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Skyisthelimit

Skyisthelimit

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So yea I did bootcamp with alex and a 30daychallenge afterwards. now I'm back in my hometown.


My goals for this journal for now are to just keep going and trusting in that what I'm doing is right. succes will come inevitably then. I have to watch out for not getting demotivated or in negative headspaces because if I don't have succes all the time because the past 30 days it was really like only one positive refererence expirience after the other. I need to be able to be centered and keep this selfimage and be unfased by whats going outside. Not caring about it and just being happy.
I'm 18 and from germany by the way.

6.8.2010
Went out to the local disco here. of all this "pickup"-stuff is so annoying. The local puguys sit around and its rly wierd, its like they dont want to get more succes with girls but talk about pu and coach each other.....freaking wierd stuff....

I have to wait for friends inside and chat with some girls, but like nothing special.

When they come downstairs, I speak with thailandish girl. I think she even started speaking to me, I just looked at her and she at me too first. she has bday so I drink like 3 small shots over time. my friends go to mcdonalds so I chill with her for a while. Im seriously asking lots of questions but just cause its interesting for me, like thailand and stuff. I realise she smells bad from the mouth and alrdy cancel the makeoutthing lol. She started loving me though and over the whole night she doesn't want to let go from me anymore, its like she tries to pull me with her and we kinda hide from her haha

+ girl loved me, she like seriously chased me

There were girls standing around. I go direct on the rly hot one, shes like she likes it. The interesting thing is, normally with girls my age it's like they get quiet/attentive immediately and now its not like it. Probably because they're there with other "cool" guys. But whatever, I'll just stay in there till they realise I'm the big deal. Did that too with those girls, they were rly drunk and trying to buy cigarretes and acting totally stupid. I stayed in there for a while, like 5-7 inutes but didn't rly get stuff going.

+ props for the approach
- focus on the one girl next time, I was kinda just talking to whatever one was in front of me.

Went up to 4more girls telling them they're cute or sth like that. One was like way older and she was like "oh rly???" like in the meaning " loved it but aren't you way to young for me?...". Other one I didn't even come to saying sth, she wasn't that hot anymore when standing in front of her haha. Then there was a rly hot girl and I definitely came from a better place that moment and she rly brightened up but still went on, saying she had a boyfriend.

Another girl telling her shes cute, finnaly I get quiet/attentive.god. She wasn't like that superhot but I just did it to do it. so yea drag her away from where all the people talk...we talk...I think about kissing her, I just ask her, she says no, but she's like 4 centrimetres in front of my face kinda looking at me cherishing haha. i don't do it though, if she was hotter i'd definitely had tried it. get her number. saw her later once, when sitting, she comes over. I start playing with her hair, then thought about kissing her again, so I stand up trying to get the intent going, but she's just like serching for her friends so im like fuck it haha and don't keep being with her.

+ good stuff actually, pretty standard doing this all
- should have isolated her in the last moment, then intent, just because her friend was next to her.

One girl I talked to in the beginning of the night, later she went up to me happily. talked to her, she wasn't that goodlooking though, more like fat cuttie haha. but just for the sake of it, I got her number. actually no, I gave her my number, she didn't want it the other way. suddenly some big dude comes in and is like loud and obnoxious and touching me. girls disappear, I get angry at him, telling him to stop fucking touching me. he stays kinda aggressive. he like knew my other friend but I didn't care, that guy was still obnoixous. Ultimately I wasn't angry at him for going in because I anyways wanted to be able to deal better with guys, if they try to put me down

+ actually dealt pretty okay with him, eyecoded the girl and stuff. should have just eyecoded, then taken her hand and pulled her away. ignored the dude in a way. he was way bigger than me and louder and stuff so tooling him wouldn't have worked, he was like a bomb ruining it for everybody haha

Oh yea and then there was some girls at the bar. I talk to one of them, the other one was like the happy/quiet/attentive girl, but talked to the other haha whatever. she was like okay, not super aroused or quiet/attentive but it was okay. when they went to the minibar they said, they'd see me later maybe. so probably i could have went to them or they to me, if i had seen them later, but didn't.

+ other girl was pretty interested in me. was okay convo, i'm not backing up anymore, even if she acts like she knows better.
Told a girl she was cute. befriended everybody. it was like okay, but at somepoint they just started dancing. lol. didn't want to try that hard then.
+ props for approaching, talk more BS to be even more arousing next time.

Think that was all for today. Important was that I first got kinda turned off by not having immediate massive succes and all the pu-shit. But if I look from a retroperspective on the night, actually it was pretty solid. I really gotta keep in mind that

1. im like the youngest guy in there, which naturally makes it more of a challenge for me. when I'm talking to people my age again, I'm the one who's more mature again by social standards. definitelyhave to keep this in mind.

2. This is like a club where people go often. It's not like the crazy adventure type atmosphere which is like in the big discos for younger people outside the city or on the beach back in bulgaria. people are going here often so theyre kinda routined in it too i guess. o just be more patient for me and even see girls over different nights. alex also said that in this age the girls are looking for a boyfriend and not sexual adventures.

I defnitely gotta keep all this in mind, to not question myself if stuff doesn't always look amazing.

But yea ultimately it was a cool night as a challenge for my innergame stuff. the outer stuff was pretty cool too. in the beginning i was like more in my head, but at some point I just let go and we had a lot of fun so it was cool.
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7.8.2010

Went out yesterday with my buddy to this same disco again. Lol I almost didn't catch the tram. It was like first I miss it but then I try to be fast enough with my bike to get it at the next station. I don't. Then I call my buddy and tell him whats up ( the tram comes only once per hour at night ). He's like dude you can make it. So I speed as fast with my bike as never before and don't ask me how but after like 5 stations I actually really catch it, I just drive right in front of the door and hoop in with my bike haha


At the club I meet a friend from school. Then when going in in the actual area where they check you for weapons and stuff I'm still talking to a friend over the phone. One guy then is like come here, I just do and they fucking kick me out of the club..........I'm realising it first at the moment I am out and it messes with me. But then I think no, I'm going in here tonight. I go again in the row and it works out this time lol


In there my state is kinda messed. It's like on one hand my buddy is pretty good and has high standards, and on the other hand it was kinda wierd with my friend from school. It's like we're kinda friends and we've done shit in the past but after I returned from half a year in the US he's keeping me on distance. He's sensing that I've become pretty cool and try's to keep me in a position lower than him. Till now I was kinda like, yea alright, actually it would be pretty cool to hang with him and shit I should just be cool with everything but it messes with me. On some level I still cared about his approval. So later that night I became like fuck it, if that fucking guy wants to tool me he's a son of a *****. And if I think seriously about it, its true. I mean common, we've done shit in the past and he's trieng to tool me out and make it look like he's just kidding. Fuck it he's an insecure kiddo. From now on I just avoid him and also all other people like him everywhere possible, I'm friendly with them if I meet them but more like ignoring and getting away asap. And if he tries to tool me I'll tool him back, or call him out whatever. I mean common it's his fault, I've clearly showed I'm cool with him, if he keeps on trying to tool me out and WILL look like a stupid Kiddo in front of everybody and kick his value out ITS HIS FAULT. I don't give a shit anymore about people like this, I got corevalue to offer and thats it. yall can lick my ass :)


So yea back in the club I was kinda outcome dependent + expecting bad reactions lol but I was still in that mindset from before. Oh and also I didn't want to do warumupsets, like I developed an ego of always expecting good reactions but I kinda knew that I was in a bad state. So I decide to talk to my buddy about this. I just tell him whats going on inside of me. He gives me some good advice and understands where I'm coming from, so this makes it a lot easier for me. I know that I have to do sth ridiculous now. We were making fun the whole night of a certain person so I go up to 2 girls and introduc myself as this person. I'm talking a shitload of bullshit and it's ridiculous, me and my buddy are laughing our asses off. And of course it goes fucking well. When one girl stands up I take her seat lol. After like 10 mins they gtg, but I'm happy to just have done it. it's so ridiculous how after such a thing the world turns. I view everything from a different angle now...state.....
+ I was freaking in my head, and just did the MOST ridiculous thing I could do at that moment. This was awesome because it is so stupid that it only can come from a place of selfamuse and outcome dependence. But what I'm most proud of is that I made it to change my state in 10 seconds upside down and get the reference expirience I needed.

Okay here now I should have done one set after the other to get more reference expiriences, but I didn't.....I need to get my willpower stronger again. Actually I know I can do it, but I was kinda giving up the lead. It's alright this is just important for next time.

We were stil having ridiculous fun. Oh and by the way, when you're having this fun, it just kinda happens that you talk to girls haha. This girl from school, I dont rly know her, but when she walks by I look at her, EXPECTING her to recognize me. And she does. Those 2 girls were ALL over us, like ridiculous, but I'm like they're from school, don't wanna do crazy stuff with them.

- Fuck where they're from. ultimately I wanna do WHAT I want. Where at a club, so actually I can do whatever I want, whatever happens I can say I was drunk.

My buddy talks to a girl and shes all over him. Instead of being put down of this I'm more like if he can do it then I can do it as good or better. This mindset is awesome because you can actually get reference expiriences just by watching other people. It's funny how most people most of the time rationalize it to some special attribute, like the way he looks or his accent. Fucking ridiculous BS.

Hot girl comes downstairs. we're checking each other out. I let her go. I tell my buddy I wanted to do this one and should have done it then. he says no,, actually sometimes its better to wait a little, so we go after them. they're with some CHODES there, we just stand there but then she still keeps looking at me, so my buddy is like now it's perfect and I go in, tell her that she's hot and I had to talk to her. Wohoo made her feel horny haha thats for sure, I keep talking after like 2 mins she says she has to go over to her friend. she talks to her, we stand there, when she looks like she goes away, I go talk to her again for a sec but she ultimately goes away.

Okay so this was like strong opening, but I'm still not locked in that outcomefree/selfamuse, acting on my OWN intentions headspace. So I was asking sth, just to keep the convo going. As I know i gotta get in that headspace, I immediately started talking more BS and yes she giggled and stuff and she like liked me all the time, but to get more consistent and be that sexworthy that she's gonna jump on me from the first second, I need to get in that headspace, where I just have fun and do whatever I want. But still fucking awesome set and good reference expirience again.

+ Awesome set, awesome reference expirience, definitely aroused this girl. and if I can arouse a girl in this club, I can do it all in this club.

Talked to a blonde. went in good again, she liked me for the whole time. This is exactly the right direction where I'm heading at, I just need to keep on doing this. Later she and her friend we're talking about some drama, her friend was rly upset, so I let them talk about this.
+ good reference expirience. Girl liked me.



Victories:
- Pushed myself, didn't give a fuck and got out of those negative headspaces by taking right action
- good reference expiriences. This is like THE club in the city. If I can do good here I can OWN my city and after this, I know I can OWN this club.
- Decided to not let me put down by any other people. It's like fuck it, I'm to high value for such BS. Also realised how insecure and what a fucking idiot sb has to be to do such stuff. its so fucking unneseccary. Actually if I think about it HES A VALUESUCKER!!!!!!! He reacts to me by trying to get me to react to him, which means his reality is EXTERNAL. Hah fuck this *************


Lessons:
- I definitely need to gert my willpower up next time. One set after the other just to get the reference expiriences and momentum. After I've done this a couple times and have seen that I can own this place I can chill out again, but this is important to me. Get this stuff handled asap. My goal is to get comfortable and always being able to feel good/selfamuse in every situation with every environment. And i'll get there no matter what. Taking initiative.
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10.8.2010

Okay this stuff is interesting, should have blogged it from the first day, because now I realise how fast you forget when lot of stuff happens but ill try to get it together.

Friday.

I had school for like 2 hours and thought to go home, thinking that school ended later I realised that i skipped class hahaha

After school I see HB. I go up to her. She finds out that I'm going home now and starts calling me bad words but the same time pulling me away and hugging me, was pretty fun and actually its cool to see a hb with selfesteem who can do stuff like this... I sit down to my friend next on the bench for a little, were having fun, she comes up and tells me about how she was in love with this teacher, I'm like yea my dads girlfriend slept with her teacher, shes like gross, I dont comment haha...I chat with my friend, then go up to her and her other friend, ask her friend how she was I know her, everything good. I gtg and say bye. Ill see what happens with this girl, I mean obviously she freakin likes me on the other hand she's like the hottest girl on school, so she wouldn't have problems with hooking up with guys. but actually this makes it easier for me, because I'm most likely the only cool guy who isn't transforming into a chode around her. no matter what happens, what happend happened.
+ Hottest girl on school is throwing herself at me as soon as I go talk to her. I don't have any problems with being cool. This is actually FUCKING big. It's not even like I was some sort of social proofed. just walked up to her. This means I deserve ALL girls. Doesn't matter no more, I can get EVERY girl and whats even more important EVERY girl can be lucky to talk to me cause I dont have time anymore for EVERY girl ha (extended positive comfort zone a LOT )
On the way home, I see girl riding by. I ask them if I don't know them and we chat till we're home.
+ conversation started really spontaneoues and good stuff as always girl was into you
Monday
Religion class. new people from the classesabove i dont know. we go outside, make a circle where we get to know people, the teacher gives a question and both have to answer. Haha this is genuis for me, because I get to talk to half of the class and can get all the girls chasing me haha I'm like the only guy making it funny and being cool and stuff. its funny how 2 of my friends just stand there with girls not talking anymore because they run out of things and so they say look at skyy, he always talks BS. at first I thought dude, wtf for a second, but then I realise he only says it to a) say sth, b) rationalize why its so easy for me to talk to the girls hahaha. Oh and it's funny how you see the girl can't stay cool in that situation and starts developing emotions around you and gets in her head and stuff. this was me earlier, now its the girls. by the way, probably most people don't see it as what it is, dunno if girls consciously realise it lol.
+ good stuff, you just need to talk to a girl for 2-3 mins and she's already investing emotionally into you. ( extended positive comfort zone )
In class I ask a girl sth, 2 funny lines, and they already giggle haha
+ took action, girls love me ( extended comfort zone )

English class. I sit down at the end, with a buddy, some more alpha dude and a girl I know allready. During class I participate often. Its like at first their RAS isnt on me but it turns more and more, until they laugh out loud when I say sth and I'm like the only one who didn't think it was funny. Blueprint talked about reality melting, this is pretty close to it.
+ I'm, staying true to myself, definitely rocked my reality this stuff. its so easy.

During the break, theres this wierd guy standing next to some girls, just looking plain wierd. I show the girl next to me and comment on him. its hysterical and we laugh our asses of. After sth like this happens and the girl was already invested its like even intensified
+ selfamused my ass of. Like exactly with how I would do it with a buddy. ( extended positive comfort zone. )

German class. on the way there I meet HB. We talk, I'm cool. She's like the hottest girl from our old class, I'm not particularly into her but there's somekind of pervertic feeling, that now this girl is into me hahahhahah Revenge of the nerds-style hahahahhahahah ^^
Anyways, I'm even less trying rapport now. Like especially here, I didn't try for rapport at all. We sit beside each other at class. HEre's the thing with class, now the teacher is talking and you can't be talking that much, so now the real selve is shining through people sitting next to each other as obviously as through glass. This girl is freaking nervous around me, exactly like I was when I started investing emotionally into a person. I'm still working on eliminating any emotional investment around the girl. sitting for 2 hours next to a hot girl in class is definitely a good meditation for stopping that OUTDATED habit.
Funny hing is she even suggests me for class representative, I'm like nah, but I say I don't care thinking, if I get not elected it would be an awesome innergamechallenge. I don't get elected. Here's the challenge I wanted, I control myself, I'm enough, I'm the coolest guy in here and it works out, I stay cool. Next thing she says, aren't the people wierd in this class. LOL. I'm actually really enough, even the girl starts rationalizing towards my value hahaha. But no really girls really just react to the value you give yourself. doesn't matter what happens on the outside, you got yourself always under control.
+ Girl got totally invested emotionally around you. Definitely pushed my positive comfort zone HARDCORE.
+ I'm enough under all circumstances. I can deal with EVERY situation you put me in.

Spanish class.
More girls hahahahha. I already know them, on one of them we didn't talk for a lot but shes already invested into me a lot I can tell and the other is kinda too, we've talked more with her. oh shes from english class anyways. yea whole thing is cool until....
this guy starts clawing me like we were best friends and stuff. I didn't like it but didn't really do anything about it, reacted I guess. From there on I got into a little reactive mindset for the rest of class.
- Even if shit happens, remember " I'm enough". If you didn't deal with it at that moment, you can make up for it later who cares. Don't take yourself so seriously, don't care about the girls anyways.
Next time I'll definitely have a boundary against homos clawing me and who cares if I look good or not. I know who I am, I know my value and I give a fucking DAMN about what other poeple think of me or about impressions.

Tuesday, today
History first class. I get little reactive at first too, because I'm not like on everybodys RAS. Yes on one hand I need to acknowledge that, but on the other I need to be totally carefree if I'm not on the RAS. It doesn't matter whats on the outside. The process is ALPHA who you are INSIDE becomes OUTSIDE reality, I can't skip the inside part. I got used to reality fitting me so I didn't take responsibility for the inside anymore. But yea its good if stuff like that happens, it reminds me outside doesn't matter, it only matters who you are on the inside and to be congruent with that and express yourself and everything takes care of itself.
Later on I put in some good stuff, so yea, I just need to stay true to myself and be congruent with who I am and everything not worryign about what happens outside. What actually got me out of the thinking was that I started having the mindloop, oh dude actually its relaxing to not look like the coolest dude in this room once, i'm always the coolest dude, its annoying, hope this time it'll look different. hahaha I dunno if it was random, but actually it centered me more again and stuff started going well again
Very important. Don't look to the outside, just worry about yourself staying centered and everything. don't try to do anything, just be yourself. your best self. and everyhting will work out.

Our music class, actually its a chor....
Okay definitely needed to work on this one, I'm not the best singer and now in this class there we're like 2 HBs and a shitload, like 50 other people, and I was probably on the RAS of quite a few. I was thinking, allright this is a challenge, I tried to do it like tyler said in the blueprint, not getting your state from the environment but out of yourself. And you know what, it wasn't like I pumped the whole room and shit, but it was freaking okay. Wasn't too stiffled, had some fun...survived it. I don't have to have always the whole attention on me, good enough is good enough. And the girls don't want you to be a good singer, they just want you to actually like yourself.
+ pushed my comfort zone a lot in both directions. this was definitely a limiting belief, but you know what, no girl cares if you can sing.
Had one free class now, kinda took a nap, watched the people from the highest point at our school. I can immediately tell who has a strong reality at the moment, who is reacting to who....
So yea in algebra class, I told this girl i alrdy now, to come here and sit with me... same girl like from english....could tell she allready emotionally invested into me..... I was little not in state because didnt do my homework and stuff, but its alright, im not responsbile for the girls state....I kinda remembered then that I could just expect people to treat me one way and not tolerate any behaviour below that, thats what can give you the confidence to walk up everywhere...
After school I went and talked to this one hb again. she said she didn't even see me in algebra class, I'm sure though she glanced at me at least once. wierd rationalizations happening in female mind lol, stupid people. maybe a shittest, because I wasnt in state that much??? who knows, I pulled it off funny/dominant/positive and everythings awesome, no trying rapport.


It's funny, actually I wanted to focus on school and now school is like managing HBs and watching out for other guys trying to get to your place. It's ironic how tyler talked of succesbarriers and that they have a reason...You guys really think, you could just have a hot girlfriend and then relax? hahaaha, there's a lot of stuff to be learned in the future :)
But yea I'm glad. I'm glad that from the place where my life went down, I made it to be sexworthy guy. If it was only for three days, you know what, I dont care. I've seen it, i've made it and that's it. Actually I'll try to meditate on this fact for a while, because I guess this is what I superficially wanted some years ago and now it's even happening under the same circumstances, in the same place lol.
On the other hand I don't want to loose focus on school. 1. I need to be able to manage those girls and deal with other obnoxious guys without putting in to much effort, so I don't loose sight of school and 2. If I'm good at school a) I can express myself often in class b) I have garantueed approval, I know I don't need it, but it intensifies everything more and gives people a reason to hang with me. I mean garantueed approval because everybody wants to be friends with the best in class and c) I can value this and most other cool guys suck in school/dont put in effort, they would have NO CHANCE in my valuesystem to be even nearly as cool as me......
I need also to work on my anticipated behaviour and responses and decide that I'll ignore any lowquality behaviour. This will make it eassssyyyyy for me to go talk to everybody not worrying at all. Also I want to center myself more, but I guess that'll happen automatically as long as I take action in a manner, that connnects me more to myselfesteem and do what I'm meant to do.
Actually I'll just think for people not behaving friendly/fun or even worse around me, that they're really low value in my eyes. This of course means that I'll behave good around EVERYbody too, but yea I think this makes it more enjoyable for everybody.
Also I want to totally stop trying rapport. Fuck it, I think the really cool guys in the US never did it too. Actually its really counterintuitive but it seems that the girl like you a lot too and love to get invested emotionally into you. I guess this is the emotional rollercoaster they love, well I'll give them what they want...

\\Here I'm also oficially risking to fuck up with every girl and don't care if it connects means that I'm more true with myself. As I've had to realise, girls react to the value you decide you have and even if you're not that high value in their eyes for a while, doesn't matter. On the short term with playing it safe I could have some succes but maybe I won't. I won't grow as a person that much on the long run.
On the short run I could fuck it up with living on the edge and doing what Im meant to do, but I could also pull of some really good succeses. On the long run with living on the edge and being the person who I'm meant to be I will be able to get every girl and probably won't care anymore for most of them anyways. Also I won't have to worry about micromanaging a lot and just be more centered, more attractive, more high value.
I choose the later one. Hahahhaa now it's 5 days a week school with lots of girls and I still want to go 2 days streetgame/2days nightgame. I see burnout lurking around the corner, but I DONT CARE, I KEEP PUSHING :):)
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School again today.

11.8.2010
School again today.

First class was economics. I brang cake today cause i skipped last class, so its my first class too. Again class first not recognising me or even laughing at me hard when teacher jokes about that she'd like to let me skip class even more often for more cake lol, I just stay unreactive and even imitate them laughing haha Yea I just stay true to myself and everyhthing is cool. Talk to girl, she tells me about her vacation and how I shouldn't tell her boyfriend, cause she lied to him, that she went somewhere else and not to this party-place, where she probably hooked up hahaha I mock her and tell her Ill chat soon with him lol
+ Girl tells me stuff like this lol
Next class religion. Before class, I go talk to HB from other classes, after a while I sit down next to her. she's little nervous, me a little too. Friend comes in whos cool and I manage stuff good, like I don't try to get her attention neither she looses attention of me...i'm enough
+ cool guy came into conversation, I managed it awesome

.In class I was little nervous and stuff, because there's a lot of girls with attention on me. I mean not like nervous showing it, but still aware of it...Then I thought about the ideas of NOT pinging and then of just being authentic. I dunno why, but this authentic thing resonates with me most. It's wierd because you can't explain it biologically, I dunno why the hell it seems to have some sort of truthfulness in it, maybe just because I was thinking about it, when I stepped up in hard situations or just because it kinda combines being who you are/ expressing yourself/ your values/ your expectations in one thing. It works good because it focusses yourself on those things in midst of hectic situations and it's important to oneself.

From there on I was like in a calm/peaceful/euphoric state for the whole day. So yea atm not pinging at all and being authentic is the shit for me, of course I'm enough always applies too.

In class talked to like all girls around me, they giggle, even when I say random bullshit stuff
+ girls giggling about random bullshit stuff lol

Then we had music. Like I thought this one girl would come to music, the hb, who jumped on me the first day. We were only guys in class like 20 guys, and so I was waiting for her to come up, to grab her and make her sit next to me. She didn't come, seems like she isn't in this class, but the good thing is, that it was a great innergame challenge.
I expected her to come, now I could have been nervous blabla or pinged to other people, but I stayed calm and felt like I deserve this, she wants to be me with me and I know I would have done it. No or almost no emotional investment whatsoever :)
+ I'm enough, stayed calm/centered in this situation. Didn't care if I would be nervous, tim said somewhere, it's even good if you're slightly nervous.
In class played guitar in front of all people, everybody had to play an instrument, but my stuff was more complicated hahaha
+ positive comfort zone expanded, playing guitar in front of people :)
On the way home, HB is sitting on the bench. I go up pretty close to her, she's like she doesn't look to me, then I say whatsup and we talk and she's still like super in my reality, trying rapport and shit. It's funny, you would think hot girls wouldn't do stuff like this, but they're too just nervous and intimidated, like I'm talking about she acted as if she didn't see me. No wonder if I'm the first guy she knows who isn't trying rapport lol. She was even asking me for my opinion on this teacher, like in the way of tell me what to think for myself.....Guy came in too, I handled this good too.
+ guy came in, I handled it perfect ( more like ignore or not giving him that much attention without being unfriendly at any point ) positive comfort zone.
When riding home, there was this girl, we never talked yet, but I know she likes me. Like when I was yelling at my friend from the 3rd floor from school, she runs up to him and claws him in, to get my attention and later she likes a random post of mine on his facebook page, totally ridiculous if you think about it. She's not like that hot, but she gets all the attention from the a lil bit not that super cool guys so she wants mine too haha. I totally ignore her on the way home, knowing that I could blow this open, and it's so funny to see how at first she was joking around but when I appear she became quiet for the rest of the ride......
Haha I'm maybe a little sadistic but I love this, I mean common damn I've earned all this, now it belongs to me :)
I want to go talk to this hot girl, if I dont see her at school probably on facebook and get her chatstuff. Also it's interesting how stuff with the girls will turnout long run, cause I'm more like normal/fun dude. I guess this is exactly what Alexander whats you to do, I can't forget making moves though, like little stuff, like whats on your wrist and shit....but yea, even if I become friends with girls, it would be interesting.also Alex said anyway it would be good to have a hot girl on school to be your friend. And the good stuff is, I can't even really risk shit hahahahaha if they try to put me in roles of picking them up ill just be like WTF i wanted to be friends hahaahha so no fear of anythign!!!!!!!! :):)

Talked to other girl from cold approach per facebook. We talked like 5 minutes, I went in DIRECT, and then chatted a lot per facebook. now I'm meeting up with 2 girls on the weekend, dunno if I have time for streetgame.....but yea I'm pretty hooked up, I dont even have time for more girls lol
 
All in all I was pretty centered today and felt good, and school was good too. Ill try to stay at this point and as I live in pretty much an abundance of girls Ill do the stuff I want. Like talking to this one girl. It's awesome living like this, doing what you're truly meant to do :)
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12.8.2010
Alright yesterday the one girl writes me she cant go that day cause of some tournament, I'm like oh you ride horses and np, thats cool, we can do it another time. Then I kinda wanted to plan next time, she was like next friday, I thought thats to far away and said lets do it monday. should have seen the sign, she like tried to kinda escape it by writing sth else but I kinda persisted and then suddenly she logs of. ..... I guess she was just nervous about it and I shouldnt have pushed it at this moment. Either way Ill just be like np, and chat sth different next time and then suggest sth another day, it could also look needy to want to plan it like that, even though i wanted to do it, because i got a lot of stuff to do. But yea its cool lesson learned, and Ill just chat to her in a few days.
- Next time think of her mood, before you keep persisting. Just talk about sth else and chat her up in a few days again.

School again today. German class, I sit next to girl again. I gotta say, I'm already more comfortable with it. this time I didn't want to let her get nervous again and stuff, so I selfamused more. And also tried to be more friendly. Funny thing is, I make a joke with her and she like doesn't get that I'm not serious and I did stuff like this like twice and seems like I came across as a real asshole. I didn't mean it like that though. But now I'm first realising that this girl has like NO selfesteem, you would think she has as a goodlooking girl, like typical blonde, but she doesn't lol. I wasn't sure about what happened too, so it got a little wierd here. I gotta say though, I'm not at all anymore sexually interested in her. I guess this is what tyler talks about seing the depth in girls. It's interesting earlier I didn't really see the real character in girls, more like the superficial externally validated side of them or they just looked quiet/nervous, now I start seing the differences between hot girls.

I asked her like 2 questions afterwards just to make her feel better, but she answers like shortly and I think I got trying rapportish. So I stop, when I see her today at school, I try to not get in contact with her again. I realised it also requires selfesteem to apologize from a High value place. But yea if sth like this happens again, Ill try to clarify it. Not because she's hot, but just because I don't want to take selfesteem from girls. remember this girl was pretty invested into me when I said that. But its also cool, tyler said the more you get in a relationship with another person, the more you learn about yourself.
- Learn to apologize and explain yourself without being apologetic for it

Some other more personal stuff happened with some friends, got me thinking about everything. Next class is english class, there's this girl who likes me too. I'm not interested. I'm thinking about life and shit, so I just ignore everybody, people are trying rapport with me......I can't be making every girl like me anymore.....I get to a point with my thinking where I made some distinctions about everything and I start getting out of my head again.
Break now. I see this one girl who I really want to talk to. Even though shit happened today already, I go to her. and OMG, it was really like this girl healed me. And I'm even able to be my best self even though stuff happens.....

+ Stepped up, even though shit happened doesn't affect my real selve anymore that much

History class. I'm a little in my head because realised I have biology with this girl next class and I was expecting to sit next to her. Realised, I dunno whats gonna happen, doesn't make sense to worry now, I dunno even if itll work out rly that good with the girl, I'm enough and I'm proud of myself.
Next is biology. Damn this other girl who likes me, I see her and she says shes in biology too.......I go walk up with her to the room, were waiting outside. on the other side theres waiting this girl I rly like and then the girl from german class who got offended by me....At this moment I was thinking, I'm like hank moody, this is gonna be great. Okay now happens, that this guy has bday, he's there, the girl I like is friends with him and hugs him and shit and when we go in she sits with him of course, I could either sit with them or 2 cool guys, sat down with the guys...

Haha it's ironic that this happens, because it's like a inner game challenge not feeling wierd, cause she's having fun with the guy. I don't ping at all, do my stuff. When the small break in between 2 hours is there, most people go outside, I don't, so theres the other girl who likes me. I just talk to her all the time, and I know when the girl I like comes in she sees it 100%. It's quiet funny actually, she's most likely thinking the same haha it's like yea girl I do whatever I want and I;m got other girls waiting for me....I don't take it to seriously though, cause she's rly good friends with the guy, its his bday and he's most likely to to pull the trigger anyways.

But yea nobody said stuff was easy. I'm thinking, why is it working out so good when I'm talking to this girl, like even better than with the other girls? Maybe it's really like the girls you really really want it works out the best with for some reason. maybe the realness of you shines through even more and you get that special connection. Maybe it's because both people are not needy ( hot hot girl + cool guy? ) and normally most people behave in needy ways otherwise. maybe it's just random who knows. But yea what is really the greatest thing about it, is that I can be relatively normal around this girl....that's really important for me, it shows that I feel like I deserve girls like this. and they feel this too...Oh and even better, I don't get needy.......

+ Actually pulled off some awesome fucking shit in here. I stayed totally cool when she was with other guy + I did jealousy plotline shit. This is dealing with stuff on a more advanced level in real time, me staying cool. I'm enough.

Spanish last class, talked to a girl I know before class. It's funny, we have later sports and after claas she's like cya later, other obnoxious guy from last days, wants to know why hahahahha

In sports she hung out with a friend of mine, could have gotten the attention of her probably, should have actually just talked to her first and then it would have fit in like this, but who cares, don't need more girls on my mind right now. we rode home with her and friends I talked to friends, she with a friend of mine, but when leaving she's like BYE loud to the rest of us ( hmm, maybe she said it because of me? . . . . . ......). She's cool though and could imagine ust being friends with her, she has hot girlfriends too. Ill just befriend her, would be pretty relaxing just having sb to talk to anyways.

+ could just talk to a friend without having my ras to much on the hot girl. I want to come to a point where I live after my own values and do what I want, total freedom.....I know I could have gotten her attention and shit and being the cool mofu, but fuck that, lets get more real. this is also about selftrust too.

Life is pretty complicated right now, but Ill just keep pushing through the fog and try to stay as true to myself and valueoffering as possible. I also want to focus more on my old friends and not forget the connection with everybody when coming into my powers as a man....I don't want to be an asshole when I have a lot of influence....With great power comes great responsibility......
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Really great stuff man. I keep up with your journal often. Looks like your doing very well with your newfound powers and I'm ecstatic for you. I'm kinda living vicariously through your school adventures because I did nothing with my opportunites there (relgion/social conditioning is a bitch.)

The only point I could make is maybe you're taking it all a bit too seriously. The super fine details (though I like hearing about them) probably don't matter all that much. Your self is always coming through and it sounds like your owning.

If "too many fine details" is all I can be "critical" about... well... lets just say I think you have a fun life ahead of you. haha.
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13.8.2010

Nightout. It's a long story, Ill keep it for myself. but basically, developed big pimpego, just took right action until I let go and learned a lot.

Alright Victories, Lessons:
Victories:
+ Let go. Fit in with the environment, not trying to be the boss, made night better for everybody. Didn't give power away though, girls still liked me and played around with me when dancing.
+ Watched how cool this one guy was acting. Just valueoffering, having fun, doing what he wants, putting himself into a position where he looks like he's the chooser, not behaving somehow different around girls.
+ Had fun. fuck wierd puthinking. fuck having internal dialogue about girls. Was my best selve.


14.8.2010

school next day. just some stuff about our charity thing in our mainhall. owned this shit, just beasting actually, was hanging all the time with either this one or the other girl, just being fucking ridiculous cool. on the way home rode back with both of them, she made me get her number for random stuff, she even has a boyfriend as far as I know. never mentioned it, I'm not gonna put it in my RAS too haha.
Victories:
+ owned the shit out of everything today all under the premise of I AM ENOUGH, no flashy stuff.
+ Behaved very clearly as the chooser and being already choosen by all girls in the environment.
+ went up to girls in school without thinking


Lessons:
- Always put yourself in the position of being the chooser and already choosen first. Just go and talk to girls instead of hanging with your buddies. Influence generates more influence.
- Assume everybody likes you, be positive, don't let any negativity or assuming sb doesnt like you get in your reality. You choose what reality you live in.
- Trust in that what you're doing is right

Okay today was how it should be all the time. It's like I don't identify with shit + put myself in a position where I'm like preselected + be myself/express freely/good social intuition, have fun, no attachment + assume everybody likes me + trust in what I'm doing is right.

This is being positive dominant. Also I'm clearly offering value, being the social conditioner. I really have to keep the trust in what im doing is right and assuming everybody loves me thing in mind till it's in my reality oh and also not identify with anything, fuck egocrashes, I'm enough :)
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the_kenny wrote:
Really great stuff man. I keep up with your journal often. Looks like your doing very well with your newfound powers and I'm ecstatic for you. I'm kinda living vicariously through your school adventures because I did nothing with my opportunites there (relgion/social conditioning is a bitch.)

The only point I could make is maybe you're taking it all a bit too seriously. The super fine details (though I like hearing about them) probably don't matter all that much. Your self is always coming through and it sounds like your owning.

If "too many fine details" is all I can be "critical" about... well... lets just say I think you have a fun life ahead of you. haha.
Yea dude you're right. I'm watching the blueprint though at the moment and seeing all this stuff and just affirming it for myself to get it in my head.
Alex told me too, that I should stop thinking so much and trust that in what I'm doing is right. Totally spot on. Right now I just really needed some stuff to click. It's like as long as you're immersed in everything and don't understand the world, it's unconscious incompetence. so you wonder WTF is happening. When you're on the other side then it's easy to say, dude chill, because you realised you're enough and don't have to think about shit.

Also what I started thinking is that until you go from unconsciouss incompetence to unconsciouss competence consciouss competence can help you make that shift. it's gonna be a little off, but as we all know people live in a walking daze so it doesn't matter that much. then you start seeing that the new behaviour actually fits in in your reality, i guess you like it then and continue with it, just cause you like it and it works out ---> unconsciouss ?

Also I just love social dynamics, like seing the social matrix. i just think its interesting.
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15.8.2010
Awesome day. Streetgame. I'm working at the moment at getting the reference expiriences here to just act and do what ever I want. Put on some more fancy clothes too. I looked different than everybody else ( better ) and I definitely got more attention. Taking pride in the way I express myself.

I ask 2 girls a question, Girls immediately stay there. I'm joking around, talking BS. After 1 minute when I want to leave, they are like hypnotized by me and have to wake up to leave lol

+ indirect, hypnotized girls

Girl who looked good. I'm thinking whatever, theres gonna be more girls. later I realise there wasn't more girls.
- See hot girl I like. go talk to hot girl.

We just have fun and are cool guys, which was even more important to me. Just being able to be my best self, not worrying
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Next is 2 girls. We probably hang with them for like 2-3 hours. Later when I realise, she isn't even from here, I decide to push my comfort zone. I tell my buddy to come with us 2, we go take a walk. At one point I tell her I need to tell her sth, and we go up alone on the bridge. I ask her if I can kiss her, shes like first no no, but I'm persistent. At one point she's like "only a little kiss", we makeout like 1 sec then I step on her shoes and shit. Didn't persist afterwards, she has a boyfriend and I didn't even feel that much like doing it. By the way it's funny, because I was kinda uncertain about the whole thing, like it wasn't in my reality yet, but she was like even hornier than me hahahahha I guess girls really get horny when they get emotional hahaha

+ Pushed comfort zone, destroyed limiting beliefs. Making out on da streets with girl I meet some hours ago wohooooo

Later we go to the club. Lot of stuff happened. Ill write down the sets I remember. I was actually just working on assuming everybody loves me and getting in my reality that I'm the chooser and all the girls already want me in there. It was very very cool, to see how as a male you can have a strong polarity and suck girls in.

Hottest girl I saw that day at the club. I go in very straightforward and scare her even before I can say anything. She freaks out and I'm like I freak out too, because why is she freaking out lol. It works and she's like sry and calms down quick. Then I tell her I wanted to talk to her cause she's hot. Now I just stare at her expecting her to qualify lol. And it works LOL. This moment I realise those girls are just like all the other girls, when you're high value they get nervous/attentive and you can tell they're pretty insecure. I talk some BS, they giggle and shit. At one point I realise like this thing is going good for 5 mins and I'm like you got facebook, at first she's like yea thats my name bla, but I act stupid, pushing it to much and she doesn't want to type it in anymore and they leave.

+ Positive comfort zone pushed. 5 minutes it went PERFECT with hottest girl and her friend in the club. If I can go that far, I can go to the end with every girl.
- Just stay cool and don't act different around the girl

Friend opens set, but somehow I end up talking to one of them. At one point they say they want to go downstairs, but at this moment I actually first start talking to the girl and she forgets about it. Hypnotized her haha, after like 5 minutes she realises she lost her friend and we go like 3 steps further and find them. they go downstairs.

+ Hypnotized hot girl, she was starring at me like superattracted. Masculine polarity wohooooo

This one girl, I'm just like looking at her for a sec, she's like don't look at me. I laugh about it and say whatever, she like says again something, I'm like hahahah you're so funny you're like the coolest girl in the club, she's like you're the biggest loser, I laugh it away again. This was funny, but actually it's good, being more polarising is very good especially when I didn't even rly do anything, she started talking to me anyways. wierd girls, probably she was some angry drunk lol

+ kept talking to her, pushed negative comfort zone

A buddy had a girl, they looked pretty bored. I was just like saying random stuff on russian, later when she saw me she like jumped at me clawed me in and shit. even later same thing again, now she was like I couldn't get rid of her. told her I have a girlfriend, im gay and don't touch my hair anymore. yea lol she was touching my hair hahah

+ Girls jumping at me for nothing. I'm enough

Told a girl randomly I liked her hair, she was happy haha

2 girls looking pretty asocial downstairs but like hot bitches. I go in somehow, their quiet/attentive. I talk BS, we're having fun and they're actually really nice girls. For whatever reason they move like 5 feet again, I just go in again and they start liking me even more. One is like we want to go dance, so they go.
+ Awesome even those hot/slutty girls like me, the right one was really freakin cute and attracted like shit to me. should have stayed in there and went more direct/qualifying her and lead.

There was catgirl. she like had a leopard dress, my friend opened her, but let me talk to her. She was attracted and stuff, but when she went to her friends, didn't feel like following her.

Then at the end of the night, there was this girl standing there, I smile at her, she smiles back. we talk, I'm projecting high value really good right here, like I talk loud/clearly and shit and i talk about what I want. At some point she has to go to her friends, but she's like we'll see each other later, im like im leaving, she's like alright you can still tell me bye when you're leaving I'm like im leaving now ( hahaha girls get so stupid when they're attracted hahahaha ), I can tell you bye right now.

There was probably more stuff going on but I forgot about it, long night...

Victories:
+ lots and lots of positive reference expiriences. Worked out awesome in this club, when you just start letting go everything works out instead of being a nervous bitch. I am enough.
+ Hottest girl in the club told her she was hot, she gets quiet/attentive. Awesome shit. I'm enough.
+ Girls chasing me, getting sucked in into my polarity and shit. awesome stuff.

Lessons:
- Now that I've chilled out more in this club and started feeling good, I want to get to the closing. I'm the coolest guy in this whole club, every girl wants me and my validation and next time ill make them very happy :)
- Realise even more how insecure the people are in the club. Just look at them nobodys having fun and standing around lol
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i was thinking when I was reading about your club interactions... you get all this attraction... go for the close! You're right... it's time to start! The Ozzie speech in transformations is good to watch for this. In fact, I got my first one night stand off a cold approach Wendesday night after watching it soooo... haha yeah check it out. :)
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Sky, are you escalating properly? I’m asking because that's the pre-condition for closing. For me, it feels like you're not escalating enough!? Or lets say, your reports contain almost no hints about physical escalation. I think it was Brad who wrote that underescalating is far more likely to blow you out than overescalating. I can only confirm that. The longer you wait, the more incongruent/weird it gets. I've had that happen too many times and the girls just leaved. Even if I thought the interaction went fine, some thing was missing. I suggest, if you haven’t already grabbed her, introduce yourself and shake hands – the handshake slightly longer than average and full eye contact. Then, try to hug her, claw her in or something within the first minutes. Never give her everything and be too clingy. Back off regulary. Sometimes girls are touchy and will escalate on you. That's the most obvious sign for you to escalate or close.

And, why are you asking for the kiss? Instead, why not just be a bit more assertive and take what you want, just go for it. Put your hand around her neck and pull her in gently. To verbalize the close with a question feels a bit chode for me. Like you would need her approval. But why should she want you to think like that? You’re the leader and you just can't help yourself and go for it. Remember, a blocked KC typically raises attraction - but only if you went for it confidently and not just asked for permission. Then you go for it again a bit more aggressive, of course not rude. Put your balls on the line and you will get your rewards. Almost every blog entry from Ozzie here is about that. And now, as it seems, a whole book ;-).
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