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DJMarco

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After procrastinating for ages I am finally going to write field reports.

Do not expect much from me at the moment, coz I am still a fucking newbie with AA.

anyways, I will try to keep this updated all the time.
 
and you will hear how didn't I approach the cute blondie coz I thought blah, blah , blah, and how my night sucked.

anyway, I am starting now.
Let's see what will happen
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DJMarco

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2011

7/28
Made plans to go daygaming with my french buddy. We were suppose to meet at 4pm. But fucked up rain and after missing the train we met about 5.30pm.

Begins to rain again. It was pretty hard to find a cutie. We both did some warmups , but afterwards it was dark and there were not  much people left in thec city (yea Perth closes at 6 pm). We called it a day.


NIGHT


My buddie's uni is having a student party for international students, and he asked me to come. Since I 'm doing nothing on thursdays I agreed to crash the party.

Met up with my friend and his friend at the defectors bar about 9.30. Cutie galore.

I was pumped saw 2 set put my right foot forward hit the brakes, I still have fucking second thoughts didn't open. And I chode around the dance floor with my friends for a bit. I wanted to go to the toilet.
On my way there was a girl coming at me.. ME: High Five,,,.spin spin spin. Spin her twice and let her go I go to the toilet and come back.

Lets go and get a drink. Me and my friend go to get a drink. Huge crowed near the bar. I gave money to my friend stay near the bar.

2 girls with a camera comes by sees me wanted to take my photos (Official photograpers for the event). I am noticeble to anyone coz of my long hair.
I was on my own , OK
ME: You ( to the other girl) come here.

pull her into me and take couple of photos . Introduction,
Them:You look like that guy from metallica in the photos (Kirk Hammet)
Me" Lol

I see a girl with a beer standing but like passing out while standing.
I open.
"You are passing out while standing that is amazing"
blah , blah , blah.
She is from California ...in Australia for the semester... talk blah blah blah, her friends come intro let them go

( I didn't feel like closing anyone coz I am crashing the party and I had a feeling I'll be a fool and make my friend look bad)

My friend is a talking to a cute girl and he  introduces me to her and we talk .
This is the most memorable set.

She is from Norway. staying with her friends near the beach.
We talk a lot. I kept my eye contact all the time :)
 
( this set is a real eye opener for me coz one of my weekness is keeping a conversation with people I did good, but I don't know If I lead or , Qualified myself to her or vice versa it all went out of the window I was really into the convo. Probable went to the friend zone. Whatever I don't really care , Coz I am happy that I kept a convo for such a long time)

Physically led her twice. Convo was starting to die out , I forgot brad's spinning plates artical and let her eject. Damn me! didn't close her. But We had 2 photos together I might be able to meet her on fb.
whatever:::::

Met couple more girls. One was a German has the word Wiener on her bag.
I open her with are you German . she is stunned. how to you know?. ( I thought that  word sounded like german)
anyway small convo. She says wiener means Vienna in german. I said that means penis in English.

Her friend is a studing psycology. ME: Oh my god I need a psycologist but I don't wanna pay. Instant FB close.

anyway after meeting couple more guys and girls the wierdest thing happens

My friends are out going to go to another club.

I tell them I'll be there but first I have to go to the toilet.

On my way to toilet.
I see this girl give me Strong eye contact about 3-5 seconds. And she starts walking infront of me. And she looks back again at me smile. ( she's on her way to the ladies room).
She goes in keeps the door open for 2 seconds looks at me and give me  a weird smile.
I thought this might be a  washroom fuck invitation I second guess myself and pulls back.
She comes out and gives me ec again. I tried to talk to her but no go. and she keeps looking at me for couple of times.
I had to meet up with my friends I go out

( I think I fucked this up please give your opinion)

not bad for crashing a party. and everyone was thinking I go to the same uni as them...whatever!

p.s holy shit writing FRs are so fucking hard...lol
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KickBomber wrote:
All you had to do waa walk in after her. If she didn't intend that, she would've pushed you out. You were leaving anyway, so what ever happened wouldn't have mattered. Should've tried it.
Yea, I probably thought that too. but at that moment nothing enlighting like that didn't come to mind.
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7/29
Friday

Didn't go out! Stupid me!!!

I had a little nap , which extended till about 11.30pm .Woke up tried to go out but feelings of "why bother came in" coz I have been getting rejected a lot recenty and I felt like I am going to get a shot in the head even If I go out. So why should I bother getting ready and going to the club at 12 o'clock. and slept.

Meanwhile some important discoveries discovered in the morning while at bed.

I found out that I am kinda fearful of being successful with women. Weird!
I thought like.

I found the Norweigian girl from the previous day from fb , now I had feelings like.
OK
Now what ? what if she agreed to meet me,?
Where should I take her?
What the fuck I am going to talk to her for a hour or 2.?
What if she wanted to hookup where should I go ( I share my room with another guy, and live with a family,)

[This shit didn't even happen but I am picturing disaster scenerios in my head]

and I had thoughts like.

Why would a girl wanted to sleep with me?
I am not like a natural, Girl will definetly wanted to put me into boyfriend category. But I am afraid to tell that to her coz I havea  huge scarcity of women.
[Stupid thoughts, I know]

now saturday morning I have nothing to do so I was thinking of going day gaming but again I was super scared to go and talk to a girl. I know nothing bad will happen. only thing I am afraid of I will have nothing to say. but more than that it is like for me it is physically impossible to go and talk to a girl it is like all my body is glued together and I can't move a limb when I see a girl.

I've hit on couple of times on girls at daytime only when I am with a wing, it didn't go spectacularly awesome, but didn't go bad either.

either way I am back to ground zero again.

Tonight have a birthday party at a club, I will report that tomorrow.

DJM
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30/7
Saturday

This sucks!

My verbal game sucks ass.
When I say this to somebody they always say what you say doesn't matter... be physical ..you don't have to talk much..yada, yada,yada.

but my actual verbal game is like this.

"Hey I your cute I had to say hi"..or ..some thing

and then absolute blankness. this fucking sucks.
Nothing at all. anywhere I tried to get advice everyone is giving me useless advice. My verbal game is only one sentence. I do not have fucking anything to say at all
Opening groups is abosolute impossible.

anyway night sucked 100%.

FML. i'd rather happily suicide.
I don't know if I ever get good at this shit.

oh yeah , and only girl I got to dance with me at dancefloor is got dragged away by her friend within 30 seconds. usual shit.
I hate this.
I don't even get lucky. All my chode friends that went outt with me got lucky and got laid. I've been going out regulary at least 3 nights a week.
every weekend. for 8 months now. I don't even get lucky.!

This shit is fucking unbearable.
I'd rather die.
FML

bye.
All who got laid on this saturday night good luck on you guys.

signing off
DJM
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5/08
Friday Night..

This week was shit tons of college work and couldn't go out during the week.

Friday not a single friend of mine available to go out. So lonewolfing.
I've done lone wolfing before but haven't done it in about 5 months so I have to re condition myself to go to the club alone.

I didn't feel like going out on friday at all. This is a  new condition to me. probably because of the string of bad blowouts I got last 2 or 3 months. Before that I go to work and come home at 12.pm and hit the clubs alone. But now putting a foot outside the house is a victory..

Anywayz I felt like sleeping the night but woke up about 10pm and said fuck it and went out to a club that I have never been before. +1

Basically the night was super shit.

there wasn't too much people and the fact that the clubis new and I was alone. made me fucking nervous, and was basically choding around the bar area.

The main thing was I couldn't talk a word to save my life. I don't know why? It is like I suddenly became dumb.

Anyway the night was like. I hit the dancefloor. got a couple of girls to dance with me. and there was this one girl who was super keen to dance with me. and even her friend said she was really into me. and I totally fucked it up cos I couldn't speak a word yesterday. I don't know what the fuck? my mind was absolutely nothing.

Anyways after that I got into my head and thinking , and I think that made me a weird person.

the thing is that even if I can get a girl attracted initially I always fuck it up.I can't hold on to her. while all other chodes who grind behind them eventually get a makeout or what not. me always repeat the same pattern always.

Anyway I found my brain came to a conclusion at the end of the night that "No one likes me"

but thinking upon that in the morning I found that " I always fuck things up and I am a fucking pussy"

anyway

Went out while not feeling like it +1.
Went to a complete new bar+1
Got some girls interested while literally not opening any sets+1

=3.

not good. but whatever.


p.s . had an epiphany last night. which is that I am lower than a average club chode. I at least have to develop asking interview style questions. meh. !!!
THIS SUCKS!
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Hey. Kickbomber.

thanks for the support thorough out the thread. I will read your stuff. NOW.!



Anyway I had another thought while at work .

When I am out with my friends I will do many apporaches. maybe I want to prove to them...EGO whatever.....anywayz. I do approaches and get rejected left and right. In your face fuck offs.

When I am out by myself. I won't do much approaches.but the approaches I do go somewhat well. Do not get harsh blowouts. and I get more Eye Contacts from girls... and thinking about it if I get somewhat good experiance from this I got it all when I am out alone. Maybe I am playing safe.. Or maybe I am more genuine coz I don't have to prove it to my buddies.

but whatever it is interesting.
DJM
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WARNING
I have identified that most of my posts are gonna be whining and ramblings so if you don't wanna read them totaly ignore my tread . I just want to write everything I feel thanks


I seriously think that although I look like a normal human being I give off a troll vibe or something. Girls flat out ignore me.!
Anyway
I clearly am not having fun of this anymore. I know people say just have fun or don't give a shit about girls reaction. but now for me it is so fucking hard when a fellow human rejects you in your face.
Now thinking about that I've seen the light that all my so called friends and best friends subtally rejected me when it come to anything social.

The amazing thing is how much I degraded during past months. I saw somewhere that Tyler says your best approach becomes your average approach in 6 months of time or so. But for me that works in reverse. I rearly get into the state of approaching anymore. Unlike past 1 or 2 rejections and I am totally fucked up.


Saturday. 7/8

OK went out with few chode friends . Night was basically choding around. Nothing special. It is so fucking hard for me to get up into a state of approaching. The few ones I did they look away like I am a disgusting animal.

Hit the dancefloor near the end of the night like 2.am .All the girls are there at this time is horney as fuck and they will  makeout with any chode there except me. (meh). I mean When I approach they just look away or push me away,

basically that was the run down of my entire night.

I still have big ass hard time over teh verbal game. I don't know, I just can't talk to people. It is not with girls. People in general. I was waiting in the taxi rank at the end of the night. I couldn't even talk with the drunkun guys. Which everyone could do.

I just don't know what the fuck is wrong with my verbals. Either it is a huge limiting belief or I really can't talk with people. It is really annoying.

Anyway Bye.

EDIT: I have decided now that if it is not a super special occation I will not hit the clubs with friends or wings. From now on I will be lonewolfing my regular night outs.
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