THE FORUMS

Sticking Points 

After an extremely close examination of my inner and outter game, I finally pin point my sticking points. I've been at war with myself for a couple of weeks now in and out of mindless sorrow cause I was wondering why I haven't been advancing. I feel like I've put the weight of all this pick-up stuff on my shoulders too fast. It's like eating a whole cow when you're full. I keep biting off more than I can chew. I'm going to list my sticking points so I can look back at them and remind myself what i need to work on. 

Lack of sexuality - I've noticed that in most of my sets during night game. The sexual intent isn't there. I get close but I always feel myself pulling back and not allowing myself to fully express my sexuality. I feel most of my sets are 70% verbal and 30% sexual. When I say sexual, I don't mean just touching or holding the girl close. I mean vocal tonality, sexual drive, eye contact and overall vibe. The vibes I get is a hollow-sexual vibe when I make out with a girl if that makes any sense. There's just not that warmth to it anymore. The only time I can fondly remember where I felt that sexual warmth while making out with a girl was a few weeks ago with the Go Bus girl. During that moment, I just wanted to fuck her brains out in the back of the bus and didn't have a care in the world if anyone watched. That's probably why I keep thinking about her so much lately because I've never felt that sexual warmth in a long time. By no means was she the hottest girl I've made out with but there was just something about the overall vibe. In retrospect, I truly belief it was the rapport built and built up sexual tension contributed big time. I need to learn how to just let it all out and just pure my sexuality out on the table during these interactions. Maybe stop jerking off all together as well. 

Lack Of Direction - Personally, I believe I'm a man of wit but sometimes my logic overshadows my emotions. I noticed that in a lot of sets where I get physical and the girl is receptive, I tend to flail around because I lack direction during the approach and they can sense it. If I can sense it, I'm pretty sure they can feel it.  I remember last Saturday, I had a blonde in my arms and feeling me but my lack of direction fucked it up. I flailed around to the point where she sensed it and fucked off somewhere. Being a man is about having direction and obivously, I don't have direction during these approaches. As of this point, I haven't earned my man card. 

Not Agressive Enough - I need to stop being afraid to taking complete control at times. I have this thign where I'm afraid that I will come off as an aggressive asshole. So, I just try to make up for it with my verbals but the thing is, you can't replace kino. When I do include kino, it's soft, light, and weak. If I grab a girl in I need to do it agressively (no super aggressive rapist aggression) but firm aggression . Plus, when I tend to kiss a girl I give them fair warning which I need to stop. No warning. This also goes for saying something and not going through with it. I need to do what i say in the instance of actions  for example, saying to a girl I'm going to spank her if she does says somthing I don't like and she does.

Lying - I need to start being completely real with a girl when i interact with her. I tend to lie about my age and so forth because when I'm being completely real with a girl, she may be turned off by something I can't change. I need to accept that not everyone will like me for me and start screening for girls that like the true me. Plus, sometimes I can't even keep up with the lie and fucks me up. there are times where I get caught too. 

 Today wasn't so much day game but none to less, sick did some game. I was playing football with my friends and seen these cute girls outside sitting. I interact with them but throwing the ball towards them so they could caught it. Just being playful. They laughed but nothing came out of it and just went inside the school to chill out a bit. Go back outside and start playing again. Feeling very good and happy. See a girl with white glasses and tell her to get into the game. I throw the ball towards her and she complies. She's in. I gave her a big neg by saying that she sucked and my friend said why would I say such a thing. I didn't expect him to understand because I don't have a filter anymore. I just say what's on my mind. Anyways, we continue to throw around the ball and we're just talking. Having a nice conversation and have a bit of kino here and there. I see a lot of IOI going on so by the end, I ask for her number and she gives it. Two hours later I text her it was nice talking to her. For experimental purposes I asked her out for coffee after her reply. Waiting for a reply. If not, oh well... it was nice talking to her. 

EDIT: Day 2 comfirmed next week. Exams on both sides caused them. :p

PS. Fridays At The Madsion Sucks
March 23, 2012

These last few weeks have been major weeks for me because I started to notice sticking points in my game. Out of the 3 months I have been going out gaining reference experience through night clubs, nothing came close to the reference experience I gained from day game. If you're not doing day game, you need to. Day game was far more scarier in my mind in oppose to the nightclub scene. Anyways, this was the first time I’ve went out knowing what I know now (my sticking points and etc) and actually having a clear intent to follow. So, the night started off with me getting into a set of two hot Cuban sisters. They soon may it appearent they had boyfriends (boyfriends that were two steps behind me). I held frame as their boyfriends came and sat down. Kind of looked intimidated by me. I talk with them for a bit, befriend them, and then dipped to more sets. I go upstairs and see Mr. Jae talking to these guys about their country and etc. I just go in and talk with them for a bit.

Me and Mr. Jae go into this 3 set of FOB Asian girls and they’re just boring as fuck to me. None of them are cute or attractive in the slightest. I do my best to keep a smiley on my face but soon really wanna leave. We then go into a 3 set and it seems to be going good. Seems that they go to school with Mr. Jae. Seems like the connection was dying down so they leave. I go inside and I hear them talking about me and Jae saying “I didn’t like the Asian guy. I thought the black guy was cool” which made me feel good. Not the fact that they didn't like Mr. Jae but they liked my energy and presence. I depart with Mr. Jae and go solo into a 2 set. I fuck around with the skinny friend and the chubby one for a bit. They seem to be liking the interaction. Real2 wings in for a bit and we greet each other like passionate men. I get the chubby ones number and dip into another set.

I open a 3 set and the one friend is being a bitch and drags my target away so I make due and pull in the older sister. Speak sweet nothings to her and make out. She's very giggly and submissive until her faggot boyfriend/guy friend? drags her away. I go outside with real2 and Mr. Persia screwing around and beasting. Got a few pointers. Did some twilight game. Opened a set of 3 girls that were getting verbally harassed by some retards. Started walking with them and vibing with the cool one since she was closet to me. Get to her hotel and try to make out but her friends are now staring and not feeling that sexual energy.

Get a text from Falc for Nigara Falls, I heading there.

On The 7th Day, There Shall Be Blue Balls.
March 24, 2012


[/][='Comic Sans MS']Get an hour worth of sleep because of the short notice invite. Drivee to the Michael's Inn and start partying. By 6, I'm totally drunk. I flirt with the girl in the group because she's flirting with me. Falc tells me that they're not even serious so I thought it was fine if I hit it once.Thought I was going to be railing that ass by the end of the night from all the flirting. I was wrong. The two of them go in their room and the noise from it wasn't "friendly" (aka they were fucking). So, my chances are 0% and had to find poon elsewhere. We get to the casino.This cute two set crosses me and Falc. I open them, Falc comes in, we’re all vibing talking about reaching a club later. We all exchange numbers and we’re off. The chubby sister keeps texting Falc when we’re meeting up and stuff. We head to Rumors nightclub. Total blowout sale for us with the most uptie women I ever seen.

We see our two set and go over. My girl is talking to this chode and I steal her away from him. He tries to steal her back but it’s not working. He leaves. I do the usual and she’s liking my stuff. I piggy back her her to the dance floor and everyone's watching. Boss. After talking, extract her outside with Falc and the sister following. From there, we lead them to the Hotel. On the way, she’s just gripping on to my arms and gripping my chest. Feeling me up basically. We chill in the room and the girls are saying they're hungry. I propose potateo shots for the lulz. Everyone's doing it. We chill some more and the other two people that came with us are chilling in the room. My girl is caressing my arms and back. The sister at this point is acting up and stuff. I do the "punishment and reward" with her. She's now behaving. ever seen we got back to the hotel she's has been touching me and stuff. Actually bit my nipple and arm at one point in the other room. Shit hurt. from there, I was picking up mad IOIs from both sisters. I tried to get my main target into PJs I brought for this type of situation. Didn't work. I then propose a senual massage which didn't work because they wouldn't take off their tops. Haha Tried to get the sister off my dick by saying Falc taught me how to do sensual massage. Doesn't care because she wants me to give her the massage.

I turn off the light trying to fuck my target and she's under my covers. The sister is loud and screaming over to my side asking what we're doing (what do you think you retard? lol) and just cock blocking the fuck out of me. She even gets out of Falc's bed to come over at me side and pulls off the covers, goes in the middle of me and her sister, copes a feel of my rock hard cock. Falc comes over, picks her up and carries her over to his bed. Haha Back to trying to fuck my target but she's down for dry humping/making out but no penetration because of presence of her sister who was clearly a major negative influence. Tried my best, from taking her hand dropping it in my underwear to rubbing that puss-puss of hers. I stopped because the sister just won't stop being an asshole. On a creep note, the sister was actually facing in our direction for the whole damn time.

Later, me and Falc bust a Hodeenie and works for like 15 minutes. The sister is showing mad resistance to me and my girl seems cool with Falc. It took around 10 miniutes for the other sister to realize that it was me in the bed and not Falc. She freaks out, shitstorm insues with us turning my target against her and Falc telling the sister to get the fuck out of our hotel.

I get a kiss from my target and they leave. And on that night, Mars experienced the worst case of blue balls ever. Fuck you, Sex Gods. I have pictures but left my camera in Guelph. 

 Nothing much for this day. Just had a day 2 with some Aisan girl from a few weeks back. Failed attempts to bring her back to the place but couldn't because it was too far and she had work. Went pretty well up untill the end of the date because she was kinda leading and the connection was too friendly for my liking. No pull. I'm about 11 days into this no jerking shit and my balls are beginning to ache. Shit sucks. I swear the gods just don't want me to get laid. Every fucking time I get close some shit has to ruin it. Now, I'm home getting nudes from some girl in a relationship because she can't come over right now. Am I a piece of shit? Fuck yeah. I'm a scumbag. I suck.