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I've been away from the forum for a while, but threads like these make me return.
Ambiguity.
First off - watched your video together with Alexander~ and I laughed my ass off. You've just become a role model for me in terms of ignoring social pressure. I love it.
Second - you being/behaving that way (judging from the vid) without the use of alcohol or drugs is in my opinion profound. I share the same trait of becoming overly addicted to anything and everything, so I try to just stay away from it all in order not to get stuck in an addiction again. Respect.
Third - I've spent the last few days reading this thread from start to finish, and it does seem you're in a pretty dark place at the moment. At the same time though, your ability of self observation is FAR beyond average. You need to realize that the percentage of guys reaching your level of success with women is probably at to 1 in 10 000 or even more extreme. And the rest of the guys in the world are dreaming about it. Even if the reality is far from the somewhat glorious player/bad boy image we get from the media. Further, the percentage of guys who get to that level without drug/alcohol abuse is even smaller. And even further, the percentage of guys who in the midst of all this still have a vision of a healthy lifestyle and future, a hope and even an assumption that this also will pass, is slim to ZERO. Realize this.
I don't know you, I haven't met you or even talked to you, but it seems as you don't have a purpose in life yet. If this is true, then your purpose is "simply" to find your life purpose. This is not necessarily easy though. I found my purpose half a year ago, being in Afghanistan and getting shot at. A friend of mine discovered his when lying on the couch, listening to music.
When you have a purpose, you realize your place in society and in this world, and the fears and confusions you have in life are decimated. I've been on the brink of suicide several times myself, and I can honestly say that it was not until I found my purpose that the deppressive traits dissapeared. The destructive traits are still present, but I channel them through working out, having sex and meditation. I've spent countless hours thinking of life and death, the meaning of it all and my place in all of this. How fucking girls to the left and right can go hand-in-hand with a fulfilled life. How I can make myself stop thinking of "game" and being happy with what I have, when I have it.
To be honest, I doubt that you will find a definite answer to all of your questions just by looking at what the Western Modern Man has invented. I know I didn't find it. Although Tony, Ecky and Tracy are good for self help in the "normal" everyday life, it just wasn't enough for me. I found my answers through the cultivation practise Falun Gong, which is pretty much the only thing that I have in my life that I still consider to be really pure and beautiful. I consider it of a kind of faith/belief than that of a religion. So how does my purpose of saving people physically (working as a medic) and mentally (challenges and encourages enlightment / higher level of consciousness) along with following the values of Falun Gong "Truth, Compassion, Forbearance" click with me going to clubs and fucking girls?
It took me some time, and I still don't have a definite answer, but the closest I get is to have a personal boundary of not fucking random girls just for the sake of it. By having that boundary, I find sex to remain meaningful and not a sport, a means to waste time, or a duty ("If i'm not fucking her, somebody else can and will). If the last option is the case, then let them. Let go.
"Wherever there is attachment, endless misery always follows."
Set your values, and remain true to them.
"Girls are the means to a kingdom, they are not the kingdom itself." (Alexander~)
I guess I've been sleeping for a while. Your situation and honesty is awakening. Maybe I should take a trip to the UK. Never been there.
Thx for sharing Ambiguity. Really.
// V
Ambiguity.
First off - watched your video together with Alexander~ and I laughed my ass off. You've just become a role model for me in terms of ignoring social pressure. I love it.
Second - you being/behaving that way (judging from the vid) without the use of alcohol or drugs is in my opinion profound. I share the same trait of becoming overly addicted to anything and everything, so I try to just stay away from it all in order not to get stuck in an addiction again. Respect.
Third - I've spent the last few days reading this thread from start to finish, and it does seem you're in a pretty dark place at the moment. At the same time though, your ability of self observation is FAR beyond average. You need to realize that the percentage of guys reaching your level of success with women is probably at to 1 in 10 000 or even more extreme. And the rest of the guys in the world are dreaming about it. Even if the reality is far from the somewhat glorious player/bad boy image we get from the media. Further, the percentage of guys who get to that level without drug/alcohol abuse is even smaller. And even further, the percentage of guys who in the midst of all this still have a vision of a healthy lifestyle and future, a hope and even an assumption that this also will pass, is slim to ZERO. Realize this.
I don't know you, I haven't met you or even talked to you, but it seems as you don't have a purpose in life yet. If this is true, then your purpose is "simply" to find your life purpose. This is not necessarily easy though. I found my purpose half a year ago, being in Afghanistan and getting shot at. A friend of mine discovered his when lying on the couch, listening to music.
When you have a purpose, you realize your place in society and in this world, and the fears and confusions you have in life are decimated. I've been on the brink of suicide several times myself, and I can honestly say that it was not until I found my purpose that the deppressive traits dissapeared. The destructive traits are still present, but I channel them through working out, having sex and meditation. I've spent countless hours thinking of life and death, the meaning of it all and my place in all of this. How fucking girls to the left and right can go hand-in-hand with a fulfilled life. How I can make myself stop thinking of "game" and being happy with what I have, when I have it.
To be honest, I doubt that you will find a definite answer to all of your questions just by looking at what the Western Modern Man has invented. I know I didn't find it. Although Tony, Ecky and Tracy are good for self help in the "normal" everyday life, it just wasn't enough for me. I found my answers through the cultivation practise Falun Gong, which is pretty much the only thing that I have in my life that I still consider to be really pure and beautiful. I consider it of a kind of faith/belief than that of a religion. So how does my purpose of saving people physically (working as a medic) and mentally (challenges and encourages enlightment / higher level of consciousness) along with following the values of Falun Gong "Truth, Compassion, Forbearance" click with me going to clubs and fucking girls?
It took me some time, and I still don't have a definite answer, but the closest I get is to have a personal boundary of not fucking random girls just for the sake of it. By having that boundary, I find sex to remain meaningful and not a sport, a means to waste time, or a duty ("If i'm not fucking her, somebody else can and will). If the last option is the case, then let them. Let go.
"Wherever there is attachment, endless misery always follows."
Set your values, and remain true to them.
"Girls are the means to a kingdom, they are not the kingdom itself." (Alexander~)
I guess I've been sleeping for a while. Your situation and honesty is awakening. Maybe I should take a trip to the UK. Never been there.
Thx for sharing Ambiguity. Really.
// V
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You fuck the girl because she is the means to a kingdom, not for the girl or the experience itself
I do what the fuck I want to do, but what I'm doing, are good things
The only sets I really regret, are those who I don't open
I do what the fuck I want to do, but what I'm doing, are good things
The only sets I really regret, are those who I don't open
Mate, you mistaken me for Zyzz. I am black. lol
A dark place is an understatement. I've been to hell and back. Since, I've come with a few after thoughts.
I came off the best year of my life in 2010. I had intended to reacquire the same success and epic greatness on a much higher level.
Things outside my control have gotten in the way of that. What started out as routine antibiotics treament for what was assumed to be a std (tests came up negative) went into penis biopsy and ultra sounds for testicular cancer.
Its been months since I've been on the forum. It almost feels like another life time ago.
I can honestly say, I am half the man I use to be (literally).
2010 was all about pulling SMOKE SHOWs.
2011 was intended to be all about my epic greatness, pulling more SMOKE SHOWs, and winning.
This is not how things have materialized.
Beasting 24/7 comes with its consequences. I listed a bunch of antibiotics and pills I've been on throughout this thread. There is always a risk and a reward.
Working for the man, BEASTING is not tolerated. The man, the work place, and society will not tolerate it.
Still, you have a choice. I made mine. I got sacked.
And since, I have come from a very dark place to realigning myself with my core purpose and self mastery.
There is been a heavy shift in my mind and some of what Garey Busy said about, "low self esteem" that has stood out, something about myself that I never took into account.
The again, look at Russell Brand (cutter), Jonny Depp (cutter), Myster*y (cutter/suicidal), Charlie Sheen (alcoholic/drug addict/...?).
More importantly, to see it in myself. In ourselves.
If a person defines themselves based upon good looks, women eye fucking them, and pulling SMOKE SHOWS, what is left? What happens when that disappears?
2010 was everything I could have hoped for in terms of "success."
Then again, define success? Pulling?
In a hospital bed staring across at the empty seats in front of you, you begin to reanalyze what you define as success and who you are close with.
And how is that working out for you?
Depak's emphasis on the Law of Least Effort is essentially what I portray in my demeanor and in game.
"A flower doesn't try to grow, it grows."
I don't try to pick up girls. I pull.
I don't chase. I replace.
So the million dollar question is: What next?
Realigning myself with my core purpose, self mastery, portraying that law of least effort in my daily life, and further instilling more confidence.
ANyone seeking to build confidence, I suggest you use the resources and book Alex read prior to his trip to Japan.
During my absense, beyond reading Gabor Mate' and others, I read the same book that Alex read which inspired him to provide arguably, my favorite video on RSD N.
2010 was no different that 2011. Just another fleeting moment lost some where in time and space.
Gone in a blink of an eye.
There is little to say what happened ever did and what is gained is only left upon interpretation.
In one instant, your out with models, small time actors, the people of "high value," all the while you are doing the robbery on parents, pulling some SMOKE SHOW.
And the next, you are having a testicle cut out, and what you had thought was "success," is then filled with more empty seats, and space.
In my absence here on the forum, I ended up in Miami for Spring Break and Vegas.
In Vanity Night Club, I remembered something Holland said about being a badass.
I suppose there is something bad ass about fucking a chick and you only have one good nut.
I guess its okay that I can now get a laugh out of that. Few numbers, couple pulls later, and something Jeffy had said, posted actually made sense then more then ever.
"You can't be half a gangster."
A dark place is an understatement. I've been to hell and back. Since, I've come with a few after thoughts.
I came off the best year of my life in 2010. I had intended to reacquire the same success and epic greatness on a much higher level.
Things outside my control have gotten in the way of that. What started out as routine antibiotics treament for what was assumed to be a std (tests came up negative) went into penis biopsy and ultra sounds for testicular cancer.
Its been months since I've been on the forum. It almost feels like another life time ago.
I can honestly say, I am half the man I use to be (literally).
2010 was all about pulling SMOKE SHOWs.
2011 was intended to be all about my epic greatness, pulling more SMOKE SHOWs, and winning.
This is not how things have materialized.
Beasting 24/7 comes with its consequences. I listed a bunch of antibiotics and pills I've been on throughout this thread. There is always a risk and a reward.
Working for the man, BEASTING is not tolerated. The man, the work place, and society will not tolerate it.
Still, you have a choice. I made mine. I got sacked.
And since, I have come from a very dark place to realigning myself with my core purpose and self mastery.
There is been a heavy shift in my mind and some of what Garey Busy said about, "low self esteem" that has stood out, something about myself that I never took into account.
The again, look at Russell Brand (cutter), Jonny Depp (cutter), Myster*y (cutter/suicidal), Charlie Sheen (alcoholic/drug addict/...?).
More importantly, to see it in myself. In ourselves.
If a person defines themselves based upon good looks, women eye fucking them, and pulling SMOKE SHOWS, what is left? What happens when that disappears?
2010 was everything I could have hoped for in terms of "success."
Then again, define success? Pulling?
In a hospital bed staring across at the empty seats in front of you, you begin to reanalyze what you define as success and who you are close with.
And how is that working out for you?
Depak's emphasis on the Law of Least Effort is essentially what I portray in my demeanor and in game.
"A flower doesn't try to grow, it grows."
I don't try to pick up girls. I pull.
I don't chase. I replace.
So the million dollar question is: What next?
Realigning myself with my core purpose, self mastery, portraying that law of least effort in my daily life, and further instilling more confidence.
ANyone seeking to build confidence, I suggest you use the resources and book Alex read prior to his trip to Japan.
During my absense, beyond reading Gabor Mate' and others, I read the same book that Alex read which inspired him to provide arguably, my favorite video on RSD N.
2010 was no different that 2011. Just another fleeting moment lost some where in time and space.
Gone in a blink of an eye.
There is little to say what happened ever did and what is gained is only left upon interpretation.
In one instant, your out with models, small time actors, the people of "high value," all the while you are doing the robbery on parents, pulling some SMOKE SHOW.
And the next, you are having a testicle cut out, and what you had thought was "success," is then filled with more empty seats, and space.
In my absence here on the forum, I ended up in Miami for Spring Break and Vegas.
In Vanity Night Club, I remembered something Holland said about being a badass.
I suppose there is something bad ass about fucking a chick and you only have one good nut.
I guess its okay that I can now get a laugh out of that. Few numbers, couple pulls later, and something Jeffy had said, posted actually made sense then more then ever.
"You can't be half a gangster."
I've been away from the forum for a while, but threads like these make me return.
Ambiguity.
First off - watched your video together with Alexander~ and I laughed my ass off. You've just become a role model for me in terms of ignoring social pressure. I love it.
Second - you being/behaving that way (judging from the vid) without the use of alcohol or drugs is in my opinion profound. I share the same trait of becoming overly addicted to anything and everything, so I try to just stay away from it all in order not to get stuck in an addiction again. Respect.
Third - I've spent the last few days reading this thread from start to finish, and it does seem you're in a pretty dark place at the moment. At the same time though, your ability of self observation is FAR beyond average. You need to realize that the percentage of guys reaching your level of success with women is probably at to 1 in 10 000 or even more extreme. And the rest of the guys in the world are dreaming about it. Even if the reality is far from the somewhat glorious player/bad boy image we get from the media. Further, the percentage of guys who get to that level without drug/alcohol abuse is even smaller. And even further, the percentage of guys who in the midst of all this still have a vision of a healthy lifestyle and future, a hope and even an assumption that this also will pass, is slim to ZERO. Realize this.
I don't know you, I haven't met you or even talked to you, but it seems as you don't have a purpose in life yet. If this is true, then your purpose is "simply" to find your life purpose. This is not necessarily easy though. I found my purpose half a year ago, being in Afghanistan and getting shot at. A friend of mine discovered his when lying on the couch, listening to music.
When you have a purpose, you realize your place in society and in this world, and the fears and confusions you have in life are decimated. I've been on the brink of suicide several times myself, and I can honestly say that it was not until I found my purpose that the deppressive traits dissapeared. The destructive traits are still present, but I channel them through working out, having sex and meditation. I've spent countless hours thinking of life and death, the meaning of it all and my place in all of this. How fucking girls to the left and right can go hand-in-hand with a fulfilled life. How I can make myself stop thinking of "game" and being happy with what I have, when I have it.
To be honest, I doubt that you will find a definite answer to all of your questions just by looking at what the Western Modern Man has invented. I know I didn't find it. Although Tony, Ecky and Tracy are good for self help in the "normal" everyday life, it just wasn't enough for me. I found my answers through the cultivation practise Falun Gong, which is pretty much the only thing that I have in my life that I still consider to be really pure and beautiful. I consider it of a kind of faith/belief than that of a religion. So how does my purpose of saving people physically (working as a medic) and mentally (challenges and encourages enlightment / higher level of consciousness) along with following the values of Falun Gong "Truth, Compassion, Forbearance" click with me going to clubs and fucking girls?
It took me some time, and I still don't have a definite answer, but the closest I get is to have a personal boundary of not fucking random girls just for the sake of it. By having that boundary, I find sex to remain meaningful and not a sport, a means to waste time, or a duty ("If i'm not fucking her, somebody else can and will). If the last option is the case, then let them. Let go.
"Wherever there is attachment, endless misery always follows."
Set your values, and remain true to them.
"Girls are the means to a kingdom, they are not the kingdom itself." (Alexander~)
I guess I've been sleeping for a while. Your situation and honesty is awakening. Maybe I should take a trip to the UK. Never been there.
Thx for sharing Ambiguity. Really.
// V
Ambiguity.
First off - watched your video together with Alexander~ and I laughed my ass off. You've just become a role model for me in terms of ignoring social pressure. I love it.
Second - you being/behaving that way (judging from the vid) without the use of alcohol or drugs is in my opinion profound. I share the same trait of becoming overly addicted to anything and everything, so I try to just stay away from it all in order not to get stuck in an addiction again. Respect.
Third - I've spent the last few days reading this thread from start to finish, and it does seem you're in a pretty dark place at the moment. At the same time though, your ability of self observation is FAR beyond average. You need to realize that the percentage of guys reaching your level of success with women is probably at to 1 in 10 000 or even more extreme. And the rest of the guys in the world are dreaming about it. Even if the reality is far from the somewhat glorious player/bad boy image we get from the media. Further, the percentage of guys who get to that level without drug/alcohol abuse is even smaller. And even further, the percentage of guys who in the midst of all this still have a vision of a healthy lifestyle and future, a hope and even an assumption that this also will pass, is slim to ZERO. Realize this.
I don't know you, I haven't met you or even talked to you, but it seems as you don't have a purpose in life yet. If this is true, then your purpose is "simply" to find your life purpose. This is not necessarily easy though. I found my purpose half a year ago, being in Afghanistan and getting shot at. A friend of mine discovered his when lying on the couch, listening to music.
When you have a purpose, you realize your place in society and in this world, and the fears and confusions you have in life are decimated. I've been on the brink of suicide several times myself, and I can honestly say that it was not until I found my purpose that the deppressive traits dissapeared. The destructive traits are still present, but I channel them through working out, having sex and meditation. I've spent countless hours thinking of life and death, the meaning of it all and my place in all of this. How fucking girls to the left and right can go hand-in-hand with a fulfilled life. How I can make myself stop thinking of "game" and being happy with what I have, when I have it.
To be honest, I doubt that you will find a definite answer to all of your questions just by looking at what the Western Modern Man has invented. I know I didn't find it. Although Tony, Ecky and Tracy are good for self help in the "normal" everyday life, it just wasn't enough for me. I found my answers through the cultivation practise Falun Gong, which is pretty much the only thing that I have in my life that I still consider to be really pure and beautiful. I consider it of a kind of faith/belief than that of a religion. So how does my purpose of saving people physically (working as a medic) and mentally (challenges and encourages enlightment / higher level of consciousness) along with following the values of Falun Gong "Truth, Compassion, Forbearance" click with me going to clubs and fucking girls?
It took me some time, and I still don't have a definite answer, but the closest I get is to have a personal boundary of not fucking random girls just for the sake of it. By having that boundary, I find sex to remain meaningful and not a sport, a means to waste time, or a duty ("If i'm not fucking her, somebody else can and will). If the last option is the case, then let them. Let go.
"Wherever there is attachment, endless misery always follows."
Set your values, and remain true to them.
"Girls are the means to a kingdom, they are not the kingdom itself." (Alexander~)
I guess I've been sleeping for a while. Your situation and honesty is awakening. Maybe I should take a trip to the UK. Never been there.
Thx for sharing Ambiguity. Really.
// V
__________________
Jlaix: You are rather cheeky I admit but the self amusing authentic avi makes it impossible to hate!
Tyler:This is ultimately one of the keys to the game -- viewing EVERYTHING AS A JOKE. It's ALL funny.
Tim:`How can I make this fun?
brad:This thread got Ambiguity banned, you can thank me later.
Zack G: Ambiguity is becoming the Howard Roark of RSD!
Alex: "The famous ambiguity!" + "This is what happens when your naturally attractive; cheekyinnit#!
Ambiguity: I don't chase, I replace.
Tyler:This is ultimately one of the keys to the game -- viewing EVERYTHING AS A JOKE. It's ALL funny.
Tim:`How can I make this fun?
brad:This thread got Ambiguity banned, you can thank me later.
Zack G: Ambiguity is becoming the Howard Roark of RSD!
Alex: "The famous ambiguity!" + "This is what happens when your naturally attractive; cheekyinnit#!
Ambiguity: I don't chase, I replace.
Taking breaks is good. The Alex quote about girls being a means to a kingdom... I don't know - is that quoted exactly? Well in any event, I suppose that sentiment is close but not quite. Girls are the result of a kingdom. They are not the means to a kingdom, the key to a kingdom, or the kingdom itself. They are a product of one.
The kingdom is in your skull. It can be a beautiful place, or an ugly fucked up place. It can switch back and forth between being beautiful and ugly. With time and TLC, the emotional landscape inside the skull will smooth out and things get more sophisticated. If you keep paying attention to the important stuff, that is to say the non-material stuff that makes each day worth living, then you'll accelerate the smoothing process. So smooth, and women, money, jobs, cars, houses, gold, gemstones and every other nugget you can imagine, will magically appear, little by little at first, and then a flood.
Still, it will not be important. The kingdom will not suddenly switch from being inside your skull to outside your body! The kingdom is and always will be the kingDOME! It is INSIDE YOUR SKULL.
The kingdom is in your skull. It can be a beautiful place, or an ugly fucked up place. It can switch back and forth between being beautiful and ugly. With time and TLC, the emotional landscape inside the skull will smooth out and things get more sophisticated. If you keep paying attention to the important stuff, that is to say the non-material stuff that makes each day worth living, then you'll accelerate the smoothing process. So smooth, and women, money, jobs, cars, houses, gold, gemstones and every other nugget you can imagine, will magically appear, little by little at first, and then a flood.
Still, it will not be important. The kingdom will not suddenly switch from being inside your skull to outside your body! The kingdom is and always will be the kingDOME! It is INSIDE YOUR SKULL.
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The only people for me are the mad ones,
the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk,
mad to be saved, desirous of everything
at the same time, the ones who never yawn
or say a commonplace thing, but
burn, burn, burn,
like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding
like spiders ac r o s s the stars.
-Kerouac
The only people for me are the mad ones,
the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk,
mad to be saved, desirous of everything
at the same time, the ones who never yawn
or say a commonplace thing, but
burn, burn, burn,
like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding
like spiders ac r o s s the stars.
-Kerouac
What book are you talking about here mate?
I read the same book that Alex read which inspired him to provide arguably, my favorite video on RSD N.
I can't think of the name.
Mate, ask Alex what book he read prior to posting his video from Japan. I read a series of books during this time. Not much you can do in a hospital bed any way. Its prob one of the most profound inspirational pieces I've come across.
Mate, ask Alex what book he read prior to posting his video from Japan. I read a series of books during this time. Not much you can do in a hospital bed any way. Its prob one of the most profound inspirational pieces I've come across.
What book are you talking about here mate?
I read the same book that Alex read which inspired him to provide arguably, my favorite video on RSD N.
__________________
Jlaix: You are rather cheeky I admit but the self amusing authentic avi makes it impossible to hate!
Tyler:This is ultimately one of the keys to the game -- viewing EVERYTHING AS A JOKE. It's ALL funny.
Tim:`How can I make this fun?
brad:This thread got Ambiguity banned, you can thank me later.
Zack G: Ambiguity is becoming the Howard Roark of RSD!
Alex: "The famous ambiguity!" + "This is what happens when your naturally attractive; cheekyinnit#!
Ambiguity: I don't chase, I replace.
Tyler:This is ultimately one of the keys to the game -- viewing EVERYTHING AS A JOKE. It's ALL funny.
Tim:`How can I make this fun?
brad:This thread got Ambiguity banned, you can thank me later.
Zack G: Ambiguity is becoming the Howard Roark of RSD!
Alex: "The famous ambiguity!" + "This is what happens when your naturally attractive; cheekyinnit#!
Ambiguity: I don't chase, I replace.
I see I am not the only one back. lol
Mate, its been forever since I've seen you on here. I been meaning to Pm you to see how everything is going since we last talked.
It would be less then discreet for me to go into details now nor is it my place too. I hope you + family are well.
We shall talk.
I find it funny how a person can be on top of the world in one instant, living the dream, and then, hitting bottom in the next second.
One minute your a stud and another moment your the elephant man.
In these dark places, you are no longer attractive any more, and success is a distant memory.
Pulling Stunners with only one good nut has been a bit of a transition for me but, success at last.
I know you can't be half a gangster because, I've lived it. It has new meaning and its in alignment with my core purpose now.
Pulling SMOKE SHOWs and only having one nut is gangster.
Mate, its been forever since I've seen you on here. I been meaning to Pm you to see how everything is going since we last talked.
It would be less then discreet for me to go into details now nor is it my place too. I hope you + family are well.
We shall talk.
Taking breaks is good. The Alex quote about girls being a means to a kingdom... I don't know - is that quoted exactly? Well in any event, I suppose that sentiment is close but not quite. Girls are the result of a kingdom. They are not the means to a kingdom, the key to a kingdom, or the kingdom itself. They are a product of one.
The kingdom is in your skull. It can be a beautiful place, or an ugly fucked up place. It can switch back and forth between being beautiful and ugly. With time and TLC, the emotional landscape inside the skull will smooth out and things get more sophisticated. If you keep paying attention to the important stuff, that is to say the non-material stuff that makes each day worth living, then you'll accelerate the smoothing process. So smooth, and women, money, jobs, cars, houses, gold, gemstones and every other nugget you can imagine, will magically appear, little by little at first, and then a flood.
Still, it will not be important. The kingdom will not suddenly switch from being inside your skull to outside your body! The kingdom is and always will be the kingDOME! It is INSIDE YOUR SKULL.
I agree with your thoughts on the Kingdom. I would like Alex to actually post his thoughts here or reflect upon what he had actually said.The kingdom is in your skull. It can be a beautiful place, or an ugly fucked up place. It can switch back and forth between being beautiful and ugly. With time and TLC, the emotional landscape inside the skull will smooth out and things get more sophisticated. If you keep paying attention to the important stuff, that is to say the non-material stuff that makes each day worth living, then you'll accelerate the smoothing process. So smooth, and women, money, jobs, cars, houses, gold, gemstones and every other nugget you can imagine, will magically appear, little by little at first, and then a flood.
Still, it will not be important. The kingdom will not suddenly switch from being inside your skull to outside your body! The kingdom is and always will be the kingDOME! It is INSIDE YOUR SKULL.
I find it funny how a person can be on top of the world in one instant, living the dream, and then, hitting bottom in the next second.
One minute your a stud and another moment your the elephant man.
In these dark places, you are no longer attractive any more, and success is a distant memory.
Pulling Stunners with only one good nut has been a bit of a transition for me but, success at last.
I know you can't be half a gangster because, I've lived it. It has new meaning and its in alignment with my core purpose now.
Pulling SMOKE SHOWs and only having one nut is gangster.
__________________
Jlaix: You are rather cheeky I admit but the self amusing authentic avi makes it impossible to hate!
Tyler:This is ultimately one of the keys to the game -- viewing EVERYTHING AS A JOKE. It's ALL funny.
Tim:`How can I make this fun?
brad:This thread got Ambiguity banned, you can thank me later.
Zack G: Ambiguity is becoming the Howard Roark of RSD!
Alex: "The famous ambiguity!" + "This is what happens when your naturally attractive; cheekyinnit#!
Ambiguity: I don't chase, I replace.
Tyler:This is ultimately one of the keys to the game -- viewing EVERYTHING AS A JOKE. It's ALL funny.
Tim:`How can I make this fun?
brad:This thread got Ambiguity banned, you can thank me later.
Zack G: Ambiguity is becoming the Howard Roark of RSD!
Alex: "The famous ambiguity!" + "This is what happens when your naturally attractive; cheekyinnit#!
Ambiguity: I don't chase, I replace.
ozbuckley
Senior Member
Join Date: 02/22/2010 | Posts: 126
This shit is not going to be healed by intellectualizing it... its more about the heart.
i havnt cried in like 11 years. the last time i did my two brothers laughed and made fun of me... i put up a wall when i feel like crying. and crying is a part of healing... ive got some work to do!