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December 6th, 2016
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Join Date: 05/11/2009 | Posts: 153

Hey everyone.
Here I will post my results on Daygame, Nightgame, complete diet overhauls and lastly recently read Self-help books.

 
Well here is a bit about my history:
I grew up in a tiny village in the middle of nowhere here in the Netherlands, where I was allways the kid that tripped up in school, at jobs and at most other places. Of course other kids noticed this.. and pretty soon there was a band of dudes that would make sure that every time 'trip up guy' tripped he got a good kicking when he is down. So I thought: Well that must be true then.. I must be the guy that trips up all the time. After this they would be waiting for me after school, so I got the habit of sprinting to and from school every day, its a small village so I decided not to play outside very often anymore. Instead I stayed at home.. playing video games and then more video games.. and then at my birhday I got.. video games (and candy). My eating habits where pretty bad as well with me just binging on candy the entire time, this besides the pretty fatty salt laden meals that I got. At home something was really wrong with mom and dad in the likes of: them being completely incompatible with each other in almost every single way, but holding on being with each other for dear life.. for the kids. All the fighting happend back stage when the kids where away so all I know is that there was some really eery vibe in the house all the time.

Right, after this I needed to choose an education and I decided to go for 'Desk Top Publishing' which is in the Graphic Design direction. School was made up of sitting in the school benches and being actually sent out to real companies to do the job I learned to do.
This was a really tough period for me and after a few unsuccesfull atempts at working in company's I was sent out to some 1-man company where the guy was actually running about in his workshop/office/home making sure that every machine kept running and every minute of his time is spend up. He literally lived of off coffee, barrely ate anything and sometimes I was wondering if he actually sleeps or not because it looked like one big battlefield over there. Anyhow I was put in there and I needed to pass the year (the first year is the most important because getting bad grades all year could end my education).
So under the threat of my entire education being blown if I don't put up a fight and go for it for a full 100% I turned into a workoholic like him working as long as it takes to get the job done even if that meant sacrificing loads of my free time on working over time.
But besides that the work was really harsh, and I started thinking about what the hell I was doing with my life... my free time mostly consisted of me waking up (apparently), getting dressed.. turning on the computer and then zoning the fuck out infront of video games. 

So during these years of school I started downloading random How-to books from the internet out of boredom, I just downloaded anything that sounded interesting from Witchcraft (in which there was a piece about making a girl fall in love with me, but it involved sacrificing chicken feet and doing some weard chair dance which sounded a bit to weard for me), to The Secrets of the Ninja (about vanishing in thin air.. which was kinda interesting but not usefull for anything at all) besides this there where books on magic which I really liked and loads of other stuff. The book that just got me hooked on reading it was called: Double Your Dating by David Deangelo. And this is where it all began for me, just the thought that 'succes with women' together with loads of other Self-help topics can be learned is pretty amazing.
So I just started buying many of the books and movies David was talking about I especially liked the following books: Massage by Denise Whichello Brown, Secrets of Sensual Lovemaking by Tom Leonardi, The Art Of Speedreading People, and lastly The Mystery Method which was state of the art technology back then. From here there is only good times ahead, I started seeing the fact that I spent 95% of my time and money on games as a good thing because I have got the unique opportunity to design every single aspect of my life from scratch. The entire games collection was sold, I bought way better clothing, started going on dance classes (another tip from David D. because almost all people there are girls... and almost all really hot as well;P) which helpt me to feel more comfortable when going out.

I got my Desk Top Publishing diploma (in short: DTP) which is a big landmark for me and started my education on being a Graphic Designer which was my plan when I started DTP. Afterward I started getting really obsessive in gaming girls at the expense of school and I did my first Bootcamp at RSD which teaches a more natural flowing kind off interaction with girls which feels way more laid back and effortless compared to the competition. I got laid right after bootcamp which you can read about in the link below, After that a big bootcamp high, moved out of my dad's house because my parrents just, kinda got devorced and my sister moved out even before that. So right now, just 1 schoolweek and 2 weeks of vacation to go before the big exams!
I know everything I need to know for the exames so im doing a lot of sarging these few weeks before it starts, and then il fully get into the exams when it starts.

I will update this thread soon so until next time.
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Well here goes, my first field report. Or is it a date-report because I had a date... like the one I planned yesterday and the day before that, but this is the 1 of 3 girls that actually showed up! so Yeej 1 in 3 thats pretty ok I would say.. the rest most likely just changed there kitty litterbox and thus where not feeling it that day. This month I am really trying to get.. consistent serial-dating results because Im sick of sporadically getting a date from time to time and I just want to mass learn on a consistent basis. So I've put down about 12 hours every week to get numbers. Because im a geek I calculated that I get about 2 numbers an hour and about 1 in 3 of my numbers turn into a planned date, of these planned dates about 1 in 3 actually shows up on the date. So with 12 hours I should be getting about 2 dates a week. My goal here is to get laid within 2 weeks. After these 2 weeks I wil be busy doing my school exams. Once I have past the exams and have got my Graphic Design diploma in my hands which is at the 1st of february 2011 I've got the time to get a decent job and get really obsessive about getting laid (My goal will be to triple my 2010 lay results as a year long goal, this would bring the goal to about 6 or 9 lays).

Right, well the date went pretty well, I had a date with an attractive asian girl (although she seriously looks like 23 she is 19 years old) ehm short and if I would grade her solely on her looks (which I would of course never do:P) I would give her an 8.
We met up at Starbucks, both running 5 min late, my first thought was: wow she is pretty ok looking and.. is that her0_o? because her name was asian and next to that I only remember us talking on the phone but not exactly how she looked-_-'.
So I walk up say: Hey Tsaimom! (her name was really hard to pronounce) and after that and some small talk I said: hey lets get that drink. My mind at this point is only on vomiting (talking about random shit that amuses me) and going for the kiss when the time is ripe.
So we got that drink while I talked about.. what was it, coffee and about what age I may be because I explicitly didn't answer her questions about my age when we met. So that was good but I don't remember what I talked about specifically during the date because I just started japping away about my vacation.. doing some cooking lately and the Nintendo Wii. After our drinks where almost finished she offered me some of her strawberry frapochino which had a really bitten into straw in it. So said ieew.. that not good, but took a sip of it there after. So right after that to keep the date moving (the last 2 dates I had I just waited for something to happen which would instantly make me say: hey lets go to my place!! but such an event never happens of course so I lost those 2) I decided to talk about wii-sports and that there was this fun boxing game on it.. she immediately started talking about when she played wii-sports and stuff. So I said: o great lets go to my place and do some sporting there! It will be fun:P.
So she agreed and we where on our way to the tram station (On many previous dates I would have gone to the Starbucks by bicycle, so instead off saying: Hey I live 3 tram stops away from here lets go! I would talk about her, on back of bike to my place-_-' so great improvement here;P). So on the tram we talked about me being a fan of going out a lot and how I liked japping onwards about random stuff all the time because it gives me loads of stuff to say and other wise I am quite shy.

At my place we did some sports and she apparently was a real pro because she was kicking my ass in basketball, table tennis and Boxing (in which I played with one hand because I normally have massive skill at that and I was sure I would have beat her-_-') So she just started calling me a loser and stuff while making the L gesture while smiling a lot:P So after this I just shuvved her about a bit in the following games so I got an almost even score;P... I was waiting a little for some amazing kiss attraction spark (a dark secret: I used to have some sexual pheromones so I could mannipulate the situation in getting sexual on her side 'wild make outs would ensue... or maybe that was just me acting like I was the shit because I wore it-_-'). Annyway no amazing spark (or signal accured), so I just went for the kiss mid sentance when she was mocking me about losing the last Wii matchXD.
So here it gets a bit messy.. because hoped for some wild make out to happen.. but instead she just sat there not doing anything but obviously enjoying kissing me because her breathing changed quite a bit I noticed.. after this I layed her on her back on the bench.. and she just lay there enjoying the kisses.. I was kind off conflicted about me undressing her without there being a mutual heavy make out before hand because thats what would normally drive me forwards... so I took her scarf of and told her to take her boots of but she didn't want to take those off... I tried again still didn't... we played a Wii game and tried again.. but the sexual tension was beginning to water down. So at this point I stopped advancing and asked when she needed to go home, I looked up on the computer when she needed to get the train and what bus to take, walked her over there and I said that we should meet up again to watch a movie in the Cinema some time. Apparantly she is really busy this week and next week and needed to check her agenda so we exchanged Messenger adresses and agreed to meet up some other time. Personally I don't have a plan on when to call her or what to talk about if we don't meet up for 2 weeks.. so I suppose I will call her about once every week we don't meet up to keep our memory's of going out and talking to each other fresh. I might be really overthinking this and planning to many things in advance but I just need some system (or default action-step) in place that gets me through the (potencially long) waiting period from the first to ----> the second date.

Well I might not have gotten laid today, but I've made good progress in getting more kisses and just going for the kiss even if there is no 'signal' but it just being the right time and because, I have to kissclose every date. 
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Silky-

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I now have a pretty good idea why I didn't got the lay a few days ago. The reason being that I was not 'horny' enough to absolutely enjoy kissing her and then wanting to go further into that emotion by taking her clothes off and then some.
The force was with me the first time we started kissing, at that point I just continiued kissing but was afraid to escalate (I guess I didn't get the signal:P), on the second and third make out the force was not with me that much so I did not succeed. So next time, just do it.

Today I had another date, this time with a slighty above average looking girl, we met yesterday actually when I stopt her to hell her she is hot (I was really feeling it at that point: in other words my bonerXD), so great conversation got the feeling of kissing her, lots of touching on both sides and we ended with a hug (O we talked about:.. I don't know actually something with me liking that I now live in Utrecht and how much fun that is). But during our conversation I did say: Lets get a drink at starbucks some time! and she happily agreed, so then I said: great what about tomorrow 3 o'clock. And she was like: Yeah but make that 3.15. So 3.15 it was.
So today I sent her an sms an hour before the date about if she can still come to the date. The anwser was yes, but I had turned off the sound on my phone so I didn't see the message until it was 3.10.
I showed up about 15 min late, we hugged, talked and sat down, ordered hot choco and I was talking about how much i like choco an Starbucks or something. Apparently she was in a rush to get to the cinema because she promised to her little sister to watch a movie, so she was kind of speed drinking her choco away which I made fun of by saying: thats just so romantic we are sitting here with hot choco together while its snowing outside and everything is white and your gulping your drink awayXD.
She kept saying she has to leave in a bit, but also something about that she can run really fast so she might just sit there for a bit longer. Well when we where sitting there and the date was almost over I went for the kiss (which is a bit complex because we where sitting in different chairs at a round table, so I needed to scoot next to her and that is not spontanious-_-;) the kiss did not happen on this date, and im gona blame the seating positioning for that. A bar like table would have been perfect but those where full. I suppose the kissing moment in this situation would be right when we get up at which time we can talk onwards for a bit while standing and it can 'just happen'.
She is going on vacation till jan 2011 so I don't expect much follow up with this girl but il keep the number lying around.

To get a kiss on a date I need to 1. sit on bar stools next to each other (so we just need to lean in to kiss) or 2. go for the kiss after we get up.
Secondly my morning blended meal now consists of: Goji, Hemp seed, various fruits and as an extra I just began adding Maca powder. In other words massive nutritional value and a three fold heavy libido booster. So when I say: your hot! I really mean it.
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Brad

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Silky!  I'll keep track of this thread!  Keep it up.
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The last two weeks of 2010 I got really busy meeting up with friends and family so I did not do as much sarging as I had planned.
In the first week I did 4 hours of daygame in which the highlight was an instant date with a girl which is as follows:
I saw her standing at a shop waiting for something so I walked up and said she was cute, so we started talking and at some point she told me that she was waiting for her mom, so I said that we should wait in the little restaurant over here.
So we did and sat down while drinking hot chocolate, talked about loads of stuff and she liked retro games so I liked that... she really looked 18 to me and she was almost taller than me. So I asked her age.. and she said: 14-_-' so after that I laughed a bit and told her to stop joking around, but it was not a joke so that was to bad.
Second week I did another 4 hours of daygame and got another instant date with an asian girl who is about 21, so we met on a busy street and I stopped her.. then we talked for a bit and I told her to step aside with me outside the crowd, talked over there for a bit and at some point I asked her if she would like to get a drink some time over there at the 'Starbucks like' shop (I can't say coffeeshop because that has a different meaning here, like its were you get weed). So she said yeah sure, and then I said: great what about right now! So we got a coffee and talked about some stuff for about 20 minutes because she had to catch a train. She was following an education to be a Japanese interpreter so that was kind of a weard topic I could make fun of;P like: well in the future your gona be the girl sitting beside some rich business man with a sigar interpreting stuff al day. I did go for the kiss at some point because I never tried that on an instant date but I did not succeed. At the end I asked her number and that about sums up this field report.
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7th Januari lay report.
A few days ago I did not plan to approach anyone but I was sitting in a tram to my place listening to some music when I saw a girl on the other bench next to me, she was not terribly good looking but she has really nice body, so I desided to say hi. I did this by asking her when this tram would arrive at 'the place I get out' after that brought up some other topic, introduced myself and talked on from there. At my stop I asked her number and she gave it to me.
Yesterday I was on a date with her at 'De Tijd' which is a cheap place to get coffee. We sat over at the bar on some bar stools and the conversation was quite smooth, I don't even remember what we talked about but I do remember that she was following a study to be a 'free time manager' so that has 'make fun of it' writen all over it.
At some point in the conversation I brought up the fact that I was playing Wii a while ago and how much fun that is, and that I would so beat her up in the boxing game. So we started talking about that and at some point I said: hey lets go to my place right now! We will play some Wii and it will be fun!
She agreed so we went over to my place, which is just a 15 min tram ride away. In my room I started talking about interior decorating a bit because I like that, she was saying that my room is pretty big. And I was saying that that is just one big illusion done with colour positioning a stand up desk and blablabla.
So we played a few Wii games and at some point she said: hey lets play 'that game'!
I was like: no we are gona play 'the other game'.
So we argued a little and I said: Ok if you look at me really nicely we will play your game:P
So she did and I said... thats not good enough! So she was all looking at me again with big eyes and thats when I kissed her.
We kept on kissing for a bit and I started kissing her neck and then some. Then started undressing her (not trying to.. but with the thought of fully undressing her) at that point she said: are you sure? And I said: yes.
After that, good times ahead!

I noticed that after a lay close its way more easy making a follow up date compared to having just a kiss close.

Secondly It feels way better having a bridging moment planned out so on the date I do this: I bring up that I like Wii games and at the end of the date I say: hey lets play some Wii it will be fun! Or ill kick your ass or whatever. Then when we are at my place and when im teasing her, we make out and I 'dont try' but fully go for taking her clothes of, the girl is gone other wise anyway.
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A while ago I was searching on this forum for a book that could help me enjoy life better and I came across the best Self help / entertainment book I have ever read its called: Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand.

I just finished the audiobook which is about 60 hours of listening, you could also read the 1.200 page book this did not sound as apealing to me.
I read reviews online that it is supposed to be the most life changing book right after the bible (which did not do much for me).
I would highly recommend anyone that is looking for more enjoyment in life to buy the book because it is the most perspective changing book I know of.

It is impossible to write down all the learnings of that book in a few sentences but here are a few big epiphanies I got.
There are just 2 types of people:
Firstly there are the people that sit around doing nothing all day, but want every one else to hand them rewards for practicing there vices. As if showing there wounds and inexperience earns them rewards.
Secondly there are the productive people that step up and do the right thing, these people expect results and fullfilment awaiting then because they are practicing there virtues.

My second epiphanie is about the difference between the symbol a word represents and the actual thing.
For example take champagne:
Champagne is the sparkling golden liquid that stands as a symbol of festivities, the effect is feeling more festive.
Although just triggering the symbol does not make it a party.

Other example take Attraction:
Attraction is the hot flirty vibe a girl gives when around a hot guy. It is the symbol that is given to the guy that is positive / self amusing that loves hot girls.
The effect is feeling more attracted.
Although triggering the symbol does not make you a positive / self amusing guy.

So to get back to the vices/ virtues story, here is a thought:
The chode who is unwilling to learn would cherrish the thought of some random woman showering him with attraction and sex signals which he did not earn.
He would thereby be rewarded for his vices. At the same time he would loath that image because it is wrong.
Thus the chodes of the world would rather band together and brand all women that have sex as sluts.
At the same time those men would want to sneak, bribe, cheat and get away with having as much sex as they can themselves.

I personally think sex is awesome and would want to spread the word that having more can be learned.
Who knows maybe in 10 years girls will be bribing men for sex.

The future is right here, so lets all enjoy life!!
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Silky! Whats up! It's awesome to see you putting up a journal thread!
Just read through most of it, didn't read all of the first post because you told me on bc wink
Definitely gonna follow this.
Good timing, too: I put my own new journal thread online 2 days after this thread started.
If you're interested, check it out: http://www.rsdnation.com/node/171478

Cool that you read Atlas Shrugged, I decided to read the Fountainhead first, I'm about 3/4 through and it's one of the best things I've ever written, or possibly even the best yet.

Maybe an opportunity for going out together will present itself in the future... I think that would be really awesome.

Out to the club!
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Hey silky,

didn't we talk about Atlas Shrugged on BC, can't remember exactly, but I remember how much Ayn Rand has helped me out, and I think it was the same for Brad. There is something very liberating about the idea that you can literally do whatever you want and it's actually the best thing you could do. Realizing my potential that is still a big motivator for me.
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Haha Matt~,
you're right, you did talk about that. I think Brad suggested The Fountainhead, and you talked about Rand in general. I think I remember you doing something like striking your fist in the air and yell "ACHIEVE!" to summarize Rand's books. wink

So I guess I'm gonna pick up Atlas Shrugged after I'm done with the Fountainhead
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Hey Chris! yeah im doing good over here just finished my exams and if everything turns out good ive got my diploma next week:P!
Gona go way deep into well daygame actually and a bit of night game, I seem to get good results at that.
Checked out your thread btw, damn you got a whole mass of whoooo going on;P! your real good at having fun meeting other guys and stuff, I need to get better with guys or something because im really into either get diploma mode or get chicks mode.
I was watching the movie 'The fountainhead' a few days ago and its kind of more awesome after I have read Atlas shrugged because the actions the lead karakter makes make even more sense. Like when his building got demolished and the dude behind it was talking to him like: your upset right? I did that don't you wanna know why? and Howard Roark is like: No. thats your business.
Im actually running out of self-development books over here because last summer I decided to finish all books I had from cover to cover, so did that and then I was like well I can keep reading Atlas Shrugged for ever cause its so big. But I guess im out, so its time for a new start, im gona go out a lot and enjoy life over here:P. Who knows man maybe in the future.
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