THE FORUMS

^^ texted you
 k so no FR today i had class and exams all day :(
but i did have such a beautiful epiphany and i had such an amazing feeling that i had to share it with you all <3

i left my class for the last time today, never again will i see those and im not gonna lie i will kinda miss em
they are like family now, and theyve been with me through my growth and development, soooo ye its tough.

anyways so after i left that class something extraordinary happened. i realized that I Chris Martins
who had been shat on his whole life, who was never supposed to succeed, who once had a problem reading

the defensively arrogant bastard who walked through highschool, the chode that failed with his girl...
got through my first year as a university student. i did it. the most retarded year in the university experience, and i made it through

it like a fucking cakewalk. me who was told by his eight grade teacher that i would grow up to be a ditch digger.
im still finding trouble believing it, but with every passing second i know it only becomes more true.

so in honour of me getting through the first year of uni i would like to take this post to just list my accomplishments this year:

-got through my first year, with an ICY average
-got over the girl i thought i loved for 6 years
-went to montreal and had an amazing time <3
-got involved with PU hardcore, 4 months in and i feel pretty good about my success
-38 phone numbers since i started as well as 2 makeouts
-almost fucked but i came too soon :(
-got to know 10-15 dudes from the rsd community, <3 you all
-i am the only guy ive ever met (outside of the community) who could walk up to a gorgeous girl during the day and get her #
-LEARNED SOO MUCH BOTH INSIDE AND OUTSIDE THE CLASSROOM
-all my profs love me and know me by name, even when they have HUGE classes
-i balanced work studying game school and a social life all with respective success
-read at least 30 different books
-learned who i am and what i want out of life
-destroyed the vast majority of my defence mechanisms, still killing the subtle ones
-developed a belief system in which i only need to be myself and everyone will love me
-made a commitment to go on this journey, havent looked back since
-i have become and am still becoming who i am meant to be
-i have become my own best friend and my most favorite person on earth
-finally looking back on it all, i am happy

^these small victories define who i am, where i am going, and how i will get there. there is no way i would be here
without rsd and many of you guys so id like to say thankyou to everyone that has been pushing me to be better.

tomorrow im going out with angry dave and dzdevil who is visiting us from chicago:)
LETS GET IT IN!

 yooo bitchess
happy bday marz!
went out today, went APEESHIT. k so im not even gonna try to remember every single interaction because i counted
20 approaches , so ill instead listed my successes and short comings
success:
opened 20 girls in a single day, NEW RECORD!
went direct every single time, no chode approaches
hit "state"
went for the number in half of all interactions
did the hand spin whatever shit
openly showed intent in some (but not all) interactions
almost no AA :)
learned how to KEEP the girl there just by holding her hand :)

Short commings:
fuck shit tests, just fuck them all:(
acted incongruent in some interactions
did not plough enough because im being a puss bag 
had an emotional state crash

kinda on the fence: i learned what it means to open with freedom of outcome, but i forgot about intent by this point sooo it sucked :)

im sure i could spend a half hour talking about how i could surpass these sticking points, but legit WHO GIVES A FUCK
i will pass them with time, for now im just enjoying the fun of the process
me, angry dave, dzdevil, and even redafeht for a while, went CRAZY cant wait for friday with my bf mstar <3 LOL

go hard, peace out 

@shoryuken: yes i do, and thanks bro!
@fader: BTW while you and dz were cleaning up the seated set i almost #closed a married chick, when she told me she was married i freaked out and ran away LOL
@untld: refer to shoryuken's question :)
@dzdevil: ye bro it was fun as hell beasting with you, come up at anytime, and show the boys in chicago how we do it!

FR: hit up downtown around 4 to meet with mstar and angry dave. figured i was there early so i may as well hit up some solo approaches as i havent been
solo since tuesday. see these two girls walking out of their house, one cute one not so much. walk up and open, theyre going for a walk, i cling arms with them
and we start walking my way. we chatted for a bit ugly girl wasnt getting enough attention so she pulled away, as did pretty friend :( ugly girls should go jump
off a bridge :)

next two sets weren't memorable, they both hooked but it didnt go anywhere, so i met up with dave. we didnt open until we met up with mstar, havent seen
my bf in forever so i was happy to see him again. <3 so we hit up ryerson, me and mstar opened a few sets, we couldve insta dated this two set but we didnt
for whatever reason. me and him are so fucking stupid with each other that we cross swords a lot, i think my game improves just by having him there. thats our 
main problem when winging each other, so we decided we will try to DIVIDE AND CONQUER right off the bat next time. 

opened up a few more, met this cute little redhead, chop her and point out the fact that mstar and dave are just walking away from me LOL #closeeeeeee
then i get lazy. it happens a lot when i do well in game, its like oh i got ONE number so im awesome i dont need to get better, gay shit no worries though
itll take some practice but ill get over it. open a few more. i get CBed by a homeless guy on my last set, i sucked right after he left, so i let the girl go when she liked me
ive noticed that even when girls reject me they all like me, i feel like if i approach them again at a later date, especially if they still remember me, they would be the nicest
girls in the world to me, I AM ENOUGH. 

dave was struggling to do a direct approach for the first time, so i decided before i left he should do it, so i call out the thirty second game. i count down to zero
but i see no girls in front of him so i give him an extra ten seconds, i start screaming FIVE FOUR THREE TWO ONE ZERO, AND BOOM hes in with this hot blonde8
when i walked by all i heard was: THANKYOUUUUUU THATS SO SWEEEET <3, ye she totally wouldve sucked his dick right then and there. 

anyways good day, opened like 10 girls, got a # and almost #closed like 3 others but failed shit tests at the last minute :(, and got dave to open direct
AWESOME

peace out boys