THE FORUMS
Slept like 12 hours last night. Body in full recuperation mode. Chilled most of the morning, banged out the philosophy paper.
1 down, 2 to go.
being couped up at home resting and writing this paper put me in a wierd mood. I went out to the store, and I was not callabrated at ALL. i usually don't monitor it, but it was so apparent.
Last night thuglife texted me. It's been a week since she flaked me off with a phony excuse, and I guess she was missing a nig. lol
When I first met her I threw out this role playing thing in which we were married, and she keeps brigning it up..
She's young, I guess its natural. I played along, which was prabably chode of me to do. I was just happy to see her message, and told her i missed her. No text back.
Wonder if this is just an issue specific with her, or if i am showing affection too soon. Especially after her flake last week. Whatever i still feel she is a legit FB on any given day, just not consistant(maybe thats impossible with chicks???)
I got it in some more of facebook with the model chick I've been gaming. Taking it slow, just greeting now and than. She sent me kisses last night, WHOLLY SHIT SON!! lol Shooting for proposing a meetup next week, see where it goes. :)
I feel clear headed because I am not drunk or hung over, the week off has really been a blessing, but at the same time I am EXTREMELY eager to get back out next week!
1 down, 2 to go.
being couped up at home resting and writing this paper put me in a wierd mood. I went out to the store, and I was not callabrated at ALL. i usually don't monitor it, but it was so apparent.
Last night thuglife texted me. It's been a week since she flaked me off with a phony excuse, and I guess she was missing a nig. lol
When I first met her I threw out this role playing thing in which we were married, and she keeps brigning it up..
She's young, I guess its natural. I played along, which was prabably chode of me to do. I was just happy to see her message, and told her i missed her. No text back.
Wonder if this is just an issue specific with her, or if i am showing affection too soon. Especially after her flake last week. Whatever i still feel she is a legit FB on any given day, just not consistant(maybe thats impossible with chicks???)
I got it in some more of facebook with the model chick I've been gaming. Taking it slow, just greeting now and than. She sent me kisses last night, WHOLLY SHIT SON!! lol Shooting for proposing a meetup next week, see where it goes. :)
I feel clear headed because I am not drunk or hung over, the week off has really been a blessing, but at the same time I am EXTREMELY eager to get back out next week!
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The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
Today consisted of traffic court, work, and now rest. Almost done with this research paper, polish it in the morning, and it'll be 1 more to go!
Next week is gonna be crazy. For now relax in, and enjoy the solitude!
:)
Next week is gonna be crazy. For now relax in, and enjoy the solitude!
:)
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The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
Lighter fluid seems to work. ANYWHERE. It’s just that logical command to your brain to que up the social persona. Aced the 8 page research paper this morning, and I slid into class like a gangster. Eating cheetos lunch now.
I feel a bit restless after not being in the field for a good week. I think it makes my hunger for improvement grow. Anticipation baby. Munch munch cheetos are delicious. I’ll be hitting the town tonight. Glory.
FR to follow.
Didn’t go out, I’m staying in tonight. No big deal as it not part of my schedule. Kinda in shit state. Ho hum, I’ll get over it.
I feel a bit restless after not being in the field for a good week. I think it makes my hunger for improvement grow. Anticipation baby. Munch munch cheetos are delicious. I’ll be hitting the town tonight. Glory.
FR to follow.
Didn’t go out, I’m staying in tonight. No big deal as it not part of my schedule. Kinda in shit state. Ho hum, I’ll get over it.
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The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
Last night after work I felt HEAVY. Emotional. I took a cruise through my old neighborhood, and I had a pervading feeling of inferiority, like I have ALWAYS been a loser. I downplayed it in yesterdays log, which was probably a good idea to shake that funk. While at work today I felt choked up, like I wanted to cry, and my eyes were welling a bit. Maybe it is due to me dropping “thug life” from the rotation yesterday. The finality of things.
I didn’t report this but I texted the Ex on her birthday, simply “happy birthday”
Ok this looks to be one of those long reports lol.
It took her about 19 hours to respond “thank you..”
She was obviously floored by my greeting, and the fact I remembered her birthday.
There is no reason to think about her any further. More on progress.
I enjoyed finishing Get Laid or Die trying last night, now I don’t have to carry it around at work and look like a sketchy ass weirdo. Lol.
But seriously it was enjoyable at the end. How he got his life in order, even for a brief moment in time. That shit is inspirational. That coupled with an Ayn Rand video I glanced through on you tube. Rand was saying although she is afraid of people around her dying she is not afraid of dying herself. The way she posed it, it is not you that dies, but the world around you that ends. Definitely something that got my noodle stirring. She later went on to say that her strong belief that there is no afterlife makes her value her time spent on earth more.
“If you knew this is the only life you get, wouldn’t that make you value it more”
Uh, fuck yea Ms. Rand. That sounds so beautiful. Makes my eyes well.
I feel a theory cooking in my crock pot….
When I don’t have intimacy with a girl, or the passion that comes with it, I am so much more SENSITIVE and passionate about other things going on in my life. Like my dog, like my schoolwork, like my dedication to the “game” and this journal, and even towards friends. A problem I need to learn to reconcile is expecting so much from friends and family in terms of attention and favors. I need to be that rock in the storm, not the fucking storm, or the chode trying to hold on for dear life.
I felt a bit of a switch last night. Almost immediately after I finished GLODT, Alma a good female friend of mine called. I was pretty happy to hear from her, as I was a bit lonely. I felt a transition, instead of me dropping my problems on her so much, I mostly listened and offered advice when she asked. Instead I told her bout the things going on in my life, and some concepts that have been percolating in my head.
It’s time for the percolator!
I think vibing is one of the most important skills with women and interpersonal skills period. Just vibe ah ah ah…
Is this another 30 day title springing up. J
I am so optimistic about things. I ate a delicious healthy salad, and am respecting my body for the first itme in a LONG time, now I can respect others.
Man I’m welling up again. I love it.
I didn’t report this but I texted the Ex on her birthday, simply “happy birthday”
Ok this looks to be one of those long reports lol.
It took her about 19 hours to respond “thank you..”
She was obviously floored by my greeting, and the fact I remembered her birthday.
There is no reason to think about her any further. More on progress.
I enjoyed finishing Get Laid or Die trying last night, now I don’t have to carry it around at work and look like a sketchy ass weirdo. Lol.
But seriously it was enjoyable at the end. How he got his life in order, even for a brief moment in time. That shit is inspirational. That coupled with an Ayn Rand video I glanced through on you tube. Rand was saying although she is afraid of people around her dying she is not afraid of dying herself. The way she posed it, it is not you that dies, but the world around you that ends. Definitely something that got my noodle stirring. She later went on to say that her strong belief that there is no afterlife makes her value her time spent on earth more.
“If you knew this is the only life you get, wouldn’t that make you value it more”
Uh, fuck yea Ms. Rand. That sounds so beautiful. Makes my eyes well.
I feel a theory cooking in my crock pot….
When I don’t have intimacy with a girl, or the passion that comes with it, I am so much more SENSITIVE and passionate about other things going on in my life. Like my dog, like my schoolwork, like my dedication to the “game” and this journal, and even towards friends. A problem I need to learn to reconcile is expecting so much from friends and family in terms of attention and favors. I need to be that rock in the storm, not the fucking storm, or the chode trying to hold on for dear life.
I felt a bit of a switch last night. Almost immediately after I finished GLODT, Alma a good female friend of mine called. I was pretty happy to hear from her, as I was a bit lonely. I felt a transition, instead of me dropping my problems on her so much, I mostly listened and offered advice when she asked. Instead I told her bout the things going on in my life, and some concepts that have been percolating in my head.
It’s time for the percolator!
I think vibing is one of the most important skills with women and interpersonal skills period. Just vibe ah ah ah…
Is this another 30 day title springing up. J
I am so optimistic about things. I ate a delicious healthy salad, and am respecting my body for the first itme in a LONG time, now I can respect others.
Man I’m welling up again. I love it.
__________________
The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
OYE MI AMOR!!!!!!!!!!!
Few things crossed my mind today. The beauty of being in a relationship, but no-halfway gangster-clause withstanding was done fantasying soon after.
That grass looks green as fuck when your looking at it from afar.
So the day of reckoning has come. Tomorrow I had allusions of taking plan A(FB MexiModel) or plan B (smiley) on a day 2 to see Atlas Shrugged.
Plan A lives in Mexico lol, but she indicated she was interested in seeing me sometime, perhaps when I go their on vacay.
Plan B has school.
What I am left with is either
1. Do a bit of day game, and get a uic hottie to come along
Or
2. Just rest it up for the night of gaming.
It will be a bit chode to go watch this movie alone, however I really want to. It’s all about time management though , really.
Actually not really, but I’ll lie to myself and make that the issue
HMPFFF!
Hahaha.
Lighter fluid works period, I don’t even know why I have to keep saying it.
I am actually in CREATOR mode, just making these concepts up, and they are for the most part with some tweaks pure GOLD. Field is King.
Now a bit on compartmentalizing my life.
In the past I felt like, and to some degree still feel a bit ashamed of what I do. Like there are guys out their that get ass, but don’t regularly have to push themselves.
That has been why my success has ALWAYS petered when I begin seeing a woman. I feel like what I am doing I need to keep separate from her, because if she finds out she will know I’m a loser.
One or the other, not both.
Chode or champ.
So again the concept of external validation confronts me. Recognizing it is not enough, I have to push against it, kiss it. THEM PRETTY ASS LIPS!
Haha
Few things crossed my mind today. The beauty of being in a relationship, but no-halfway gangster-clause withstanding was done fantasying soon after.
That grass looks green as fuck when your looking at it from afar.
So the day of reckoning has come. Tomorrow I had allusions of taking plan A(FB MexiModel) or plan B (smiley) on a day 2 to see Atlas Shrugged.
Plan A lives in Mexico lol, but she indicated she was interested in seeing me sometime, perhaps when I go their on vacay.
Plan B has school.
What I am left with is either
1. Do a bit of day game, and get a uic hottie to come along
Or
2. Just rest it up for the night of gaming.
It will be a bit chode to go watch this movie alone, however I really want to. It’s all about time management though , really.
Actually not really, but I’ll lie to myself and make that the issue
HMPFFF!
Hahaha.
Lighter fluid works period, I don’t even know why I have to keep saying it.
I am actually in CREATOR mode, just making these concepts up, and they are for the most part with some tweaks pure GOLD. Field is King.
Now a bit on compartmentalizing my life.
In the past I felt like, and to some degree still feel a bit ashamed of what I do. Like there are guys out their that get ass, but don’t regularly have to push themselves.
That has been why my success has ALWAYS petered when I begin seeing a woman. I feel like what I am doing I need to keep separate from her, because if she finds out she will know I’m a loser.
One or the other, not both.
Chode or champ.
So again the concept of external validation confronts me. Recognizing it is not enough, I have to push against it, kiss it. THEM PRETTY ASS LIPS!
Haha
__________________
The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
I just realized how much older I am than most kids in school. The more I don’t go out and beast, them more concepts come racing to my head.
“maybe I need this ninja, chuck Norris shit to grow some balls and go out”
“Perhaps this new psycho neuro-linguistic programming from the future will allow me the confidence to beast in the fucking night”
“just MAYBE I could find a magic pink fucking pony, and ride that shit into the club, and ALL the hunnies will be following me”
Although that last one is not a bad sounding concept, I just need to go out tonight period.
Or this log/journal entry is going to sound incredibly boring. It will also get boring to write, but if it’s written in the context of stepping it the fuck up….. Funny fucking shit man, and also fun adventures. J
FR to follow winches!
******
No FR, bulls game pre party turned into Hawks after party, for two of my neihbors, That Torres so graciously invited up, and a few girls that Torres invited over via Alaine.
Not exactly what I planned. I was a bit down on myself this morning naturally. I’m sorta over it, as long as it doesn’t continue to happen.
In hindsight, I should have just been forcefull about it and told everyone that the party is over, and will continue elsewhere if they so desired. Telling sedano that the after party would be elsewhere.
But what of transportation, and what venues on a Tuesday night?
I think I made a solid decision based on the circumstances, game was not on when alaine and the girls arrived. This one girl Claudia was hot, I choded out. I was sorta lingering around so that she could open me. No dice. A positive side is I think everyone had fun, including myself, and the bulls won baby.
So I am now on the bus about to arrive at uic, will grind the last of this Political Science hw, than be on my way home to shower and hit up spybar.
J Nothing but a FR will be on clean paper!
“maybe I need this ninja, chuck Norris shit to grow some balls and go out”
“Perhaps this new psycho neuro-linguistic programming from the future will allow me the confidence to beast in the fucking night”
“just MAYBE I could find a magic pink fucking pony, and ride that shit into the club, and ALL the hunnies will be following me”
Although that last one is not a bad sounding concept, I just need to go out tonight period.
Or this log/journal entry is going to sound incredibly boring. It will also get boring to write, but if it’s written in the context of stepping it the fuck up….. Funny fucking shit man, and also fun adventures. J
FR to follow winches!
******
No FR, bulls game pre party turned into Hawks after party, for two of my neihbors, That Torres so graciously invited up, and a few girls that Torres invited over via Alaine.
Not exactly what I planned. I was a bit down on myself this morning naturally. I’m sorta over it, as long as it doesn’t continue to happen.
In hindsight, I should have just been forcefull about it and told everyone that the party is over, and will continue elsewhere if they so desired. Telling sedano that the after party would be elsewhere.
But what of transportation, and what venues on a Tuesday night?
I think I made a solid decision based on the circumstances, game was not on when alaine and the girls arrived. This one girl Claudia was hot, I choded out. I was sorta lingering around so that she could open me. No dice. A positive side is I think everyone had fun, including myself, and the bulls won baby.
So I am now on the bus about to arrive at uic, will grind the last of this Political Science hw, than be on my way home to shower and hit up spybar.
J Nothing but a FR will be on clean paper!
__________________
The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
Haha the royal wedding is on CNN, fucking commies. Whatever bigger and better…:
Last night I didn’t beast. I partied at home, minus beast mode. I left that shit somewhere, not even home.
This hotty was here and I was just stuck. Blah.
Fast forward, I was kicking myself about not going out last night so I hit it tonight. Basically everything was empty, Soundbar wanted to charge me 10 dollars, pshhh please, Spybar charging 20, must’ve been for the crack they were smoking. Fuck ZZZeeees plaice mhan. Haha I love christophes accent.
So I go over to Moe’s cantina, not bad not bad, But I settle on the usual sure shot English. It was not a sure shot, but at this point it was like 1 am and I need to get it in somewhere. there are like 2 sets. Vacant. I chat up the bartender, she seems intrigued by my stupid personality… as suspected it was an act bc she doesn’t return to talk. No tip biatch!
Haha, I beasted a little on okcupid on the way home spouting fairly belligerent nonsense at hot women. See how this pans out tomorrow. I’m not holding my breath, my real work is in the field.
Side note I’m trying some sort of humble challenge that I’m to tipsy to try to think about so more on that to come.
Last night I didn’t beast. I partied at home, minus beast mode. I left that shit somewhere, not even home.
This hotty was here and I was just stuck. Blah.
Fast forward, I was kicking myself about not going out last night so I hit it tonight. Basically everything was empty, Soundbar wanted to charge me 10 dollars, pshhh please, Spybar charging 20, must’ve been for the crack they were smoking. Fuck ZZZeeees plaice mhan. Haha I love christophes accent.
So I go over to Moe’s cantina, not bad not bad, But I settle on the usual sure shot English. It was not a sure shot, but at this point it was like 1 am and I need to get it in somewhere. there are like 2 sets. Vacant. I chat up the bartender, she seems intrigued by my stupid personality… as suspected it was an act bc she doesn’t return to talk. No tip biatch!
Haha, I beasted a little on okcupid on the way home spouting fairly belligerent nonsense at hot women. See how this pans out tomorrow. I’m not holding my breath, my real work is in the field.
Side note I’m trying some sort of humble challenge that I’m to tipsy to try to think about so more on that to come.
__________________
The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
This is my reality. I am all alone. Nobody really cares.
I went out tonight, shit night for the most part, didn’t really approach much. 1 approach to some drunken girl that was stumbling all over me, not purposely. Her friend was telling her not to go home, and after feeling her fall on me a few times I told her friend
“somebodies gotta take her home”
To which she replied
No.
At least I went out, and I kept the drinking light, no pigging out on food after shit night, which is probably why I feel like shit right now. I took conscious control of not cheating my fucking diet.
I went out tonight, shit night for the most part, didn’t really approach much. 1 approach to some drunken girl that was stumbling all over me, not purposely. Her friend was telling her not to go home, and after feeling her fall on me a few times I told her friend
“somebodies gotta take her home”
To which she replied
No.
At least I went out, and I kept the drinking light, no pigging out on food after shit night, which is probably why I feel like shit right now. I took conscious control of not cheating my fucking diet.
__________________
The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
Aaah, blue moon on the balcony with my dog. I’m feeling pretty good in this mutherfucker. Last night was not the best night ever, but it is a sober reminder that in this game as in other things, mastery comes slowly while putting in the work. 2 steps forward 1 step back. A part of me was aware of this when I went out to spybar, and got multiple sets hooked, and a makeout. That is why I procrastinated to get back out into the field. It’s tough to experience something mind blowing like that, and go back out the next night and have nothing hook, or not even get the confidence to open 1 set.
I was watching a Discovery special on green beret training. I went through USMC boot camp and can still appreciate some of the rigors these dudes have to endure, and push past to make it out. All in the name of glory. I saw soldiers rolling around like logs purposely as a drill for 2 hours, puking all over the place.
You pass out, your done
You don’t conceal your puke for purposes of covering your tracks, your done.
And that was the first two days.
What followed was nighttime land navigation covering 50 miles with 55 lb. rucksacks, and other idiotic feats.
Than I look at little ol me. My tiny little struggle to excel at school, and work, juggle my bills and find the time to do pick up.
Puts things into perspective.
Although I have a goal of obtaining 3 solid 8 or higher fuck buddies by the end of this 6 month challenge, I cannot imagine how good I’m going to get. All I can do is make the most out of the opportunities that present themselves, and know that given the situation I did EVERYTHING in my power to affect success. Straight up no regrets. Giving it my all, and knowing that I left it all in the field.
Championship status.
Haha, I am an arrogant prick… sometimes
Who knows, maybe at the end of the challenge I will want to stay single and in the game for life, certainly not how I felt when I started. As the months of being single (5 now)pass by it feels better and better not NEEDING a girlfriend. It has been a rollercoaster though, that is for damn sure, and the next 5 months figure to be the same.
I was watching a Discovery special on green beret training. I went through USMC boot camp and can still appreciate some of the rigors these dudes have to endure, and push past to make it out. All in the name of glory. I saw soldiers rolling around like logs purposely as a drill for 2 hours, puking all over the place.
You pass out, your done
You don’t conceal your puke for purposes of covering your tracks, your done.
And that was the first two days.
What followed was nighttime land navigation covering 50 miles with 55 lb. rucksacks, and other idiotic feats.
Than I look at little ol me. My tiny little struggle to excel at school, and work, juggle my bills and find the time to do pick up.
Puts things into perspective.
Although I have a goal of obtaining 3 solid 8 or higher fuck buddies by the end of this 6 month challenge, I cannot imagine how good I’m going to get. All I can do is make the most out of the opportunities that present themselves, and know that given the situation I did EVERYTHING in my power to affect success. Straight up no regrets. Giving it my all, and knowing that I left it all in the field.
Championship status.
Haha, I am an arrogant prick… sometimes
Who knows, maybe at the end of the challenge I will want to stay single and in the game for life, certainly not how I felt when I started. As the months of being single (5 now)pass by it feels better and better not NEEDING a girlfriend. It has been a rollercoaster though, that is for damn sure, and the next 5 months figure to be the same.
__________________
The journal: www.rsdnation.com/node/185359
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle
dzdevil®
Respected Member
Join Date: 10/31/2007 | Posts: 491
I am halfway through this month long "lighter fluid" challenge, and only now decided to post everything on rsdnation.com. Welcome any comments, or constructive criticism.
I am actually on a 6 month long journey, this is just the 1st month, but all posts will be done on here :)
Back to regular FR's.
As stated earlier I'm taking this week off of going out because of papers (that I need to start) but I left the afternoon open for day 2 with smiley.
She dropped by. It was raining and cold as ever: no icecream. thankfully the spot I planned to go to has incredible chilly. Had her jump in my car and head out. Smiley is nervous, I am too. We chat a bit, eat food, and I fill her in on some history about the restuarant.
Bounce out and head to my place. She's a dog lover, so I let my dog loose. We watch a boring movie (Tron) and find something more entertaining to do. Makeout!
Stuff got pretty heavy, but didn't fully close.... think I pushed too hard.
She has to go because she left her dog all alone. I think she was serious lol.
She'll be a cool friend....
The blog: youcangetthatgirl.blogspot.com
"Man is a political animal" -Aristotle