THE FORUMS
Thursday 05/24 (Day 94)
I was a bit mad at myself (over running some horrific text game - god i be missing some layups and will post examples of what NOT to do soon…jheeze it's fuckin painful just writing about it) - so i was a man on a mission today - approaching a bunch of chicks on the subway. Gave myself permission to do so. I should be like this EVERYDAY - the world is my playground. I also was much more expressive in how the girl made me feel as I just really finally opened myself up instead of trying to protect my image. I've been getting a lot of blowouts on the subway this week and that's because I've been thinking my approaches thru before instead of just GOING IN. Just retarded behaviors.
After work, soccer was rained out so I went to my neighborhood bar and hit up a couple of sets. I first winked at some girl who was looking at me and her demeanor immediately changed and she rolled up right next to me. Crazy stuff - props to Evil Stifler. I'm gonna start winking more often as it can do wonders before you even approach. Holy shit. End up fuckin up the interaction w/the chick because I'm being too self-amusing and unrelaxed at 7pm in a chill hipster bar. Roll up too a bunch of other chicks and they're giving me shit for telling them I'm a sexual predator. I apologize for being a dick which was a mistake and I find myself chasing the reactions of a bunch of 6s. I eventually get blown out and stand all alone in the bar looking into my phone looking dumbfounded reading text game threads from April 2012 on MW's forum feeling all stupid for being reaction-seeking. I should have just left but I still wanted to get some crazy good reaction.
What a yucky feeling.
My lesbian friend hits me up and we hit up the city together. She's doing some dancing shit at some random LES venue. There's not too many people there and after 20 mins of choding on my phone I dip off and walk a couple of blocks to Pianos.
Do 1 approach there. It was some bitchy looking chick sitting by herself looking sort of not the happiest.. I extend my hand out and she just gives me this sort of pouty face and shakes her head no. I just sort of start talking and we end up vibing, then eventually making out. Logistics sort of suck for her. I playfully call her a cunt for giving me shit and she's like will you take my number - god i'm really glad that you came up to me etc etc. We end up vibing for like an hour before she has to find her friends or what not. Overall, the interaction was good but I still felt some need to really WANT to pull her.
Meet up w/my lesbian friend around 3:30 and we chill out until like 5 talking about chicks and the game, and she's curious to why I enjoy going out solo so much and telling me about her bathroom pulls and lesbian threesomes….Really cool chick. I want to find a crazier, party-addicted, bi-sexual version of her.
Cold-approach pickup feels like some kind of sport. Writing FRs in detail is like watching footage of yourself. Great.
Lessons Learned
- I need to learn how to walk away when things are going good w/a chick and go for the HOTTEST chick in the venue. Fuck this is so tough to do. At the moment I just do not have the MENTAL STRENGTH to do such a thing as I'm attached to the outcome. But you know what - I'm going to focus and actually do this. If I lose all the chicks eventually something in my head will go "yo you have nothing to lose - YOU ARE THE PRIZE. You are pick of the litter". This will also make me less needy and attached to the outcome. If i can FOCUS and get over this then I can start to really do crazy things and probably pull like no other as I'll be the vagina-tease from hell. I mean chances are I'm going to fuck up shit via text at the moment so might as well lose the set in-person for long-term gain.
- Decisiveness. Tyler's vid really helped. I need to be more decisive and stop asking for permission in my life. God. I've been permission boy at my job for way too long. Just go full dickhead for a month and do what I feel. Chances are I will be right. I sort of "asked" the girl if she wanted to come home w/me instead of just being decisive as fuck and going "let's get out of here". I need to be congruent at every step of the interaction.
-Follow-through on everything and PUSH every interaction to the bitter end.... Just a general note but I have NOT been giving it my 100% in texting chicks. I probably don't follow-up or TEXT maybe 2 or 3 chicks a week. If they don't' respond to my first text - I don't even chase for a little bit. This needs to STOP and I really need to push the envelope. I don't like the lows but I have to really bask and fight through the negative emotions.
Wins:
-Slightly more icy. Failed interactions are starting to have less of an effect than me than usual. yes i was a little bit pissed about fuckin shit up on girls I had pretty good chemistry w/during the week over text. And as i write this I'm still slightly a bit butt-hurt over my mistakes but I'm getting the emotional "discomfort" that I secretly desire.
I was a bit mad at myself (over running some horrific text game - god i be missing some layups and will post examples of what NOT to do soon…jheeze it's fuckin painful just writing about it) - so i was a man on a mission today - approaching a bunch of chicks on the subway. Gave myself permission to do so. I should be like this EVERYDAY - the world is my playground. I also was much more expressive in how the girl made me feel as I just really finally opened myself up instead of trying to protect my image. I've been getting a lot of blowouts on the subway this week and that's because I've been thinking my approaches thru before instead of just GOING IN. Just retarded behaviors.
After work, soccer was rained out so I went to my neighborhood bar and hit up a couple of sets. I first winked at some girl who was looking at me and her demeanor immediately changed and she rolled up right next to me. Crazy stuff - props to Evil Stifler. I'm gonna start winking more often as it can do wonders before you even approach. Holy shit. End up fuckin up the interaction w/the chick because I'm being too self-amusing and unrelaxed at 7pm in a chill hipster bar. Roll up too a bunch of other chicks and they're giving me shit for telling them I'm a sexual predator. I apologize for being a dick which was a mistake and I find myself chasing the reactions of a bunch of 6s. I eventually get blown out and stand all alone in the bar looking into my phone looking dumbfounded reading text game threads from April 2012 on MW's forum feeling all stupid for being reaction-seeking. I should have just left but I still wanted to get some crazy good reaction.
What a yucky feeling.
My lesbian friend hits me up and we hit up the city together. She's doing some dancing shit at some random LES venue. There's not too many people there and after 20 mins of choding on my phone I dip off and walk a couple of blocks to Pianos.
Do 1 approach there. It was some bitchy looking chick sitting by herself looking sort of not the happiest.. I extend my hand out and she just gives me this sort of pouty face and shakes her head no. I just sort of start talking and we end up vibing, then eventually making out. Logistics sort of suck for her. I playfully call her a cunt for giving me shit and she's like will you take my number - god i'm really glad that you came up to me etc etc. We end up vibing for like an hour before she has to find her friends or what not. Overall, the interaction was good but I still felt some need to really WANT to pull her.
Meet up w/my lesbian friend around 3:30 and we chill out until like 5 talking about chicks and the game, and she's curious to why I enjoy going out solo so much and telling me about her bathroom pulls and lesbian threesomes….Really cool chick. I want to find a crazier, party-addicted, bi-sexual version of her.
Cold-approach pickup feels like some kind of sport. Writing FRs in detail is like watching footage of yourself. Great.
Lessons Learned
- I need to learn how to walk away when things are going good w/a chick and go for the HOTTEST chick in the venue. Fuck this is so tough to do. At the moment I just do not have the MENTAL STRENGTH to do such a thing as I'm attached to the outcome. But you know what - I'm going to focus and actually do this. If I lose all the chicks eventually something in my head will go "yo you have nothing to lose - YOU ARE THE PRIZE. You are pick of the litter". This will also make me less needy and attached to the outcome. If i can FOCUS and get over this then I can start to really do crazy things and probably pull like no other as I'll be the vagina-tease from hell. I mean chances are I'm going to fuck up shit via text at the moment so might as well lose the set in-person for long-term gain.
- Decisiveness. Tyler's vid really helped. I need to be more decisive and stop asking for permission in my life. God. I've been permission boy at my job for way too long. Just go full dickhead for a month and do what I feel. Chances are I will be right. I sort of "asked" the girl if she wanted to come home w/me instead of just being decisive as fuck and going "let's get out of here". I need to be congruent at every step of the interaction.
-Follow-through on everything and PUSH every interaction to the bitter end.... Just a general note but I have NOT been giving it my 100% in texting chicks. I probably don't follow-up or TEXT maybe 2 or 3 chicks a week. If they don't' respond to my first text - I don't even chase for a little bit. This needs to STOP and I really need to push the envelope. I don't like the lows but I have to really bask and fight through the negative emotions.
Wins:
-Slightly more icy. Failed interactions are starting to have less of an effect than me than usual. yes i was a little bit pissed about fuckin shit up on girls I had pretty good chemistry w/during the week over text. And as i write this I'm still slightly a bit butt-hurt over my mistakes but I'm getting the emotional "discomfort" that I secretly desire.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
Been crazy busy since last week. Literally been a sprint. I'm still tired as fuck and trying to recuperate. It's like I wake up and I already have something else to do. I'm going to write a post when I get a chance about what I've learnt over the past 100 days of going out and what I really need to focus on in my next post. Got to run and meet up w/this girl from last week....
Friday (05/25) (Day 95)
Go out in Brooklyn and i'm off. Shit's just not clicking.
head to another bar. shit starts to click a bit more. I walk up to this tipsy French girl. I start making out w/her. She's like i made out w/someone else. Ill sloppy seconds. Roll around, hit up a couple more girls a bunch of other PUAs are in the building - doesn't matter there is NO competition. Continue to hit it up but no real genuine boner-inducing long long interactions that leads to sex. No real promising leads.
Saturday 05/26 (Day 96)
Go out w/my college roommate and his friend in the Lower East Side. First place is douchey and I get blown out by everything. We then go to some black club and I'm pissed because I end up paying like $20 cover. Craziness. End up blowing myself out of of everything there as well.
On the way back home, I'm walking and these 2 girls start asking me where the first douchey place I went to is. I end up talking to them for like 15 mins, I grab one of the girls #. My college roommate and his friend ran into me randomly and I start doing a bunch of street sets. Cool fun stuff and I hit finally hit state at like 3:30 - I'm like damn unlucky I have soccer in the am so I just decide to call it a night.
A good night for me is when I hit state and push shit interactions to the hilt. That's my only barometer of success.
Sunday 05/27 (Day 97)
Lil bro pays me a visit on his 21st bday. We hit up some festival kind of thing. I'm going to start going to it more often. Probably invite someone else to hit it up w/me. Very good - tons of HOT girls. I'm a bit too excited here. I can't get a # when I'm this excited. We cut an hour long line w/ a $20 bill. Time is money. It's a neighborhoody thing so I already have seen or knew like half the people there. When you go out as much as I do in the same city you start to see the same people everywhere. It's like some weird extended extended social circle dynamic. That being said I met some really cool chicks but nothing came to suffice. Learned a crucial lesson here - just to RELAX. Next time I go i'm going to jerk off and meditate right before so I'm just straight mellow because it really was DISNEYLAND for me.
Lil bro was tired so he went home early, go back home - pick him up and we go at it again in the Lower East Side. Meet a couple of chicks, end up heading up to East Village and meeting a couple of broads here and there.
I was out for gaming for like 10 hours that day but only got 2 #s derp. Crazy kind of stamina though.
Monday 05/28 (Day 98)
went home to my parents house earlier in the day in Jersey for a BBQ. Watched that show GIRLS for like 2 hours.. Amazing show. I recommend everyone watch it - it's a pretty realistic on how pathetic girls can be and it's WRITTEN by a 26 year old girl. It's fuckin hilarious...
Another funny side note. Family was saying I lost weight which was weird because I'm already skinny as shit….My mom's friend hears this and walks up to me and is like "yea you lost weight but your dick better still be big". I was like YO WTF and start laughing for like 5 mins out of shock. It was a good perspective because I had the same reaction that a chick has when I go up to her and tell her right off the bat that I want to see her naked later. I'm still playing around w/ the authenticity thing but it was cool to be on the other side of the coin. I also found it interesting that I walked away in discomfort. I'm sure if she came up to me and was like yo for real i want to see if your dick was still big i would have been put in an interesting dilemma. Gonna re-open chicks that I open super hard core but incorporate some PUSH back on the re-open. Learning game principles everywhere I go.
Anyways, I only really intended to go out for tops 20 mins as my room/apt were in disarray from not being cleaned and I had to work on some text game exercises for MW coaching. I meet these 2 chicks. One of them is leaving Georgia tomorrow one of them lives in the neighborhood and took off work so she could have fun. God this had pull written all over. Thing is I really could not afford to stay out. I talked to MW about this and he was like "fuck my HW you should have fucked those 2". Ahh fuck anyways shit happens.
Tuesday 05/29 (Day 99)
I head out pretty late after an epic Manwhore text game coaching session.
Roll out to my Tuesday spot in Brooklyn - start rolling w/the punches….Not too many girls in the building, about 3 to 4 tops.
Hit up one girl after the other, all have boyfriends - my shit was looking real sharp. The first girl was this really cute Ecuadoran chick and I was hitting on her in front of her boyfriend and I think she was really amused by the fact that I rolled into every other set w/no shame. While I was at the bar, she sort of followed me there. I should have been more ruthless and re-approached. She knew her BF was a lame. I really have to start capitalizing on these kind of opportunities.
Wednesday 05/30 (Day 100)
Been having some epic text exchanges w/this Mexican girl that I met two weeks ago. By far the best vibe that I put out there for sure. The FR is worth reading from when I originally met her (http://www.rsdnation.com/node/200089?page=14#comment-877704) It's Day 88.
Anyways me and the girl have been going back and forth Manwhore ghostwrote some of texts for me. Man that nigga NICE!. Some of it's on his forum.
Logistics are tough w/this chick - she just graduated fashion school in Manhattan and is now staying w/a friend in Long Island.Meet up with shorty in a bar in Williamsburg - about 10 mins away from where I live.. I guess I get there 20 mins after she got there or something like that because she looked kind of sad. Get there n give her a kiss on her cheek and make her stand up. It was an awkward kiss bcuz I wasn't 100% sure I was kissing the right girl lol. yes it was her. She introduces me to her 3 other friends. Wtf ok - i thought it was one friend tops. I then drag her to another part of the bar and I get a beer and we sit down and chill.
I try to kiss her and it's a no go. Ok. She says she's sick. cool. We vibe out for like 20 or 30 mins. I'm tired as fuck so the charisma isn't beaming through but it's not necessary - this girl likes me for sure. She keeps bringing up the crazy shit I did when I met her and thinks I've lost the plot. While I'm vibing I bring up that we should go to another bar w/o friends about 2 or 3 times. Thing is her friends want her to go somewhere else w/them..She invites me to come w/her friends like 3 times. I'm hesitant becuz this is the first time I had a girl pull some shit like this on me on a Day 2 and I really don't want to be the 5th wheel in their little "sex and the city" click.
2 of her friends eventually come over and are like "just come. please". I'm like fair enough although a part of me kind of wants to hit up some Wednesday hotspot in Manhattan.... . We walk to another bar (which was like 3 blocks away). We walk way behind her friends. Lol side note - One of her friends is kinda raw - i think she took a piss by some trashcans while we were walking….. lmfao wtf. these bitches don't know how to act. They're 22 - it's to be expected..
Hit up the other bar, I lead her around the bar and seat her in the corner. Sit down. We vibe. She's starting to get annoying "Are you a player" "God you're so dominant and aggressive". "I'm not just some easy bitch that you're going to fuck". I eventually tell her ENOUGH - it's over w/the shit tests. She sort of mellows down - as tired as I am I make an effort to get to know the girl. She did complain that all I did was talk about myself when we first met. So i ask her some rapport questions but she's not even really willing to answer them - basically no surrender. I find this weird because I was revoltingly honest w/this girl.... I bring her in a bit - I kiss her on her neck a bit but she's all resistant. Like around 2, one of her friends comes over and grabs her and my girl says "deuces". I thought they were going to the bathroom. They end up leaving.
I just sit there for like 15 minutes on my phone - checking e-mail and choding. I eventually get up and leave. I thought I would be butt-hurt but I was only slightly disappointed. Looks like i've become more icy - before I would have thrown a fit afterwards and gotten proper pissed.
Thursday (Day 101)
Head out in Brooklyn after soccer as I'm feeling real tired. I've started to reward myself w/Kombucha if I stay up and don't take a nap after soccer.
I'm looking obnoxious tonight - I have a fuckin I GOT GAME shirt on. I just don't give a fuck after last night. Came to realize like damn I ran AMAZING game on this bird and I still didn't get anything from it. Fuck this shit.
When my shits really smooth in like 3 months and I don't really give a fuck I'll rock the Hello Kitty all the time.
Not too many girls I want to approach - tops I do 4 approaches. First girl I roll up to is some Australian girl and we vibe out and it's sort of stalling out. While I'm talking to her I see a hotter girl that I want to talk to. It's hard for me to leave the Australian girl but after 2 to 3 minutes i'm like fuck it and finally muster the strength to do so. The hotter girl is eating a corn cob and is giving me shit test after shit test because of my shirt. I just keep vibing out and telling her to relax bcux i'm not a chode. Doesn't really go anywhere so I hit up 2 more chicks. At the end of the night I meet some older Persian chick and she gives me her #. It's great because the blowouts force me to give less of a fuck and I'm super authentic at this point which is always a plus.
Friday (05/25) (Day 95)
Go out in Brooklyn and i'm off. Shit's just not clicking.
head to another bar. shit starts to click a bit more. I walk up to this tipsy French girl. I start making out w/her. She's like i made out w/someone else. Ill sloppy seconds. Roll around, hit up a couple more girls a bunch of other PUAs are in the building - doesn't matter there is NO competition. Continue to hit it up but no real genuine boner-inducing long long interactions that leads to sex. No real promising leads.
Saturday 05/26 (Day 96)
Go out w/my college roommate and his friend in the Lower East Side. First place is douchey and I get blown out by everything. We then go to some black club and I'm pissed because I end up paying like $20 cover. Craziness. End up blowing myself out of of everything there as well.
On the way back home, I'm walking and these 2 girls start asking me where the first douchey place I went to is. I end up talking to them for like 15 mins, I grab one of the girls #. My college roommate and his friend ran into me randomly and I start doing a bunch of street sets. Cool fun stuff and I hit finally hit state at like 3:30 - I'm like damn unlucky I have soccer in the am so I just decide to call it a night.
A good night for me is when I hit state and push shit interactions to the hilt. That's my only barometer of success.
Sunday 05/27 (Day 97)
Lil bro pays me a visit on his 21st bday. We hit up some festival kind of thing. I'm going to start going to it more often. Probably invite someone else to hit it up w/me. Very good - tons of HOT girls. I'm a bit too excited here. I can't get a # when I'm this excited. We cut an hour long line w/ a $20 bill. Time is money. It's a neighborhoody thing so I already have seen or knew like half the people there. When you go out as much as I do in the same city you start to see the same people everywhere. It's like some weird extended extended social circle dynamic. That being said I met some really cool chicks but nothing came to suffice. Learned a crucial lesson here - just to RELAX. Next time I go i'm going to jerk off and meditate right before so I'm just straight mellow because it really was DISNEYLAND for me.
Lil bro was tired so he went home early, go back home - pick him up and we go at it again in the Lower East Side. Meet a couple of chicks, end up heading up to East Village and meeting a couple of broads here and there.
I was out for gaming for like 10 hours that day but only got 2 #s derp. Crazy kind of stamina though.
Monday 05/28 (Day 98)
went home to my parents house earlier in the day in Jersey for a BBQ. Watched that show GIRLS for like 2 hours.. Amazing show. I recommend everyone watch it - it's a pretty realistic on how pathetic girls can be and it's WRITTEN by a 26 year old girl. It's fuckin hilarious...
Another funny side note. Family was saying I lost weight which was weird because I'm already skinny as shit….My mom's friend hears this and walks up to me and is like "yea you lost weight but your dick better still be big". I was like YO WTF and start laughing for like 5 mins out of shock. It was a good perspective because I had the same reaction that a chick has when I go up to her and tell her right off the bat that I want to see her naked later. I'm still playing around w/ the authenticity thing but it was cool to be on the other side of the coin. I also found it interesting that I walked away in discomfort. I'm sure if she came up to me and was like yo for real i want to see if your dick was still big i would have been put in an interesting dilemma. Gonna re-open chicks that I open super hard core but incorporate some PUSH back on the re-open. Learning game principles everywhere I go.
Anyways, I only really intended to go out for tops 20 mins as my room/apt were in disarray from not being cleaned and I had to work on some text game exercises for MW coaching. I meet these 2 chicks. One of them is leaving Georgia tomorrow one of them lives in the neighborhood and took off work so she could have fun. God this had pull written all over. Thing is I really could not afford to stay out. I talked to MW about this and he was like "fuck my HW you should have fucked those 2". Ahh fuck anyways shit happens.
Tuesday 05/29 (Day 99)
I head out pretty late after an epic Manwhore text game coaching session.
Roll out to my Tuesday spot in Brooklyn - start rolling w/the punches….Not too many girls in the building, about 3 to 4 tops.
Hit up one girl after the other, all have boyfriends - my shit was looking real sharp. The first girl was this really cute Ecuadoran chick and I was hitting on her in front of her boyfriend and I think she was really amused by the fact that I rolled into every other set w/no shame. While I was at the bar, she sort of followed me there. I should have been more ruthless and re-approached. She knew her BF was a lame. I really have to start capitalizing on these kind of opportunities.
Wednesday 05/30 (Day 100)
Been having some epic text exchanges w/this Mexican girl that I met two weeks ago. By far the best vibe that I put out there for sure. The FR is worth reading from when I originally met her (http://www.rsdnation.com/node/200089?page=14#comment-877704) It's Day 88.
Anyways me and the girl have been going back and forth Manwhore ghostwrote some of texts for me. Man that nigga NICE!. Some of it's on his forum.
Logistics are tough w/this chick - she just graduated fashion school in Manhattan and is now staying w/a friend in Long Island.Meet up with shorty in a bar in Williamsburg - about 10 mins away from where I live.. I guess I get there 20 mins after she got there or something like that because she looked kind of sad. Get there n give her a kiss on her cheek and make her stand up. It was an awkward kiss bcuz I wasn't 100% sure I was kissing the right girl lol. yes it was her. She introduces me to her 3 other friends. Wtf ok - i thought it was one friend tops. I then drag her to another part of the bar and I get a beer and we sit down and chill.
I try to kiss her and it's a no go. Ok. She says she's sick. cool. We vibe out for like 20 or 30 mins. I'm tired as fuck so the charisma isn't beaming through but it's not necessary - this girl likes me for sure. She keeps bringing up the crazy shit I did when I met her and thinks I've lost the plot. While I'm vibing I bring up that we should go to another bar w/o friends about 2 or 3 times. Thing is her friends want her to go somewhere else w/them..She invites me to come w/her friends like 3 times. I'm hesitant becuz this is the first time I had a girl pull some shit like this on me on a Day 2 and I really don't want to be the 5th wheel in their little "sex and the city" click.
2 of her friends eventually come over and are like "just come. please". I'm like fair enough although a part of me kind of wants to hit up some Wednesday hotspot in Manhattan.... . We walk to another bar (which was like 3 blocks away). We walk way behind her friends. Lol side note - One of her friends is kinda raw - i think she took a piss by some trashcans while we were walking….. lmfao wtf. these bitches don't know how to act. They're 22 - it's to be expected..
Hit up the other bar, I lead her around the bar and seat her in the corner. Sit down. We vibe. She's starting to get annoying "Are you a player" "God you're so dominant and aggressive". "I'm not just some easy bitch that you're going to fuck". I eventually tell her ENOUGH - it's over w/the shit tests. She sort of mellows down - as tired as I am I make an effort to get to know the girl. She did complain that all I did was talk about myself when we first met. So i ask her some rapport questions but she's not even really willing to answer them - basically no surrender. I find this weird because I was revoltingly honest w/this girl.... I bring her in a bit - I kiss her on her neck a bit but she's all resistant. Like around 2, one of her friends comes over and grabs her and my girl says "deuces". I thought they were going to the bathroom. They end up leaving.
I just sit there for like 15 minutes on my phone - checking e-mail and choding. I eventually get up and leave. I thought I would be butt-hurt but I was only slightly disappointed. Looks like i've become more icy - before I would have thrown a fit afterwards and gotten proper pissed.
Thursday (Day 101)
Head out in Brooklyn after soccer as I'm feeling real tired. I've started to reward myself w/Kombucha if I stay up and don't take a nap after soccer.
I'm looking obnoxious tonight - I have a fuckin I GOT GAME shirt on. I just don't give a fuck after last night. Came to realize like damn I ran AMAZING game on this bird and I still didn't get anything from it. Fuck this shit.
When my shits really smooth in like 3 months and I don't really give a fuck I'll rock the Hello Kitty all the time.
Not too many girls I want to approach - tops I do 4 approaches. First girl I roll up to is some Australian girl and we vibe out and it's sort of stalling out. While I'm talking to her I see a hotter girl that I want to talk to. It's hard for me to leave the Australian girl but after 2 to 3 minutes i'm like fuck it and finally muster the strength to do so. The hotter girl is eating a corn cob and is giving me shit test after shit test because of my shirt. I just keep vibing out and telling her to relax bcux i'm not a chode. Doesn't really go anywhere so I hit up 2 more chicks. At the end of the night I meet some older Persian chick and she gives me her #. It's great because the blowouts force me to give less of a fuck and I'm super authentic at this point which is always a plus.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
100 Day Review
I'm not gonna sit and gloat about how awesome I am because I was able to do 100 days of continuous cold-approach pickup and able to break thru barriers that I had before in my game because there's still a lot of work to be done. I'm gonna get there - I live in the FIRST WORLD so I have no excuse not to get what I want in life. Things could be a lot better in terms of notches on the belt I'm not worried because when things start to really click for me - TRUST ME - i will take full advantage of the "click". The click will come when I'm so aloof and non-needy around women. I'm going to have to suffer a lot of "heartbreak" to get to that point but I'll force myself to get the "heartbreak" soon so i'm ICY. I want to get to the point where I get a text message from a hottie and I'm not happy that she responded OR just being able to stay relaxed when I'm out after not getting laid after 2 or 3 weeks...No worries I WILL GET THERE.
I'll read the past 100 days of FRs some day when I'm feeling "depressed" but at the moment I don't have time to sit back and gloat cuz if i read that shit I'll get too cocky and won't even be able to relate to women. But maybe that's a good form of extreme self-love.
Although yo it was pretty awesome, from getting my first bathroom lay to doing ridiculous things like having a cute girl pull my skinny jeans up from my ankles for me in the middle of the street. I also did a lot of experimental shit which made my shit grow super fast from not taking #s to forcing myself to practice raw "authenticity" ala using I want to see you naked later. I didn't get laid as much as I wanted to but I can't really stress that because i lost a LOT of pulls or sure-fire golden opportunities due to lack of knowledge/experience or time constraints because I have a demanding day job. It's all good as all this effort I'm putting in is going to pay off massive dividends in the future.
I went out solo for 90% of the nights as most of the guys I know are just too SOFT to really want to do the shit I aspire to do which fuckin troubles me. It actually really pisses me off as I wish most guys on here would just HARDEN up and deal w/their bs internal emotional drama that leads them from not to taking RIGHT action. I have no empathy for you and your FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS and i say that with 100% love. I would absolutely love to have a dedicated wing who wouldn't get so butt-hurt over rejection ala not being able to get into a top NYC nightclub or having some girl shit on him. I enjoy going out and at the moment so I'm actually really OPEN to anyone hitting me up and going yo I'm positive and fun and fuck it i want to go to top clubs w/you.
I've set a goal of how long I can sustain this hectic pace and continue going out 7 nights a week. Its tough because I'm up at 8:30am and sometimes don't hit the sack until 3am. Hopefully this will change the more I Day 2 now that i got a couple of text game fundamentals down. The lack of sleep is killing me as sometimes I look back at the previous night's FR I write and it doesnt even make any sense because I'm writing this shit on like 4 or 5 hours of sleep…Im surprised I'm not burnt out yet but something very strong is driving me to achieve success w/women... I mean when I write "I have to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to" that shit makes me extremely emotional almost to the point of tears. I don't know why but it means a lot to me. Maybe because I grew up feeling like such a failure and a loser. It won't last forever but I do have a goal in the back of my head. Everyone goes why do you take this shit so seriously - I mean like duhhhh YOLO - i know what I want in life and I know what I have to do to achieve it. Although I'm looking to have a lot more FUN now at the same time.
Now I've sort of internalized that I have to really brush up on the 8s and 9s. Like a lot of these 7s just can't cut it for me. They really don't think they have a chance. It's some weird shit because on my average day I feel like a 7 or 8 but these girls see me as a 10 from the responses they give me. Just time for me to make that internal CLICK. Realize that I am the new Ferrari being given away and she's that lucky girl.
It's early Sunday evening and I have to head over to my day job for an all-nighter. It never ends. The grind. It never ends.
Let's get it. I'm riding around I'm getting it. I'm riding around I'm getting it. It's mine. I spend it. It's mine. i spend it.
I'm not gonna sit and gloat about how awesome I am because I was able to do 100 days of continuous cold-approach pickup and able to break thru barriers that I had before in my game because there's still a lot of work to be done. I'm gonna get there - I live in the FIRST WORLD so I have no excuse not to get what I want in life. Things could be a lot better in terms of notches on the belt I'm not worried because when things start to really click for me - TRUST ME - i will take full advantage of the "click". The click will come when I'm so aloof and non-needy around women. I'm going to have to suffer a lot of "heartbreak" to get to that point but I'll force myself to get the "heartbreak" soon so i'm ICY. I want to get to the point where I get a text message from a hottie and I'm not happy that she responded OR just being able to stay relaxed when I'm out after not getting laid after 2 or 3 weeks...No worries I WILL GET THERE.
I'll read the past 100 days of FRs some day when I'm feeling "depressed" but at the moment I don't have time to sit back and gloat cuz if i read that shit I'll get too cocky and won't even be able to relate to women. But maybe that's a good form of extreme self-love.
Although yo it was pretty awesome, from getting my first bathroom lay to doing ridiculous things like having a cute girl pull my skinny jeans up from my ankles for me in the middle of the street. I also did a lot of experimental shit which made my shit grow super fast from not taking #s to forcing myself to practice raw "authenticity" ala using I want to see you naked later. I didn't get laid as much as I wanted to but I can't really stress that because i lost a LOT of pulls or sure-fire golden opportunities due to lack of knowledge/experience or time constraints because I have a demanding day job. It's all good as all this effort I'm putting in is going to pay off massive dividends in the future.
I went out solo for 90% of the nights as most of the guys I know are just too SOFT to really want to do the shit I aspire to do which fuckin troubles me. It actually really pisses me off as I wish most guys on here would just HARDEN up and deal w/their bs internal emotional drama that leads them from not to taking RIGHT action. I have no empathy for you and your FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS and i say that with 100% love. I would absolutely love to have a dedicated wing who wouldn't get so butt-hurt over rejection ala not being able to get into a top NYC nightclub or having some girl shit on him. I enjoy going out and at the moment so I'm actually really OPEN to anyone hitting me up and going yo I'm positive and fun and fuck it i want to go to top clubs w/you.
I've set a goal of how long I can sustain this hectic pace and continue going out 7 nights a week. Its tough because I'm up at 8:30am and sometimes don't hit the sack until 3am. Hopefully this will change the more I Day 2 now that i got a couple of text game fundamentals down. The lack of sleep is killing me as sometimes I look back at the previous night's FR I write and it doesnt even make any sense because I'm writing this shit on like 4 or 5 hours of sleep…Im surprised I'm not burnt out yet but something very strong is driving me to achieve success w/women... I mean when I write "I have to prove to myself that I can do anything I put my mind to" that shit makes me extremely emotional almost to the point of tears. I don't know why but it means a lot to me. Maybe because I grew up feeling like such a failure and a loser. It won't last forever but I do have a goal in the back of my head. Everyone goes why do you take this shit so seriously - I mean like duhhhh YOLO - i know what I want in life and I know what I have to do to achieve it. Although I'm looking to have a lot more FUN now at the same time.
Now I've sort of internalized that I have to really brush up on the 8s and 9s. Like a lot of these 7s just can't cut it for me. They really don't think they have a chance. It's some weird shit because on my average day I feel like a 7 or 8 but these girls see me as a 10 from the responses they give me. Just time for me to make that internal CLICK. Realize that I am the new Ferrari being given away and she's that lucky girl.
It's early Sunday evening and I have to head over to my day job for an all-nighter. It never ends. The grind. It never ends.
Let's get it. I'm riding around I'm getting it. I'm riding around I'm getting it. It's mine. I spend it. It's mine. i spend it.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
Friday (06/01)
My lil bro hits me up like YO let's go out. I'm dead tired from working an 11 hour shift at work so we don't head out till 1 after i take a nap.
It's pretty murky outside and we head over to the East Village. Go to Phebes - god i hate that place as much as i hate Brass Monkey. i meet this cool girl but she has to leave as soon as i meet her….... On a side note I might just go to Phebes one night with my I Got Game shirt and just open girls "Yo i want to see you naked later and just pound your vaginal juices till you squeal in delight." I'll probably get blown out by the whole venue but lol it would be some sick kind of self-amusement exercise but fuck it - I'm going to do it one of these nights just for my amusement because most girls IMO there can't think for themselves. I'm starting to realize that's a quality I really dislike in women. A woman who is completely controlled by her friends and can't think for herself.
We end up hitting up Williamsburg then head back to Bushwick. We hit up this hipster bar in Bushwick and start fuckin around being super self-amusing doing all types of silly African dances. It was great to see all the chicks just get drawn to our self amusement bs. It was kind of eye-opening because more often than not I probably look more serious than need be. This kind of made me miss the fun times I used to always have back in the day when I had wings.
Hit up a bunch of girls but nothing I really want to pull and stick out so we call it a night.
Saturday (06/02)
Day Game
Have a Day 2 w/this chick that I met the previous Sunday. Whoaa - i finally got a day 2. I had the most fucked up problem in the universe due to POOR text game. I used to joke that I was able to bang a girl in the bathroom but I couldn't even get a Day 2. Don't ignore text game players. So so sooo crucial.
So I meet the Day 2 girl near my subway stop, I'm running like 15 mins late and can't get one of my contacts in. So when I meet her - she's like why is your eye all lazy and red and explain to her my situation. I bounce her back to my place but she won't come upstairs so she just chills on my stoop while I get a fresh pair of contacts in. She's a decent looking girl. I give her a borderline 7 - decent South American girl whose in grad school @ NYU. She's a bit more of the nerdy, conservative and introspective type which I don't really really dig but mann i know she got that TIGHT PUSSY yo. I also liked that she could think for herself which I'm starting to realize is almost a requirement. We check out a couple of art studios in my hood, get some food, and I take a REAL long time to start making out w/her.
I think the Mexican girl from Wednesday kind of made me extra cautious about being all dominant right of the bat. Now I've calibrated - i think a good rule of thumb is to kiss a girl within 30 minutes on the day 2. She also was intimidated by me being outgoing and friendly to random strangers (which I usually am and now I'm realizing so is my lil bro as well as my dad) which freaks out a lot of people but whatever deal w/your insecurity GURL.
Eventually wrap it up after suggesting ice cream at my place but I'll delay the inevitable and have ice cream w/her later on if we meet up again. Our chemistry wasn't crazy but i ain't exactly looking for my wife….
Night Game
My lil bro meets up w/me and we decide to head out to Meatpacking around 12. I get to my car and realize someone's done a hit and run on my drivers side. My bumper is fucked up, my side mirror is broken off. I move my car a couple of feet - fuck my left front side tire is flat as well. Unlucky. It takes forever for me to change my tire cuz my nuts are so rusty. Lol not those nuts. I mention this because although I'm not devastated Im pretty pissed because the damage is going to set me back a couple of hundred bucks which I wanted to use for Philly HotSeat as well as do some extra MW coaching.
I'm not out of it but I'm not exactly woo at this point. Sort of pissed about it but my lil bro starts saying FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS. FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS. I immediately start to smile cuz he's so fuckin rite. This whole getting good at the game, me worrying about a few hundred bucks so I can fix my car to be able to go out 7 weeks is a FIRST WORLD PROBLEM. Damn it the fucker got under my skin.
I'm still a bit pissed because I'm like damn it I got to get this dude into the club. We start hitting up street sets. My bro found two girls that were into him and when I walked in the interest was compounded. They were outside a top club and were just on a smoking break. My bro convinces them to have them act like we're their dates - he's such a sneaky smooth motherfucker. So we hold hands in a line. My bro kind laughs his way past security on some sneaky shit but I'm at the end of the holding hands group and when the security guard goes to check my stamp he realizes I don't have a stamp and I can't get in w/my bro and the 2 girls.
I head off to my usual Saturday spot more than pleased that my bro got into an elite club. I actually have a crazy wave of positive emotions from this.
I hit up a lot of sets, get a number here or there but something is missing from my vibe that isn't allowing me to have one of those slow,chill 2 hour boner-inducing interactions that lead to the pull. I can't put my finger on it but something is missing. Maybe i was lacking a strong dosage of authenticity. Me and my bro eventually meet up at 3:30 and hit the streets HARD until 4. We had so much fuckin fun and #close a bunch of girls together. I was more than impressed w/him because he reminded me of how much fun pickup can be when you have a non-needy positive wingman who just wants to fuck and have fun.
Sunday 06/03
Tonight was pretty hilarious and RANDOM. Summer Sundays. WOW.
I had to come into my day job on Sunday around 6pm. Don't end up leaving till like midnight. Hit up downtown Manhattan and hit up a couple of bars. Meet these 2 girls from San Diego. I like the decent looking hipster one - she's like a 6.5/7. I'm chilling w/her and I see like an Indian 7.5/8. I'm hesitant to do it bcuz the hipster from San Diego is really into me but I finally hit up the 8 HARD when i see her outside (which was cheating - I should have immediately gone in when I saw her inside).
Side note - I'm still sort of attached to my previous sets and I'm working damn hard to remove this issue. It's tough but It's something I'm going to have to practice some SERIOUS willpower this month to make sure i CONSISTENTLY do it. Fuck - this shit is one of my weaknesses - attachment to outcome but I'll have to FOCUS and get it done this month so I make it a long-term habit of always being unattached. Really do it to progress to the next level.
Roll back to the decent looking hipster. Her friend is w/some grabby chode douchebag type as I play it super cool. Always good to see grabby guys and get a reminder NO GRABBY GRAB. An hour later and some self-amusement times I bounce them over to another bar where there's karaoke.
It starts to get interesting here - i'll call it the dilemma of the 3 Nicoles. I really want to fuck the bartender. Her name is Nicole. She might be a lesbian - but definitely bi-curious. Not too many girls in the place but there's this stunning Latina girl by herself. Her name I figure out is also Nicole. My jaw literally dropped when I saw her. I have no willpower to just ditch the 2 girls from San Diego at this point so I stay w/the two girls from San Diego. The decent hipster looking girl is also named Nicole.
I go up and sing John Legend. When i sing karaoke, vaginas get wet. I roll back and sit down w/the girls from San Diego. The hipster looking girl is nibbling on my ear and I play it cool. No one else wants to sing so I then sing Amy Winehouse. When I'm done singing Amy Winehouse I start ad-lib singing Amy Winehouse to the Latina girl and the stunning Latina looking girl is like "YO I'm totally gonna fuck you right now". Holy shit. I'm a bit flabbergasted by the comment. So I chill back w/the girls from San Diego and play it cool
Looking back, JHEEZE i regret not ditching them immediately and playing it cool w/the Latina girl. I need to be a DICKHEAD. For me to not want the HOTTEST chick in the venue is FUCKIN INCONGRUENT...as I AM THE BUYER...After awhile I realize this hipster chick is one of these co-dependent chicks I'm starting to dislike so I flirt w/the other two girls.
The interest is kinda moderate w/both of them so I go back to the hipster Nicole. We eventually leave the venue alongside her friend who's been frustrated by chodes all night. My girl wants to leave w/me but her friend is super pissed about not getting laid so the pissed friend throws a FIT so I end up going home by myself. On the way back home I realized I could have completely dominated the situation by making out w/the friend who was trying to get laid and going for the 3some...
I'm also a bit mad that it's 3 and I need to be alert for the 2nd busiest day of the year at my job.
Walk past my neighborhood bar and run into some drunk decent looking girl. I twirl her around and do some silly shit and I tell her I have to leave for work. She says she lives a block away from me. Some cab driver gets out his cab and some other guy from the bar are trying to tap that ass so she kinda acknowledges them but I play it cool. Sharks in the water type shit. A minute later she says no to both of them points at me and says I'm going home with him. WHOA.
I start playfully talking in a British accent about my cock cuz she asks me if I can balance my penis lol and all types of crazy shit. 5 minutes later i'm inside my apartment. 5 minutes later my clothes are off hers aren't. Time is not my ally -its 4 am at this moment and i have to be up at 8am.. I kiss her up and down her body but she won't take off her clothes. I get on top of her and start rubbing my cock on her shirt. She's like noooo. I get back down and then her friend calls. Slight delay in interaction. I tell her that she should tell her friend 10 minutes 10 minutes. She says 10 minutes. She hangs up. I wash rinse repeat and slam her on my bed. I whip out my cock and she says she likes how it curves a bit lol. I start rubbing my cock on her and then i just put it in her face. She starts gagging like a good girl :) I blow a load in like 2 minutes….on her face. This girl was kinda twisted mann "she was like ooooo i love how it feels on my face, my skin is purified and tight". lmao. I even take a couple of pictures n shit. I would post this on the forum but if you want to see pictures of her w my jizz on my face feel free to text me - i will send them - LOL.
She says she wants to be my whore for a long time because she needs a steady stream of cock.... I for some reason don't really push for her #. Damn it. I forgot her fuckin name even. Walk her back and meet up w/her roommate who is smoking hot. O god if i see these 2 chicks again - it is ON.
Wow. 5 minute pull. It's got to be the eyes.
Monday 06/04
Head out like at 1. I was so fuckin tired at work today after last night's craziness - I couldn't figure out simple logical shit. It was the worst shit ever.
Hit up a couple of spots. Talk to a bunch of girls. Number close 1 or 2 chicks - i'm only out for an hour.
My lil bro hits me up like YO let's go out. I'm dead tired from working an 11 hour shift at work so we don't head out till 1 after i take a nap.
It's pretty murky outside and we head over to the East Village. Go to Phebes - god i hate that place as much as i hate Brass Monkey. i meet this cool girl but she has to leave as soon as i meet her….... On a side note I might just go to Phebes one night with my I Got Game shirt and just open girls "Yo i want to see you naked later and just pound your vaginal juices till you squeal in delight." I'll probably get blown out by the whole venue but lol it would be some sick kind of self-amusement exercise but fuck it - I'm going to do it one of these nights just for my amusement because most girls IMO there can't think for themselves. I'm starting to realize that's a quality I really dislike in women. A woman who is completely controlled by her friends and can't think for herself.
We end up hitting up Williamsburg then head back to Bushwick. We hit up this hipster bar in Bushwick and start fuckin around being super self-amusing doing all types of silly African dances. It was great to see all the chicks just get drawn to our self amusement bs. It was kind of eye-opening because more often than not I probably look more serious than need be. This kind of made me miss the fun times I used to always have back in the day when I had wings.
Hit up a bunch of girls but nothing I really want to pull and stick out so we call it a night.
Saturday (06/02)
Day Game
Have a Day 2 w/this chick that I met the previous Sunday. Whoaa - i finally got a day 2. I had the most fucked up problem in the universe due to POOR text game. I used to joke that I was able to bang a girl in the bathroom but I couldn't even get a Day 2. Don't ignore text game players. So so sooo crucial.
So I meet the Day 2 girl near my subway stop, I'm running like 15 mins late and can't get one of my contacts in. So when I meet her - she's like why is your eye all lazy and red and explain to her my situation. I bounce her back to my place but she won't come upstairs so she just chills on my stoop while I get a fresh pair of contacts in. She's a decent looking girl. I give her a borderline 7 - decent South American girl whose in grad school @ NYU. She's a bit more of the nerdy, conservative and introspective type which I don't really really dig but mann i know she got that TIGHT PUSSY yo. I also liked that she could think for herself which I'm starting to realize is almost a requirement. We check out a couple of art studios in my hood, get some food, and I take a REAL long time to start making out w/her.
I think the Mexican girl from Wednesday kind of made me extra cautious about being all dominant right of the bat. Now I've calibrated - i think a good rule of thumb is to kiss a girl within 30 minutes on the day 2. She also was intimidated by me being outgoing and friendly to random strangers (which I usually am and now I'm realizing so is my lil bro as well as my dad) which freaks out a lot of people but whatever deal w/your insecurity GURL.
Eventually wrap it up after suggesting ice cream at my place but I'll delay the inevitable and have ice cream w/her later on if we meet up again. Our chemistry wasn't crazy but i ain't exactly looking for my wife….
Night Game
My lil bro meets up w/me and we decide to head out to Meatpacking around 12. I get to my car and realize someone's done a hit and run on my drivers side. My bumper is fucked up, my side mirror is broken off. I move my car a couple of feet - fuck my left front side tire is flat as well. Unlucky. It takes forever for me to change my tire cuz my nuts are so rusty. Lol not those nuts. I mention this because although I'm not devastated Im pretty pissed because the damage is going to set me back a couple of hundred bucks which I wanted to use for Philly HotSeat as well as do some extra MW coaching.
I'm not out of it but I'm not exactly woo at this point. Sort of pissed about it but my lil bro starts saying FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS. FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS. I immediately start to smile cuz he's so fuckin rite. This whole getting good at the game, me worrying about a few hundred bucks so I can fix my car to be able to go out 7 weeks is a FIRST WORLD PROBLEM. Damn it the fucker got under my skin.
I'm still a bit pissed because I'm like damn it I got to get this dude into the club. We start hitting up street sets. My bro found two girls that were into him and when I walked in the interest was compounded. They were outside a top club and were just on a smoking break. My bro convinces them to have them act like we're their dates - he's such a sneaky smooth motherfucker. So we hold hands in a line. My bro kind laughs his way past security on some sneaky shit but I'm at the end of the holding hands group and when the security guard goes to check my stamp he realizes I don't have a stamp and I can't get in w/my bro and the 2 girls.
I head off to my usual Saturday spot more than pleased that my bro got into an elite club. I actually have a crazy wave of positive emotions from this.
I hit up a lot of sets, get a number here or there but something is missing from my vibe that isn't allowing me to have one of those slow,chill 2 hour boner-inducing interactions that lead to the pull. I can't put my finger on it but something is missing. Maybe i was lacking a strong dosage of authenticity. Me and my bro eventually meet up at 3:30 and hit the streets HARD until 4. We had so much fuckin fun and #close a bunch of girls together. I was more than impressed w/him because he reminded me of how much fun pickup can be when you have a non-needy positive wingman who just wants to fuck and have fun.
Sunday 06/03
Tonight was pretty hilarious and RANDOM. Summer Sundays. WOW.
I had to come into my day job on Sunday around 6pm. Don't end up leaving till like midnight. Hit up downtown Manhattan and hit up a couple of bars. Meet these 2 girls from San Diego. I like the decent looking hipster one - she's like a 6.5/7. I'm chilling w/her and I see like an Indian 7.5/8. I'm hesitant to do it bcuz the hipster from San Diego is really into me but I finally hit up the 8 HARD when i see her outside (which was cheating - I should have immediately gone in when I saw her inside).
Side note - I'm still sort of attached to my previous sets and I'm working damn hard to remove this issue. It's tough but It's something I'm going to have to practice some SERIOUS willpower this month to make sure i CONSISTENTLY do it. Fuck - this shit is one of my weaknesses - attachment to outcome but I'll have to FOCUS and get it done this month so I make it a long-term habit of always being unattached. Really do it to progress to the next level.
Roll back to the decent looking hipster. Her friend is w/some grabby chode douchebag type as I play it super cool. Always good to see grabby guys and get a reminder NO GRABBY GRAB. An hour later and some self-amusement times I bounce them over to another bar where there's karaoke.
It starts to get interesting here - i'll call it the dilemma of the 3 Nicoles. I really want to fuck the bartender. Her name is Nicole. She might be a lesbian - but definitely bi-curious. Not too many girls in the place but there's this stunning Latina girl by herself. Her name I figure out is also Nicole. My jaw literally dropped when I saw her. I have no willpower to just ditch the 2 girls from San Diego at this point so I stay w/the two girls from San Diego. The decent hipster looking girl is also named Nicole.
I go up and sing John Legend. When i sing karaoke, vaginas get wet. I roll back and sit down w/the girls from San Diego. The hipster looking girl is nibbling on my ear and I play it cool. No one else wants to sing so I then sing Amy Winehouse. When I'm done singing Amy Winehouse I start ad-lib singing Amy Winehouse to the Latina girl and the stunning Latina looking girl is like "YO I'm totally gonna fuck you right now". Holy shit. I'm a bit flabbergasted by the comment. So I chill back w/the girls from San Diego and play it cool
Looking back, JHEEZE i regret not ditching them immediately and playing it cool w/the Latina girl. I need to be a DICKHEAD. For me to not want the HOTTEST chick in the venue is FUCKIN INCONGRUENT...as I AM THE BUYER...After awhile I realize this hipster chick is one of these co-dependent chicks I'm starting to dislike so I flirt w/the other two girls.
The interest is kinda moderate w/both of them so I go back to the hipster Nicole. We eventually leave the venue alongside her friend who's been frustrated by chodes all night. My girl wants to leave w/me but her friend is super pissed about not getting laid so the pissed friend throws a FIT so I end up going home by myself. On the way back home I realized I could have completely dominated the situation by making out w/the friend who was trying to get laid and going for the 3some...
I'm also a bit mad that it's 3 and I need to be alert for the 2nd busiest day of the year at my job.
Walk past my neighborhood bar and run into some drunk decent looking girl. I twirl her around and do some silly shit and I tell her I have to leave for work. She says she lives a block away from me. Some cab driver gets out his cab and some other guy from the bar are trying to tap that ass so she kinda acknowledges them but I play it cool. Sharks in the water type shit. A minute later she says no to both of them points at me and says I'm going home with him. WHOA.
I start playfully talking in a British accent about my cock cuz she asks me if I can balance my penis lol and all types of crazy shit. 5 minutes later i'm inside my apartment. 5 minutes later my clothes are off hers aren't. Time is not my ally -its 4 am at this moment and i have to be up at 8am.. I kiss her up and down her body but she won't take off her clothes. I get on top of her and start rubbing my cock on her shirt. She's like noooo. I get back down and then her friend calls. Slight delay in interaction. I tell her that she should tell her friend 10 minutes 10 minutes. She says 10 minutes. She hangs up. I wash rinse repeat and slam her on my bed. I whip out my cock and she says she likes how it curves a bit lol. I start rubbing my cock on her and then i just put it in her face. She starts gagging like a good girl :) I blow a load in like 2 minutes….on her face. This girl was kinda twisted mann "she was like ooooo i love how it feels on my face, my skin is purified and tight". lmao. I even take a couple of pictures n shit. I would post this on the forum but if you want to see pictures of her w my jizz on my face feel free to text me - i will send them - LOL.
She says she wants to be my whore for a long time because she needs a steady stream of cock.... I for some reason don't really push for her #. Damn it. I forgot her fuckin name even. Walk her back and meet up w/her roommate who is smoking hot. O god if i see these 2 chicks again - it is ON.
Wow. 5 minute pull. It's got to be the eyes.
Monday 06/04
Head out like at 1. I was so fuckin tired at work today after last night's craziness - I couldn't figure out simple logical shit. It was the worst shit ever.
Hit up a couple of spots. Talk to a bunch of girls. Number close 1 or 2 chicks - i'm only out for an hour.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
Tuesday 06/05
Approach this girl on the way back home. Talk to her for a bit. Find out she has a boyfriend.
End up not going out. I sleep from like 9 to 5 and then go back to sleep from like 7:30 to 9am before i pop out of bed and rush to work... This pisses me off. Missing a night out.
I have a slight head cold at the moment so it's not THAT bad and late night adventures on Sunday kept me longer than expected. Stacked up on the coconut water, bout to drink the Kombucha - we're good to go.
Approach this girl on the way back home. Talk to her for a bit. Find out she has a boyfriend.
End up not going out. I sleep from like 9 to 5 and then go back to sleep from like 7:30 to 9am before i pop out of bed and rush to work... This pisses me off. Missing a night out.
I have a slight head cold at the moment so it's not THAT bad and late night adventures on Sunday kept me longer than expected. Stacked up on the coconut water, bout to drink the Kombucha - we're good to go.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
I'm actually gonna re-post my last "looking at what i'm doing" thing from 2 weeks ago because i didn't make much progress in these 5 areas over the past 2 weeks. I made a little bit of some progress in text and follow-up game which to me is really gonna be the difference maker. I still have a lot to learn but holy shit I'm excited about the prospect of how many numbers I can convert into dates which i can convert into lays. I can't believe I ignored this area of game for so long.
Really, my biggest focus in June is going to be PUSH and the willingness to walk away and lose sets while going for the hottest girl possible (it is a fuckin TOUGH thing to do but I want that iciness that will serve me well. I'm collecting mad numbers this month so no worries - ABUNDANCE. I also have to stop pushing sets so fast. Let it happen. No need to rush anything. If she doesn't want to fuck on the first date, just wait till the next date if you really like her. I keep rushing shit but I can't rush this shit w/chicks. It may be boring but I can always #close and do something else.
1. Text and follow-up game -
I've learned some crucial crucial fundamentals from MW about text game so my text game anxiety has been sort of eliminated. Next step is to just have free flowing text conversations like I would have in-person text game conversations and from their up meeting. This is my MAIN focus this month - just pushing shit to the bitter end w/my text game and really getting calibrated into getting a meet-up. Jheeze I can't believe I ignored this part of my game for so long. SO SO CRUCIAL.
2. Willingness to walk away and lose sets while going for the hottest girl possible (straight up over entitled icy asshole) - One thing I really admire about Julien and Tyler is that they refuse to play the bird in hand i.e. if they're w/a 7 - they'll ditch the 7 and go for the 9 if they see the 9. Which is so fuckin tough to do. Especially if you've been in set w/a girl for over 20 minutes and you guys have chemistry..... I'm going to do this for awhile because when I'm in set w/a chick for like 20 minutes I start to feel attached. Like even if I see another chick after #closed the 7 or 8 - I'll be reluctant to let the girl see me pimp another girl because I don't want to come across as a scumbag player. Fuck it - if i lose the chick, i lose the chick. My text game isn't that good at the moment anyway so this is the perfect time to do it. Also, I will be highly focused on getting #s during the day-time once again so if I'm that worried about getting no buns I can just FOCUS on making sure I run the correct follow-up game. For instance, on Saturday I met this awesome 7 with a tight body and as soon as her friend pulled her away to go home even though we had serious chemistry - I felt my state drop. The only way I can get over this issue is cutting all sorts of attachment and that's by continually cutting good interactions and going for even hotter chicks. I'm not looking forward to doing this at all but I'm trying to chip away at my fuckin comfort zone at the moment so I can see some epic shit like 2 months down the road.
3. Continuing to always incorporate the PUSH at the first moment I get an opportunity - This is so big. The PUSH is so important and that's what creates the attraction in a lot of sets. Just so fuckin important. Can't stress this enough. As I start to peel off blind spots and continue to realize how MONEY of a guy I am. I will continue to do this.
4. Going deeper into authenticity and being more expressive w/it. - I'm going to start being even more authentic and saying whatever I want. I also think I need to not over-apologize for my bluntness. Maybe tops ONE statement of empathy to the girl. Being unapologetic and un-reactive. It's just what I do - I've always been politically incorrect and speak from the heart when i was younger and people always used to criticize me for it - now just being blunt and being comfortable in my own skin.....On the other hand, when I'm feeling extra intense, hyper, and overwhelmed w/positive emotions bringing in all that self-amusing pimp talk so the girl doesn't think i'm so over-eager chode.
5. Really staying focused outside womanizing (future programming/entrepreneur goals, being 100% responsible in my day job, staying on top w/my soccer and cardio) . I take everything so seriously in my life because I understand that SUCCESS is a habit. I want to keep up the intensity. Right now I'm busy for like 16 hours a day Monday - Thursday. I just need to keep this up Friday - Sunday (like 8- 12 hours of productivity) and I will really reap the benefits of my hard work down the road. Just really want to hone my work ethic on the weekend. It's hard to stay motivated then but I can do it - I've done it before.
I also realized that from now on I have nothing to prove to myself. Sleeping with 20 more girls does not make me that much better of a man. It really doesn't.
Gonna start doing some inner game work and do the same exercises every 10 days and then reflect on my issues. At the moment, I realize that my inner game falls behind my outer game. I hate talking about inner game but I do have some weird mental quirks which don't usually allow me the type of interactions i should be having more frequently. Going to be fixing those up. Also going to start up the meditation after not doing it for a week and going to start doing this consistently.
Really, my biggest focus in June is going to be PUSH and the willingness to walk away and lose sets while going for the hottest girl possible (it is a fuckin TOUGH thing to do but I want that iciness that will serve me well. I'm collecting mad numbers this month so no worries - ABUNDANCE. I also have to stop pushing sets so fast. Let it happen. No need to rush anything. If she doesn't want to fuck on the first date, just wait till the next date if you really like her. I keep rushing shit but I can't rush this shit w/chicks. It may be boring but I can always #close and do something else.
1. Text and follow-up game -
I've learned some crucial crucial fundamentals from MW about text game so my text game anxiety has been sort of eliminated. Next step is to just have free flowing text conversations like I would have in-person text game conversations and from their up meeting. This is my MAIN focus this month - just pushing shit to the bitter end w/my text game and really getting calibrated into getting a meet-up. Jheeze I can't believe I ignored this part of my game for so long. SO SO CRUCIAL.
2. Willingness to walk away and lose sets while going for the hottest girl possible (straight up over entitled icy asshole) - One thing I really admire about Julien and Tyler is that they refuse to play the bird in hand i.e. if they're w/a 7 - they'll ditch the 7 and go for the 9 if they see the 9. Which is so fuckin tough to do. Especially if you've been in set w/a girl for over 20 minutes and you guys have chemistry..... I'm going to do this for awhile because when I'm in set w/a chick for like 20 minutes I start to feel attached. Like even if I see another chick after #closed the 7 or 8 - I'll be reluctant to let the girl see me pimp another girl because I don't want to come across as a scumbag player. Fuck it - if i lose the chick, i lose the chick. My text game isn't that good at the moment anyway so this is the perfect time to do it. Also, I will be highly focused on getting #s during the day-time once again so if I'm that worried about getting no buns I can just FOCUS on making sure I run the correct follow-up game. For instance, on Saturday I met this awesome 7 with a tight body and as soon as her friend pulled her away to go home even though we had serious chemistry - I felt my state drop. The only way I can get over this issue is cutting all sorts of attachment and that's by continually cutting good interactions and going for even hotter chicks. I'm not looking forward to doing this at all but I'm trying to chip away at my fuckin comfort zone at the moment so I can see some epic shit like 2 months down the road.
3. Continuing to always incorporate the PUSH at the first moment I get an opportunity - This is so big. The PUSH is so important and that's what creates the attraction in a lot of sets. Just so fuckin important. Can't stress this enough. As I start to peel off blind spots and continue to realize how MONEY of a guy I am. I will continue to do this.
4. Going deeper into authenticity and being more expressive w/it. - I'm going to start being even more authentic and saying whatever I want. I also think I need to not over-apologize for my bluntness. Maybe tops ONE statement of empathy to the girl. Being unapologetic and un-reactive. It's just what I do - I've always been politically incorrect and speak from the heart when i was younger and people always used to criticize me for it - now just being blunt and being comfortable in my own skin.....On the other hand, when I'm feeling extra intense, hyper, and overwhelmed w/positive emotions bringing in all that self-amusing pimp talk so the girl doesn't think i'm so over-eager chode.
5. Really staying focused outside womanizing (future programming/entrepreneur goals, being 100% responsible in my day job, staying on top w/my soccer and cardio) . I take everything so seriously in my life because I understand that SUCCESS is a habit. I want to keep up the intensity. Right now I'm busy for like 16 hours a day Monday - Thursday. I just need to keep this up Friday - Sunday (like 8- 12 hours of productivity) and I will really reap the benefits of my hard work down the road. Just really want to hone my work ethic on the weekend. It's hard to stay motivated then but I can do it - I've done it before.
I also realized that from now on I have nothing to prove to myself. Sleeping with 20 more girls does not make me that much better of a man. It really doesn't.
Gonna start doing some inner game work and do the same exercises every 10 days and then reflect on my issues. At the moment, I realize that my inner game falls behind my outer game. I hate talking about inner game but I do have some weird mental quirks which don't usually allow me the type of interactions i should be having more frequently. Going to be fixing those up. Also going to start up the meditation after not doing it for a week and going to start doing this consistently.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
Wednesday 06/06
On the way back to soccer - I bump into this girl. I think it was a girl I # closed on Saturday and had some pretty good text exchanges w/. Instead of playing it cool and going w/my gut. I approached her and came across incongruent. End up ruining the interaction and ever since she hasn't responded to my texts. O well - sheWent out to some lil hipster spot. Shit was kinda bumpin n packed. Not too many girls. Fuck around w/the push a bit - maybe its too forced. Got to find the right balance.
Have a bit of fun but something is still missing...From the outside looking in - it seems good but something is missing. Is it authenticity? Is it my subpar text game before I meet the girl? What is missing?
Thursday 06/07
I wake up kinda pissed about some shit. I realize slowly it's that I can't get the validation that I crave from people.
I hop on a subway and hit up some girl on the way to work extra expressive because I've been a little bitch for the past 2 or so weeks w/day game as I've been making a lot of bullshit excuses during the day about not doing stuff.
Pretty charismatic - standard shit. I've come to realize that to me i have to be a little bit more expressive than usual to have the girl believe i actually like her. I don't know why this is the case but I realize when I'm "passionate" about the girl's beauty it comes across as congruent to her. Fun stuff - I get her # and start texting her later in the day.
I end up getting home after 11 from soccer. Meditate, take a nap and fuck - wake up at 4:30. FUCK
Ahh 2nd night i missed out this week. Dammit! I derive a lot of entitlement from how action I take so this shit pisses me off.
Friday 06/08
Get out kinda late after spending the day home w/my bro after he had surgery. This fucker wanted to go out and beast even though he was on Percocet. lol fuckin sick guy.
Roll up to my spot in BK. Been reading Manwhore LRs of late - he said something of the like "yo - you have to have the night come to you". Same kind of Alex shit so I just chill out and send a couple of texts and e-mails to people until I'm relaxed enough to approach. I run into some guys from my HS who l used to roll w/ that used to clown my ass and they still think I'm a chode. For 5 minutes I'm on some "ill shit all over you" type shit and just realize YO - I DON'T HAVE TO PROVE ANYTHING TO ANYONE PAST OR PRESENT - NOT EVEN MYSELF. I AM NOT MORE AWESOME BECAUSE I HAVE BETTER GAME THAN SOMEONE. It's just what it is. Sad that it's taken me 10-11 months to realize this and going out every day for 3 months but after watching that GIRLS show and going on a couple of Day 2s - most of these chicks ain't on my level mann. They don't even think they deserve me.
Problem is I'm like the brand new Ferrari with shiny rims or whatever pimp car accessory but then the owner is like "butttt the Ferrari is yellow....must be blue because more people like blue than yellow"....Wtf.
I roll up on a couple of girls - nothing great logistically, chill out w/some cute but annoying 22 year old chick for 30 mins but I kinda let her run off while I look for a better option.
Actually looking back, there was this feisty girl chilling w/some chode that was enjoying me running some great push/pull on her. I should have just stole her off the chode. O Katalyst - the player w/a heart of gold.
No worries. I sometimes am really hard on myself but my rate of progress and learning in these past 3 months has been phenomenal. I'm going to read my FR journal soon and gloat on how much I've improved over the past couple of months instead of always being MISSION MISSION - OPERATION GET GIRL OPERATION GET GIRL. That shit gets you nowhere - when you act like that you're like the coke addict that will do anything else just for one more whiff of the coke - doesn't matter where the coke is - you could be a guy and want to sniff coke off some scumbag's dick just for another hit. That's sick.
On the way back to soccer - I bump into this girl. I think it was a girl I # closed on Saturday and had some pretty good text exchanges w/. Instead of playing it cool and going w/my gut. I approached her and came across incongruent. End up ruining the interaction and ever since she hasn't responded to my texts. O well - sheWent out to some lil hipster spot. Shit was kinda bumpin n packed. Not too many girls. Fuck around w/the push a bit - maybe its too forced. Got to find the right balance.
Have a bit of fun but something is still missing...From the outside looking in - it seems good but something is missing. Is it authenticity? Is it my subpar text game before I meet the girl? What is missing?
Thursday 06/07
I wake up kinda pissed about some shit. I realize slowly it's that I can't get the validation that I crave from people.
I hop on a subway and hit up some girl on the way to work extra expressive because I've been a little bitch for the past 2 or so weeks w/day game as I've been making a lot of bullshit excuses during the day about not doing stuff.
Pretty charismatic - standard shit. I've come to realize that to me i have to be a little bit more expressive than usual to have the girl believe i actually like her. I don't know why this is the case but I realize when I'm "passionate" about the girl's beauty it comes across as congruent to her. Fun stuff - I get her # and start texting her later in the day.
I end up getting home after 11 from soccer. Meditate, take a nap and fuck - wake up at 4:30. FUCK
Ahh 2nd night i missed out this week. Dammit! I derive a lot of entitlement from how action I take so this shit pisses me off.
Friday 06/08
Get out kinda late after spending the day home w/my bro after he had surgery. This fucker wanted to go out and beast even though he was on Percocet. lol fuckin sick guy.
Roll up to my spot in BK. Been reading Manwhore LRs of late - he said something of the like "yo - you have to have the night come to you". Same kind of Alex shit so I just chill out and send a couple of texts and e-mails to people until I'm relaxed enough to approach. I run into some guys from my HS who l used to roll w/ that used to clown my ass and they still think I'm a chode. For 5 minutes I'm on some "ill shit all over you" type shit and just realize YO - I DON'T HAVE TO PROVE ANYTHING TO ANYONE PAST OR PRESENT - NOT EVEN MYSELF. I AM NOT MORE AWESOME BECAUSE I HAVE BETTER GAME THAN SOMEONE. It's just what it is. Sad that it's taken me 10-11 months to realize this and going out every day for 3 months but after watching that GIRLS show and going on a couple of Day 2s - most of these chicks ain't on my level mann. They don't even think they deserve me.
Problem is I'm like the brand new Ferrari with shiny rims or whatever pimp car accessory but then the owner is like "butttt the Ferrari is yellow....must be blue because more people like blue than yellow"....Wtf.
I roll up on a couple of girls - nothing great logistically, chill out w/some cute but annoying 22 year old chick for 30 mins but I kinda let her run off while I look for a better option.
Actually looking back, there was this feisty girl chilling w/some chode that was enjoying me running some great push/pull on her. I should have just stole her off the chode. O Katalyst - the player w/a heart of gold.
No worries. I sometimes am really hard on myself but my rate of progress and learning in these past 3 months has been phenomenal. I'm going to read my FR journal soon and gloat on how much I've improved over the past couple of months instead of always being MISSION MISSION - OPERATION GET GIRL OPERATION GET GIRL. That shit gets you nowhere - when you act like that you're like the coke addict that will do anything else just for one more whiff of the coke - doesn't matter where the coke is - you could be a guy and want to sniff coke off some scumbag's dick just for another hit. That's sick.
__________________
"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
Been one of the darkest weeks i've had in awhile but the joy is I've found a wing that's just as passionate about getting into really good venues and hitting up chicks as HARD(er) than I. We've got to work on wing chemistry which will prolly come eventually but Im learning a lot from this guy. Couple that w/the fact that he's already been tooling me for chicks (the way Julien and Tyler tool chicks) - shit's fuckin perfect.
It's been great because since Sunday I've had a wing to go out w/every day that i enjoy going out w/. L and Christian are awesome and I can't believe I went the last 3 months or so just ego-tripping on the fact that I was mainly going out solo.
Saturday 06/09
Last night felt so fuckin good. I felt so content. Why? Because i finally gave myself permission. Wow that Tyler video did boat loads for me.
Roll up on a couple of girls just putting out good silly vibes - first good amount of self-amusement I've put out in awhile. It's great - I have the aura like i just got laid. I feel like I need nothing from the girls and they can smell that on me. Now I understand Alex's game.
I hit up this group of hot chicks, this blond girl really likes me. Does PR for Victoria's Secret or some shit. beautiful beautiful girl. Am kinda consciously aloof talk to her for a bit and then talk to some other girls w/o feeling "guilty" about it like I would have in the past.
I just do my thing as I flirt with a bunch of chicks in the venue n don't want anything from them. Have random girls coming up to me - it's getting kinda MAD in this bitch. I have that aura. How? I just gave it to myself and it's beautiful. It doesn't run all night but i had a good 2 hour period where it just felt good to be internally validated.
Sunday 06/10
Head out to some hipster party on the beach w/my new wing.... It's good stuff. On the way there, I get another seatbelt ticket. Idk y i have to wear a seatbelt, mind your fuckin business officer. $300 down the drain - i could have went to Philly HotSeat, done a bunch of stuff w/that money. Fuckin fags. fuck nypd.
I'm sad for like about 15 minutes and I'm initially out of it when I get to the party.
Long story short- me and my wing do it up. I run into some short Brazilian-Indian hipster chick from London. Idk y i love her vibe but I do - she's so silly.
I was playing jealously plot lines w/her and i see this other chick nearby. I'm talking to her and whatnot and in my head I'm like i should make out w/this chick but i'm all thinking about not hurting the other girls feelings. I probably should have made out w/the other chick. Idk.
Anyways, my new wing just starts making out w/her. I'm jealous but happy. I love this guy - he challenges the shit out of my reality and is cool as fuck.
It ends up being a good time because I'm having fun and acting stupid.
Monday 06/11
Go out w/Christian.
Haven't seen him in over 3 years when I was really going out like that.
I hit up a bunch of chicks, usual stupidity. I notice that things are going good but Christian's vibe is so much more masculine w/chicks. Just calmer, cooler, more steady.
Big epiphany of the night - just be cool and friendly no stupid bs.
Tuesday 06/12
I end up not going out or doing any approaches. First time i hadn't done so in over 110 days or whatever. Why? I was tired from cardio and was also feeling really shitty noticing how much I sought out validation from my environment just as i walked around as I went about my day.. Jeez - external validation is really fuckin w/me...
Wednesday 06/13
I actually had a great daygame session. I was feeling really sad and out of it. Sadness is good for me because it inspires action (at least for me). It was great.
I approached some chick on the subway after soccer.... Didn't work out so I approached the chick a couple of feet next to her. Got off the subway w/her and talked for a bit. That didn't work out either. As I was getting out the subway, approached another chick who was walking w/her friends. I shattered like 2 limiting beliefs that I had for months in a matter of 30 mins or so...It was great. The confidence was legendary. Got to keep this up. Fuck if i have a reputation.
Go out w/my new wing L a few hours later...
Meet up at a downtown spot and there are not too many chicks out there. It felt good to just let go and fuck around when the Kanye West - "I Don't Like" song came on. That's my favorite song this year. I was acting a damn fool and it was the first time in a long time I was actually the party.
Me and L realize that it's a waste of time so we head out to W.I.P (now closed)….We roll out there and we can get in because every hip-hop star and their momma is inside. Annoying I can't get in because i've hit here up plenty of times.... Looking back it's good we didn't get in because we would could have potentially gotten hit by bottles thrown by either Chris Brown or Drake lol..We end up hitting up a bunch of street sets and I enjoy watching L's aggressiveness - it's awesome. I do wish i wasn't sitting it back playing it too cool for school. Should have hit up every set...
Thursday 06/14
Head out like at 2:30 and meet up w/my lesbian friend I haven't seen in awhile...…As i get there a bunch of hot girls are leaving. Fuck i hate when this happens. My sense of time sucks. Flirt w/a bunch of girls and I'm having fun….End up staying out till like 4.
Friday 06/15
Head out w/L and we stay in Brooklyn. Roll out to our spot and i see him talking to some sexy chick. I wing him and start talking to this girl. She's this little cute Jewish girl that's weird. She's fuckin hilarious though. I end up blowing it out because I was trying to escalate too fast. Could have just chilled out - she was so DOWNN…o validation FAIL.... Go on and proceed to blow out of most sets. L ends up pulling.
Saturday 06/16
Hang out w/co-workers in Alphabet City. One of my co-workers brings one of her friends who I've been talking about fuckin for months. Play it cool and flirt w/her. Luckily I don't do anything stupid to fuck up the vibe and head out to meet up w/L at our Saturday spot.
L tools me out for several chicks throughout the course of the night. I get instant state from this and I'm fuckin motivated to get him back. It's great holy shit. I thought i'd hate it but i love it because if you don't have value - you don't have value...
Go out and I'm more authentic as the night goes on which is something i was missing. Thing is i'm too wrapped up in the self-image paradigm. There was this cute Cuban chick who I told her that I wanted to make her my whore and pound her vaginal juices. She says I'm being a rude and i tell her that I'm a poet and was just foreshadowing ;). Thing is I don't listen to chicks. She said "whoa this is a little early I need some more drinks". Meaning she just need to spend more time w/me. I dance w/her for a bit and sometimes we dance as if we're fucking doggystyle or some shit.
I shake my head as i write this up. i could have pulled this chick or at least went for it. I didn't end up pulling her because well….i was too wrapped up in two minds.
Make out w/some Indian fatty afterwards. lol i would have fucked this chick but i was like chill son raise your standards.
Hit up some street sets. L ends up pulling.
Sunday 06/17
Head out for a bit w/L. nothing spectacular….Highlight of the night was walking away from these cute lame chicks who were giving me validation. Something I really wouldn't have done before.
It's been great because since Sunday I've had a wing to go out w/every day that i enjoy going out w/. L and Christian are awesome and I can't believe I went the last 3 months or so just ego-tripping on the fact that I was mainly going out solo.
Saturday 06/09
Last night felt so fuckin good. I felt so content. Why? Because i finally gave myself permission. Wow that Tyler video did boat loads for me.
Roll up on a couple of girls just putting out good silly vibes - first good amount of self-amusement I've put out in awhile. It's great - I have the aura like i just got laid. I feel like I need nothing from the girls and they can smell that on me. Now I understand Alex's game.
I hit up this group of hot chicks, this blond girl really likes me. Does PR for Victoria's Secret or some shit. beautiful beautiful girl. Am kinda consciously aloof talk to her for a bit and then talk to some other girls w/o feeling "guilty" about it like I would have in the past.
I just do my thing as I flirt with a bunch of chicks in the venue n don't want anything from them. Have random girls coming up to me - it's getting kinda MAD in this bitch. I have that aura. How? I just gave it to myself and it's beautiful. It doesn't run all night but i had a good 2 hour period where it just felt good to be internally validated.
Sunday 06/10
Head out to some hipster party on the beach w/my new wing.... It's good stuff. On the way there, I get another seatbelt ticket. Idk y i have to wear a seatbelt, mind your fuckin business officer. $300 down the drain - i could have went to Philly HotSeat, done a bunch of stuff w/that money. Fuckin fags. fuck nypd.
I'm sad for like about 15 minutes and I'm initially out of it when I get to the party.
Long story short- me and my wing do it up. I run into some short Brazilian-Indian hipster chick from London. Idk y i love her vibe but I do - she's so silly.
I was playing jealously plot lines w/her and i see this other chick nearby. I'm talking to her and whatnot and in my head I'm like i should make out w/this chick but i'm all thinking about not hurting the other girls feelings. I probably should have made out w/the other chick. Idk.
Anyways, my new wing just starts making out w/her. I'm jealous but happy. I love this guy - he challenges the shit out of my reality and is cool as fuck.
It ends up being a good time because I'm having fun and acting stupid.
Monday 06/11
Go out w/Christian.
Haven't seen him in over 3 years when I was really going out like that.
I hit up a bunch of chicks, usual stupidity. I notice that things are going good but Christian's vibe is so much more masculine w/chicks. Just calmer, cooler, more steady.
Big epiphany of the night - just be cool and friendly no stupid bs.
Tuesday 06/12
I end up not going out or doing any approaches. First time i hadn't done so in over 110 days or whatever. Why? I was tired from cardio and was also feeling really shitty noticing how much I sought out validation from my environment just as i walked around as I went about my day.. Jeez - external validation is really fuckin w/me...
Wednesday 06/13
I actually had a great daygame session. I was feeling really sad and out of it. Sadness is good for me because it inspires action (at least for me). It was great.
I approached some chick on the subway after soccer.... Didn't work out so I approached the chick a couple of feet next to her. Got off the subway w/her and talked for a bit. That didn't work out either. As I was getting out the subway, approached another chick who was walking w/her friends. I shattered like 2 limiting beliefs that I had for months in a matter of 30 mins or so...It was great. The confidence was legendary. Got to keep this up. Fuck if i have a reputation.
Go out w/my new wing L a few hours later...
Meet up at a downtown spot and there are not too many chicks out there. It felt good to just let go and fuck around when the Kanye West - "I Don't Like" song came on. That's my favorite song this year. I was acting a damn fool and it was the first time in a long time I was actually the party.
Me and L realize that it's a waste of time so we head out to W.I.P (now closed)….We roll out there and we can get in because every hip-hop star and their momma is inside. Annoying I can't get in because i've hit here up plenty of times.... Looking back it's good we didn't get in because we would could have potentially gotten hit by bottles thrown by either Chris Brown or Drake lol..We end up hitting up a bunch of street sets and I enjoy watching L's aggressiveness - it's awesome. I do wish i wasn't sitting it back playing it too cool for school. Should have hit up every set...
Thursday 06/14
Head out like at 2:30 and meet up w/my lesbian friend I haven't seen in awhile...…As i get there a bunch of hot girls are leaving. Fuck i hate when this happens. My sense of time sucks. Flirt w/a bunch of girls and I'm having fun….End up staying out till like 4.
Friday 06/15
Head out w/L and we stay in Brooklyn. Roll out to our spot and i see him talking to some sexy chick. I wing him and start talking to this girl. She's this little cute Jewish girl that's weird. She's fuckin hilarious though. I end up blowing it out because I was trying to escalate too fast. Could have just chilled out - she was so DOWNN…o validation FAIL.... Go on and proceed to blow out of most sets. L ends up pulling.
Saturday 06/16
Hang out w/co-workers in Alphabet City. One of my co-workers brings one of her friends who I've been talking about fuckin for months. Play it cool and flirt w/her. Luckily I don't do anything stupid to fuck up the vibe and head out to meet up w/L at our Saturday spot.
L tools me out for several chicks throughout the course of the night. I get instant state from this and I'm fuckin motivated to get him back. It's great holy shit. I thought i'd hate it but i love it because if you don't have value - you don't have value...
Go out and I'm more authentic as the night goes on which is something i was missing. Thing is i'm too wrapped up in the self-image paradigm. There was this cute Cuban chick who I told her that I wanted to make her my whore and pound her vaginal juices. She says I'm being a rude and i tell her that I'm a poet and was just foreshadowing ;). Thing is I don't listen to chicks. She said "whoa this is a little early I need some more drinks". Meaning she just need to spend more time w/me. I dance w/her for a bit and sometimes we dance as if we're fucking doggystyle or some shit.
I shake my head as i write this up. i could have pulled this chick or at least went for it. I didn't end up pulling her because well….i was too wrapped up in two minds.
Make out w/some Indian fatty afterwards. lol i would have fucked this chick but i was like chill son raise your standards.
Hit up some street sets. L ends up pulling.
Sunday 06/17
Head out for a bit w/L. nothing spectacular….Highlight of the night was walking away from these cute lame chicks who were giving me validation. Something I really wouldn't have done before.
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"To put it in gentleman's terms if you've been out for a night and you're looking for a young lady and you pull one, some weeks they're good looking and some weeks they're not the best. Our performance today would have been not the best looking bird but at least we got her in the taxi. She wasn't the best looking lady we ended up taking home but she was very pleasant and very nice, so thanks very much, let's have a coffee..........A win is like a bird and we take her home. At the end of the day, we want a better looking one than that if we can, if not, we'll take her home anyway".
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean
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Mon 05/21 (Day 91)
On the way back from work, see some chick on the train. Wait literally 15 minutes to approach her (she gets off @ my stop) - talk to her for a bit, vibe out and # close. Sort of pissed I didn't talk to her as soon as I saw her. A million limiting beliefs just flooded my head. Real sloppy set but i finally took action, even though it wasn't the RIGHT action.
Head out after a nap and get to my Monday spot kinda late. Hit up a couple of sets but it wasn't as effective and authentic as the usual. Sort of holding myself back. End up talking to some decent Puerto Rican chick. # close.
Tue 05/22 (Day 92)
Do some delayed approaches on the subway. I want to see and just go. Build up that mental strength muscle.... I know I can do it - but these days I've been overthinking my shits. Head out w/my lesbian friend and her group of dyke friends. It's nice to see her after she got into a car crash - thought she would be out long-term but she recovered faster than usual. We chill in some bar in Fort Greene then we head out to Manhattan like @230. Stand in line for some club I've been going to of late - don't get in w/her. Decide to head to another spot where it's gay night. Bouncers ask me repeatedly what I'm doing here TONIGHT and I'm like what you think lol. There are 2 girls in the venue. Everyone else is a gay dude. It's great - just walk up to some girl surrounded by a cockfarm and pull her out. Cute little French chick w/curly hair - "omg there's a immediate attraction". Dance for a bit, figure out it won't go down due to her having a BF etc.
I think gay nights are best for guys who are scared of doing mixed sets. I could see dudes easily internalizing it's ok to do mixed sets. Not the most productive couple of days but hey there are gonna be bumps on the road to success sometimes.
Just need to grab some shut-eye and FOCUS. PLAY TO WIN. Been pretty sleep-deprived for awhile though.
Wednesday (Day 93)
Approach some girl on the subway. Nothing fruitful. Pass out after soccer. 3rd missed Wednesday night in 4 weeks. Damn it!
-Ian Holloway (http://youtu.be/fB9rI7p7vmk)
“My dad's philosophy was (and I think still is) that life is a malevolent force, which seeks to destroy you, and you have to struggle with it. Only those who are hard enough will succeed. Most people get crushed, but if you fight, in the end life will go, "Fucking hell. This one's serious. Let him through.”
-Russell Brand
"GOIN HARD THE WHOLE NIGHT CUZ I AIN'T GOING BACK TO MY OLD LIFE......I PROMISE"
-Big Sean