominant. At one point i grab gum and offer her one. Joke that she has bad breath and she believes it! (I sort of stole this from keys to the vip). Im doing back turns as getmecusiknow is doing well with friend. We talk for about half hour and i keep ragging her as she messages on phone. Then she asked for MY number. I give her it and she says it betternot be fake! I’m like wow...this was the kind of girl that intimidates me. Shetells me to pick up if she calls (I need caller ID...) and me and getmecusiknow decide to keep going.  He opens really well and so i usually dip around to grab  friend.  He approaches short Turkish girl and I talk to girl from peru. I’m not really into either but we switch up and end up talking to them for maybe 40 minutes (sheeeeet a lot of talking). Vibe with turk girl but little kino..should have jsut gone for mouth rape. We see if we can pull but they leave (getmecusiknow gets peru’’s number). Then we approachtwo drunk girls. One has her bday..she is fucked. We keep eyeing each other but I should have just kissed! We talk for a while, silly dances and then i get number. We tour around do some more approaches. Getmecusiknow does tylers hand of god move and gets hot whitie. I get friend and as i shake her hand i hold on (great move btw, if she holds on, instant compliance). But friend drags her.  Final group at maddy, getmecusiknow approaches blonde and I talk toredhead. Great set of tits and nice legs. Sit down and instant attraction Deep eye contact and smiles, we talk about school and life and clubs. Her friends start to move away, I go for kiss and fuck she is so into it. Huge boner and she wants more but she leaves with friends. Get her number and tell her ill call tmw and she says  yes (she has own place yayyyy). Dont have my own place so logistics is challenge.  Me and getmecusiknow go to entertainment district for street game. Approach a few but not very hard..state was getting better but NEED MOAR! Lots of wtf eyes and ignoring..whateva! getmecusiknowends up texting peru girl and she is dtf. He drops me off at yonge and I bus home to write this. Overall...sick fucking night and can’t wait to game tomorrow (and fuck redhead!). Attention Toronto gamers: tryst nightclub. Be there. getmecusiknow has some balla game is a super respectable dude. So what is the lesson? Approach. And plough. And trust your gut.  Transform I want the journey to start and maybe it has , but I need the pressure to go out and approach every day. I`ve been obsessed with game since I read the book and it almostall that I think about for the past few months, but I need to apply.Thats why I`m writing this, to remind myself I needto approahch Maybe I Need some support. I Need to fundamentally changewho I am. I have alot to offer, a lot of value to give, and a lot of semen to sh0ot. RSD, from now on I will do 5 approaches per day and 10 at a club (unless I have homework to do..fuckign marks dropped hard this year). But I want to be the player, to have the abundance, to beast and have wild wild stories. I know am changing my belief system, buy I need to change my actions to reflect them. And so it begins. -Dante