THE FORUMS

Wednesday

Drove half way across South Africa today.

On the trip I listened to like 4 discs of the blueprint. Went through masculine polarity, acting through your own intentions, walking through life with ease. Makes more sense each time I listen to it. First time it was these foreign concepts, second time I was starting to get them and now I feel like I have soe of them down.

But more importantly - HOT SEAT IS COMING TO CAPE TOWN! 

So stoked. It is only happening in January next year but its still awesome its coming here!

Thursday

Go out tired. Meet up with a big bunch of people, two of which I know. Trying to stay sober. Get to club. Feeling ok, vibe with the group fine. Do a round of club. Its packed and intimidating when sober. I lapse and have 3 shots. Feel the magic juice run through my veins.

Approaches. Most dont last long. I get on for a bit but the fall out of state. I do a bit of bouncing from open to open. Feel some momentum. Start opening some girls more physically. Still don't stick in to any sets. Feeling tired. Try push myself more but just can't get into vibe. Talk to lots of people i know throughout the night. Talking to people I know is fine because I don't have to hold their attention as well, which i'm struggling with because I'm so tired.

About to leave then I'm like let me just chariot rider this shit until shit happens. I'm like ok lets go. First girl I see is the girl I pulled to the bathroom in dec. We catch up. Its boring convo so I'm falling asleep. I say goodbye and leave. Turn down the offer of old fb who was there to come back with me. She doesnt appeal to me so much anymore. Get a taxi back with the girl I hooked up with in mozam (who now has a boyfriend) cause she lives close to me. We still want eachother but i wouldnt want to mess things up with her bf. And I was too tired anyway.

Before I left i kept seeing hotties everywhere. I wanted to approach, wasnt that scared too. Just too tired to. Not so much an excuse cause when I did approach hotties I just didnt have enough energy to vibe. Got sad because I was missing out. Its fine though, they're not going anywhere, will be there tomorrow and the next day and the next day.

Too much pickup stuff going round in my head from blueprint. Not enough sticking in sets. Too much tiredness.

Night one back in CT. Tough but good. Next? Go out got out go out go out GO OUT GO OUT GO OUT. SOBER SOBER SOBER. GO OUT GO OUT GO OUT.

Ya.

Yeah can't complain. Just need cool shit like that to start happening when sober. 

All I have to do is go out everynight. Which I'm going to do for at least the next few weeks!

None of my mates are going out tonight. I'm just going to hit it up alone.

Mission: Just get blown out a lot for shits and giggles (and so I become a stone cold pimp).