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Demonic Confidence
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#71
Jaguar

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Join Date: 08/10/2010 | Posts: 229

 @Lovebelow
I'm from Zaandam it's like 20 minutes with the train from there to Amsterdam.
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"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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#72
markzor

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Jaguar wrote:
Day 12

 Firstly I vomited again lol. (...)  I couldn't eat anything at my lunch break because I felt I could vomit it all. So I just drink a cup of water and start walking. Then when I get in Amsterdam, shit man after the first approach I thought how the hell am I going to compliment another 29 women. I had this feeling that this shit is weird as hell. But I thought fuck it.

oh man. props for doing it anyway!
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#73
Jaguar

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Day 13 

Today it was day 6 of demonic confidence. The mission was to approach 30 women and ask them directions to a place. But the thing, this time I had to get myself in a fear state.
The whole time approaching I had to think that everybody hated me out there and that I'm shit.
This exercise was really shit. It wasn't real hard, but man the reactions were the worst from the days.
People could just sense that I was tensed when I asked them for directions and like 30% just kept walking and thought get away from me. 
I'm glad this exercise is over.  Till now I've approached around 200 women in 7 days lol. That's really fucked up. I even don't remember who the hell I approached, their faces are gone. 
Something weird day 1 was really hard, day 2 was less hard. Day 3 was even less hard. From day 4 I didn't get stressed anymore on my way to Amsterdam. Even walking there no stress. I only was thinking this is weird shit, but that's it.
Before I sleep I've to do the affirmations again. Tomorrow I'll change/add new affirmations. 
Right now this song explains real well the feeling that I feel, a calmness that I can't explain. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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#74
Jaguar

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Day 14

Today it was day 7 of demonic confidence. The mission was approach 30 women and ask them for directions or the time while being in an exited state. 
This was really hard, just couldn't get myself exited.  Listening to some good music before going out also didn't do the trick. So I leave the house and start approaching.
I could hear that the way I'm approaching has become real calm. I could see it at the reactions of the women, it was real good. Even one chick kept talking asking me where I'm from, I thought o not this shit, your just number 12 lol. 
It was just an easy day. I'm getting really annoyed by the asking for directions by now. 

The program wants me now to write a letter to my subconscious. And tell it why it must change and shit. Here it is:

Your life is ending one second at a time, don't ever forget that.
At the end of your life your going out alone, there will be no one thats going to be like no wait I go with you, no ain't gonna happen. 
So this is it. Your time on this world will end and so will everybody els their time.
In about 100 years everybody right now living will be dead, everybody will be worm food. What I'm trying to tell you with this, is: don't give a fuck. 
Not giving a fuck, the more you do it the better your life will be. So DON'T GIVE A FUCK. And have fun the same time lol. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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#75
markzor

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 nice! "I thought o not this shit, your just number 12 lol."
that's like your first quality problem :p

like the feeling of the song, too.
(didn't really pay attention to the lyrics, though, although I can understand them)

and it's also very cool to notice how you are becoming indifferent to doing something you consider stupid.
this will be good reference experience if you have trouble cold approaching or escalating later on
then you'll just be like: OMG OMG I DONT FEEL LIKE IT THIS IS STUPID WRAAAH
and you have learned to be like: Ok. Bullshit all you want my little mind, i'm going in anyway.

also cool to see become more and more relaxed doing this!

this is expanding your comfort-zone by doing things outside it AT WORK.
destroying your fears by confronting them AT WORK.
you are making this happen!!!!
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#76
Jaguar

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All the guys that are reacting to my thread, thanks!
You guys are really keeping me motivated to keep getting out the house everyday and tear that shit up.  
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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#77
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 Day 15

Today it was day 8 of demonic confidence. The missions was: approach 30 women and ask for the time or for directions. This time alternate between a fear state and excited state. 
So the first approach I tried to get myself exited, the second in a fear and stressful state and after that again exited. I found the exited state real hard to do, the stress state was easier, but it wasn't enough to shake my voice or something like that. 
I still feel that I can't approach hot women, its weird cause when I approach one my voice comes out real confident and shit like approaching strangers is really normal. I think that I have this problem cause I don't know yet how strong my subconscious has become.
My subconscious right now is definitely stronger than my conscious. Didn't happen much today, did the exercise. It wasn't real hard, but man I'm getting really sick of asking for directions. Oh yeah because of my increasing confidence I have this problem right now that I fall asleep in the train and might miss my exit station. Previous falling asleep in the train would never be possible, because I would be stressed too much about what the other people in the train were thinking of me. 
Well see you guys tomorrow. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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#78

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#79
Jaguar

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Day 16

Today its day 9 of demonic confidence. The mission is to not think of sex all day long. You must see all women as your sister/mother and have no sexual feelings at all. There is no approaching today, yeah shades finally a break. 
I think not thinking about sex today isn't real hard for me, because the past week all that approaching has really sucked me empty. After everyday when I finished the exercise and approached 30 women I would go back home with the train and when I would see a hot woman I would think uuuuh she is nice lol, like I had smoked some weed.  So no problem for today. Something real cool that I'm noticing is that the last couple days my state isn't changing at all, it is neutral all the time no matter what happens. This used to not be the case, my state would fluctuate like crazy like a chick. It's beginning to feel like nobody can touch me, if they want to damage me they really need to start a fight with me, because intimidating shit doesn't really work anymore with me. And if people start a fight with me, I can fuck them up most of the time, because I'm a boxer for 2 years already lol. Shit man the world is really beginning to become a light place for me. Good shit.
Just need to repeat the affirmations right now and I'll be back tomorrow. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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#80

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