THE FORUMS

I love my life right now. Spent the day walking around campus hitting up hotties with the excuse of promoting for the Cape Town Electronic Music Festival (which i am actually promoting for lol).

Then I sat in class and fantasized that this girl was actually completely naked and what I would do to her:

FRIDAY 30 MARCH 2012

Was out for 7 hours. @ those of you who count your approaches in a night: LOL.

Got some makeouts here and there. Nothing overly solid. 

Some girl gave me a card for a modelling agency.

I was mildly stalked for most of the night by a girl.

Gave a lift to a gay guy and an Emma Stone lookalike to another club. He was talking about penises. I wasn't impressed. Girl says she has fake boobs and I should feel them. Reach into the backseat and feel boobs through top while continueing to drive. She pulls down her top and bra and I continue to play with boobs. Hmmmmmmmmmm.

Beasted till the last girl left.

What could I have done better tonight? Well think I've been drinking too many energy drinks lately........

In all seriousness I don't think I need to actively learn another thing about all this. I honestly think this is 99% subconscious learning that happens when you go out. I feel like I'm the process of a metamorphesis into some kind of superhuman enlightened being. 

Tomorrow I think I'm going to be out for 12 hours. Yeah.

Peace.

@ Cat yeah me too man, always like reading your stuff - very positive and inspiring.

Saturday 31 March

Hit the electro festival I was at on friday again early in the afternoon. Thought I would just wake up and continue the romp I was on the night before. In reality i wasn't feeling it at all. It was also very relaxed and people were just hanging out in big groups. Did a few half hearted approaches, watched my mate play his set and headed home to take a nap and eat.

Went back later with civilian friends at about 9.

Quite a different night to fri even though it was the exact same venue and similar vibe. Even so there was a different feel to this night. Like a place has a certain energy to a night. Or maybe its just me. Either way, I didn't get to such an "on" level. 

At one point I realized i was going in wanting something out of the interactions. It wasn't so much outcome dependence as going in wanting people to give back to me. Waiting and expacting them to entertain me. It's not like I walked up to them and said nothing, it was just a subtle difference I noticed. Not drawing state from within, self amusing and all that jazz.

After feeling fakeBoobGirl's tits on fri I decided I wanted to find her again. I did, and she was looking hot. Less fucked up than fri too. Or so I thought, she turned out to be on MD again. Meh. 

When I found her on the dancefloor it was on ffrom the start. She liked me already so makeout happened pretty quick. She's super into the music and super high so she's acting like a sexy minx, dancing against me all provocatively and dancing sexily. Feeling me up.

Spend time with her on and off. At one point I pull her outside to a grass area. Making out and stuff and its getting pretty hot. I know shit will happen if I get her somewhere private but I can't think where. Try to get her to my car (which is hardly private at all) but then she decides she wants to find her friend. Damn.

Texted her since the night and she seems down to meet up sometime.

Other than that nothing else great happened. Lots of approaches but nothing stuck. I got a civilian friend to do an approach, lol. It amazed me how much outcome dependence he had for it to go well.

Found it interesting to compare this night to fri. On friday I was really on. This night I wasn't. And yet I "did better" in terms of I stuck in there with a girl and almost pulled her. I think I've been chasing state lately and when I'm in state I just fuck around and have a good time because, well, I'm having a good time and going for a pull could kill that. I also feel like when I'm on I do very flashy kind of shit which can be good but if I just sat back and chilled out with girls I would go further. I dunno, I kind of like doing stupid shit and having a girl like it. It's something that i've grown to like I think. Then again, the last two pulls I did were super laid back and more the searing coal type thing.