THE FORUMS

 Wednesday

Quiet night - hit state quickly and easily - almost hooked up with best friend of girl I've banged - remembered how good my verbals can be

Went out feeling good. Felt good in the club.

Went in hard on a super cutie. She said she knew me. She's so delicious and I'm physical and vibing like a boss. Realise she's a girl I've banged's best friend. Oops. Dam we both so into eachother. Trust wants to bounce so I say goodbye. Get a quick kiss.

Other set that went well. American that was sitting down. Went well for like 10 min. See her a cuple more times but don't push it.

We bounce to 2 more venues but they dead so we call it early.

Shit was good tonight. Compared to last night where i even struggled to open, tonight felt great. Noticed my verbals were really good. Just flowing, and I kept dropping big words and varying up the pace and emphasis I put on stuff. I hate how this all clicks when I'm on but otherwise i end up using chode talk.

Think I need to attempt to be that guy ALL THE TIME. When i'm not feeling it, don't force it but still put effort into speaking exitedly about stuff that interests me etc.

Tomorrow should be a goody - will have some good momentum and thursdays are the best.

Friday (May the Fourth be with you!)

Game on shrooms - feel the fear - embrace the magic - pull and close Austrian girl

That's a quite a dramatic lead in title, I know. It was a crazy night though.

I wasn't so down to take the shrooms to begin with. I've been working on getting a good balance of work, health and play and its been going well so I didn't want to mess that all up by being out of it for a few days. I listened to some Joe Rogan video about psychedelics before going out though so I was like fuck it, you only live once, let's do this shit!

Went to a new venue I haven't been to before. Quite classy. Started off the night quite relaxed, just started getting social. Met some new dudes into this stuff which was cool. One's taken a Jeffy bootcamp and the other a Brad bootcamp.

Shrooms start kicking in a bit. We didn't take a lot, so just kind of getting a perspective shift more than anything else. Feel like i'm flowing, do some approaches that I really enjoy. Liked 'connecting' with the people I was talking to. 

I start to feel a lil freaked out from the shrooms. Not badly though. I just focus on staying relaxed and rolling with it. We decide to bounce to a hubbly place for a bit then come back.

When we get back I feel way more on. I've just embraced the fact that I feel how I feel, and that shouldn't affect what kind of action I take. This allowed me to just roll with the effects of the shrooms.

After that my approaches went well. I felt quite egoless and could just talk and relate with nothing to prove. 

Learnt a pretty good lesson about focusing on the girl less. I don't need to be locked in with her for 100% of the time. Noticed this with a blonde girl who I approached, looked away, turned back and said something, walked around to the other side of her and said something else. And she was in to it.

I meet the austrian girl I end up pulling on the dancefloor. She's walking through everyone not looking too decisive about where she's going. Approach her directly. Just talk, dance, pull back and talk, dance. Each time getting pulling her in more and getting more physical. Makeout. 

Basically from this point on a just stick it out. We makeout and dance on the dancefloor for quite a long time. Realised I used to do this more when I drank because I enjoyed it, but since not drinking when I go out I've kept the makeouts fairly short. This was a good call tonight though cause it got pretty hot. Whisper in her ear that I want to do bad things to her. She loves it.

Lead her to the bar. Chat a bit more. More making out. Ask her where she's staying tonight. She says she wants to take this further but she is getting a taxi with her friend. I say its fine I have a car. Boom.

I'm like sko, take her by the hand and lead her out. Her friend comes running up at this point. I look at her in a what's this nonsense way haha. She apologizes and says she just needs to talk to her friend. I don't feel worried that she's gpnna cockblock so I just stand to the side while they conference. They finish talking and friend comes and tells me I just better not kidnap her. I laugh and say I won't. Boom, logistics sorted. Good girl.

Keep the vibe up when we head out of the club. Makeout by car. In car, she wants to go to her place. I want to go to mine which is way closer. Eventually, she says 'just do me a favour and come to my place'. Realise at that point that's what she feels comfortable with so I decide that's cool.

It's like a 15 min drive, so we just chat and I keep the vibe up. Joke about my 3 other girlfriends. Tease her that she lives 3 hours away. Talk about what we do and stuff. She's studying medicine, yikes.

Get to her place. Start getting it on. Having trouble getting it up again. I dunno, the whole one night stand thing puts a bit of pressure on me or something. I banged one of my old girls on tuesday and had no problems. Anyway, eventually get it sorted. Fade to black (haha been wanting to say that).

11th girl for the year. In 4 months. I've officially more than doubled the number of girls I've slept with this year. Shweet.

Thursday 10 may

Worried after 4 days of not going out I'm going to have a bad night - go out solo and I'm so solid - pull an ok girl and get BJ

Meditated 15 min before going out. That shit is like the holy grail of PU wow. Felt so awesome.

Bar 1. Talk to girl at bar briefly, feeling good. Talk another girl at bar. Boyfriend across the bar starts threatening me. Look at him like what the fuck, say bye to girl and leave. Don't let it affect me. See american girl I've made out with before. Get physical. She gives me anime eyes. I want to bounce around more though so I plan to catch up with her later.

Club. Chat to one or two girls. See a girl I know say hi. Walk outside. Chat to a girl by the entrance. Kind want the bouncer to see me pimping for some reason haha. Stop a blonde girl from going inside. Chat to her. I'm actually pretty on its great. Go inside with her. Sit down and chat.

See american girl from earlier. She's in to me. Got her, her friend and the blonde girl all around me vying for my attention. Was awesome. This is a big thing I've been thinking I want to change. Being the partying instead of running around trying to get into some girls party.

The blonde girl is like a 6, not super hot but ok. She's british which made her seem hotter to me. She's like sticking on me big time and is really in to me. I go to the bathroom and think what I should do about this. Decide I'll go back to her, vibe and see if she gets dong action going for me in which case I'll pull.

Decide that yes, I would. So say let's go I'll drop you at home. Then I'm like wait food first. Then I'm like actually i'm not hungry, my place. haha. Haven't made out with her or anything yet.

Get to my place. Chill on my bed, chat, music. Then makeout -> clothes off. She keep saying she can't have sex with me. Don't ask why cause I don't want there to be a legitimate reason spoken. Eventually I ask her though. She a virgin. Heh. Tell her I don't mind being her first time haha. I really wasn't too fazed either way though. She ends up giving me an awesome blowjob and I come on her rather awesome boobs.

Drop her off, head back to the clubs. Everywhere is closing though. Try look for some twilight zone options but nothing really around so I piece out.

Cool night, i was super surprised how on I was. To be honest my conceptions of state and a typical night out have changed a lot. I'm no longer chasing that pumped up I'm-feel-so-fucking-good state. Instead I'm just realising that I have a baseline level of comfort after an approach or 2 that's enough. It's pretty cool, don't feel like I have to run around approach every girl in sight so much.

Anyways, off to sleep. Later bitches.

Thanks synergist. I don't think I'm giving myself enough credit for what I'm doing at the moment.

Friday 11 May

Off night - nothing sticking - realise I identify with having an off night - have an "all or nothing" approach to my nights

Forgot my wallet so had to chode around outside a bit by myself before i could get in. Not a good start.

Just wanted to eject out of most sets for some reason. It's like I didn't want to be there. Or I was just approaching for the sake of it instead of cause I wanted to.

Warmed up a bit. Stuck in a bit more in sets. Felt like I kept talking about the same shit over and over though. All the girls at this place are foreign so it would go something like "Oh. you're from Germany, cool I'm going in June" and then talk about that for a while. Boring.

Got physical here and there. Everything just fizzled out though. Probably cause I wasn't feeling good and having fun.

TrusT hooked up with a girl I talked to which kinda killed my state a bit. Ego bullshit though, it's a good thing.

It was cool, at one point I realised I wasn't feeling it so just made myself act how I usually act when i am feeling it. Pretty cool. Kinda like Tyler's "Most Ganster Exercise For Entitlement" vid.

I feel like I kind of have an all or nothing approach to my nights. I'm either completely on or completely off. I think it's something to do with identifyiing with the fact i'm having an off night and not allowing myself to turn it around.

Overall nothing really went down. But got out, went through the motions.