THE FORUMS

Wednesday

Hit the club at like 12.30. Felt good straight up, even though I was writing an essay before I went out. IDK last two days I've been working hard and my nights were really good anyway. Its like you've used up all your brain power on studying so there's none left for stupid bullshit thoughts.

Pretty much thp

THURSDAY

Really trying to get my studying on but can't resist going out. 

Hit it up with TrusT, always like going out with him, gets me pumped up and we hit it up hard.

Town is packed cause its a public holiday on fri. Can't get in anywhere at first so we hit shit up all over the streets and in lines.

Club. Get a makeout with a hottie with curly hair.

More sets all over the place, being more physical.

TrusT leaves for another area and I decide to hit it up a bit more before I bounce. Open a fucking stunning German girl by ripping on the chode who tried to kinda half approach her a second before. Opens pretty well, she's like luke warm towards me. Plow and she warms up. We get a shot. We makeout. Man this chick is HOT. Probably the hottest girl I've made out with, she looks like the main chick from Greek.

What's cool is I'm not all that intimidated by how hot she is. Damn I've come a long way.

Bounce with her to another club. Decide I'm going to stick it out with her and try pull later. In the end turned out to be a bad call. I knew she was flying out the next day but kinda thought she's want to "make the most of her last night" as I kept mentioning.

She leaves and all the clubs are closing. Try do some twilight approaches but nothing stuck. Checked all my options of previous girls but no go on that so head home.

Didn't mention all my interations but there were a lot of good ones. Felt super on tonight. Also was doing Brad's breaking report style openers which rocked.

Interesting point I noticed tonight. I was a lot more "in state" tonight than weds and in fact the last few times i've pulled. And yet sometimes I feel I do better with a girl when I'm not spitting mad game. Like tonight I was really on physically and verbally. And yet something was not quite right. Maybe coming off a little too try hard? Very subtlely though if at all.

Maybe its something to do with when I'm less "on", I'm also more real. In these cases I just sit back and connect with the girl and don't try. Think that might be the key distinction. TRYING.

~~SAT-ER-DAY~~

Was out for a good 4+ hours.

Two really solid interactions - makeouts and numbers. 

Made the one girl sing for me and recorded it, pretty funny. Will upload the vid for shits and giggles.

Weird progression throughout the night from walking in and being super on, to hitting a low, to hitting state again. 

MAY THE FIRST
    -tuesday-

Didn't want to go out but realised I'd just end up fucking around online or something so did it anyway. Pushing myself to go out when i don't feel like it isn't too hard a thing to do these days. I also knew hitting up the club tonight would just kick start that momentum for the rest of the week so nicely.

Everywhere was dead after the long weekend, so we just hit the one bar that was semi ok. TrusT and I chat about stuff for a while. I like talking to him, he's a dude that is motivated and is likeminded about becoming the best you can be. Feeling like most of my friends are just so consumed by petty bullshit and have such a small minded, socially conditioned view of the world.

It's weird, I always used to feel kind of superior to people intellectually, and yet was never able to confidently express myself. It led to a kind of bitter resentment towards a lot of people for a lot of reasons. But what I feel more now is just want to sorround myself with people who I more on the same path with me and who I feel I can talk about the stuff that's important to me. Pretty tired so might not be expressing this exactly how I mean it but i wanted to put it down here anyway.

Back to the night - Did a few halfhearted kind of approaches in the bar. There really weren't many options. And yet I didn't commit to any approaches.

I got pretty pissed when a girl turned her back on me like I was some creep when I was just talking to her normally. Shrugged it off though.

Felt way better after just hanging out in a bar and doing a couple of approaches. Goos lesson to remember. If in doubt, go out.