THE FORUMS

@ilb: I went to IED in Milan. Had a few mates at ole' Bocconi :D Parli Italiano? 
@ the_kenny: Cheers mate. I think that once you get reasonably successful at this, pulling consistency basically comes down to the amount of desire you actually have for it. Which I'll address further down here. 

So quick update. After a flying start to the year I got a little complacent. As I somewhat predicted, I had zero correspondence with Finnish girl for a week or so - before she showed up out-of-the-blue at my place to get closed out properly :)

In the past I think I would have blown this by sending her apologetic texts for being overly forward/sexual. Luckily I did not do this. Mentality reinforced - never apologise for expressing your desires. 

Otherwise I haven't gone out much and have just been servicing the other girls I picked up at the start of this year. Although ones gone back to Canada now, and I'm not that into Amazon aussie so she's been taken out as well. But I'm definitely hanging onto the other girl for a while. She's fucking awesome. Hot. Smart. Chiill. Same interests. Perfect little body. This is also a bad thing since she's making me lose interest in going out and finding other girls. Last weekend we had a wicked apartment party where despite the options to bang different new girls - I was only really interested in scoring her again - which I did. 

I turned 26 on Friday which didn't concern me too much since both my professional and personal life is going great right now. The only thing which I really need to address is a little thing called a bulging L5/S1 disk in my lower spine. I fucked it badly skiing in December of 2010 and did not take the precise, specialist steps needed to completely rehabilitate it in 2011. After finally consulting the best specialist possible, I have to make proper lifestyle changes again. The Gym is finished. Everything in there is crippling me. Time to take up swimming. Best thing I can do for my back and midsection. Even though I fucking suck at swimming. Oh well, new challenge for the new year. 

Time for a little FR:

28/1 Saturday Night

I go out solo & sober tonight - I haven't been out in a while and despite having none of my regular wings to hit it with - decide to go anyway. I don't like solo game unless I'm travelling. Otherwise, I go out to have fun with my brother and friends as my mission prerogative. None-the-less I get a fucking hottie start talking to me at the bar as soon as I arrive. This doesn't happen overly regularly but I decide to play it cool at the nights start and find her again after I get my drink. Unfortunately she vanishes for the night.

Next set is two bored looking girls hanging by the pool table. 6 and 8. I open with that observation. 6 FUCKING loves me off the bat. Initiates physicality etc. But obviously I'm more interested in her mate. I do some logistics/analytics on them. English. Staying in hostels. 6 leaves on Tuesday. 8 leaves in a few months. I could have almost certanely slammed the 6 that night but I'd mch rather hedge my bets on organizing something with her mate - even if it means not getting laid with her tonight. I get both their details before a spanner gets thrown in the works and they have to run back to their hostel to help their ruinously drunken friend. No matter. Nights off to a good start though and I'll be able to meet the hot one later.  

Night doesn't get better though. In a bizzarely uncharacteristic chain of events, I proceed to get brutally rejected by 5 or so girls in a row right off the bat. Hidden boyfriends popping out everywhere like fucking whack-a-moles. What the hell. This isn't suppossed to happen. Especially not at this small venue. I'm sober and irritated now. No mates to chill with/kill time between sets. I start losing interest fast. Additionally so after my primary texts me to see what's up. I take the easy option. If I hadn't had her I'd have stayed and burned the venue to the ground properly. 

It's true what they say, the enemy of great is good. 

Yeah, it's quite amazing actually. First time I was back in the pool I could just do 5 laps before feeling exhausted. 2 weeks later and I'm doing 40. Quite pleased with myself here.

On the flipside I'm not pleased with the amount of field action I've been taking the last couple of weeks - barely one day a week lol. Needless to say it's barely possible to create quality opportunities when you go out this infrequently. Haven't even been chasing my numbers. Last thursday I burned shit too the ground and got a bunch of make-outs/attraction etc - but luck, timing and logistics were all badly against me. Everything fell through for reasons outside my control and to be honest - I didn't feel that bad about it. What I realized is that if I went out like this 3 - 4 nights a week I'd be fucking tons of new girls all the time. 

But last night was my fault. I arrived around 10:45 and just chilled with KR for a while, then some average looking girl started hitting on me like a fucking rapist. She iniated face rape on me and then we went for a walk around the corner of the club and she sucked me so I actually bust one down her throat. It was only 12:15 or so but I decided to pull her home and get laid now since I thought it would be convinient to pull on a weeknight without sleep depriving myself for the next day. But once we got there she did FUCKING nothing. You'd of thought that shit was dead-on and to have this girl suddenly go Victorian frigid on me was a mindfuck. Seems like she got all the validation she needed. I plowed for a bit but then kicked her out. Can't be fucked pushing for sex with vanilla quality girls who are kicking tires. She asked if she could crash the night and I told her na, I gotta get up early. Girls like you don't get to crash in my fucking palace. It was 1am now so I decided to go to sleep since didn't want to take another cab back to the club. 

Here's what pissed me off: I took 0 action tonight. Approached no one. Sure I got my dick sucked but nothing tonight was of MY design. I like being in control. I was in a good space and should have been approaching stunners, instead I took the easy path and let matters be dictated too me as opposed to the other way round. It's a feeble, beta approach to life and I fucking hate it. I should have ditched her after getting  the BJ. Never letting this kind of shit happening to me again. I'd rather go hard and potentially get nothing, than do nothing and get a compromise.

Anyway enough doom and gloom. 

Updates On the winning side of things:
- My primary girl is fucking awesome. We had a romantic valentines date at one of the top restaurants in Sydney. I'd never seen her dressed up this elegantly before. Hardly recognized her and she came in at a solid 9.5/10. It's actually potentially dangerous since I like her company so much that it's the main reason I've been slacking in field. 
- Had sex with Finnish girls other hot Finnish friend. She was kind of zombie like during le sex but what the hey :P (Super exciting LR: Invited her round, chilled to Groove armada with Alize cocktails, had sex) 
- On page 2 of this thread I had a date with a Russian turbo - whom I haven't been out with since (I never fully closed her). She's been living an interesting life since we last met up - basically all the typical looney Russian stuff: Golddigging, dating dudes 30 years older than her - oh and getting big fuck-me breast implants back in Moscow as a birthday present from Mafia boss Vladimir Stalin. Anyway out-of-the-blue she's been contacting me alot on facebook and text. Wants to meet up next week. Not sure what it means since she's pretty much fucking crazy - but it is interesting. 
- Monthly bonus made for my regular job. 
- I'm officially a published, paid writer now. This is a great hobby. 
- I have a few high girl volume social circle things coming in the next week which means opportunities for easy lays. Social circle be easier than shooting elephants with a rocket launcher. 

So bottom line: Things are good - but the scope for me turning it up some notches is vast. I'm going to start going out more in the week, though not necessarilly 

In any case, I am much better than I was a year ago. For everything. 

Haha yeah nice positive reframe. I guess these 'problems' are all relative. I was just annoyed  at the fact that I was super "in state" and settled for an average girl when I could have ditched her and almost certainly gotten a hotter one. I think I just come across as aggrieved because I need a nap. It really is a stupid thing to make a big deal about - though the more action needed part does ring true.