THE FORUMS

Interestingly enough the lack of reports from the past few days wasn’t because I was not going out.

I hit it Saturday at hearts, and drank! Vodka tonics. I opened a few, some sets hooked, nothing stuck. Than I went over to Crocodile again and got crazy, I think, actually I forgot where I ended up, but it was fun. Then I had an off day Sunday, and hit it on Monday at debonair. This night was nuts, me and 2 community guys Andrew and faisal tore the place apart. We literally opened every set in the place. I opened like 5 which was strong, but got kinda bummed when some dude came up while I was talking to girls, and he was like "DUDE that’s like the 10th girl I’ve seen you creep on tonight, chill it out a bit…"

This infuriated me at first, I didn’t know what to say, but I think I said something like: “You like that shit, huh?”

Lame, I had a blast apart from that chode. I was dancing, jumping all around, it was literally like a playground.

BUT I drank again. This has to stop tonight. Apartment baby =).

So “M” is closer then ever now, she is the one that messages me more, and when I ask to see her, usually she is quick to oblige, even though its terrible for her schedule and mine. We are like rabbits at this point.

Which leads me to my academic meltdown this week. That binge drinking session I had Monday was the worst thing I could have done academically. It caused me to slip on studying for psychology the way I really needed to, now that I took the exam, I realize I will be lucky to eek out with a B on it, a C is more likely which is fucking horrid.

Its crazy though, because I needed a night like that, for my game, so it’s like one suffered due to the other. I am satisfied with my decision because it looks as though after these 2 months, I’m going to be locked up for a while with “M“.

Still a few things I want to accomplish though:

1. I want to fuck “C” until her eyes roll back. Like a hate fuck. She loves me but she has a boyfriend who is not even around, so she is resisting incredibly hard. I don’t really like this girl for a relationship though, a bit to immature, and not as alpha and outgoing as “M“. But yeah I want to stuff her. =)

2. I want to stuff this other girl in class named “y“. Omg this girl is gorgeous, and adorable. I think I’ll keep that on the downlow though because “C” is her firend.

3. Finally I still want to pull a 9 out of the club, and fuck her.

These 3 things are very doable by themselves, but getting ALL three will probably be a challenge, but that is why they are called goals right or wrong?

Haha, so yea by the time I get back from this roadtrip I will have about one month left to go on this whole pimping rampage, that has been an incredible ride.

Then I focus more on work, and school and health. Maybe take up guitar lessons, oh yeah and eat breath and sleep lsat. =).

That is all, consider this my post before the storm comes to an end. I think I am at the height of my game right now, and really enjoying all the fruits of my labor. It is almost startling to think back at how much I have changed.

P.S. sorry about the letter abbreviations, but I would hate one of these girls, ESPECIALLY my main chick to uncover this, it woul really fuck me over lol, so yeah rest assured they are women.


Best,

>=)

I sat alone in my four cornered room, listenin’ to gangsta music.

I think I’m going head first into another low point in this journey. After kicking it off amazingly with "M", and "C" loving me, it set the stage for a dissmal night last night.

Only approach at apartment (which was packed) was a high five to some girl. Makes me sick just thinking about it.

I had a great date with" C". We went for a burger, then sight seeing then to a damn cemetery in the dead of night.

Then I went on a rant, that she really liked. It was a speech about success, and the things it takes. Mainly vision, and a dedication to work your but off.

Then I tried to kiss her, and she wasn’t going. So we drove to my house and I showed her around. I sat her down on my couch, and straddled her. Than I went in for the make out again, and got a 2 second kiss.

Then she pulled away, and I realized I am driving myself crazy over this girl, and have high expectations. Not even for making her my girl, just wanting a sexual relationship when that is clearly out of the question.  I mean one can argue that I wasn’t behaving 100% entitled. My outcome independence was there, but the intent may have been off.

Still I don’t think that is so. I think women, for the most part respect when they have boyfriends. Myself on the other hand, is a different story. I also realized yesterday that I have commitment issues.

I always used to say “I don’t have commitment issues, I want a girl to be close”.

That is true on a micro level, but in the larger scale I am constantly looking for a better looking girl.
And truthfully would and HAVE cheated on my gf when the opportunity is presented.
Commitment issues.

I will be looking to change that. I always used the excuse that most women may in fact cheat on their bf, but the feedback I have gotten thus far is that most do not. There have been like 3 cases I have examined. The first two were" brig" and  "t". We talked, but than after they both got boyfriends it was done. Like the anvil dropped, and they shut there vag down. The last one was this chick "C", who EVEN with her boyfriend out of town and her missing that male in her life, refused to cheat, even in the heat of the moment. I think 3 for 3 is definitely enough feedback to draw a rational conclusion for girls that interest me. They all in fact have things in common, because I think I have a certain taste in women. Very feminine, but also strong, intelligent, and beautiful.

So yeah, if nothing else I could say that is a positive I have drawn from this. I have EXPERIENCED that women are faithful, even when they get “gamed” by a solid cool guy.

So as far as me. I am behaving like a little fucking bear cub in the club, when I need to act like a fucking beast, beasting hoes.

Tonight I have to hit it hard, I think I’m on day 25 now, fuck. 5 days to hit my goal of pulling a 9. As poor as my performance has been lately, I feel as though I can do it. Like I feel I have the mechanics, I have the drive, I have the calibration, I have the overall skill to do this.

I am my own enemy, because sometimes I am afraid to fail, I just have to jump into the fire. Fuck it.

haha, Yeah it just depends on your natural swag.

Chris, It seems like you have that natural "free-spirited" not serious swag.

mine is a tad bit more serious, so i wouldn't tell that to some girl, because I would probably mean it if I was liking her. Only in the moment though, until I see another 19 y/o with a short skirt blowing in the wind...

=)
lol