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ilb

ilb

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Join Date: 08/08/2011 | Posts: 322

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CBAABC

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Join Date: 02/20/2009 | Posts: 1692

 @ilb: yea, thanks man. Too bad you left that awesome city :(

31.3.2012

Today, just very briefly chatted a girl up at my exams...Not gonna do daygame today, may go out to a club.

I have been avoiding my parents...especially my dad. As he is not a good influence on me if I want to be succesful in life.

He´s very negative (doesn´t matter if you just did something amazing, he does not see it or is never satisfied with it), he´s addicted to bad emotions (always angry/anxious), his beliefs towards women are not productive for my goals.

Soooo...that means that I have some of that shit too. At least now I know what I can work on.

-Positivity (always acknowledging the positives)
-Work on how to be relaxed (meditation, expanding my comfort zone, good mindset)
-Getting rid of limiting beliefs (I am not enough, other people are more valuable than me, my looks are bad- probably unconscious, women don´t like sex)

I am gonna avoid my dad like the plague. But on the positive side, he´s the one who´s financing everything (books, trips, rsd events).

So yea, I am glad that we had a fight, realised that I´ll need to work on a lot of stuff. Nice.

ChinaBoy
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detourxl~

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Join Date: 11/01/2009 | Posts: 651

Hope you don't become a weird pickup guy mate.

Be normal. No one is perfect. Your dad did the best he could with the resources available to
Him. There was no RSDnation and self help for him. "avoiding him like the plague" is weird and not normal. Something a pickup weirdo would do.

Just accept no one is perfect and if he is negative, that's his own inner shit.
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MY PRE BOOTCAMP JOURNAL - a very honest account of a guy trying to transform this area of his lifehttp://www.rsdnation.com/node/176546

ALEXANDER BOOTCAMP REVIEW - Oslo, September 2011 http://www.rsdnation.com/node/200440

POST BOOTCAMP JOURNAL - holding myself accountable, seeing how far I can go. http://www.rsdnation.com/node/201364
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Molan

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Join Date: 04/03/2009 | Posts: 400

man i had to comment, just read couple pages of your journey

first of all don't you dare to say anything negative about your dad, if you dont appreciate what he gives you, than fuck off! he paid for all the RSD events + travel costs?! so i dont care if he's negative , make some money on your own, grow up and leave your parents house, but for now...say thanks you dad, and shut up! people are dreaming about such dad!

as for your infield video and journal in general,you are fucking young (18 or so am i right?) , it seems like you didnt go through lots of things in life other than pickup stuff, you need to grow your personality behind pickup and be more fun dude to be around who dont take life so seriously....

you are too logic with your reports and probably in your day to day life... i saw the video you created for Alex euro trip, and you have to be less serious and logic about life and pickup ofcourse, take the 'life is a joke' attitude more into consideration …(emotionally and socialy its 100%) only when you'll have field reports like :
' fuck yeah, this girl was hotttt, i said some fucked up things which i don't even remember, she might said something, and we fucked later on in some alley, was so fun, i'm so awesome, i love myself, damnnn i'm like god, i love her, i love myself, life is good…"

only when you'll think that way you'll start getting results….

pickup is about emotions not logic! , it seems like you already comes as high value dude in set, and your sets get opened, at least from what you showed us, which is a good sign…start to enjoy yourself and life more,(and stop begin a fucking nerd fucked up logic dude! and think about how you are going to fuck the girl when talking to her (logistics is the only thing that matter, attraction is assumed) and enjoying yourself and life more, have fun! when you'll think about logistics, you'll start to lead more, which you definitely don't do in set enough…it seems like you just talking and not taking it anywhere, especially when in street when you have to move things as soon as they hook

be more fun, be more awesome, logistics, lead…that's all! and stop doing things to impress some dudes in rsdnation ...it seems like you want people here to think you are the man or something lol


ohh and TOOBAD, I love you dude, what's up cunttttt

p.s - i only commented here because it seems like you putting a lot of time into this and not getting enough results, you are way too much logic and not leading at all….be awesome and start banging girls! if you'll keep the dedication, you can't not get better at this and remember, you dont really need girls, 'people have only as much power as you give them'
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CBAABC

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 @Detourlx: Duuuude....you need to chill the fuck out. You cannot see the whole picture. Of course my dad has a lot of very positive qualities.

But...when I come to our restaurant, say hi to my dad...and he starts insulting, arguing with me, go on a furious rant and talking about all my negative qualities out of the blue for no reason...that shit is fucked up.

Maybe I am delusional...but I think I am normal (that I am fine) :)

@molan: I never said that I don´t appreciate. tounge

hehe, nice you saw the vid.

About the fun thing....overall you´re true.

Of course in some sets I am having much more fun than in the others, like talking shit, being illogical...BUT I DO NOT WRITE IT HERE. Of course I am arousing, that´t the part of Natural Instincts Method. 

I think my fun levels are kinda OK. But if you are judging me by THAT video (which was made in January)...yes I agree, at that time I was much less fun person to be around. But a lot has changed since january 2012. tounge

Since Jan I have been hanging out with my wing/friend and we talk shit all the time...like nonstop stupid bullshit.

If PU wasn´t fun for me...I´d have given up ages ago.

Anyway, I think I am awesome, cuz I take more action than most people I know...and cuz I have endured a lot of bullshit (even outside PU).

DURRRRR. WUT U mean not leading enough?

Anyways, thanks for the input Detourlx and Israeli Elite Soldier guy (lol are you the israeli guy molan? :D)

EDIT: @Molan: LOOOOOL dude.

AT first I was like yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! Alex is inviting me to the trip.....next pm I found out  Alex:"´ll show it to the crew to see WHAT THEY THINK" sad

Now you (one of the crew) said that I am not fun enough...so I am like "fuuuuuck, no trip for Ivi?" sadteeth

For me that profesional grade holiday was like summit for the intructors...Everything I did until now was preparation for that.

You made me insecure like how 12 yo girls are insecure about their looks teeth

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ACMRA1

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Join Date: 07/14/2010 | Posts: 183

Hey man.  I know what you're saying about stifling parent's.  Mine are pretty similar.  But atleast they're paying for your trips, books, and rsd events.  All that shit I have to pay myself.

Besides that I just wanted to give you props on your consistency on going out all the time and keeping a journal.  I go out a lot but just never seem to have the time or will power to consistently jot down all my thoughts and ideas.  Your definitely a guy, I can see that in a few years will be a certified beast at this shit. Cheers

ps.  N you lucky fuck if you get to go on that Alex trip. lol
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Martin Crowe

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Join Date: 11/11/2008 | Posts: 611

Molan wrote:
man i had to comment, just read couple pages of your journey

first of all don't you dare to say anything negative about your dad, if you dont appreciate what he gives you, than fuck off! he paid for all the RSD events + travel costs?! so i dont care if he's negative , make some money on your own, grow up and leave your parents house, but for now...say thanks you dad, and shut up! people are dreaming about such dad!

as for your infield video and journal in general,you are fucking young (18 or so am i right?) , it seems like you didnt go through lots of things in life other than pickup stuff, you need to grow your personality behind pickup and be more fun dude to be around who dont take life so seriously....

you are too logic with your reports and probably in your day to day life... i saw the video you created for Alex euro trip, and you have to be less serious and logic about life and pickup ofcourse, take the 'life is a joke' attitude more into consideration …(emotionally and socialy its 100%) only when you'll have field reports like :
' fuck yeah, this girl was hotttt, i said some fucked up things which i don't even remember, she might said something, and we fucked later on in some alley, was so fun, i'm so awesome, i love myself, damnnn i'm like god, i love her, i love myself, life is good…"

only when you'll think that way you'll start getting results….

pickup is about emotions not logic! , it seems like you already comes as high value dude in set, and your sets get opened, at least from what you showed us, which is a good sign…start to enjoy yourself and life more,(and stop begin a fucking nerd fucked up logic dude! and think about how you are going to fuck the girl when talking to her (logistics is the only thing that matter, attraction is assumed) and enjoying yourself and life more, have fun! when you'll think about logistics, you'll start to lead more, which you definitely don't do in set enough…it seems like you just talking and not taking it anywhere, especially when in street when you have to move things as soon as they hook

be more fun, be more awesome, logistics, lead…that's all! and stop doing things to impress some dudes in rsdnation ...it seems like you want people here to think you are the man or something lol


ohh and TOOBAD, I love you dude, what's up cunttttt

p.s - i only commented here because it seems like you putting a lot of time into this and not getting enough results, you are way too much logic and not leading at all….be awesome and start banging girls! if you'll keep the dedication, you can't not get better at this and remember, you dont really need girls, 'people have only as much power as you give them'

Yeah I pretty much agree bang on with everything Molan said. You have absolutely no right too criticize your parents when they fork out for your lodging, holidays and rsd events. That shit is extreme freeloading on your behalf combined with massive generosity on theirs. Maybe if  you paid your own way on these things you'd value them more, feel more self-worth and ultimately be better at this. How the hell did you proposition a bootcamp to them anyway? When I did mine I was just super freaked out that my friends or family would somehow find out LOL. 

In another thread you slam someone and mention been 'totally over people in the community', which is fair enough, if only you weren't the biggest and most steriotypical face of the community itself. That's exactly how you came across in your Alex trip 'audition' video, listing all the token things which appear popular on the rsd main forum as your hobbies. This endears yourself to no one except other steriotype community guys. 

Yes it's admirable that you go out and apply yourself so much at this, but did it ever occur to you how other, non community guys your age hook up with chicks? Friends, parties, university etc Try having normal friends and hanging out with them for purposes other than 'day game'. There is serious value in just been a chill, regular dude who's totally comfortable with himself. You always seem to be scrambling for the next bit of self help advice, hoping it will be the final piece of the puzzle that makes you complete. No such piece fucking exists, and its totally at odds with the mindset of 'I am enough'.

You're not the only one guilty if this by the way. Most of the guys I've met in 'the community' are stuck in this same fucking headspace. They act as though they are building towards something, and because they are always 'building' or 'gaining momentum' - they can never be consistent. It's called time gazing. Everybody goes through this phase while learning pick up, but so many just stay in it forever. In plainer words it's called ceasing to be a little bitch. 
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CBAABC

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 @amcra: I am not saying that i am going....he´s taking application vids.

@martin: yep, I have been in "this" for like 3-4 years...but before I was just reading self help books (which now I think are kinda useless) and they know about RSD...since I tell everything to my parents (there´s zero secrets from my side). So yes, in some areas we have exceptionally good relationship and in one area it´s not so good.

True...one thing I realised that I am kinda a single focused person...That when I set out on a journey I do it hardcore and think about it all day. I had a 1 year period of healthy eating then almost 1 year of hardcore weight gain, now It´s PU...They all have one thing in common: I thought that´s what´s gonna get me girls.

My starting point was really low. Zero friends. I just had some people that I talked to in school and that was it. So yea, I am really happy that I have changed a lot as a person, the actual results will come.

Starting to be more chill, more easy going, social skills, social intuition, social calibration (which I had none, just read the BC review), more self amusing, more confident, etc.
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CBAABC

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Join Date: 02/20/2009 | Posts: 1692

 1.4.2012- The End Of ChinaBoy

Today I am suprisingly not comming with a field report...this time it´s different.

This feels like the most important post I have written in a long long time.

This journey has been very rough, with spurts of joy, but most importantly a lot of tears, frustration, sadness.

I GUESS I WILL NEVER GET GOOD AT THIS.

I dunno what it is, but I tried my best, I have taken a shit load of action, I have pushed way beyond my comfort zone.

I did my best. Taken also a lot of RSD events, read a shit ton of material, spend hours upon hours infield...seems like everything was just a waste of time and it´s just making me more miserable.

I have been thinking about quitting for over a month. Now I have finaly decided.

I want to thank everyone whom I have met. And also thank everyone who has posted here to support.

BUT THIS IS THE END OF CHINABOY.

No more tears, no more frustrations, no more depressions, no more feelings of hopelessness, no more feeling soooo bad that you get sick (I have been hiding this as I was ashamed of it). cry

This is my last post here. Check that video out and let me know what you guys think.

I wish everyone good luck and wish that they will never have the same experiences like me.

Farewell RSDnation.

ChinaBoy

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AlexV

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Join Date: 11/12/2011 | Posts: 1537

 taking a week off helps

by the way, took me about 2 years to get actually verifiably good at internet marketing

PU i'd say is significantly harder though, for me at least

you'll be back, just watch how hard it is not to talk to nice hot girls ;) And also not nice hot girls. :D

(update: ok so i watched the video..)
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