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Breaking the system - Irrelevent
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irrelavent

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 FR thread 1. To be continued....
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 Greasy Sausage Party 
De brief
runnin on 2 hours sleep

Last night, well, it was a fucking shit fest.  mean, it wasnt bad, but there was a 8-2 guy to girl ratio, and there was only one single chick there. I got into a huge conversation with this hot "celtic"/goth chick, she was really red, not black. We talked video games and shit were were into, we had a really good vibe and connection, after talking to this girl, I dont know If I can relate to any chick as much as I did with her. She pretty much loves everything I like, and is into sex like fuckin HARD CORE. Almost intimidating how much she's into it, she was going off on how she loves being dominated, but dosnt like the virgin guy who doesnt know what he's doing. She Bi, and DTF 24/7. Smart as fuck though. She was talking to most of the guys there, flirting n what not, not being stifled by anything!

Crazy bitch. We were sitting down at one point and she put her hand down a big hole in my jeans mabie a couple inches from my dick. I knew she wanted to fuck me, but my buddy the host was into her, so I choded out and didnt escalate. A couple more excuses, there was no spare rooms to isolate, and I was a little intimidated by how much she had sex. Chodey I know, but I really had this chick going. It's almost as if I didnt even need to try what so ever, It was just plain real talk, and we both had mass value to offer to each other. I can talk about shit IDK about from experience, and make it look like I know my shit. It's a big part of my game. Seriously though, I would of fucked this chick, and actully felt super low in state because of the fact I didnt escalate and could have. 

So, at the end of the night, two guys passed out vomiting, a couple drunk stupid fucks that I wanted to knock out, and the goth chick running off in her sleeping clothes with my buddy the host, I wasnt even fuckin tired, playing on my phone, and kinda pissed at the whole ordeal. 

I did learn some shit though. I was nervous pre-party, im not gonna lie. It's almost a tendency I get with most parties or places I go to where I dont know alot of people. But once I got to his place, I was fuckin on. I chatted up everyone, was outside my head, loud, good to go. I dont know what puts me into this state. It''s odd. I concously know that being nervous before going out in shit, is now just something I do as a routine. Depending on the situation though, I sometimes stay nervous. Last night was easy breezy and I didnt need to try not to try or try for that matter. But a couple weeks back when I hit up a girl I pulled from starbucks and chilled with her and her friend, I was very nervous and inside my head most of the time, except for drinking. It's all a lack of experiance, and lack of assuming value. I have been watching the blueprint again, and really focusing on the whole, "Assuming high value, causes you to be funny, attractive, and overall fun, no matter what you do." , It's amazing how you dont have to even TRY, and can be a crazy ass mother fucker. 

My goal right now is to get this down, and not have to try what so ever. When you are the real you, you automaticlly offer value, you could have nothing going on, but if you are happy and offering a good vibe, people will like you. It's amazing how I wasnt aware of this my whole life, and how fucked up I really am to not be able to be myself at all times. 90% of the people at this party are like that. People really are walking in a daze, complete dillusional. 

I am at the stage, where I understand whats going on, my subconsious still hold me back emencely because of a lack of experience and reference points, but I am now very concious of what really goes on in our heads, and what needs to be done. Because knowing this stuff has put me in situations where I could have pulled withou even trying, just like last night. But my lack of experiance causes me to hold back on my urges, and causes me to be scared of what could happen, or be scared of how to deal with social pressure of being bold. 

I really need to be bold, and make those moves, to gather the reference points,

Overall, odd night, I have learned some things though, and seen some more of the matrix. Just havnt acted on it yet. 

It's 12:22 pm, and Im tired as fuck. Walking for a couple hours sick as fuck, with two hours of sleep to get home takes a toll on a man.

Irrelavent out.
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 crazy bitches
5/30/11
10:51 pm

I got this one chick, who stop texting me, and she just wants to "have fun" YET, she got a purity ring. So im not in for this 7, I have another 8.5 that i pulled from a starbucks that i would rather have fun with. n im going to school soon, wheere she goes. She's kinda nuts, so im not gonna ruin school buy fucking her, or getting a bj n shit. not worth it. 
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 6/8/2011
My reallity

Well, im bored shitless. Thats my prediciment. I am back on track with working out, im not sick anymore, and Im starting to feel better about starting up cold approach again. It's goal's time. I need to set some new goals, because the ones I have are not sufficiant, and I am finding myself exausted because of work, and really bored doing nothing. Idk, this post dosnt make much sense, and my mind is kinda fucked/chilled the fuck out. So idk what to really think. Im not unhappy or happy. Im just in a small dilemma. I cant choose whter to start mma, or go to bartending school, Im starting to think they are just excuses and way to get out of going out and socializing. 

My only fear for school in 3 months, is that I wont be where I want to be in terms of my social skillset. I dont wanna go to school, come home, and not be able to socialize with anyone i encounter, and start up a friendship o0r relationship. Im far ahead in terms of skill's and my comfert zone has changed drasticlly since high school. But, the main thing im lacking is courage and momentum. Im not going out in the day consistantly like i used to, and work is really tiring me out. So it's goal time. I am going to force myself to attend to these goals, whether or not im 0% or 100%. Im going to be exausted and have -100% drive to do these things, but I need to start beign disipline, and taking this shit seriously. I have no fuck buddies, and no gf. I just stopped seeing this 7 i got hooked up, cuz i realized she gross and psycotic. I pulled a 8.5 girl frmo starbucks, and that was the last of my cold approach until i got sick, Ive hung out with her 3 times, and have alright rapport, i still feel nervous around her. 

This means i need to start dating, talking to girls, and taking massive action immidiately. It's now or never. 

Social goals:
When going to the gym, out, or just to buy something, I must approach or at least talk to one girl I see and start a conversation. No matter what, 
If I have time, I will go out solely to approach. I will do this three times a week from now on. 

Reading/tv goals: 
When I am getting up for work, or have spare time, I will not watch tv. I will read. Ive tried this many times before and failed. Fuck it, the time is now.
Once I have read a couple of books i already have, I will start to read books that may lead me to a career path, or at least spark my interest in a field, so I may have an idea of what i want to do. 
Meditation goals:
Regardless of if im dead tired, or about to fall asleep, I will meditate at least 10 minutes a day, and focus on being on NOT being outcome dependant, and imagine Im starting a coutless women while staying present.

Hobbie goals:
I will start to bring a camera out where ever I go and take 5 pictures a day. I feel deep down, that this is weird and not me. I will record how i feel after a couple of days of doing this, and telling people i do this. 
I will start up mma once work is over. 

Sleeping goals:
Get a good nights sleep every day, but try and get into a good routine of 6 hours a night, and mabit a solid one hour nap.

I have calibrated the feeling up having ups and downs, and when i feel insecure or unconfident, I accept it as part of the process. Because hard work gives very good ups, but also very low downs. For example, after i work out hard in the gym, I feel chill and relaxed. But, the next day, I feel soar, tird, and am reluctant to even think of going out to approach or do anyhting for that mater. It's a double edged sword. That where I need to build more momentum. Attack the downs with more goals, and socializing. 
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6/9/2011
Motivation lack

I now know why im not approaching, or talking to random strangers. I have 0 motivation. Even after making my goals clear yesterday, I did not follow through as promised. I seriously just dont care for approaching right now. Even when I think about doing it, I dont get nervous, I just dont want to do it cuz I dont feel i need to or want to. Its fucked up. I have to do something. So, Im going to wip out the neil game book, the practice edition, and do the 30 day challenge. 
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 Fucking gay. 
6/11/2011
Im sitting on my comp, bored shitless. I dont wanna text really anyone, just sit and be a fucking chode. IT IS AMAZING how momentum can fuck u up. I was going nuts, daygaming, partying, going out every weekend.AND NOW IM FUCKIN BORED AND HAVE NOTHING TO DO. FUCKKK1KK1K1K1. im ranting, i am at rock bottom, i have went to the gym, talked to some strangers, and still feel tired and shitty. wtf. idk.fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. god damit, im so bored. im going out, some how, some way, im gettin out of the house, and building some momentum. fuck this shit.
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 6/13/2011
My abstanense

im going on a 10 day not waking off stint. I wanna see the results from this. See if it helps my apparoches and what ever else i can improve on. I going to start gaming alot more. Im still saying gaming cuz i dont do it enough to say its me. Just held the shift key too long, beeped n shit. Scary. W.e Im gonna be gaming. just got some new clothes for school, with my own money of course. Parents have done enough for me. 

Pce
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 6/14/2011
First night out alone. Sneakers bar
Yahoo, I went out alone to a bar/pub for the first time ever! I didnt know what to expect, and I felt out of place once I walked in. I sat down at the bar and bought a beer. I phoned my buddy to come play pool cuz i didnt want to chikll by my self realy. After talking to him, I started chatting up the bartender lady talking about bartending in general and how she got the job, and if they were hiring etc, etc. Im going to bartedning school, thats why i asked. After this little stint, I went and palyed some pool by my self, waiting for my buddy to arrive. 4 dudes rolled in like 5 minutes after i started shootin and asked if I wanted to play doubles, I said sure. We played some games, then my buddied arrive and schooled everyone cuz hes a professional. 

After palying for a bit, talking to these random dude, I realized how fun this was, and how not weird it is to go out alone. You meet people, and just have a good time. I cant believe it was so had to first go out. I didnt really want to, but  I worked out, the place was right next to the gym, and it was my plan. Overall aswsome time. There were no girls to be seen besides a couple old chicks, a weird 5 lady probly in her thirties drunk and easily DTF. But i dont do that shit. There were too emo (ish) girls chilling and chatting drinking beer. I almost appraoched them to play pool, but for some reason it was the fact they werent my "type" and emoish which made me not apparoch. I had no AA and i was ready to opend em. 

-Next time open regardless of who it is, the fact the you even talk to them is practice. 
-going out alone is awesome, and after talking to a bunch of random strangers, I felt awesome, and very social. 

I only had two beers, and a bunch of water, so i wasnt drunk, and i drove home. This was pretty cool.

I am planning on going out regularly as I am doing the bartending course in July, and I need to get in the groove of meeting random people consistantly. 
I felt very entitled to talk to new people whenever I wanted, and overall realized it's not weird to go out alone. The fact that I have my own car now, and can out when ever I want makes a huge difference. 

Well, Im off to bed, gotta work in 4 hours, i dont even care that im up this late, BECAUSE I went out and socialized instaead of playing some bullshit video game. Awesome.

Pce. 
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Second night out in a row, not alone
6/15/2011

What up. So i went out to sneakers after i hit the gym hard. I inv a buddie of mine and we played some pool and chillled. No girls there, no one to appraoch, jus a solid chill night. My goal right now is to go out as often as possible, and just start being supers social. I did improve on one aspect of last nights "going out". I kept telling myself I was going to inv out this girl that works at the gym to sneakers. I choded out and didnt ask, I told I was going and that was it. But, today I asked a different girl, a even shyer towards me girl that I know isnt into as much, beacuse the other girl use to be super shy towards me. But after some rapport building (shitty as it may be), she is alot cooler with me and we chit chat a little. 

I ranted...I asked the chick to tag along sometime, It was kinda chodey and I wasnt entusiastic much. So she said yah mabie. Who knows mabie in the future......Main point is, I asked this time, I didnt puss out. Props to me, whoopie. I alos invited a different girl i pulled from starbucks, she was incline to come but to exausted, i understood that, gave her a sad face, and new she kinda regrettit it. Night was chill, just me and a bud. 

So heres the debrief. I will change venue's soon, this place is chill n all, btu there are hardly and girl's. I am going to start goign out like this cosistantly as I feel it's benefits. I will be pursuing this girl more often, and the future girls I will be haning with. Show my parents that this is what Im going to be doing more often, adn less staying at home like would have usually done back in the day.

Things to think when socializing and getting inside my head.: I actully thought this up at the gym, when i get in my head or feel insecure or some shit. I look at my face, pick out the things I like about myself(yah sounds fuckin retarded but it works) and continue to ponder those things in my head. This actully work when I was chillin with my buddy and started to randomly become inside my head. It made me much more outside my head and socially skilled. This is just a way to become temporarily more outside my head, nothing that will help in the long run.

I am going to start hitting harder venues and challenging myself, I have conqueered the goal of going out by my self, and showed my parents this will become a routine. 

Next goal: Hit harder venues, start approaching hard, not even for the sake of pulling cuz theres no way its happening unless Im ON hard for some reason. Just approach to listen and enjoy other peoples company, become more socially skilled and outgoing. 

Goal 2: Do this consistanly, key word. No bullshit phases, this is a part of me now. Invite more people out to do things, build social circle. 
Staying outside my head is not difficult, putting my self out there, pesonality on the line is key. How do I do that? Being honest and say whats on my mind, and really listing to people and offering value. You can have nothing to talk about and have a good time. Just being outside your head and there causes both you and the people your with to chill and be relaxed. 

Goal 3: Build rapport, this is a huge issue with me. I am a bad rapport builder, really focus on being myself, offering stuff that I like peronally and realting to people on a very real level. Stop the superficial responses and bullshit, really take an interest in peoples live's. One thing I have noticed is even if you are questioning someone about their life, if you are genuine and really want to know about them. It builds heavy rapport and great state. 

Goal 4: Keep a tight frame. I am not always super social, its impossible to be at my current skill level. So I need to practice keeping a tight frame of "ice" or atleast not reacting to people often. I want to build the "not giving a fuck" mentality, tight frame is key. 

Peace.
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