THE FORUMS
06-23-11
Thursday
LR: COCKUNBLOCKED
I was home. I was thinking "funny how some time ago I couldn't stay home, and these days I want to stay home as long as possible before going out".
Then I went out earlier, just to see what could happen.
At first I couldn't get in, then it's ok.
I felt super chode (I was alone), and super tense. Then I realized it was normal because I haven't spoken to anybody today. i was wondering how I could be approaching people effortlessly before lol.
A girl in pink is passing by, I claw her because we are going in the same direction, but, considering that I feel chode, I don't want to "take anything from her", so I release her once we arrive in the other room, and I wasn't even looking at her, just saying a few sentences. Off she goes. I realized too late she was fairly hot, huge boobz, petite, etc. But now I realize she is drunk, and in the middle of her friends. I wait a bit. Then I lose her.
As I am passing by to see the other girl, I see a petite girl with ze boobz. She is "cycloning" à la Tim, so I make fun of her. Then we talk. I realize now I did everything right: lead, isolation, getting physical, keep state, not doing much, not trying.
I was wondering what to do because she wasn't super hot, a good 7 though, but she seemed to have the boobz, and had the potential to be cute.
We kissed. Then I kept on talking about bullshit . I didn't care lol.
Then I befriended the friends VERY EASILY BECAUSE THEY WERE GAYS - LISTEN NERDZ A GIRL WIZ GAY GUYS IZ A GIRL WHO WANTS DICK.
No joke, I love gay guys. Homo.
Either they tell you their female friend is a huge slut who loves sucking cock and they introduce you to her, either she is still a huge slut who loves sucking cock, so they smile and don't even pretend to try to cockblock you (pun intended).
So all I needed was to tease them a bit, be normal, and that's it. They go and wish her a good cock subconsciously.
I take her home. Token resistance to get in, hilarious. I mean, I know where exactly in the hall the girl will start say weird shit to get out of state.
Then I chill out, videos, we fuck.
I was a bit disappointed she didn't have megaboobz. I hate push up bras. They were still cool though.
Thursday
LR: COCKUNBLOCKED
I was home. I was thinking "funny how some time ago I couldn't stay home, and these days I want to stay home as long as possible before going out".
Then I went out earlier, just to see what could happen.
At first I couldn't get in, then it's ok.
I felt super chode (I was alone), and super tense. Then I realized it was normal because I haven't spoken to anybody today. i was wondering how I could be approaching people effortlessly before lol.
A girl in pink is passing by, I claw her because we are going in the same direction, but, considering that I feel chode, I don't want to "take anything from her", so I release her once we arrive in the other room, and I wasn't even looking at her, just saying a few sentences. Off she goes. I realized too late she was fairly hot, huge boobz, petite, etc. But now I realize she is drunk, and in the middle of her friends. I wait a bit. Then I lose her.
As I am passing by to see the other girl, I see a petite girl with ze boobz. She is "cycloning" à la Tim, so I make fun of her. Then we talk. I realize now I did everything right: lead, isolation, getting physical, keep state, not doing much, not trying.
I was wondering what to do because she wasn't super hot, a good 7 though, but she seemed to have the boobz, and had the potential to be cute.
We kissed. Then I kept on talking about bullshit . I didn't care lol.
Then I befriended the friends VERY EASILY BECAUSE THEY WERE GAYS - LISTEN NERDZ A GIRL WIZ GAY GUYS IZ A GIRL WHO WANTS DICK.
No joke, I love gay guys. Homo.
Either they tell you their female friend is a huge slut who loves sucking cock and they introduce you to her, either she is still a huge slut who loves sucking cock, so they smile and don't even pretend to try to cockblock you (pun intended).
So all I needed was to tease them a bit, be normal, and that's it. They go and wish her a good cock subconsciously.
I take her home. Token resistance to get in, hilarious. I mean, I know where exactly in the hall the girl will start say weird shit to get out of state.
Then I chill out, videos, we fuck.
I was a bit disappointed she didn't have megaboobz. I hate push up bras. They were still cool though.
Nice man, Got ze fuck. Blowouts kick ass!
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KJ Trollin'
The 3 commandments of rsdn
Thou shall read The Tolle.
Thou shall eat only Paleo approved food.
Thou shall not jerk off to porn.
My FR Journal:
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/201240
'I'm willing to be happy doing anything, even if it sucks, as long as the overall picture is leading me towards an outcome I believe in.
But if it ain't getting me to where I want to go, I'm willing to do ANYTHING to extract myself from that situation. If I have to bloody myself and risk KILLING myself I'll get out of that damned situation and into one that I like.'
The 3 commandments of rsdn
Thou shall read The Tolle.
Thou shall eat only Paleo approved food.
Thou shall not jerk off to porn.
My FR Journal:
http://www.rsdnation.com/node/201240
'I'm willing to be happy doing anything, even if it sucks, as long as the overall picture is leading me towards an outcome I believe in.
But if it ain't getting me to where I want to go, I'm willing to do ANYTHING to extract myself from that situation. If I have to bloody myself and risk KILLING myself I'll get out of that damned situation and into one that I like.'
Really awesome post
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Interesting, I think i'll start doing a jornal also.
PS: You live in Paris also ?
You were talking about pick up this girl in the street/metro. In Paris its pretty hard, Girl see this as something aggressive like they would almost call the cops or something...
The day time gaming is hard here, or at least in my view
PS: You live in Paris also ?
You were talking about pick up this girl in the street/metro. In Paris its pretty hard, Girl see this as something aggressive like they would almost call the cops or something...
The day time gaming is hard here, or at least in my view
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Re the problems you brought up on pp. 5-6. I can't really offer advanced-level insight about the specific situation because I'm less experienced, but I'll bring up something Owen said in the final debriefing of our bootcamp and which he's been hinting at in his recent posts.
When you have success, you build up momentum but also layers of attachment to success, until eventually the attachment to success chokes the upward momentum, so you hit a plataeau and stagnate or get worse.
It can be super disorienting because you still feel like a pimp during the day. However, this trough serves a positive function: it severs your attachment to the success that you've been having, and allows you to avoid deluding yourself into thinking you're the "wise old man" with nothing else to learn.
Once your attachment has been fully severed, you can go back out and carry the skills that you no longer are attached to towards a new set of challenges, building new momentum and, in the process, build new skills on top of the ones you built in the previous cycle. But with the new skills you have to go through this process
For example, I went through this in my 30-day challenge. In the beginning I was all hot on being an approach-machine. It was awesome and my sheer exuberance about it got me some success despite not being all tha skilled or calibrated. But then I identified with the success, and it made being an approach-machine fucking painful because I was looking for validation each time and I knew it would bomb. Until finally I fully severed my attachment to the new pimp identity by just bombing so many times that I started having fun again--the shitty week or so forced me to self-amuse more deeply in order to keep having fun, and eventually this got me out of the trough, much more centered than I was before.
Hope that helps! I've gotten a lot out of reading your stuff over the last few months, so I know your problem is just a temporary thing--you're definitely smart/committed enough to push through it.
When you have success, you build up momentum but also layers of attachment to success, until eventually the attachment to success chokes the upward momentum, so you hit a plataeau and stagnate or get worse.
It can be super disorienting because you still feel like a pimp during the day. However, this trough serves a positive function: it severs your attachment to the success that you've been having, and allows you to avoid deluding yourself into thinking you're the "wise old man" with nothing else to learn.
Once your attachment has been fully severed, you can go back out and carry the skills that you no longer are attached to towards a new set of challenges, building new momentum and, in the process, build new skills on top of the ones you built in the previous cycle. But with the new skills you have to go through this process
For example, I went through this in my 30-day challenge. In the beginning I was all hot on being an approach-machine. It was awesome and my sheer exuberance about it got me some success despite not being all tha skilled or calibrated. But then I identified with the success, and it made being an approach-machine fucking painful because I was looking for validation each time and I knew it would bomb. Until finally I fully severed my attachment to the new pimp identity by just bombing so many times that I started having fun again--the shitty week or so forced me to self-amuse more deeply in order to keep having fun, and eventually this got me out of the trough, much more centered than I was before.
Hope that helps! I've gotten a lot out of reading your stuff over the last few months, so I know your problem is just a temporary thing--you're definitely smart/committed enough to push through it.
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Silicone Pimp
Respected Member
Join Date: 07/27/2008 | Posts: 437
Lol sometimes I think we have similar issues at the same time.
I guess we are like a group of women getting on the same menstrual cycle. Weird.
PS: When is swimming pool time?
www.rsdnation.com/node/147143
Skeet skeet skeet
Naw thats tha other mayne
'cause my skeet never leak
out this rubber mayne
T&A ain't worth a nigga DNA
-Ice Cube