THE FORUMS

Yeah I really wanted to lie about that, and just say I fucked her, but thats not what happened.

Sticking points:
-Splitting the bill at dinner
-letting it breathe after resistance.

The second one was a tough one though, because she was really observant, like full spectator mode.

I feel like I was to caught up in just fucking her, and wasn't enjoying her company. I'm usually the dude that is great with romance, but idk what got into me, kinda like my only motivation was getting my "lay count" up.

3 approaches tonight.

I love Monday nights. Had this awesome conversation with a lavtian hottie. She had a black-and white striped shirt. I was like:
 
"what r u the HAMBURGLER or someshit???", of course with a grin and solid eye contact. 

Moved her around, and COULD have pulled her, but balked in the end.  All in all fun night with wing, ended the night with a Polish and cheese fries =)

So this challenge is done. I feel anxiety. I feel fear. I feel dispair, and yes a little jaded by life.

I was going through this challenge aimlessly for this month, yes I got a day2 and half sex out of it, that was sweet, but I feel like I could have done much more. I'm just not motivated to do it.

I have to find that motivation again, all I really have to think about is where I will be if I don't go through with pick up, and marketing, and eventually setting up my own business.

At this point I've come a LONG way, but in many ways my success was gained early on, when the pain of the break up and being alone was fresh. I have to dig down really deep again. I'm not going to stop this. in other words there is no other way I can live.

I have class in the morning and my stop is coming up, so I won't ramble much longer.

Tomorrow is a new day, I will come up with the challenge for next month, and there is no way I can't grind it out.

Recap of tuesday+wedsday:

maybe 3 approaches total, escalation was non existant, grind grind grind. I also want to start not only recording myself in-field, but giving a brief synopsis of every interaction afterward. This is no longer a game, which is how I took it for the last month. Yes I stuck through with the challenge which is great, but that is no longer enough.
Also I'm going to fade to black for a while from this board.

I am too caught up in looking cool, and bragging, and also confuse myself with all the material out there.
I've always believed that as long as you put yourself out there with a rough set of guidelines, most improvement in pick-up will come on its own.
Cheers fellas

I'm back bitches