THE FORUMS

I’m a 26 year old virgin and fucked my first escort
Let me just say I’ve been very very reclusive for the past couple years and smoke a lot of pot.

I was in my room smoking weed, as usual, and I had been already been interested in visiting escorts. However I never had the balls to partake. A few months prior I did go see MPA’s(rubn’tug) three times total (All within the limits). Previously to that I had no physical contact with any woman at all, aside from the couple times I went to strip clubs. I just feel very undeserving of a woman’s affection and always think she can do better than me.

I was actually about to go to a massage parlour again because they were having a special. But for $20 more I figured I could have the option for more fun with an escort. I had an escort that I had been wanting to see for a while, as she seemed extremely safe(CBJ, no kissing, no DATY, etc.) which I liked. As well she was blonde and tall. I msg her and ask her if she’s free for 10:30pm. She gives me the intersection and rates. Now at this point I’m absolutely petrified. Literally my heart is racing and I’m anxious as hell. And I haven’t even come close to doing anything yet, lol. But I tell myself, that I’m only going to use her for a massage and release. So I put the right bills in my wallet. It’s about 9:15pm so I use this time to smoke as much weed as possible till 10.

Now the weather outside was weird today, it was snowing at the end of march, previously in the year we had no winter at all. And today was the one day it freak snowed. I took it as symbolism for ending my cold dry spell. I drove to the motel and texted her when I was parking. She gave me the room number and I knew it was time. As I walked into the reasonably well maintained lobby, no one is at the desk, and the elevator doors just open to invite me in. I walk in and push the button. I knock softly on her door, it opens moments later, where she is not directly in front of me but sort of behind the door. I see she is topless with only a g-string thong on. Lol, she closes the door behind me. Looks wise, I don’t really know what I was expecting. Guys had rated her as one of the hotter escorts but too restrictive for their tastes. For me I would rate her about a 6/10 facially with make-up. Her body was what I was expecting, curvy and juicy ass.

I’m also still very high and try to keep composure. We shake hands and she goes towards her bed, tell me to leave the money on the dresser and wash my hands in the bathroom adjacent to me and get undressed. I comply and she says she going to give me a back massage. I thought great, as this was at least familiar to me. She gives an okay back rub for a few minutes. I don’t like laying on my stomach as it puts strain on my neck, so I ask to have my chest massage. I flip over and she rubs my chest for a bit, I play with her tits and start a bit of dirty talk. Suddenly she goes on like autopilot grabs a condom in her mouth and wraps it around my cock like a pro and is sucking away. Well I’m past the point of no return, I thought. I have a weeks worth of jizz in my balls too, so I ask her to go slow. I start playing with her pussy, and feel that she’s really wet. I ask her to turn around so I can see her head going down on my cock. She has pretty good technique, but I really want to fuck. She asks me what my favorite position is and I stumble and say missionary, she says “me too”. I get up and she lies down and spreads her legs. I’m smiling in my head how easy this is. I slide my dick in her and basically just lie on top her humping away. Eventually I lose control here and start ramming her as fast as I can and cum hard. I still wanted to fuck but my dick is losing blood. And I tell her “I think I came”. Finally I get a real shred of emotion from her, “you think?!” LoL I’m still so high and she tells me to toss the condom in the toilet and hands me a baby wipe. As I’m cleaning myself off I feel quite ashamed of what I had done. I still had time left too, but was unsure on how to bring it up. I was extremely quiet at this point so I quickly got dressed. She tells me to call her again, I thank her and she tells me the back exit is down the hall. As I walk down the stairs I notice it is not maintained at all. It’s like a dark, grimy escape for all the johns that fuck the questionable women operating in that motel. I see symbolism again that this choice of lifestyle is downward-spiraling and degrading to both parties. Although I really don’t want to do it again (with an escort), I feel as if there is a great weight lifted off my chest and don’t have the virgin label on my head anymore.

But all this time I thought I wanted sex, but in truth, it was intimacy that I had been searching for and will continue to search for