THE FORUMS

 Alright went out with wing to a club. Pretty sick, I get very little approach anxiety anymore. I think its because I've turned off that doubting thought process. So I go to this club sober, show up and kinda walked around sticking out like a sore thumb value scanning. I rtealized I was doing this and soI started just

focusing on having fun. I opened a bunch of girls and practiced some kino, but for the most part was pretty weak. My claw was maybe 68% percent belief. I hooked a decent amount but kinda stalled out because I didnt know what to do. This was especcially true with some of the earlier sets. I opned with " Hi, Im

huckleberry" and walked up to them with squared shoulders and opened decently, but then I had nothing to say aside from laaammee daygame talk, so I just started running around swearing in jamaican and dancing. I used some "bubble of love" stuff to get out of the logical head space,  but it was only ok. I

wasnt stifled perse because I was rippin it, but I think my own fun vibe wasnt that strong. I wasnt giving much value for the most part. Also I think I wasnt being very authentic. I was kinda "gamey". Loool I would do the how you doin head thing, and it was for serious. Sooooo lame, girls just walk away from that.

I think I have to work on GIVING more value and focusing on that. I always feel like im trying to get something from girls. Things I did great were jumping into the water right as I got there and just chatted with random doods to get into a social headspace. I also was pretty persistent with sets, not sparta persistent,

but pretty decent. I stayed and talked to girls while their boy friends were trying to get rid of me and stuff. I also open I think almost every group possible in the place.  I just stepped up like a man. Its cool, Ive reached a new indifference threshold and I thought that I would be this golden lion of a man, but I'm just

more normal in chaotic environments. One set that I was proud of was one where I approached and the girl started telling me she was a lesbian and a buch of shit to get rid of me, i decided I wasnt having any of that shit and started telling her I was too and that I have to keep my hair long because people would

call me a butch. I essentially just talked over her and kept bombarding her until she opened up. Shifting sands mother fucker. Also I gotta get ear plugs mang, this place was loud and I could hear anything people were saying.  

Things to work on: Learn to jam in my own vibe. 
Self amuse WAAAYYYYYYYYYY moore. I always thought that this was some kind of weird neurotic tendency of distraction, but come to think of it kids do it alll

the time. Were born doing this.
Things I did well: I threw down muther fucker.
I dry heaved this bitch all night haha.
Also there was a sweet spot somewhere in the night sets opened up pretty nice.
I think it was when I was just having fun with the bubble of love. 
Also didnt feel very horny tonight. Gotta feel more horny.

Im too lazy to format this. Sorry if its hard to read. Going to bed a golden champion.

 First club make out / Finger bang over pants. Yeeaaahhh. Im cool. and I smell wonderful.

Went out with wings, I noticed talking to girls at my friends improv show that I give off a weird creeper vibe in normal situations and dont know how to give value in a normal way without "gaming" So i went in with a social mind set and talked to as many people as i could being friendly trying to add value and offer good emotions. I dont drink so throughout the night I was fluctuating in and out of my head. Its funny how easy it is to drift between the two without alcohol. Anyway like usual I threw down hard tonight. I opened basically EVERY set in the club. Hooked a bunch Three memorable ones.

First was a set my friends were already in. I just showed up and since nobody was talking to the least attractive girl I went and clawed her in and we talked about the flaming pool out back. I was just pretty laid back and good energy and introduced my self to the friends they were decently receptive. And we ended up dancing for a bit. Eventually I tried escalating on a brown haired chick. Really cute and what not. I tolsd her That tI was making her my date for the night blah blah blah bubble of love stuff. Was a little bit gamey. Eventually I just burned the set into the ground. Im learning kino, so I was kinda grabby. Not sure if its a good thing. I also used the "stick out your hand and open and close your thumb move to get her hand to dance. Cool shit.

Second, I saw my friend get blown out from this bengali girl and thought I had no chance. But I went in anyway and opened pretty solid. She was receptive. I had really good eye ontact and she returned it. I started asking her a couple chode questions but it was still decently on, our faces were pretty close. Then she asked me how old I was and told her 21. Thats when the set fell through. She was 27. I told her I didnt care blah blah blah I was still holding on to her, But no go. She said shed feel morrally wrong if she fucked me, and that I was too young. I left after that and came back in like half an hour later. She was sitting down and I told her to scoot over and pushed her. Then we were talking with our faces close again and I asked her to tell me something about her. She hesitated and told me to go hang with my friends and to go away, I just ignored her and kept talking, seemed ok for a bit but she left. She tried to get her big friend to amog me but I befriended him earlier. Whateves

Last set, So my wing is dancing with some girl and I spot her friend who was a lot cuter. Punkish kinda girl with her septim pierced, I go in and open pretty good. After that Im not sure what happened. I think I said lets dance, and she was really receptive and so I escalated to close hugging. Doing good eye contact she was definately down. So I just grab her chin and go for the make out. LOL I just did a lot of carressing and making out, and grinding, and then I would back away. I was really physical tho and kinda was latched on to her. I tried to let it breathe at times but wasnt confident that she wouldnt leave if I just did nothing. I also said something stupid like "wanna  know a secret? I think your kinda cute" After we were already all over each other. Think it killed attraction a little bit. whatever. I say lets go talk and drag her over to some couches, making sure my grip is firm. I sit down but her friends come to talk and theyre all standing, I just chill and remain seated trying to stay comfortable. Eventually she sits and I put her legs over mine. Shes gives me some of her drink and we make out. I put my hand inbetween her legs to finger her, but her legs were closed and it was hard to get in. make out for a bit. Go somewhere else, I tried the hair pulling thing and grabbed the back of her hair and pulled it back making it so she could barely kiss me. HOT SHIT. Anyway after I think I grabbed her andf put her against a pillar trying to do the crotching tiger , and shes grinding her pussy on my leg bouncing up and down. Im grabbing her ass and spread her cheeks and shit. Then I pull back lift her shirt and give her a raspberry on her stomach. She had such a nice body. Creamy whit skin and just a little bit of fat, enough to make her soft.  I also make a half hearted attempt to go in her pants but she pulls my hand away. I settle for over the pants. And I put her hand on my dick .Then I turn her around and shes backin it up like a tonka truck. Its all good, then her friend pulls her away to talk and she just leaves. It was either this or something else that killed the set for a bit. The other thing was we were dancing and I was keepin it chill and she walked away to dance and I didnt follow her I just kept ddancing like five meteres away, the crowd kinda took over and I was looking away and she left. After either this or the pillar she was cold. I think I was just too aggressive or too sexual so She got bored and would walk away when I went up to her. So i just started trying to ignore her and talk to other people and just dance with other girls. Shes dancing with some dude and I go up to break it up, and she just LEAVES. Im like wtf? So I just forget about it and we pass each other a couple more times within the next half hour and I we just ignore each other. I get the brilliant idea to just it on other girls where she can see, and eventually as she walked past me she tapped my shoulder as She went by. I just ignored her and kept having fun. At this point I didnt know what to do. If I go up to her I look like a pussy following her around, if I dont I really didnt push it till the bitter end. So I said fuck it and went to sit down at her booth. Shes warm again and says she missed me and gives me a little bit of booze. I tell her to come sit beside me and I tap the seat next to me. She sits down, and Talk about i dont know what for fie seconds and I say lets go dance. I drag her off. Then I decide to go for the pull and told her I wanted to get food. Shes ssuper receptive and just says ok. I took a bit of time to find my wing, and was about to leave with her when her "friend" who was probably just jealous pull sher away, and says shes not leaving with me and that if I try he'll knock me out. I just stay chill and tell him were going to get food, you can come too. Hes super agressive, but i just hold my friendly non chalant frame. and the bouncer eventually comes over to see what happened. I just kinda shrug and say hes just being weird and threatning me. Bouncer said if hes like that again he'll kick him out. I thought about using that to isolate the girl but, I didnt want to be a dick. Lol also I the girl ran away as soon as he grabbed her. weird man. Drunk girls are like fairies. Just jumping around. Any way I was bitter and wanted to pull. I wasnt going to give up till the bitter end, so I decided to go back and try again. But alas....they were gone. So concludes my night.

Things I did well. I just threw down hard. I went to the bitter end. I think Ive reached a new level. I dont really get scared anymore. All I get is hesitant not knowing what the right action is. Its sick. Not having fear makes this shit sooooo much easier. You can have fun regardless of sucess or not.  Fuck. that girl would have been fun to bring home. lol oh well. Feed back on improvements are very welcome.

 One of the girls that I met on the street came over today. 

This was the first time I had a girl come over on a day 2.

Alls I did was tell her the time an place (near my house) to meet.  Then I told her I had to drop somethng off. and eat.

She was hestitant to come in and I told her its fine, and offered her something to drink.

I just stayed chill and talked about stuff sitting on the couch, and then I asked her for a massage. She hesitated and so I offered her one. 

Just escalated from there to cuddling, and taking her sweater off so I cold do it better. Then I just laid down beside her and breathed on her neck as we talked. 

Were making out and her shirt comes off, I was getting LMR for the sex so I just rubbed her pussy on the outside of her pants, and kept complimenting her. And saying I wanted tofuck her. Eventually I got my hand in a bit and she blocked it, but I just slowly pushed through. Just enough to be not rapey. as soon as I was there it was ON.  I REALLY enjoyed it this time. Just enjoyed the expereince and the touching and sounds and smells. Makes it waayy better. I also love it when they WANT to go down on you. That was sick. Im a boss. Thank you.  Oh also I also got alot more physical and dominant due to just one night at a club rminding me how to do it and I was throwing her around and shit She wa diggin it. I also tried to chill and really enjoy just being with her and sharing emotions. Thats where my game is weak. Just fully opening up to the other person and being completely vulnerable so I can relax and have fun.

Also opened a buch today, just using the Hi im Huckleberry opener. Its working really good for me. Got a few really hot girls numbers. My eye contact is also killer from the momentum of going out for like three four days straight.

 Haha interesting ight with real2 and his boot camp. Probably one of the more dynamic nights I've had. Super bitch shields up tonight... Paiiiinn alll night. Did ok, I could hook sets decently, but I feel like I didnt have enough "authentic communication" so girls would be very hahaha but not.  Also I think I might blow

my load too early and I dont properly warm the girls up by taking time to talk to them and bob in and out with rythm. I just go direct and escalate as far as they will let me right away. I think I hit up almost every set in the venue ,and people were starting to take notice. Had soe girls call me out on being a "pick up

artist" and we took a group picture. Probably a bad Idea.. later their friends started asking me about it too saying they were interested. I just kinda lied about it in case they were going to use it against me. Not sure if they were for real or not. I got one make out with a girl that I didnt mean to open and stayed kind of

indifferent. I lost her as soon as I failed a lead attempt, and started caring after oour make out. I always seem to fizzle after the makeout. Eventually I just became indifferent, and girls could just walk away in th middle of a conversation and I wouldnt even blink about it. (maybe slight exaggeration). I think that was the favorite part of my night. It t feels really cool and I feel like I can talk to people more authentically and with less try hard ness than my  standard "say funny and

stupid shit at them until their panties come off".  like tyler said, if you use your shtick of im funny and a pimp, theyr will use theirs of "im blowing you off." I dont know how to keep attention but also not try......  also a part of me feels REALLY fucking  creeptastic. I guess that means I tore it down? Lol Another ego

eroding night under the belt. Kinda fixed my giving a fuck with a dose of PAIN.

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