THE FORUMS
The journey to my ideal life
Hey man, love where your heads at. Don't burn yourself out though!! what I've found works best for me is making positive little changes over a long-term period. and GOING OUT. Cheers dood!
- UPDATED FOR WEEK 10 COMMENTARY.
.@Boss Thanks for the support man. Nah I have been in the self developement for a while so Im tryin to find a balance, which I had problems with before but will probably have easier doing now.
.@Boss Thanks for the support man. Nah I have been in the self developement for a while so Im tryin to find a balance, which I had problems with before but will probably have easier doing now.
Week 11:
Been to school, had some social anxiety walking in it. I espicially have the social anxiety while I am near the classroom of some girls that I really like. And I get some anxiety thinkin of meetin some more high status ppl. When im in class, I get frustrated when I sit alone sometimes. Its like i expect ppl to intiate conversation with me time to time. That I have to change. But its different sometimes I have some anxiety left, some times its not there.
And I open with ppl when its not there, i should do it no matter what. I have to face the fear, control myself, not let the brain control me. Sometimes I feel so relaxed and so funny, sometimes normal and sometimes high anxiety, its weird. Dont like the mixed feelings all the time, but I try to accept it. I meet the girl I like in the way of I wanna be deep friends with her (i dont have many close friends) I get my heart pumpin directly, but I know its not a danger, Im used to it. So I stay, get lil bit more relaxed and we laugh lil bit, theen she goes away. Man I want her iin my life as friend
Friday night couldnt go out, didnt get into the clubs my friends were in to. Nvmd it.
Saturday went to a club. All the pua friends there. Feel a lil bit stifled in start, my handshakes were awkard even if the friends lawl. But w/e. Geting into talkative mode. Open some girls, but feel very stifled. Go dancin. Less stifled, go out again open some girls. Tlak with 1 girl, didnt feel she was into my physically but I was like what the hell, did the claw, she didnt care, was about to go for kiss, her bf comes lol.
I go to dance floor. I see this really hot girl but too scared to approach cuz she was in big group. Err gotta get rid of the fear of rejection. I see a 8 dancing on her own. I grab her for "warm up". It gets sexual, im confidence and dominant. We make out. I take her out to smoking area. We talk, went very well. Actually I should be proud, cuz this I could never do before. I was afraid of talking to the girl in smoking area. It was like "ohh but i cant talk". Now I can talk about whatever. She was really into me, her friend come and said "oo please stay with her, ur very hot". Made out a lot, touched her ass and pussy, she liked it. Bumped with her. She got extremly attracted when I brawled something lol. Was going to take her home and she wanted, bnut then she decided she was going to stay at the dance club. Well, quite good night. Learned some.
Its weird how u can build momentum and state in nightclub and get extremly confidence. And then u go to school and shit and u just loose it. But im trying to change and build this shit up.
Only a few days till I have to get a coffee with one more girl.
I didnT manage to keep the goal of only missing 3 leessons, no motivation to do that. No need.
More than a month till my deadline of having sex with 3 girls.
I feel a lil bit depressed cu Im not geting what I want fast enough. And I still have this anxiety. But my purpose in life is to push through and get what I want personally, and inspire people u can do it no matter where u are and how afraid u are. So motivates me to have the purpose.
Been to school, had some social anxiety walking in it. I espicially have the social anxiety while I am near the classroom of some girls that I really like. And I get some anxiety thinkin of meetin some more high status ppl. When im in class, I get frustrated when I sit alone sometimes. Its like i expect ppl to intiate conversation with me time to time. That I have to change. But its different sometimes I have some anxiety left, some times its not there.
And I open with ppl when its not there, i should do it no matter what. I have to face the fear, control myself, not let the brain control me. Sometimes I feel so relaxed and so funny, sometimes normal and sometimes high anxiety, its weird. Dont like the mixed feelings all the time, but I try to accept it. I meet the girl I like in the way of I wanna be deep friends with her (i dont have many close friends) I get my heart pumpin directly, but I know its not a danger, Im used to it. So I stay, get lil bit more relaxed and we laugh lil bit, theen she goes away. Man I want her iin my life as friend
Friday night couldnt go out, didnt get into the clubs my friends were in to. Nvmd it.
Saturday went to a club. All the pua friends there. Feel a lil bit stifled in start, my handshakes were awkard even if the friends lawl. But w/e. Geting into talkative mode. Open some girls, but feel very stifled. Go dancin. Less stifled, go out again open some girls. Tlak with 1 girl, didnt feel she was into my physically but I was like what the hell, did the claw, she didnt care, was about to go for kiss, her bf comes lol.
I go to dance floor. I see this really hot girl but too scared to approach cuz she was in big group. Err gotta get rid of the fear of rejection. I see a 8 dancing on her own. I grab her for "warm up". It gets sexual, im confidence and dominant. We make out. I take her out to smoking area. We talk, went very well. Actually I should be proud, cuz this I could never do before. I was afraid of talking to the girl in smoking area. It was like "ohh but i cant talk". Now I can talk about whatever. She was really into me, her friend come and said "oo please stay with her, ur very hot". Made out a lot, touched her ass and pussy, she liked it. Bumped with her. She got extremly attracted when I brawled something lol. Was going to take her home and she wanted, bnut then she decided she was going to stay at the dance club. Well, quite good night. Learned some.
Its weird how u can build momentum and state in nightclub and get extremly confidence. And then u go to school and shit and u just loose it. But im trying to change and build this shit up.
Only a few days till I have to get a coffee with one more girl.
I didnT manage to keep the goal of only missing 3 leessons, no motivation to do that. No need.
More than a month till my deadline of having sex with 3 girls.
I feel a lil bit depressed cu Im not geting what I want fast enough. And I still have this anxiety. But my purpose in life is to push through and get what I want personally, and inspire people u can do it no matter where u are and how afraid u are. So motivates me to have the purpose.
Week 12 I was quite ill, couldn't do much and was a little bit lazy. At the sunday I went to my mom's house in the suberbs (I've been living with my father in the city for a long time). And I have some good memories from this place, but I link quite much pain to it, because it was here I developed my social anxiety disorder. Or atleast a lot of social anxiety. So walking in these neighbourhoods gave me some social anxiety. Just the thought of meeting old contacts made me feel bad and gave me some anxiety.
But I was going to meet 2 friends of mine that I know from this place and that I have skype contact with. I do like the dudes, but u r a little bit nervous meeting them, theyre much more confident than me. When I was on my way to them everything felt so weird. I just felt lost in this neighbourhood and lost in my self. But I met them, everything was very calm, I felt quite relaxed. I was reacting more to them than I to them, but Im fine with that :) I felt alright expressing myself, they werent judgemental, and if they were i would push through it anyways. It may look like im overanalyzing a normal social situation, which I am lol. But I wanna do it just to have my thoughts and feelings saved, to see the process. I did enjoy it ofc, I wasnt thinking much then. Im just thinking back at it now. I left from there feeling quite good, when I got hoem Iw as so chill like I was proud of my self for taking intiative. But its weird when u achieve what u want its not that amazing, but it did feel good tho. But man I wanna be playing and beeing awesome and everything and beeing super confident, but gotta be patient
I did not go out anything. Lol this is barely a pickup blogg, more just a blog bout my life. Gotta fix that!
Week 13: Laziest week of my life. Felt unmotivated, depressed and shit. Was depressed and came to school, met my mates and they asked me how it was. I told them, congruently, not good; in fact i feel shit. My best friend asked me to join a LAN with his brother and friend, and I was like sure. Felt better already.
I noticed one of my, well you could say blindspots I guess. I was hanging out with my best friend and another high value friend, but I dont talk much to him. My besxt friend and him had a convo. And when I dont say anything I get frustrated and its like i get anxiety and must say something and tell something and get validation. But then I was like "Hey, wait. Just go with the flow. Listen to what they say, just listen, dont have to say anything". And from there the whole day was like awesome because it just float amazingly.
So I was doing LAN and shit, and also here I was with my best friend and his brother. And at times I feel social anxiety rises up at situations, like Im unsure of what to do how to act. Like IS IT OK TO BE QUIET NOW OR DO I HAVE TO SPEAK? Err I should just tell myself to shut the fuck up both with mouth and the thought.
But was relaxing to LAN, needed some intimate social contact. Instead of just talking and beeing social with some people, I needed close friends.
So till sunday i didnt do shit, I thought over life, was alone playing video games. And now I feel ready again. Im out rested and ready to go. Im starting to work more on my Personal vision statement, beliefs and core values. Also Nathaniel Branden six pillars of high self esteem and some medidation. Gonna take responsibility for study, work and picking up!
Havent been going out for 2 weeks, time to do it now.
But I was going to meet 2 friends of mine that I know from this place and that I have skype contact with. I do like the dudes, but u r a little bit nervous meeting them, theyre much more confident than me. When I was on my way to them everything felt so weird. I just felt lost in this neighbourhood and lost in my self. But I met them, everything was very calm, I felt quite relaxed. I was reacting more to them than I to them, but Im fine with that :) I felt alright expressing myself, they werent judgemental, and if they were i would push through it anyways. It may look like im overanalyzing a normal social situation, which I am lol. But I wanna do it just to have my thoughts and feelings saved, to see the process. I did enjoy it ofc, I wasnt thinking much then. Im just thinking back at it now. I left from there feeling quite good, when I got hoem Iw as so chill like I was proud of my self for taking intiative. But its weird when u achieve what u want its not that amazing, but it did feel good tho. But man I wanna be playing and beeing awesome and everything and beeing super confident, but gotta be patient
I did not go out anything. Lol this is barely a pickup blogg, more just a blog bout my life. Gotta fix that!
Week 13: Laziest week of my life. Felt unmotivated, depressed and shit. Was depressed and came to school, met my mates and they asked me how it was. I told them, congruently, not good; in fact i feel shit. My best friend asked me to join a LAN with his brother and friend, and I was like sure. Felt better already.
I noticed one of my, well you could say blindspots I guess. I was hanging out with my best friend and another high value friend, but I dont talk much to him. My besxt friend and him had a convo. And when I dont say anything I get frustrated and its like i get anxiety and must say something and tell something and get validation. But then I was like "Hey, wait. Just go with the flow. Listen to what they say, just listen, dont have to say anything". And from there the whole day was like awesome because it just float amazingly.
So I was doing LAN and shit, and also here I was with my best friend and his brother. And at times I feel social anxiety rises up at situations, like Im unsure of what to do how to act. Like IS IT OK TO BE QUIET NOW OR DO I HAVE TO SPEAK? Err I should just tell myself to shut the fuck up both with mouth and the thought.
But was relaxing to LAN, needed some intimate social contact. Instead of just talking and beeing social with some people, I needed close friends.
So till sunday i didnt do shit, I thought over life, was alone playing video games. And now I feel ready again. Im out rested and ready to go. Im starting to work more on my Personal vision statement, beliefs and core values. Also Nathaniel Branden six pillars of high self esteem and some medidation. Gonna take responsibility for study, work and picking up!
Havent been going out for 2 weeks, time to do it now.
Nice man
Alright so this week, WEEK 14 haven't been much in school. Been writing on a script with my best friend for project, which we did at home.
Reading some primal blueprint, thinking bout sortin my itme some more.
Ehm done my core values, checkin six pillars of high self esteem every day. Personal vision statement, core values and six pillars of high self esteem =awesomeness. These things will give u great decision making, that will get u to ur ideal life.
Was out at Fri, first night for 2 weeks. Approached some, was quite pussy in my interaction. Didn't want to go for. Just like a warmup , coming back on track. Some pickup dode who I went home with was really strong with his frame and his frame was not that positive, quite serious. Didn't like him, hehe got lil bit dry in the mouth cuz i got somewhat nervous. Maybe he had stronger frame, but uggh didnt like the dude.
Im practising self assertivenss. When we sat together soem dudes and some convo went on, and it was a shit boring convo, and the mood was stifled: I said "I hate these kind of conversations" And it went silent, and some dude said negativitly "ok ..." and some other said "what u wanna tlalk about then?" and smiled
Im just glad i said it, good for me, progress biatches.
Saturday was home with relatives for easter celebration. I see my behaviour has changed. I used to be mr shy and insecure and now, still normal nt some creepy pick up guy trying to hold some fram, i cna say what im thinkin about hold my frame naturally, laugh at whats funny, be serious when i want to etc etc.
Hehe got a li bit drunk there, kinda unstifled. I noticed that when u just stop giving a shit it gets so much fun, when u dont care about any1 listening etc
Ehm went out saturday too, was really dead night, approached some. Afraid of beeing too physical. And also I gotta take more resonbility for the interaction. Gotta be the one to push it, cant expect it from the girls. But place was dead this time
Maaaan i wanna hangout more with real friends than pick up doodes, even if some of the pickup doodes are fun. Gotta do some of that
Progress going nice. Im really happy nw since i made my personal vission statement clear and just going through a process and purpose in life.
Reading some primal blueprint, thinking bout sortin my itme some more.
Ehm done my core values, checkin six pillars of high self esteem every day. Personal vision statement, core values and six pillars of high self esteem =awesomeness. These things will give u great decision making, that will get u to ur ideal life.
Was out at Fri, first night for 2 weeks. Approached some, was quite pussy in my interaction. Didn't want to go for. Just like a warmup , coming back on track. Some pickup dode who I went home with was really strong with his frame and his frame was not that positive, quite serious. Didn't like him, hehe got lil bit dry in the mouth cuz i got somewhat nervous. Maybe he had stronger frame, but uggh didnt like the dude.
Im practising self assertivenss. When we sat together soem dudes and some convo went on, and it was a shit boring convo, and the mood was stifled: I said "I hate these kind of conversations" And it went silent, and some dude said negativitly "ok ..." and some other said "what u wanna tlalk about then?" and smiled
Im just glad i said it, good for me, progress biatches.
Saturday was home with relatives for easter celebration. I see my behaviour has changed. I used to be mr shy and insecure and now, still normal nt some creepy pick up guy trying to hold some fram, i cna say what im thinkin about hold my frame naturally, laugh at whats funny, be serious when i want to etc etc.
Hehe got a li bit drunk there, kinda unstifled. I noticed that when u just stop giving a shit it gets so much fun, when u dont care about any1 listening etc
Ehm went out saturday too, was really dead night, approached some. Afraid of beeing too physical. And also I gotta take more resonbility for the interaction. Gotta be the one to push it, cant expect it from the girls. But place was dead this time
Maaaan i wanna hangout more with real friends than pick up doodes, even if some of the pickup doodes are fun. Gotta do some of that
Progress going nice. Im really happy nw since i made my personal vission statement clear and just going through a process and purpose in life.
Just went through your posts. I spent a lot of time in the same headspace you're in now. As an outsider looking in, it seems to me you could benefit from building up momentum right now. I think you should start going out more; at least twice a week. That's what I need to do as well.
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Week 16:
Was out on wednesday. Met the guys. We're like 15 pickup doodes, it feels really weird and I creep myself out with this thought. We go to a play. I feel really stifled and not in the mood. I approach some chick and iis like "Hi i had to say hello" (learned from ozzie to just approach without having itention of pickup and intorducing yourself to 5 girls in 5 minutes, it removes aa very much). And she's like hi. But she told me have to go. I talk a lil bit about why she have to go, argument shy she should stay. Handshake. She leaves.
Do some approaches. Talk to some fat chick. The approaches wasn't that good, the ydidnt last very long. Every1 I approached wasn't realy in to it. I am like Hi, where are u from bla. Talk some shit about what I like, my passions. Talk for 5 minutes to some sets, no response. Every1 just feels ignorance. Maybe I should try to be more persistent and just take what I want. This usually works for me very good, persistance. The two times I got laid when picking up was when I had "persistance and close" in my head.
Left.
Friday out. I feel so lonely sometimes. And it feels so depressing just going out to pick up chicks, and the doodes im going out with are jts my pickup friends. We went out to the club. I met some ppl from my class. They met lal my pick up friends. And some of the pickup friends are really weird, that's why i dont like it. but some are really cool =)
Felt really not in the mood this time either. Dont wanna do dance game or anything, i dunno, just felt unmotivated. Go in to the toilet, meet and olf friend and i feel really stifled.
But I go out do some approaches with my wing, but its just approaches where you joke and shit, no real intent. But atleast something. Get blown out lil bit. Im really too tired to push myself. Hang out with the boys. Just talk and have fun. Met some chick that looked very french. talked to her about me feeling slow and like whatver, congruent. She wwas like "yeaaa u look high" talked a lil bit. I waited for her ot intiate mrore convo, thats bad. Man = action Women =reaction! but she asked me, so i look french? And then i got happy. Did k close, she did it on me. but just one kiss on the mouth, then she left but she told me "we will poolly meet". Next time she came out i said hey, and she told me hey i told u we was going to meet. then no more convo. Man i should push more ,prolly would have got it
Saturday got k close. Was approaching quite mad, and talking to ppl. K close with a 7.
Also I had a coffe with the girl I like in school, well i want her sa friend but kinda have one itis on her. Its good that I did that. Cuz i had bad social anxiety b4 and was afraid of 1v1 and shit. Now i dont care. Felt very much more relaxed. Don't wanna say "it went good" cuz thats outcome dependecy and basing it on her reactions but what was good was i talked and felt relaxed in myself.
man i wish i had bigger socia lcircles to hang out with regularly. Not just pickup friends and some other friends here and there. I wanna do things! I wanna have more girl friends I know to do fun things with :)
But its improvement, atleast i went out 3 times this week.... Think ima make the decision to do atleaast 3 times a week
Was out on wednesday. Met the guys. We're like 15 pickup doodes, it feels really weird and I creep myself out with this thought. We go to a play. I feel really stifled and not in the mood. I approach some chick and iis like "Hi i had to say hello" (learned from ozzie to just approach without having itention of pickup and intorducing yourself to 5 girls in 5 minutes, it removes aa very much). And she's like hi. But she told me have to go. I talk a lil bit about why she have to go, argument shy she should stay. Handshake. She leaves.
Do some approaches. Talk to some fat chick. The approaches wasn't that good, the ydidnt last very long. Every1 I approached wasn't realy in to it. I am like Hi, where are u from bla. Talk some shit about what I like, my passions. Talk for 5 minutes to some sets, no response. Every1 just feels ignorance. Maybe I should try to be more persistent and just take what I want. This usually works for me very good, persistance. The two times I got laid when picking up was when I had "persistance and close" in my head.
Left.
Friday out. I feel so lonely sometimes. And it feels so depressing just going out to pick up chicks, and the doodes im going out with are jts my pickup friends. We went out to the club. I met some ppl from my class. They met lal my pick up friends. And some of the pickup friends are really weird, that's why i dont like it. but some are really cool =)
Felt really not in the mood this time either. Dont wanna do dance game or anything, i dunno, just felt unmotivated. Go in to the toilet, meet and olf friend and i feel really stifled.
But I go out do some approaches with my wing, but its just approaches where you joke and shit, no real intent. But atleast something. Get blown out lil bit. Im really too tired to push myself. Hang out with the boys. Just talk and have fun. Met some chick that looked very french. talked to her about me feeling slow and like whatver, congruent. She wwas like "yeaaa u look high" talked a lil bit. I waited for her ot intiate mrore convo, thats bad. Man = action Women =reaction! but she asked me, so i look french? And then i got happy. Did k close, she did it on me. but just one kiss on the mouth, then she left but she told me "we will poolly meet". Next time she came out i said hey, and she told me hey i told u we was going to meet. then no more convo. Man i should push more ,prolly would have got it
Saturday got k close. Was approaching quite mad, and talking to ppl. K close with a 7.
Also I had a coffe with the girl I like in school, well i want her sa friend but kinda have one itis on her. Its good that I did that. Cuz i had bad social anxiety b4 and was afraid of 1v1 and shit. Now i dont care. Felt very much more relaxed. Don't wanna say "it went good" cuz thats outcome dependecy and basing it on her reactions but what was good was i talked and felt relaxed in myself.
man i wish i had bigger socia lcircles to hang out with regularly. Not just pickup friends and some other friends here and there. I wanna do things! I wanna have more girl friends I know to do fun things with :)
But its improvement, atleast i went out 3 times this week.... Think ima make the decision to do atleaast 3 times a week
My field reports http://www.rsdnation.com/node/219792/forum
Been watchin DJ fuji, man I like him. Starting to use his principles. Disciplin, training, execution and agressiveness.
Summer is comin, Im quite lonely. But ima push myself, never gonna give up, even how bad I feel. Ima push myself, get a social circle, get good with this shit.
Haven't gone out consistently. Been like 1-2 times a week. Gotta have the disciplin and do 3 times a week.
Been watchin DJ fuji, man I like him. Starting to use his principles. Disciplin, training, execution and agressiveness.
Summer is comin, Im quite lonely. But ima push myself, never gonna give up, even how bad I feel. Ima push myself, get a social circle, get good with this shit.
Haven't gone out consistently. Been like 1-2 times a week. Gotta have the disciplin and do 3 times a week.
TheSteak
Member
Join Date: 03/07/2012 | Posts: 51
Background
When I started with pickup/self-development: October 2011
How I started: Read the game
Why I love it: The journey, adventures, fun, pleasure in the length, its’ effect on so many aspects of your life.
Where I was October 2011: Sure, a few charming and positive things about me, but the main issue was a lot of social anxiety and insecurity , not so much ongoing in my life, not many friends.
I have been doing some pickup for half a year. 2 laids, some kiss closes here and there, new friends, more fun, more self acceptance, boost in my confidence and learning more about myself. I see results already.
Now I’ll begin writing a blog about my journey in pickup, lifestyle and self development.
I’m more interested into changing myself & the lifestyle that I’m living than just picking up. Mixing these will be awesome. So I’ll set up goals, blog about how it’s going and analyze myself. Think It can be very productive to write a blog about it, to follow the process.
Goal - To be the person I want to be, to be confident, happy and living my ideal cool lifestyle.
Goal in detail- I want to feel calm, confident, stress-free and being able to express myself to my full extent. Be as outcome independent as possible, and caring as little as possible what ppl think of me in social situations. I want to have a cool lifestyle where I live with abundance of friends and hang out with nice friends. I want to experience a lot of sexual experiences with the girls I want, and easily done. I wanna travel a lot and see the world. I want to be mentally strong and be hard as stone. To have confident with every person I meet. I want to draw state from within and control my emotions. I want to do do spontaneous crazy adventurous things.
Pickup
short term goal nr1: To have sex with 3 more girls of quality till may 1st.
Commentary week 10: Havent had sex yet. Been out 2 days this week. First night I approached some. Got some conversation going. There was one girl I like, but I didnd convey any sexual. Plus I tried to make her laugh, did it with insecurity. Need to get more physical, more congruent and more freedom of outcome. The way I feel is a little bit awkard and insecure
when I talk to ppl sometimes. I noticed how my state shifted from beeing in the gym looking in the mirror feeling awesome. Then I go into city and see all the ppl, and my state kinda drops. When I talk to ppl I dont know and they dont react goood or fun to what I say, I feel like Im worse. Im quite attached to the outcome. Its like I react more to how guys react to me than girls sometimes. Its not that I need to time my jokes or something better I hsould just stop caring. Because sometimes ppl dont laugh, wtf if u laugh all conversation thats not normal. What am I expecting? I should be able to talk about the most boring shit and still make it k.
Though when I went home with a close pua contact, that i know well and he accepts me for everythjing never juding, I talked about everything and I got in mad state. Its like when I let myself be in every single way I want to, I feel happy. Should strive more to that.
Second night, I approached a few. My goal was to be congruent, which I was. As beeing congruent what I showed off, from me, was some insecurity. I felt somehow naked, but still in peace with my self. I approached the hottesst girl on the club all congruent, told her I thought she was gonna be bitch cuz that is how my generalization of hot girls are. She was really really nice and I digged the first impression I got of her. I felt little bit awkard while walking her through the club, Its like I think "should I say something while walking, or is that reallly me? Im not sure ee i better stay quiet till we come to a place we can stay". Then I was out talking with her, felt quite sure in my self since I was congruent. But I didnt do a move physically. Didnt convey man to woman. more friend to friend. But instead of beeing hard on myselkf I can congrate myself for starting conversation with the hottest one that used to be an old fear of mine. Ended up she had to go into her friend. But I didnt get any blowoffs at all when I was congruent as tyler said.
Self developement & lifestyle
Short term goal nr2: To have a coffé with a girl two times, different girl for every time, till april 1st.
Commentary week 10: I planned coffé with one girl that has been interested in me. I on the other hand find her alil bit cute but dont want anythiung sexually. But to face my comfort zone I would meet her for coffe. And with cofee I mean sitting talking. Met her, i felt so much more sure of myself than I did before I met her some year ago, felt different, nice. We walked around the town talking bout school and shit, quite boring. Felt her reacting more to me. Sometimes when I get in these very lone places where no one else is I get some of the social anxiety attacks back for some seconds, and thinking "i feel so unsure of reality, is this normal, feels like im weird". But then It usually goes over quick. Sat down talking on a bench. Didnt go actually have coffe. But u can say thats like having coffe. So 1 girl now. Gotta meet another girl.
This week, I feel so much more calmer with medidation and so much more in the now.
Went snowboarding 1 day, aww i love this. Its one of my biggest passion. I just need more friends who loves to do it as much as I do. Did it alone this time. Have a slope near my moms house.
Man, I have so much time over I should spend meeting friends, having fun doiang awesome things, or just studying instead of playing games. Checking facebook and shit. But maybve I need to be lazy sometimes.
Work
Education
Short term goal nr1: To have done all the deadlines that is to 1st march that I’ve missed before april 1st .
Short term goal nr2: To have only missed a maximum of 3 lessons till april 1st.
Commentary week 10: This week I am done with my education to become a swimming teacher. Should start working soon.
Other thoughts
Commentary week 10: Hopefully its possible to read this blog. Maybe I should start a field report thread and link every week of my field reports in to here.
Goal tracking
1st of March
Beeing the person u want to be: 6
Living the lifestyle u want to live: 5
Hapiness: 7
Physically 8
Mentally 7
Emotionally 7
Attractiveness 7
Relationships 4
Living environment 7
Socially 5
Spiritually 4
Career 0
Financially 2
1st of April
Beeing the person u want to be: 6
Living the lifestyle u want to live: 5
Hapiness: 6
Physically 7
Mentally 8
Emotionally 7
Attractiveness 7
Relationships 4
Living environment 7
Socially 6
Spiritually 4
Career 0
Financially 2
1st of May
Beeing the person u want to be: 6
Living the lifestyle u want to live: 5
Hapiness: 6
Physically 8
Mentally 7
Emotionally 7
Attractiveness 7
Relationships 4
Living environment 7
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