THE FORUMS
Sunday was cool.
Out w BuddhaGames and Spike and Sam in the Marina.
I was trying to focus on figuring out the "limiting belief" behind any lack of proper action tonight.
Actually kept finding that I overvalued "hotter chicks" (no surprise here) and actually had some "put em on the pedastal" shit. Like stuff that I KNOW I'll do on a less hawt looking girl I'll hesitate and go in weaker with on a better looking girl. Got the reference point that I could "open hard" (though still not quite the legitimate followthrough right now) on hotter girls.
Glad to have another night of not just choding again.
Out w BuddhaGames and Spike and Sam in the Marina.
I was trying to focus on figuring out the "limiting belief" behind any lack of proper action tonight.
Actually kept finding that I overvalued "hotter chicks" (no surprise here) and actually had some "put em on the pedastal" shit. Like stuff that I KNOW I'll do on a less hawt looking girl I'll hesitate and go in weaker with on a better looking girl. Got the reference point that I could "open hard" (though still not quite the legitimate followthrough right now) on hotter girls.
Glad to have another night of not just choding again.
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RSD Misinterpreted: A Series of Posts on Popular RSD Ideas and How I Used to Misunderstand Them
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Yooo
WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE HOTTIE?
WHAT HAPPENED WITH THE HOTTIE?
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90 Days Challenge (Currently in the Final Third): "It's Just Something You Have To Do If You Want To Be Great"
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha
That was actually a pretty epic 4000th post. I like seeing the deeper kind of thoughts that guys who've been doing this for a long time have. It's more interesting than a "5 steps to becoming a pimp" post or whatever.
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2013 Journal ~ www.rsdnation.com/node/208885
So weird.
The "hottie" mentioned by Buddhagames was indeed a fucking hottie.
I was talking to (or at) Spike and I see this super hot girl making some cute face at me from like 10 feet away. I wait a sec, then walk up.
"That was adorable."
She has an extremely hard handshake. I comment on this. She tells me some gibberish about how she used to sell cars or something, like right out of high school. I ask something dumb like oh what kind of cars as she keeps talking. I'm not paying attention to anything except for a funny feeling that I can't really place.
Within a few minutes I've started doing "the kino escalation stack" since whatever, she's seeming kind of drunk, whatevs. Then she says something like "Y'know, I just broke up with my boyfriend like a week ago" or something. I ask if she's planning on dumping a lot of emotional baggage on me. (In the past I would usually just say something like "cool" to be like "non-judgemental" or something.)
We split up for like a minute. And then I grab her, and its like it was the beginning of the approach all over again, as she says "Hmm...I knoooow you from somewhere."
A lot of people reading this might think "What's the big deal? Its just a drunk chick..."
Well, here's the "big deal" -- I've been reading a bit about "codependence" and how it seems like I end up in a lot of situations like that. A big thing that strikes me as odd when I read that stuff is how codependence INITIALLY was "discovered" in psychology because of people who are either children of or married to alcoholics. I found it weird when reading a lot of that shit how "well my parents never were alcoholics or anything so I wonder if this is really applicable to me."
Then when I realized how fucking plastered this girl was, how many "super drunk chicks" have kind of like "sucked me in, emotionally." For some reason, it was always the most fucked up and girls who drink a fuckton who, once I've banged em, I got that sucked in emotionally shit going on. Not even really neediness. More like I think I'm gonna be her fucking hero. Even one GF who wasn't like a drunk as fuck slut, there still was that "white knight gonna save me from my shitty life" mentality.
And its funny cuz, "I get it" -- its like the "drama" of the situatoin makes it more interesting than like "Oh yeah she went to Stanford, has a law degree, makes 30k a month and has a nice condo here in SF" -- in fact "that stuff" -- the superficial success stuff -- I actually DEEP DOWN HATE...because its what my parents would think of as THE REAL SHIT and well...I wanted to not be like them. But instead of "be like person X" or "don't be like person Y" its time for me to really know what I want to be like, period. Not in relation to anyone or anything.
Anyway. The point is not whether or not its cool to bang drunk sluts. Drunk sluts are great. I'm just glad to see this little "issue" of how it really is the drunk sluts that call out to me to come and save them.
That's why this book "Boundaries" that Konstantine selected for the RSD book club is gonna be the shit. Read chapter one last night and am really diggin it...even though it has Christian references all over :-)
The "hottie" mentioned by Buddhagames was indeed a fucking hottie.
I was talking to (or at) Spike and I see this super hot girl making some cute face at me from like 10 feet away. I wait a sec, then walk up.
"That was adorable."
She has an extremely hard handshake. I comment on this. She tells me some gibberish about how she used to sell cars or something, like right out of high school. I ask something dumb like oh what kind of cars as she keeps talking. I'm not paying attention to anything except for a funny feeling that I can't really place.
Within a few minutes I've started doing "the kino escalation stack" since whatever, she's seeming kind of drunk, whatevs. Then she says something like "Y'know, I just broke up with my boyfriend like a week ago" or something. I ask if she's planning on dumping a lot of emotional baggage on me. (In the past I would usually just say something like "cool" to be like "non-judgemental" or something.)
We split up for like a minute. And then I grab her, and its like it was the beginning of the approach all over again, as she says "Hmm...I knoooow you from somewhere."
A lot of people reading this might think "What's the big deal? Its just a drunk chick..."
Well, here's the "big deal" -- I've been reading a bit about "codependence" and how it seems like I end up in a lot of situations like that. A big thing that strikes me as odd when I read that stuff is how codependence INITIALLY was "discovered" in psychology because of people who are either children of or married to alcoholics. I found it weird when reading a lot of that shit how "well my parents never were alcoholics or anything so I wonder if this is really applicable to me."
Then when I realized how fucking plastered this girl was, how many "super drunk chicks" have kind of like "sucked me in, emotionally." For some reason, it was always the most fucked up and girls who drink a fuckton who, once I've banged em, I got that sucked in emotionally shit going on. Not even really neediness. More like I think I'm gonna be her fucking hero. Even one GF who wasn't like a drunk as fuck slut, there still was that "white knight gonna save me from my shitty life" mentality.
And its funny cuz, "I get it" -- its like the "drama" of the situatoin makes it more interesting than like "Oh yeah she went to Stanford, has a law degree, makes 30k a month and has a nice condo here in SF" -- in fact "that stuff" -- the superficial success stuff -- I actually DEEP DOWN HATE...because its what my parents would think of as THE REAL SHIT and well...I wanted to not be like them. But instead of "be like person X" or "don't be like person Y" its time for me to really know what I want to be like, period. Not in relation to anyone or anything.
Anyway. The point is not whether or not its cool to bang drunk sluts. Drunk sluts are great. I'm just glad to see this little "issue" of how it really is the drunk sluts that call out to me to come and save them.
That's why this book "Boundaries" that Konstantine selected for the RSD book club is gonna be the shit. Read chapter one last night and am really diggin it...even though it has Christian references all over :-)
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RSD Misinterpreted: A Series of Posts on Popular RSD Ideas and How I Used to Misunderstand Them
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Did you bang her dude?
Stop being a fag and telllll usssss!
She was a stunner, in my books, folks
Like I was doin my thing with a pretty fuckin hot little asian girl and then when I was done and saw U5 with this chick I STILLLL was jealous as fuck.
Stop being a fag and telllll usssss!
She was a stunner, in my books, folks
Like I was doin my thing with a pretty fuckin hot little asian girl and then when I was done and saw U5 with this chick I STILLLL was jealous as fuck.
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90 Days Challenge (Currently in the Final Third): "It's Just Something You Have To Do If You Want To Be Great"
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha
Hah. Dude this girl was DRUNK AS FUCK.
As I said after she turned around for 1 minute she CLEARLY DIDNT REMEMBER WHO I WAS. I'm not interested in interpreting that as a "shit test." Really was a weird fucking dynamic there.
This kinda chick is exactly my kryptonite. I'm like a big fucking bear, and she's like a beehive full of honey. Except I know I'd keep eating that honey for a month or two KNOWING there was a grenade ready to explode in my face somewhere in that honeypot. Its like fucking cocaine man.
Short answer, did not hit it.
As I said after she turned around for 1 minute she CLEARLY DIDNT REMEMBER WHO I WAS. I'm not interested in interpreting that as a "shit test." Really was a weird fucking dynamic there.
This kinda chick is exactly my kryptonite. I'm like a big fucking bear, and she's like a beehive full of honey. Except I know I'd keep eating that honey for a month or two KNOWING there was a grenade ready to explode in my face somewhere in that honeypot. Its like fucking cocaine man.
Short answer, did not hit it.
Did you bang her dude?
Stop being a fag and telllll usssss!
She was a stunner, in my books, folks
Like I was doin my thing with a pretty fuckin hot little asian girl and then when I was done and saw U5 with this chick I STILLLL was jealous as fuck.
Stop being a fag and telllll usssss!
She was a stunner, in my books, folks
Like I was doin my thing with a pretty fuckin hot little asian girl and then when I was done and saw U5 with this chick I STILLLL was jealous as fuck.
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RSD Misinterpreted: A Series of Posts on Popular RSD Ideas and How I Used to Misunderstand Them
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Oh...
Damn- i had no clue she was that drunk. I was blinded by her hotness.
Damn- i had no clue she was that drunk. I was blinded by her hotness.
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90 Days Challenge (Currently in the Final Third): "It's Just Something You Have To Do If You Want To Be Great"
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha
Oh shit- this really IS good timing dude...
You're just coming out of super advanced, "I got this handled no need to go super hard anymore" mode
And I'm in, "I'm a beginner and want to be amazing at this so I'm going super rediculous hard" mode
This is gonna be a huge winwin. Good times to come.
BTW- that song is epic... one of my faves, for sure.
It sounds like Alex's game and some of what Marko shares. The ideology that less is more and too much is try hard or over kill. That is awesome. I'll remember this. You're just coming out of super advanced, "I got this handled no need to go super hard anymore" mode
And I'm in, "I'm a beginner and want to be amazing at this so I'm going super rediculous hard" mode
This is gonna be a huge winwin. Good times to come.
BTW- that song is epic... one of my faves, for sure.
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Whenever you meet a beautiful woman, just remember somewhere there's a man who's sick of shagging her.
Meh.
Decided my "2 week habit" is "smile like a phaggot." Funny cuz as I'm walking to the ghey bar some obv gay dude makes some comment "Not baaaad" then I get in and the first set opens good (open hard and immediately) then I'm like...smiling like a phaggot, and...uh...smiling like a phaggot, then uh...oh we're lesbians.
I kinda fagged around a bit, get blown out by some phaggot (he doesn't want to discuss with me the topic of my comment).
I guess I find myself in "defensive mode" or something, don't do anything for a bit.
Talk to some girl near the exit. I guess there were bits n pieces of Alex style game in that set but I guess I also didn't stay on it long enough. I also felt that "she was there doing her thing" with me standing around her saying some shit. Its so weird cuz lately I am very aware of this shit and of how I used to feel that it was totally the opposite. Yet I have no idea of how to DO it.
Like I think my way of gaming really used to be "the old way" where I open open open til I'm getting good reactions, then I finally "hit state" and then next set is just "very normal game, then pull."
I guess it really is "drawing state from within" as Owen put it at end of Miami bootcamp. Great to not really know "how do I fucken do it" though. I guess it really is one of those "its just up to me" things. I guess its related to the fact that my whole way of gaming in the past was basically a crutch. I guess I also just don't even know if a large part of my game in the past was "just looks" even. Also weird is I keep feeling like "nervous" as I'm walking up to the girls now. I have no goddamn clue why.
I guess I should just focus on the action.
11 mins of meditation today.
Decided my "2 week habit" is "smile like a phaggot." Funny cuz as I'm walking to the ghey bar some obv gay dude makes some comment "Not baaaad" then I get in and the first set opens good (open hard and immediately) then I'm like...smiling like a phaggot, and...uh...smiling like a phaggot, then uh...oh we're lesbians.
I kinda fagged around a bit, get blown out by some phaggot (he doesn't want to discuss with me the topic of my comment).
I guess I find myself in "defensive mode" or something, don't do anything for a bit.
Talk to some girl near the exit. I guess there were bits n pieces of Alex style game in that set but I guess I also didn't stay on it long enough. I also felt that "she was there doing her thing" with me standing around her saying some shit. Its so weird cuz lately I am very aware of this shit and of how I used to feel that it was totally the opposite. Yet I have no idea of how to DO it.
Like I think my way of gaming really used to be "the old way" where I open open open til I'm getting good reactions, then I finally "hit state" and then next set is just "very normal game, then pull."
I guess it really is "drawing state from within" as Owen put it at end of Miami bootcamp. Great to not really know "how do I fucken do it" though. I guess it really is one of those "its just up to me" things. I guess its related to the fact that my whole way of gaming in the past was basically a crutch. I guess I also just don't even know if a large part of my game in the past was "just looks" even. Also weird is I keep feeling like "nervous" as I'm walking up to the girls now. I have no goddamn clue why.
I guess I should just focus on the action.
11 mins of meditation today.
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RSD Misinterpreted: A Series of Posts on Popular RSD Ideas and How I Used to Misunderstand Them
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Coming to you every Sunday...
►Part I -- What Tyler means by "Drop the Self-Image Paradigm"
►Part II -- [What Do You Want to Hear About On a Coming Sunday?]
Buddhagames
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I'm posting this as I'm about to come up to sf...
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/233192/forum
The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars
A man may fall down many times, but he won't be a f ailure until he says someone pushed him"
Buddha