Went out with martin on thrusday, it was pretty cool.
Did a bunch of appraoches where I didnt know what to say so I just stood there staring and we all got creeper out hahahah. all good though, eventualyl I approached these two realyl cute girls, one was a nurse and the other a bar star. it went really well and everything just seemed to flow. a few minutes talking, I dip, come back after a few more approaches. started to get physical, the bar star(blond) was more into me, sucks she was the less goodlooking one but w/e I went for the easy one. Makeout, shes down to be pulled but I am not feeling very horney so I decide not to and just go home. got her number so welll see if I end up feeling like it, she still seems pretty into me, I sent her the get home safe text and shes been persuing me. I have alot on my plate so its hard to do much right now. at least 3 girls want my dick all the time, like 5-6 business avenues I am persuing plus time for self development and friends.
I do have my main goals though and nothing is ever for certain so im not taking my buisyness for granted, I am working at everything and leaving nothing on the table. haha working till 8 probs then ill be going out and doing work right after I get up also :p repeat until the end of days :p
hahahah all my fuck buddies have fallen apart, time to find new ones. On a plus side, I finally have solid plans for work and are making them happen. peice by peice. got to drunk this weekend and it gave me a bit of perspective. I am also reading the modo cure and its re-insipred me to go full Paleo.
So after stopping for about a month because I was focusing on work and just baning fuck buddies, my skill kind of fell apart. Not a big deal, itll come back.
I went out the weekend before this just once, and it was shameful, haha I was not solid, I had poor eye contact, I had zero belief in my self. That resulted in
a lot of wasted time and energy. I went out again this last saterday and it went better but still sub par, I started feeling my vibe again and girls where interested
but the sexual attraction was weak and the tension was weak because I was weak. no make outs, lots of rejections lots of learning. You feel like a failure when
you know what you CAN do but you cant get it to work. ill go out a few more times this weeks. However my main focus is still making money, I am invested in
many things right now. Product releases, email marketing, web design, blackhat methods, youtube marketing and helping RSD out with some stuff as an
intern. I am jsut trying to stay busy and stay productive. My eating and workout fell of again a while back but I got the working out back on and my eating is
above average but still weak. I think this week ill put back in meditation, and force myself to read more. I really need to just keep trying until I die :P
I pulled my fucking tendon in my ring finger, right hand... my entire right arm is usless, cant hold anything, cant lift anything, cant move anything, cant climb, cant workout, so dumb.
I dont know if you have ever pulled a tedon in your finger before but imagine a wire from your finger tip to your elbow and it use to be connected to your elbow bow now when you
pull on it, it just stretches and your finger folds. rehabilitation for the next three weeks, proper diet, mag, omega 3, and zinc supliments along with any and every stretch I can do.
I dont think it was a tear though, so I am pretty lucky. I dont like not being able to climb any more though.
Banged my old fuckbuddie the other night after some approaches at the bar, fucked from 12 to 5am, she was broken and cummed to many times, my dick was chaffed so we stopped there. she drove me home the next morning. the end. lame I know but that was pretty much it. I still am sucking because I am not allowing myself to be confident until I succeed money wise. going out again tongiht, relativly sober.
Goals for tonight:
derp derp, sober game is the shit. Went out tn to the stamp and this place was fucking packed to the max, we got there at 9 and it was a line down the street. It took me awhile to get into it but after alot of failed approaches I got thsi pretty cute girl, makeout number, I dunno how it will go though. I left pretty early, buddy was drunk and I was done, gets obnoxious with all the drunk people, still needs alot of work but you feel so good gaming sober because you know its all you. I notcied how when you drink your actually saying to yourself your not good enough sober, building self esteem 101, reading FLOW+6 pillars of selfesteem+sedona, super dope. Got a new list of people to call for tomorrow. try adn get myself some more business. I want to make it man, I want to be able to live out on my own. Make enough money to move somewhere warm and popular. With a real city and beaches and views and people. I would leave on a plane today if I thought I could do it.
I am going to go out this weekend and tear shit up because I have not been out in awhile, trying to force myself to do more work... its nto working out so well. anyways. Tomorrow I duno, Sat dallas, Sun Phils.
3 days should be enough to get me a new fuck buddy. I will post back whenever I can. Also when its summer time I am going to start bringing my GoPro to record my pickups for you all.
holly shit... I just re-read some of my previous posts and they are dope but my english is that of an african gangster who just learnt english... my god... hopefully its a bit better now but im sure in a few months when I read this, I will say the same thing.
Yo how much cash are you making right now man? Saw some of your posts on the off topic forum. I'm pretty close to you(you're in Kitchener right?) and I do pickup and IM.
All my "IM" work right now is focused on creating a legit web design business so some months nothing, some 2000+ . im in the middle of a $2000 contract right now but I am still too small to live off the income so im looking for regular jobs to move out :P Yeah, kitchener. Where are you located.