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Hey dude, thanks alot for the kind words! Feels good to know that there's people besides me who appreciate this journal. I'd rather not say where I'm from since I would lose my anonymity. But norway, sweden, denmark or finland.
Went out this night. Did 3 approaches. Wins: was solo at the club for like 50 mins, never done it before. Some dude approached ME so I didn't have to approach, haha. I went out with the attitude "if I even do one approach, this night is a success". Was going to meet up with a friend at the club who I haven't seen in a while. Didn't expect to get many approaches done. Working on adopting "I'm just socializing to have fun, it's effortless and just SEEM to happen." Not such much of a IDENTIFY TARGET - MOVE BODY TO TARGET - INITIATE CONVERSATION - PERFORM ESCALATION SEGMENT, but more of a kind of "WOOO"-thing where I just go in and out of different groups, regardless of who's in it.
My first set is actually pretty smooth nowdays. I don't run out of things to say, and I'm even a bit irreverent/cocky. I'm slowly starting to stop filtering myself. Like I pause myself in the middle of a sentence because I'm thinking that the girl might not think it's funny, but then I make myself say it. Why? Because saying it is a part of my personality and it amuses me. If it drives the girl away, then GOOD. She's not a good match for me, and she can find someone better suited for her aswell. But the number one thing that's holding me back still is myself. I'm not confident enough to "let go". I still fight my natural instincts. I see some hot girl swirling by, my body starts to move but something inside me hits the big, red STOP-button most part of the time. Not expecting this to be easy, but I will overcome this with time and action.
Just realized this: I put in the fucking time. Whatever it is earlier that I have decided to learn, I have learned it. Guitar? Got good (not that much "talent") because I practiced A FUCKTON. Like, really good. MMA? I fucking wanted to cry the first weeks. It was so hard (I missed the first month, so I jumped in at a much higher level), my whole body was aching, I took punches repeatedly in face and the coach continuously came by to point out all the mistakes I did. Yet I soldiered on, and look at me now. Much more ripped, only 8 months in and I already prove a huge challenge to more experienced people there (like +4 years). Why? Because I put in the time. If I keep going out 3 times a week and socialize, I WILL get good at this. And I'm going to enjoy it, every last bit of rejection and success.
Oh yeah, I've applied for a bunch of summerjobs this week also. Feels fucking good to be on that ball. Also applied to the military, I want to do service once in a while. Liked the year I spent there before, and I even see myself eventually doing a mission. Anyway, going out friday next time, it will be good :)
Went out this night. Did 3 approaches. Wins: was solo at the club for like 50 mins, never done it before. Some dude approached ME so I didn't have to approach, haha. I went out with the attitude "if I even do one approach, this night is a success". Was going to meet up with a friend at the club who I haven't seen in a while. Didn't expect to get many approaches done. Working on adopting "I'm just socializing to have fun, it's effortless and just SEEM to happen." Not such much of a IDENTIFY TARGET - MOVE BODY TO TARGET - INITIATE CONVERSATION - PERFORM ESCALATION SEGMENT, but more of a kind of "WOOO"-thing where I just go in and out of different groups, regardless of who's in it.
My first set is actually pretty smooth nowdays. I don't run out of things to say, and I'm even a bit irreverent/cocky. I'm slowly starting to stop filtering myself. Like I pause myself in the middle of a sentence because I'm thinking that the girl might not think it's funny, but then I make myself say it. Why? Because saying it is a part of my personality and it amuses me. If it drives the girl away, then GOOD. She's not a good match for me, and she can find someone better suited for her aswell. But the number one thing that's holding me back still is myself. I'm not confident enough to "let go". I still fight my natural instincts. I see some hot girl swirling by, my body starts to move but something inside me hits the big, red STOP-button most part of the time. Not expecting this to be easy, but I will overcome this with time and action.
Just realized this: I put in the fucking time. Whatever it is earlier that I have decided to learn, I have learned it. Guitar? Got good (not that much "talent") because I practiced A FUCKTON. Like, really good. MMA? I fucking wanted to cry the first weeks. It was so hard (I missed the first month, so I jumped in at a much higher level), my whole body was aching, I took punches repeatedly in face and the coach continuously came by to point out all the mistakes I did. Yet I soldiered on, and look at me now. Much more ripped, only 8 months in and I already prove a huge challenge to more experienced people there (like +4 years). Why? Because I put in the time. If I keep going out 3 times a week and socialize, I WILL get good at this. And I'm going to enjoy it, every last bit of rejection and success.
Oh yeah, I've applied for a bunch of summerjobs this week also. Feels fucking good to be on that ball. Also applied to the military, I want to do service once in a while. Liked the year I spent there before, and I even see myself eventually doing a mission. Anyway, going out friday next time, it will be good :)
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WOOOOO!! New record - this would not have happened 1 month ago (obviously since it hasn't). Made out with 3 different girls. And I even "knew" how to push the interaction to a make-out. Pulled a girl from the club to the metro!! She said she had to go home, but told me to hit her up another night to have some fun. Crazy part about this whole night? I wasn't in state at all, yet I made out with the more girls than ever before(including the hottest girl yet. Boyah).
First girl: extremely cute, chubby friend. My inner was in pieces. She kept on making that hot girl facial expression "wtf, you talking 'bout?". It sure felt, but I stayed in set. I fucking stayed there and she suddenly kissed me. Made-out some, took turns leading each other around the club. She said that she had watched a scary movie earlier in the week, that she couldn't sleep alone and asked if she could sleep at my place. Me, playing a bit hard to get, said "yeah, I don't know, we'll see how we get along". She didn't take it so well, hehe. Next time just say "yeah, ok." as she's taking a risk and investing in me. Hottest girl I've made out with yet :)
Got separated from her a couple of times. I spot her later on in the smoking area, she's talking to like 5 dudes. I'm scared like fuck, not in state, but decide to go in regardless. I pick her up and carry her away. She's screaming, partly "oh my god you're crazy", partly "put me the fuck down". It wasn't really congruent to how I felt, but I had to try it. She ran back to the guys and told me to follow. I go in, shake their hands and they disappear in the night. Sweet.
But fate slapped me in the face. She lost her phone in the club (she number closed me) and had to stay until closing time. But I found new girls, hehe. One set, opened to girls in the line to the bathroom. Leaned back against the bar. They immediately come to me. One girl starts grinding me, kissing my neck. I lead her to the dancefloor - make out. Had my hands on her hips, she moved them to her ass. I really had to pee though, said to her "I got a boner and need to pee. Cya!" and bounced.
Saw her again later, made out in the smoking area. Just chilled there, my hand in her back pocket. She had to leave. As I'm walking inside again it sounds like a girl says "you want to dance?", but I'm not sure. I look back and say "you're bumping into me all the time. COME HERE" and pull her by her hand onto the dancefloor. We're dancing next to each other, but there's not that much sexual tension. I realize here what I need to do: eye-contact and body rocking. I do it, get the sexual tension up, move in closer as I'm talking to her and them BAM - make out. Awesome :)
I ended up pulling this girl to the metro. As I'm leaving with her in tow, I see the first girl I made out with. She looks sad and waves slowly to me :D I told my newest girl I was 20, she did not believe me. She kept on guessing like 25-26. I asked her why, she said men/boys in my age don't act the way I do. Best compliment I've ever gotten. LEADING and EYE CONTACT for the win! She had to go off on the way, but she's asked to sleep over at my place 2 times last week. We'll see what happens, she's also cute.
Off to sleep, just edited this. Peace RSDN!
First girl: extremely cute, chubby friend. My inner was in pieces. She kept on making that hot girl facial expression "wtf, you talking 'bout?". It sure felt, but I stayed in set. I fucking stayed there and she suddenly kissed me. Made-out some, took turns leading each other around the club. She said that she had watched a scary movie earlier in the week, that she couldn't sleep alone and asked if she could sleep at my place. Me, playing a bit hard to get, said "yeah, I don't know, we'll see how we get along". She didn't take it so well, hehe. Next time just say "yeah, ok." as she's taking a risk and investing in me. Hottest girl I've made out with yet :)
Got separated from her a couple of times. I spot her later on in the smoking area, she's talking to like 5 dudes. I'm scared like fuck, not in state, but decide to go in regardless. I pick her up and carry her away. She's screaming, partly "oh my god you're crazy", partly "put me the fuck down". It wasn't really congruent to how I felt, but I had to try it. She ran back to the guys and told me to follow. I go in, shake their hands and they disappear in the night. Sweet.
But fate slapped me in the face. She lost her phone in the club (she number closed me) and had to stay until closing time. But I found new girls, hehe. One set, opened to girls in the line to the bathroom. Leaned back against the bar. They immediately come to me. One girl starts grinding me, kissing my neck. I lead her to the dancefloor - make out. Had my hands on her hips, she moved them to her ass. I really had to pee though, said to her "I got a boner and need to pee. Cya!" and bounced.
Saw her again later, made out in the smoking area. Just chilled there, my hand in her back pocket. She had to leave. As I'm walking inside again it sounds like a girl says "you want to dance?", but I'm not sure. I look back and say "you're bumping into me all the time. COME HERE" and pull her by her hand onto the dancefloor. We're dancing next to each other, but there's not that much sexual tension. I realize here what I need to do: eye-contact and body rocking. I do it, get the sexual tension up, move in closer as I'm talking to her and them BAM - make out. Awesome :)
I ended up pulling this girl to the metro. As I'm leaving with her in tow, I see the first girl I made out with. She looks sad and waves slowly to me :D I told my newest girl I was 20, she did not believe me. She kept on guessing like 25-26. I asked her why, she said men/boys in my age don't act the way I do. Best compliment I've ever gotten. LEADING and EYE CONTACT for the win! She had to go off on the way, but she's asked to sleep over at my place 2 times last week. We'll see what happens, she's also cute.
Off to sleep, just edited this. Peace RSDN!
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Huurrgh. Made it out for a little while even though I wasn't feeling it at all. VICTORY!! Had a couple of blow-outs, ouch. Second set of the night - half of the crowd there saw it go down. Out at the smoking patio see a 6-set. I don't think I've ever done these before. Opened with EY, keep me company, my friends aren't here yet. They stare at me silently. 4 of them walk away, one of them shakes my hand, fake a smile and leave quickly. What the fuck? :D some dudes are laughing at me. I'm a little bit butthurt thinking to myself "yeah whatever, hotter girls than you have liked me, so what?!?". The ego speaking for sure :)
This is indeed a sticking point for me. I open fast 2-3 sets in the beginning of the night, and then I stall like a motherfucker. Pissing away my momentum and create a huge inner resistence. How to deal with this? Just go :) many times this night that I was thinking about approaching a specific group, but then someone beat me to it. Go fast, go without hesitating.
Sucked it up and approached the last girl of the night. KABOOOOOM. I was disintegrated. Got my coat and walked away feeling like the worlds biggest loser. I think it was good for me to get blown out, I haven't tasted the bitterness in a while. Blaaargh. It hurts though. But tomorrow is another day and another night. Lez go at it again. Peace
This is indeed a sticking point for me. I open fast 2-3 sets in the beginning of the night, and then I stall like a motherfucker. Pissing away my momentum and create a huge inner resistence. How to deal with this? Just go :) many times this night that I was thinking about approaching a specific group, but then someone beat me to it. Go fast, go without hesitating.
Sucked it up and approached the last girl of the night. KABOOOOOM. I was disintegrated. Got my coat and walked away feeling like the worlds biggest loser. I think it was good for me to get blown out, I haven't tasted the bitterness in a while. Blaaargh. It hurts though. But tomorrow is another day and another night. Lez go at it again. Peace
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Yea, blow out night! They can be funny and discouraging. I'm starting to be able to consciously go through the momentum building process and stick to it. It seems like I've been working on that ever since Oct 2011! I love how it only builds as your night goes on. Don't stall man, it's all a big joke, hit hit hit.
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This night, my gaawd. I felt uneasy when I got into the club, and as the night wore on it turned into a still sadness inside :D bad, bad timing. Ran into this cut little model thing I've met before. Her eyes friggin' lit up when she saw me. Gave her a great big hug, she's leaning into me, giving me heavy eyecontact and so forth. I, on the other hand, felt as comfortable as that dude from alien who got his chest ripped open. Needless to say the insane attraction faded, and she ran off into the night. :( ;)
Opened good in the beginning. Went for hot girls despite me knowing I wouldn't "pull it off" (what's there really to pull off? I'm just socializing, trying to get into a good party mood). I didn't feel it, neither did they, hehe.
Was one set though that seemed to like me for me, cool. More reference experiences under the belt - still haven't been killed for talking to girls I don't know.
Nothings was really hooking this night, blow-out, weirdness and other shit. Fucked up my elbows a couple of weeks ago so I can't do MMA + I'm sick (been ill the whole weekend, went out regardless - WIN) and thanks to these two things I've been KILLING it in school this week! Perhaps these things have something to do with how I'm not excelling in field ;) Anyway, I'm not too worried about the cold approach stuff. Yes, I'm at a low right now. But what does that mean? I'll tell ya, it means it can only go up from here! Going out thur, fri and sat next week. Should be fun. Taking my mid term exams next week so I'll feel free as fuck when they're over. I'm off to sleep now, peace
This night, my gaawd. I felt uneasy when I got into the club, and as the night wore on it turned into a still sadness inside :D bad, bad timing. Ran into this cut little model thing I've met before. Her eyes friggin' lit up when she saw me. Gave her a great big hug, she's leaning into me, giving me heavy eyecontact and so forth. I, on the other hand, felt as comfortable as that dude from alien who got his chest ripped open. Needless to say the insane attraction faded, and she ran off into the night. :( ;)
Opened good in the beginning. Went for hot girls despite me knowing I wouldn't "pull it off" (what's there really to pull off? I'm just socializing, trying to get into a good party mood). I didn't feel it, neither did they, hehe.
Was one set though that seemed to like me for me, cool. More reference experiences under the belt - still haven't been killed for talking to girls I don't know.
Nothings was really hooking this night, blow-out, weirdness and other shit. Fucked up my elbows a couple of weeks ago so I can't do MMA + I'm sick (been ill the whole weekend, went out regardless - WIN) and thanks to these two things I've been KILLING it in school this week! Perhaps these things have something to do with how I'm not excelling in field ;) Anyway, I'm not too worried about the cold approach stuff. Yes, I'm at a low right now. But what does that mean? I'll tell ya, it means it can only go up from here! Going out thur, fri and sat next week. Should be fun. Taking my mid term exams next week so I'll feel free as fuck when they're over. I'm off to sleep now, peace
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Thursday was nice, had dinner with my class after the exams. Talked to a lot of people there, just got my social juices flowing. Enjoyed myself.
This friday was both incredibly bad and (perhaps) extremely valuable. I did one approach tonight. One. That's fucking insane :D I did however my a fucking sick natural, and we had FUN together. He told me about his style - patience, free of outcome and abundance. Biggest flaw in my opinion was that he doesn't really approach. He did however have a killer intuition about which girls are checking us out. The gist of what he saying was that if we just chill out, girls will approach US.
At one point he said this one girl is checking him out. That he's got her, in a few minutes she will come talk to me or ask for a cigarette. And what do you know, she came by 5 min later asking for a lighter :D I also got approached by a girl saying I look agressive and mad. Nice opener. Hehe, at one point before in the night I had dragged him away from some drunk chick (who approached us) to the bathroom. Now he did the same to me :D both times the girls went "noooo, don't leave!!!!".
At the end of the night I see this crazy cute trashy blonde. I get a smoke from the natural and he tells me to go approach the girls and ask for a lighter. WTF chodeshit to use this crutch, but I hadn't approached a single set until then. It goes meh, a friend comes in and grabs my attention. The natural then comes and ask how it went. I tell him. He says to me "keep talking to them! Talk to them. They're still standing next to you, fucking TALK TO THEM!!" They stood right next to us, probably heard every single word also :D I tell him how much I hate him and then turn around and keep talking to them. 2 of them move to go in and dance, one CUTE girl still hanging with me. She motions to me to come and dance, I decline. STOOPID. Anyway, we decide to leave the place.
As we're standing outside, the natural spot the same cutie and sends me off to get her number. I hesitate like a mtrfkr, but eventually go up. She's standing with some dude - irrelevent. I go up, nervous as fuck. I tap her, mumble I'm leaving - she doesn't understand - and studdering I ask for her number.
No.
I tell her my heart is broken (it fucken is, feeling some hardcore egopain). Go hang with the natural, saying how I got rejected, obviously hurting. He flashes a broad smile and says "you should have seen how she was looking after you."
This dude, we just stood outside and chilled the whole fucking night. Normally I would've felt like a chode. Not now. We were just kicking back, enjoying life. As it should be :) he bought me burgers and beer during the night. Extremely cool, we just clicked. Even though I've had a burning desire to meet hit chicks and bang them, I've always dreamt of meeting a cool badass dude I get along with well. Maybe I've done it, we'll see. And yeah, I've got a mancrush on him. :)
Going out tomorrow again, bigass party at school.
I love you RSDN
This friday was both incredibly bad and (perhaps) extremely valuable. I did one approach tonight. One. That's fucking insane :D I did however my a fucking sick natural, and we had FUN together. He told me about his style - patience, free of outcome and abundance. Biggest flaw in my opinion was that he doesn't really approach. He did however have a killer intuition about which girls are checking us out. The gist of what he saying was that if we just chill out, girls will approach US.
At one point he said this one girl is checking him out. That he's got her, in a few minutes she will come talk to me or ask for a cigarette. And what do you know, she came by 5 min later asking for a lighter :D I also got approached by a girl saying I look agressive and mad. Nice opener. Hehe, at one point before in the night I had dragged him away from some drunk chick (who approached us) to the bathroom. Now he did the same to me :D both times the girls went "noooo, don't leave!!!!".
At the end of the night I see this crazy cute trashy blonde. I get a smoke from the natural and he tells me to go approach the girls and ask for a lighter. WTF chodeshit to use this crutch, but I hadn't approached a single set until then. It goes meh, a friend comes in and grabs my attention. The natural then comes and ask how it went. I tell him. He says to me "keep talking to them! Talk to them. They're still standing next to you, fucking TALK TO THEM!!" They stood right next to us, probably heard every single word also :D I tell him how much I hate him and then turn around and keep talking to them. 2 of them move to go in and dance, one CUTE girl still hanging with me. She motions to me to come and dance, I decline. STOOPID. Anyway, we decide to leave the place.
As we're standing outside, the natural spot the same cutie and sends me off to get her number. I hesitate like a mtrfkr, but eventually go up. She's standing with some dude - irrelevent. I go up, nervous as fuck. I tap her, mumble I'm leaving - she doesn't understand - and studdering I ask for her number.
No.
I tell her my heart is broken (it fucken is, feeling some hardcore egopain). Go hang with the natural, saying how I got rejected, obviously hurting. He flashes a broad smile and says "you should have seen how she was looking after you."
This dude, we just stood outside and chilled the whole fucking night. Normally I would've felt like a chode. Not now. We were just kicking back, enjoying life. As it should be :) he bought me burgers and beer during the night. Extremely cool, we just clicked. Even though I've had a burning desire to meet hit chicks and bang them, I've always dreamt of meeting a cool badass dude I get along with well. Maybe I've done it, we'll see. And yeah, I've got a mancrush on him. :)
Going out tomorrow again, bigass party at school.
I love you RSDN
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This night, let's see.. Betrayal, betrayal and chaos. One of my best friends pulled a cherish of mine. I made out with a chick one of my other best friends have fucked.
I wrote a full report but my internet crapped out on me, fucking hate shit now. It was truly a masterpiece, captured my feelings perfectly. I suppose this also does.
I want to say I'm a fucking loser, but I know I'm not. I'm not really mad at my friend for pulling her, and I sure as hell don't care about her fucking some other guy. Just feels weird that he went behind my back like that. Okay, It hurts a little bit I must say, I did not expect that from him. Life I guess.
I told my other friend straight up that I made out with "his" old girl. He wasn't that mad at me - I knew it. He's got another cherish right now so it doesn't really matter. That girl - she's a whole other level of flirty. She's been trying to make out with me for ages, and tonight I caved in, like 02.50 (10 min before the club closed). WEAK. Good kiss though, gave me an immediate boner. She ran away right after, I followed. Made out some more, and she ran away again. I left right then and there, I don't chase like that. It's fucking pathetic.
Fun fact: one of her best friends has got a crush on me. Bad, bad girl. And I'm a bad, bad man.
It feels as if I'm slipping. I want to get this area handled so bad, but I'm taking less and less action when I'm out. This night I only "approached" like 2 sets in the end of the night. Rejection and rejection. It ain't shit, but it's still 100% fail. Talked with one of my wings friday night that we should go out just the two of us. Think that's a great idea, can't go and chode with the other 10 guys then when I don't feel like approaching.
Right now I'm not sure what to make of anything. I know everything will feel better tomorrow, but right now it sucks kinda bad. Puked like a pig also when I got home. I'll bounce back really quickly, I'm sure of it. Life has good things in the bag for me, just not right now. I suppose I need this. Why? I don't fucking know, but this is what the universe is giving me so I guess I need it.
Take care RSDN, thank you for existing.
This night, let's see.. Betrayal, betrayal and chaos. One of my best friends pulled a cherish of mine. I made out with a chick one of my other best friends have fucked.
I wrote a full report but my internet crapped out on me, fucking hate shit now. It was truly a masterpiece, captured my feelings perfectly. I suppose this also does.
I want to say I'm a fucking loser, but I know I'm not. I'm not really mad at my friend for pulling her, and I sure as hell don't care about her fucking some other guy. Just feels weird that he went behind my back like that. Okay, It hurts a little bit I must say, I did not expect that from him. Life I guess.
I told my other friend straight up that I made out with "his" old girl. He wasn't that mad at me - I knew it. He's got another cherish right now so it doesn't really matter. That girl - she's a whole other level of flirty. She's been trying to make out with me for ages, and tonight I caved in, like 02.50 (10 min before the club closed). WEAK. Good kiss though, gave me an immediate boner. She ran away right after, I followed. Made out some more, and she ran away again. I left right then and there, I don't chase like that. It's fucking pathetic.
Fun fact: one of her best friends has got a crush on me. Bad, bad girl. And I'm a bad, bad man.
It feels as if I'm slipping. I want to get this area handled so bad, but I'm taking less and less action when I'm out. This night I only "approached" like 2 sets in the end of the night. Rejection and rejection. It ain't shit, but it's still 100% fail. Talked with one of my wings friday night that we should go out just the two of us. Think that's a great idea, can't go and chode with the other 10 guys then when I don't feel like approaching.
Right now I'm not sure what to make of anything. I know everything will feel better tomorrow, but right now it sucks kinda bad. Puked like a pig also when I got home. I'll bounce back really quickly, I'm sure of it. Life has good things in the bag for me, just not right now. I suppose I need this. Why? I don't fucking know, but this is what the universe is giving me so I guess I need it.
Take care RSDN, thank you for existing.
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Wins this night: I got out. Opened good in the beginning. Did one amazing one. One really cute girl walking to the bathroom. I take her by the arm and pull her in - smooth. She's about to pee her pants though, so she leaves after a little while. I'm trying to adopt that "party all the time"-attitude. Talking to dudes in the toilet, cracking jokes with them. Cultivating an aura of fun. I also opened my first girl outside the club also! Was BSing with my wing about the night while we're waitng for the metro - how our sets went and so forth. A girl is sitting next ot us and she hears all this. I don't really care. I turn to her and say "nice gloves, they look really cozy". She is so happy talking to me :D really felt as if I enhanced her night - sweet.
What else? Ahh yeah. Started choding again like 00.30 - 01.30. Didn't open anything :( that I was not allowed to leave before I opened 3 sets on the dancefloor. Best described as crash and burn :D destroooyyeeeed, haha. A bit mad at myself for not opening earlier on the dancefloor, so many opportunities. Two girls constantly dancing next to me and my wing. Like one of them is almost grinding me, yet I do NOOOOTHING. NOTHING. If I don't decide for myself to do something on the dancefloor, it doesn't matter how much interest a girl shows me - I'm not going to do do anything. It's like it's all or nothing for me on the dancefloor. Oh well.
Things to do next time: just approach. Just do it, and keep doing it. Aim for relaxation, not state. Try going DIRECTLY onto a new set after I finish one. Keep having fun! Wednesday next time