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January 17th, 2017
Demonic Confidence
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Jaguar

Jaguar

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Join Date: 08/10/2010 | Posts: 229

 @markzor
Because of the big amount of reference experience I had from the past 400 approaches, yes I almost feel the same al the time. I don't feel really shit and I don't feel really really good at any given moment, I'm stuck in neutral all the time. 
I think you make a good point in that it's not about completing the program. It's more about pushing myself and this program is just a way, cause there are more ways. I could have just pushed myself without the program, that would work too. But I just find it a cool program. After this time I need to leave it behind and go a level higher. 
As far as doing it in English, yes it definitely felt as putting an alter-ego on myself. It didn't feel real, all fake. The rejections also didn't affect me real hard, I think doing it in Dutch would really put myself out there. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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Jaguar

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 Ok so tomorrow I'll start. 3 weeks. No breaks, not allowed on this version. 
There is one problem this time. I've got ramadan this month. So no eating or drinking when the sun is above. OOOH shit lol. The previous time when I did the 2008 version of demonic confidence I was allowed to eat and drink and even than the whole program fucked me up every day. I would return back home sucked empty. So I'm not sure what this time will happen. I might pass out in the middle of a mission. Well I'll see.
Besides doing the program I wanna add some extra things to help improve myself. Basically I wanna follow this schedule for the next 3 weeks:
8.30 a.m. wake up, go to the gym
12.45 p.m. leave the house to do the mission for that day
8.00 p.m. do vocal power exercises and stretch muscles

That's it, not much to it. Tomorrow the weather will be fucked up as usual here in The Netherlands. The summer is always fucked up here, you get one day with good weather and after that a week with rain. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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reborn09

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Nice man, this time give yourself 2 hours maximum to do the task, no fucking around, just get in and do it! 
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Jaguar

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 Ok so today it's day 1 of demonic confidence 2003. The mission is: approach a minimum of 30 women and ask them for the time. I get a max of 2 hours for this. After doing that I need to make a list of objections that might form obstacles that stop me from completing this program.
Right now I feel really tired, I just got back from the gym. I don't feel much tension in my body. On a scale of 1 to 10 the tension is 1.5. So thats cool. 
I'll be back tonight. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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Jaguar

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 Just as I was going to leave the house to do the mission I decided not to do it. I decided to push the whole program one week forward. I've got a couple reasons for doing this. Firstly next week I can travel free with public transportation again, starting next week will save me 100 dollar. It also feels like it wasn't that long ago that I did the previous version. And oh yeah, where the fuck did my motivation go. I remember like starting the previous version like 5 weeks ago I was pissed, my confidence was really low. I really need to get that motivation back up. But yeah saving 100 dollar is worth waiting for me 1 more week. And just exactly after the 3 weeks college will start again, so it's planned well. I can't imagine myself doing a program like this while having college, like seriously where the fuck do you get that time from. So hopefully after 1 month from now I can leave demonic confidence behind. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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Jaguar

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 Tomorrow day 1 of demonic confidence. Damn this week went by fast, not normal this shit. 
Well anyway I need to state a goal for this program. That's easy, just increase my comfort zone. Stop giving a fuck about other peoples opinion and shit. 
Tomorrow I'll leave the house at 13.00 pm. Before leaving the house I'll do the vocal warm up by Roger Love. 
This time I'm really scared that I'll lose motivation at any given point. Well there isn't much to it than to do it. 
I'll post tomorrow how day 1 went. Day 1: approach 30 women in under 2 hours. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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Jaguar

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 Just got back and got it done. Went first to a small city did 15 approaches in 15 minutes. After that I went to Amsterdam and did the final 15 approaches in 20 minutes for a total of 30 approaches. So 30 approaches in 35 minutes. If you count the train ride to amsterdam the total is 1 hour and 20 minutes. So today is a succes. As far as the approaches, 4 didn't give me the time. 15 out of 30 were hot women. I also approached some women in shops, some of them were nice others not. I think it just depends if they're having a shit day or not.  I also approached a chick that was sitting with her big bulldog looking kinda pissed. She said no to my question if she had the time. I swear she could have been a hooker, it really seemed like that lol. Something interesting today a lot of people looked first at my arm if I was wearing a watch or not, I was like WTF. Last time this didn't happen at all. All in all it went smooth. The first time 6 weeks ago I felt like dying, this time the stress was small, really small. It was more that I found it annoying that I had to ask 30 for the time. 
So now the program wants me to come up with objections that might stop me from completing this program.
-This mission is boring, lets quit.
-This mission is taking too long, lets quit.
-This missions aren't improving me, lets quit. 
-This mission is far too crazy, lets quit.
-This mission is too hard, lets quit.
-This mission is making me annoy people, lets quit. 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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reborn09

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Nice, man.
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Jaguar

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Day 2 of Demonic Confidence 
Mission: approach 30 women with wearing a watch, ask for the time. Time limit: 2 hours. 
Was feeling really sick and tired today but got it done. First I went to a city where I never went before. That caused anxiety while approaching I was like motherfucker the chode is still in me, get the fuck out. Did 18 approaches in 45 minutes there. Could have done the 30 in 45 minutes there, but who cares. I asked one girl with cocky boyfriend. The dude was like you got a watch man. I told him it's not running correct and he gave me the time. One chick replied no to my question while she was looking at her phone lol. One woman looked smiling at me because she saw me asking the same question twice. After 45 minutes in this city I went to Amsterdam. The train ride was 45 minutes. I started approaching there and it went pretty fast. People in Amsterdam were friendlier than in the previous city, I was like WTF. Normaly Amsterdam is the least friendly. My approaching rate was 65% hot babe, so thats cool. Almost at the end I approach a tall blond chick from behind, she answered smiling I said thanks without looking at her, she didn't like that lol. Overal it went smooth. The first 18 approaches were done in 45 minutes. The last 12 in 15 minutes. So 30 approaches in 1 hour. The train ride in between was 45 minutes. So 1 hour and 45 minutes total. 
Right now the program wants me to look at my objections a little bit.
-This mission is boring, lets quit. This happened to me today and yesterday.
-This mission is taking too long, lets quit.
Not really the case, yesterday took me 35 minutes, today 60 minutes. But I know for advanced exercises I'll need more time.
-This missions aren't improving me, lets quit.
Well yeah the improvement right now is real small everyday. But I think the stripclub day on day 13 will make a huge change in me. 
-This mission is far too crazy, lets quit.
Not the issue right now. Might come in the future. 
-This mission is too hard, lets quit.
MIght come in the future. 
-This mission is making me annoy people, lets quit.
I'm feeling this all the time, unless I get a positive reaction. It sucks, it's slowing me down. 

A cool song:


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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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Jaguar

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Day 3 of Demonic Confidence.
Mission: approach 30 women with their boyfriend/dad and ask for the time to the woman, ignore the guy. Wear a watch or carry a sell phone.  

So today I woke up pretty late and I seriously considered quitting the program. I was just too tired, but than I thought to myself I could never forgive myself if I would quit now. So I got out the house. 
First I went to the city that I went to on day 1. Made 15 approaches there in 30 minutes. But seriously I couldn't find enough couples. 8/15 were couples, the other single women. I was doing it with carrying a sell phone and nobody gave a fuck about it. When I asked the woman in couples the guy would answer like 70% of the time. After that I went to Amsterdam for the final 15. I did them in 20 minutes. Totally I approached 15 couples, the other 15 were single women. I could approach 30 couples, but that would mean that I would also approach many old couples. That just feels useless, so I approached hot single women. Maybe that means that I failed today, but hey I'm not gonna start all over again lol. Seriously asking the woman in couples is effortless because I'm asking a harmless question. A cool improvement is that today I felt less that people were judging me, but it's still there. 
Some things to consider: 
-my grooming needs improvement. I think because I thought I was worthless for like my whole life I didn't give a fuck at how I looked like. Thats bad. I really need to put on better clothes and groom better, maybe a nice cologne lol. 
-Because my confidence has increased I have this feeling like I will scare these chicks, what happens is that I will approach extra nice lol. So I'm using rapport tonality. That's fucked up. I really need to use neutral or breaking rapport tonality. 
-After all these approaches now like 500 I still think that people are my enemies WTF. Seriously this sucks. I really need to implements that belief that Tyler talks about in The Blueprint Decoded: everybody is your friend. 

Ok so now It seems like I'll need to use affirmations again, I'm gonna listen to that audio tonight, too tired now. 
Also I will need to list my beliefs about women, will do that tonight also. 

 
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Success is nothing more than pressure over time, so be relentless. - Ciaran
"You put your personality on the line and get cut down. You step back up and get cut down, again. You do this again and again and again because you no longer give a fuck what happens to you, as long as it isn't that shit [mediocrity] anymore." - Ciaran
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