THE FORUMS

Wednesday

Worked until 1030pm.  Weird for me.  But made our company ~30,000 USD through some creative thinking so it's cool.  I'll take it.

Run.

Sign up for bootcamp.  <-- proud of myself for PULLING THE TRIGGER AND TAKING MORE ACTION

Realize .. I need to go out.

Meetup w/ Gameandwatch and head out at 12.  Feeling tired and out of it.  Oh well, I kinda always feel tired and out of it before I go out, and I go out to .. not feel tired and out of it :)

Hit the first spot, see Adjunkie, chill with him.  

I stopped a bunch of people to talk but didn't feel the shark tonight.  Just felt good, relaxed, wanting to unwind from a loooong day.  Talked to a bunch of strangers but didn't do anything that I would consider an approach.  I guess the difference these days is .. being interested in the woman I'm talking to.  Tonight I was just chatting and being social, no one really turned me on intellectually, emotionally, or sexuality.  That's fine.  

Wing one for Adjunkie.  The other two girls are intimidated by me.  Realize that the hot girls do more work than the not hot girls because.. the hot girls feel entitled enough to be with someone like me, whereas the not hot girls are just confused / have no experience.  Ugly girls make getting picked up awkward.  Hot girls know how to get picked up.

What's interesting is how I see the matrix and know this, trust that by just being me they will eventually calm the fuck down and turn.  They do.  

I mock bellydance on a dare for fun.  I like to have fun.  Life is short.  Fuck it.

There weren't any hotties out, fuck there was hardly anyone out at all.  But it was great to just go out regardless.  

Going to try to go out a lot until bootcamp for obvious reasons.  Trying to not put any pressure on myself.  The only thing I want to be consistent about is going out.

I have a few things I want to keep working on, drilling fundamentals that will help my game:
-- Be loud and smiling
-- Relax after my first few approaches
-- Use her name early so I remember (haha)
-- Move her early and often (been a big focus)
-- Go for the pull often, babystep it
-- Constantly lower my expectations for "a good night"

Got a date right now and then I might head out for Thursday night depending on how my date goes ;)

Happy times

@ Water -- me too

;)

Thursday

Worked until 630pm.  Hit the gym.  Destroyed it.

Grabbed a whole chicke from the grocery store on the way home.  Destroyed it ;)

Shaved, showered, cleaned myself up.

Date w/ this chick I met a few saturdays ago.  This was our third date.  

I went to hers to check out her new pad.  She has no furniture, no bed, etc.  

We grab a drink at a bar close to her pad.  We have a great time. 

Head back to hers.  Fuck each other.

The end.

I got some kinda weird resistance from her.  She was soooo down but had the arbirary "we have to wait" shit.  "I want you but we have to wait".  She was the first girl I've been with who really got off from fingering her inside, "dont stop dont stop" shit.  Was cool.  

I guess it was weird because .. we both wanted to fuck?  Why make these rules.  Programming.

We are lying there and shes in my arm.  Sorry, we are lying on her floor covered in her comforter, naked, and shes in my arm.  Start making out again.  Hard as a very hard rock (hardness is a term to describe density in geology, is it not?  its a scientific term, right?  am i making this up? thus there are degrees of "hard rocks"... anyway).  I have an erection, tease her with it.  Tease her with it.  Put it on the outside of her sweet and wet little vagina (this girl is 5'1'', aka SMALL EVERYWHERE).  

She keeps pulling me in with her hips, saying "we can't, stop" verbally, and smiling, biting her lips.  

Then we fuck.  It's really good.  I get the honor of being the first fuck in her new place and the first fuck in her new place without a bed.  

She says "I was supposed to wait".  I say "sorry for breaking your rules, I am a bad man".  She says "it was worth it".  

It was.

I like dating girls I like.  Ya know?

See you tomorrow kids
-Cat

@ Phred! -- heaven baby
 
@Gameandwatch -- dude, I do not work that hard.  I only fuck girls right after the second time.  The first time I dont really care if she cums or not.  I'm useless in bed probably.  The best sex, like you mention, comes from the psychological closeness and dominance that you can bring her through.  I like to go there but I find the first time with a girl like this (she had to turn off the lights) is going to be teasing, slow, and gentle.  When she grows comfortable with me sexually then I will explore.  

In general with the girls I see regularly I just focus on arousing her mind, rubbing her body the whole time, and getting her clit.  I tend to go very lightly and slowly on her clit because its got more nerve endings than any other organ on any human body (fuck, jealous).  

I read this book : http://books.google.com/books?id=ZGYwBg7I9RIC&pg=PT152#v=onepage&q&f=false  which had a lasting impression. 

I don't focus on the girl "having an orgasm".  I focus on slowly expanding the sensuality of the whole experience.  

For me, doing so has actually made literally just making out one of the most pleasurable, arousing things I do.  I fuckign love kissing women.  

For whatever reason this hasn't done me wrong.  

@ Otoko & all you other dudes who posted up about enjoying this shit:

Thanks.  I enjoy learning this shit and DOING IT.  

These adventures are fun.  They are hot.  They involve beautiful women, and fucking them.  They involve embarrassment and fucking up and growth.  

I wish all you dudes with 0-20 posts up would be writing up in the field reports forum.  

Take a look at Dave7's journal, his first 5 pages.  THOSE FIRST 5 PAGES MADE ME REALIZE THAT EVEN I WASNT TAKING THAT MUCH ACTION.  It was a slap in the face.  

Respect where you are with ANYTHING and take action appropriately.  This is a hard lesson to learn because if you are like me, you want to think you are better than you really are.  Being humble, keeping your standards low, and going for it are going to catapult you in the right direction, and the results WILL follow.  

There is nothing special about me.  I'm not cut from a different cloth.  I believe the same of Owen.  He is simply FARTHER ALONG by virtue of TAKING ACTION.  

So I hope you kids start small and begin to celebrate the little victories.  

And I love you.  

Headed out with the crew tonight.  Gonna hit the disco nap right now.  Stoked.

Have a great weekend internet.  Be back soon
-Cat